So I havent updated this in awhile I`ve been trying to stay away from the computer. Doctors orders ( kind of sad when doctors order me away from the computer. you know you`ve been on it to much when?)
Has anyone seen the new harry potter movie yet? Most likely yeah? I loved it! I actually wanna read the books now, its kind of sad that I havent yet.
Cant believe its August already Gah! 33 days left before I leave for college. I got accepted into Three colleges one that was an hour and a half away, the other was 45 minutes one that all of my friends happen to be going to and more people I know. and I chose the one that is 6 hours away,I could have been coming home every other weekend, no now im gonna be home every 3 months, I do not know what I was thinking it was a whole independent thing. Im still pumped though!
anyyways half way through writing this out I was like I could see this being more of a James thing but I was like Meh to lazy to change the names, I hope it still works though.
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It was a warm night, a light breeze was rustling the leaves on the trees every now and than, the moon was bright and the stars were scattered across the darkened sky. It was a calm and quiet night. Except for one household.
The thuds coming from upstairs echoed throughout the whole house, the sound of glass shattering and the shrieking from a young boy caught the attention of a woman who quickly ran up the stairs worriedly just to see the young boy sprawled on the floor giggling, a broken lamp beside him, and his companion jumping around wagging his tail.
"Carlos!"
Getting attention of the young boy who looked up a guilty expression on his face.
"Mom! Hey, Sup?" Asked Carlos letting the "P" pop at the end.
"What happened here?" Asked Sylvia Garcia gesturing to the mess and hyper dog beside him.
"It wasnt me! It was Winchester. He went all rabid on me and being the brave hero I am tried to save the day before he could attack anyone else. But in the end I had to make a choice to I sacrifice my dear macaroni and cheese making mother or this ugly lamp and unfortunately the lamp lost his life." Carlos finished sadly.
Sylvia glanced between the golden retriever rolling around the ground,tongue sticking out and back to her son who was grinning sheepishly.
"So Ultimately my life was saved based on my cooking skills?"
"No need to thank me."
Sylvia shook her head laughing softly. " Clean this mess up and off the bed."
Carlos nodded his head stood up to get started only to be distracted by Winchester barking and jumping around ready to play again.
Sylvia rubbed her temples. "Carlos I`ll clean the mess up, take him for a walk to calm down."
"Kay mama." Said Carlos kissing her cheek and bounding down the stairs, Winchester on his heels.
Sylvia shook her head. " Lord do I love that boy." and glanced at the mess.
"Most of the time."
"Look what you did, Got us kicked out of the house, You`ll be lucky if I share my bed with you tonight."Said Carlos leading his dog through the park.
"and dont look at me like that, all sad eyed, maybe if you werent so crazy hyper, I could be in my cozy bed right now."
Carlos watched his dog cock his head to the side his ears down making him look upset. " Fine. You can sleep in my bed as long as you promise to never get hyper again."
Carlos watched his dog stop glancing towards the playground, before he pointed his ears and started barking, pulling at the leash.
"Winchester! What did we just discuss." Exclaimed Carlos trying to keep a tight grip on the leash.
Carlos dug his feet into the ground the more Winchester pulled before he fell down on the gras. his dog running towards the playground. Carlos scrambled to his feet chasing and yelling after him. He sighed in relief when he saw his dog stop in front of a small figure sitting on the bench and jogged the rest of the way over.
"Hey, Im sorry about him, I don- Logan?"
Logan glanced up from petting Winchester and smiled. " Hey Carlos."
Carlos grabbed the leash and wrapped it around the leg of the bench and took a seat next to Logan, patting Winchester on the head who laid down in front of their feet.
"Why you out here so late?" Asked Logan.
"Winchester was to riled up. Had to take him for a walk."
"You sure it wasnt to calm you down. I bet Winchester was just a cover story. Right boy." As Logan bent down ruffling the dogs ears.
Carlos glared and playfully shoved Logan, who grinned. " All right than why are you out here?"
Logans smile faltered on his face before it was back fully, but it faltered enough for Carlos to catch it. And he took that moment to take in Logans appearance. Red tired eyes, messy hair, and a old baggy hoodie that once belonged to Kendall.
"I felt like a late night walk." Replied Logan smiling.
"Were you sleeping out here?" Blurted Carlos bluntly looking upset at the idea.
"I also felt like a nap."
"On a bench?"
Logan nodded. " Their more comfy than they look."
"Logan." Carlos warned in a tone that was usually saved for Kendall when he wanted the truth from them.
Logan raised his eyebrows. "Who are you? Kendall?"
Carlos glared." Logan come on! Im trying to be serious here, why are you sleeping on a bench?" Carlos snapped.
Logan shrunk back he`d heard James and Kendall get mad when he wouldnt be straight up with them and he was used to that Kendall had a temper and James didnt like beating around the bush, but Carlos had always just waited until Logan was ready to talk.
"Dad locked me out." Logan shrugged like it was no big deal.
"What do you mean he locked you out?" Carlos exclaimed angry.
This time Logan snapped back. " As exactly as it sounds."
"Why didnt you come to one of our houses!"
"I usually go to Kendalls" Logan mumbled.
"This has happened before? And Kendall Knew!"
Logan didnt reply just avoided eye contact.
"Than why are you sleeping on a bench and not Kendalls?"
"Because Kendall doesnt need to know how often it happens."
Carlos rolled his eyes." I dont get why you just cant tell us the truth. To just be straight up with us for once! For someone so smart you can be real stupid! Its like you want the attention."
Logan reeled back from the comment his eyes filled with hurt before it was replaced with anger.
"Because I dont need to tell you guys everything! Its my life and I like to have some things to myself without having one of you force it out of me! You guys dont need to know every detail of what goes on in my life. So just back off!"
The two boys sat in a heated silence glaring at each other.
"I dont do it on purpose." Logan mumbled.
Carlos sighed softly." I didnt mean that. I`m just upset at your dad and Kendall knowing about it."
"Well we all have our Logan secrets right."
Carlos nodded thinking back to the incident when they were eight.
"Even James?"
Logan hesitated but nodded." Even James."
"Which is?" Carlos questioned.
"Well if I told you it wouldnt be a secret."
Carlos frowned at that but chose not to push it.
"and Hey, the bench really is more comfy than it looks." Logan joked weakly.
"Not helping."
"I dont mind it you know. Sleeping outside."
"You enjoy being locked out." Carlos asked incredulously.
Logan shook his head " No I mean... To be under the stairs and the moon. Everything is just quiet and calm, especially on nights like these."
"and in the winter?"
Logan chuckled." I make a igloo."
"Logan stop joking around."
"Its just not a big deal to me Carlos, Its better than the alternative."
Carlos winced at that thought and was relieved he could see no bruises on Logan tonight.
"Sometimes I choose to sleep out here."
"Really?" Asked Carlos shocked.
Logan nodded."Follow me."
Carlos glanced at his sleeping dog and pulled at the leash making sure it was tight around the bench and followed after Logan who was climbing the jungle gym.
Logan climbed the top platform where the slide was and laid down, Carlos followed after him looking at Logan questionably.
Logan patted beside him and wiggled his eyebrows suggestively.
Carlos chuckled. "Your a dork." and took a spot next to him.
"You love it."
Carlos shook his head laughing." Okay so whats so great about this spot."
Logan looked towards the sky and pointed." That."
Carlos glanced up where he could see a perfect view of the night sky. Their were no trees,houses, or streetlights in his eyesight just a bright sky littered with stars.
Carlos looked at Logan. "This is kind of romantic." and leaned closer to him.
"Dude shut up."Logan laughed swatting Carlos in the stomach.
Carlos laughed swatting Logan back.
"Gotta admit its pretty cool it feels like-"
"Nothing else exists around us."Logan finished.
"Thats why." Logan continued. "I like sleeping out here, its like nothing matters or exists around us, I like to pretend the stars are other worlds."
"What do you mean by that?"
Logan blushed before continuing."Like one star is a world of dinosaurs, or another is a world of cartoons, or one of fairy tales, hogwarts, mythical creatures. things that dont exist but we wish did."
Logan looked at Carlos cautiously waiting to tell him that was one of the most stupidest thing hes ever heard.
Carlos grinned. "That would be so awesome."
Logan smiled. "I have one where my mom is still around and my dad loves me and everything and we go on family vacations and dad is the hockey coach and my mom is in the stands cheering me on." The more Logan talked the more animated he got his eyes lighting up with excitement.
Carlos tried to keep the smile on his face at Logans idea of a world he so desperately wanted, one that he wasnt gonna get. And what hurt was that Carlos had all that, he had the love and support of both parents and Logan didnt have either. Which reminded him that they werent out here to hang out and gaze at the stars they were here because Logan was kicked out of his home for the night.
"Was I rambling?" Logans voice breaking his thoughts.
"Huh?"
"You zoned out. Was I-I talking to much?" Asked Logan blushing.
"No I was just thinking."
"Dont hurt yourself." Logan joked.
"Haha" Carlos laughed sarcastically.
"I was thinking about where you sleep in the winter when he kicks you out.
Logan sighed." Couldnt let it go huh?"
"Nope."
"I sleep here, a homeless shelter, sometimes I squat in empty houses."
"What!" Carlos exclaimed clearly upset at this new found knowledge.
"Im kidding, I sleep at one of your guys houses."
Carlos looked confused. "No you dont"
Logan nodded."Yep, you just never knew the real reason why I was over. I`m kind of ninja like that."
"Since when are you Mr. Dry-wit, I`m the funny one remember."
"I`ve always been funny. Besides you guys get to serious when it comes to my homelife or school and bullies I figure I should start to lighten things up."
"Because its not a joke to us." Said Carlos quietly.
"It worries us sometimes the way you just shrug things off sometimes, like getting locked out for the night for example. It feels like you dont have any care for your well being or that the way your dad treats you is perfectly normal."
Logan shrugged and simply replied. " Whats Normal to me isnt Normal to you."
"Your kidding right?"
Logan shrugged.
"Theirs a difference between an idea of whats normal and knowing when something isnt right." Said Carlos.
Logan ignored him and quickly got to his feet climbing down the jungle gym.
"Logan where are you going?" Called Carlos
Logan turned around angrily." Why cant you just leave it alone!"
"Because you dont get it!" Exclaimed Carlos frustrated.
"You dont get why its such a big deal the way your dad treats you! You dont get why we worry so much about you! Or why were so protective of you!"
"Shut up." Logan hissed.
Carlos ignored him and continued. "You dont understand why were friends with you! You think the reason your mother left is because of you! You think your never going to amount to anything! That you deserve everything you get thrown at you!"
"Shut up!"
"and you know why?" Carlos shouted.
"Because he drilled it so hard into your head, that you believe everything hes ever told you! You believe your nothing because of him!"
"Shut up!" Logan screamed tackling Carlos to the ground.
Carlos hit the ground hard and quickly shoved Logan off him, pinning him to the ground. Logan struggled and kneed Carlos in the stomach making him lose his balance and the two boys wrestled around on the ground. When they finally broke apart they were breathing heavily and glaring at each other.
Carlos felt the guilt wash over him when he saw Logans eyes get shiny with un-ushered tears.
"Logan-" Carlos started guilty not sure what to say.
"Why couldnt you leave it alone." Whispered Logan.
Carlos pulled Logan into a hug. "Because you dont get it, God Logan we care about so much, your our little brother and-"
"Im older than you." Logan mumbled into Carlos chest.
Carlos hid a smile. "Your younger at heart."
"But that makes no sense, Because technically you act younger wouldnt that really mean your younger at heart than."
Carlos laughed." Just listen. Your our little brother and we try our best to protect but you like to keep things so bottled up and with your dad its hard because were sworn to secrecy on that, and we know he doesnt just physically hurt you, We can see the verbal abuse on you like bruises. You flinch at loud voices, You always think you say something wrong, your afraid to speak up, your quiet and timid, you take blame for everything and were scared that one day your dad is gonna push you to your breaking point and we didnt do anything. Were scared were going to lose you."
"B-but he said." Logan started brokenly breaking off into a sob.
"Aw Logie, No" Said Carlos tightening his hold only to be pushed away.
"No, He said, and he was right,She left because of me, Hes miserable because of me, Im stupid and a waste of space and-"
"No" Carlos interrupted.
"Hes wrong, He couldnt be more wrong. Your one of the smartest people I know, I mean my homework is proof of that. Your funny,friendly,forgiving. You have one of the biggest hearts of anyone I`ve met. And you can be reckless and silly and your always up to do ridiculous things with me that Kendall and James wont. Your one of the coolest kids I know and we would be lost without you."
Carlos grabbed Logan back into a hug and Logan sobbed into Carlos chest his fists wrapped around Carlos shirt.
Carlos had always known things were bad and he always knew James and Kendall knew more than they would share. But tonight Carlos got a glimpse of how messed up Logan really was and he knew he still didnt have the whole story. But Carlos knew one thing, things were worse than Logan had been leading on this whole time.
The boys were broken apart when Winchester started barking that Carlos had almost forgotten why he had been out here in the first place. And remembered his mom is probably going sick with worry right about now.
"Oh man! Logan i`m sorry I got to go. It was supposed be a short walk and I`ve been gone for hours." Exclaimed Carlos scrambling to his feet.
"Why dont you come back to my place for the night?"Suggested Carlos untying his dog.
Logan shook his head. "I`d like to stay out here tonight."
Carlos nodded." Okay i`ll be back in like twenty minutes than"
"What, No. Carlos you dont have to."
"Nah its cool. I want to." Said Carlos leading his dog out of the park.
"Hey Carlos?" Logan Called.
Carlos stopped and turned around.
"Thanks."Said Logan sincerely.
Carlos grinned." Its what friends are for."
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