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Song for this Fic: Iris as performed by the GooGooDolls

Leo and his brothers are 32 years old. Tony is 37.

**Warning** This fic contains something that may be disturbing to some. Please if you choose to read do not flame this fic but rather comment concerning the quality of the writing.**

Chapter 3: Night Life

Leo's POV

I sigh as I roll over in bed and sit up, frowning slightly when I realize Tony isn't there. I glance around before I spot him leaning on the railing of our balcony.

I get up and walk over to him, gently resting my hand on his back before saying his name. He jumps slightly at my touch.

"You ok?" I whisper.

"Hmm? Yeah I'm fine, just thinking," he murmurs, he's watching the waves on the beach below us.

I lean onto the railing beside him and rub our shoulders together gently.

"About what?" I ask softly.

"Work, life, us, Fae, the family," he replies quietly.

I pause before responding.

"Lot on your mind," I comment.

He glances at me and smiles before returning his gaze to the waves and the beach.

"Lot going on and a lot to think about," he sighs, "part of me wishes we'd have adopted Fae sooner…Leo I'm going to be fourty soon. I'll be hitting my fifties when she's sixteen…"

I watch him as he trails off.

"I won't be far behind you in that aspect," I state gently, "But if you're worried about your health…Tony you're one of the healthiest people I know. Heck you've only been sick twice since we've met."

"It's not really my health…both of our bodies have some serious physical abuse…what if…what if I can't play with her? What if I get too tired to take her places? I don't want her to feel…cheated," he finishes with a whisper.

He looks distraught.

"Tony," I start softly, "…I…"

I don't know what to say, because I can't do any of that with Fae. I'm a "freak", most people scream when they see me. I can't take her to the zoo, I can't take her shopping, and I can't go to anything she'll end up doing for school.

Tony glances my way and then after flinching he envelops me in a hug.

"I'm sorry…I…I'm sorry I reminded you," He murmurs into my ear.

I rub my cheek against his and sigh.

"It's ok," I whisper, "Just…hard to face sometimes. But Tony…I don't think she'll ever feel cheated. We gave her a home and a family," I reply. I hope.

He sighs and continues to hold me.

"I hope so too," he murmurs against my shoulder as if reading my thoughts.

Our parental doubts still linger, but don't speak about them again.

We stay that way, leaning against the railing, him wrapped around me until there is a knock on our door.

Tony straightens and moves towards the door, I follow him and drop onto the bed.

As Tony opens the door, Raph peers in.

"Hope I'm not botherin' ya' guys," he inquires.

Tony shakes his head and waves him in.

"Sorry to bother ya' in the bed room, but thought I'd let you know that 'cisca is here," he whispers after closing the door behind him.

Tony smiles in response and I sit up.

"Thanks Raph, did you show her to her quarters?" I ask.

He nods before replying.

"Yeah, she said she'd make breakfast in the morning but she was tired," he offered.

I nodded and sighed.

"Thanks otōto," I reply.

"You guys alright?" Raph asks cautiously, raising an eye ridge as his amber gaze flicks between Tony and I.

"Yeah…just…lot on our minds," Tony replies, giving Raph a gentle smile.

Raph nods and then sighs as he turns to slip out, then turns to look at us again.

"Can I ask you something?" he inquires.

Tony and I share a glance before I reply.

"Yeah," I answer.

"I'm…should I be worried about Sadie feelin' left out? I mean she doesn't have any contact with kids her own age…I kinda want her ta' go to regular school but…I don't want them to take her away either," He finishes quickly, looking embarrassed.

Tony and I glance at each other again and then smile at Raph together. I gesture for Raph to sit next to me as Tony drops into a chair beside the bed.

"We've been wondering about that with Fae, among other things," Tony states with a sigh.

Raph sits next to me and rubs the back of his head.

"Like, I…I feel like I'm holding back ya' know? She doesn't have any friends…she's smart. She could excel in school. Donnie's the only one who can give her anything advanced to learn and he doesn't have time to most days," Raph says, "What're you worried about?"

"Our age and Fae's," I reply, "and the fact that I can't go do stuff with her."

I flop back onto the bed and press a hand to my face, moving it away after a few minutes to fall to my side.

Raph offers me an apologetic look as Tony moves over to sit beside us.

"You guys are great dads…I mean seriously, you both over beyond what's expected to make sure she's happy and learning…she's only four. Leo…she'll understand and Tony…you're her dad. You guys gave her a home…she loves you guys," Raph offers with a slight smile.

His smile falters and I hear him sigh.

Tony lays a hand on mine before looking to Raph.

I turn my head so I can look at my brother's slumped shoulders and tired frown.

"Raph," I whisper to get his attention, after he looks our way I continue, "You took Sadie out of the worst place that anyone could be and swore to protect her. You know she calls you her angel right?"

Raph blinks and gives us a startled look.

"Angel?" he asks in confusion.

Tony smiles, "Yeah…she says you're her guardian angel sent to protect her since her sister died. She adores you Raph. I have pictures to prove it," Tony soothes.

"I…I didn't know that," Raph says softly, smiling slightly.

"I'd ask her if she'd like to go to school with other kids and then maybe April or one of the girls could have Donnie find papers to make them legal guardians," I offer.

Raph pauses looking thoughtful and slightly concerned.

"Or me, if that makes you feel better," Tony points out.

Raph turns to look at Tony in surprise.

"You'd do that?" Raph asks.

Tony offers a half-laugh and a smile.

"Of course, Raph you adore her and she adores you. You are my brother, I'd do anything to help you out," Tony replies.

Raph chuckles weakly.

"God…look at us…stressing out over being parents…who'd of thought," Raph ends with a chuckle.

I smile.

"I never would've…for obvious reasons," I tease.

Tony and Raph laugh softly in reply.

It's just then that Fae peeks her head in.

"Daddies?" she inquires sleepily.

I sit up so fast my joints pop and Tony goes into instant "mothering" mode, immediately concerned with what is wrong.

"What's wrong princess?" I ask as I move over to check on my daughter.

She opens her arms as I get close and hugs me tight once I scoop her up.

"I had a bad dream," she yawns, "Can I sleep with you?"

My heart melts I can't help it.

"Of course baby," I reply, "what scared you?"

"I can't remember," she mumbles, already dozing off in my arms.

Raph makes a mocking "dawww" motion before chuckling and slipping out with a wave after Tony throws a pillow at him. I roll my eyes at his retreating shell before turning to lay Fae in the middle of the bed.

She's been having a lot of nightmares lately, it has me worried honestly. Tony has gotten comfortable and Fae is snuggled up against him by the time I've crawled into bed.

I fall asleep to the thought that I need to ask Tony what he thinks about Fae's nightmares and feel Fae's hand grasp mine just as I slip into sleep.

Don's POV

I've been tinkering with a gadget I'm working on when Raph slips past me in the main living room area on his way to his rooms.

"Hey Raph," I call softly.

He pauses, turns to spot me and then offers a smile.

"Hey," he greets, "Can't sleep?"

I shrug in reply.

"You know me, get to working on something and can't get my brain to shut up until it's done," I chuckle.

Raph snickers softly.

"I thought Ellie was good at distracting you," he teases.

I blush instantly before tossing a random part beside me at him.

"Shut up," I snap jokingly.

He dodges the part and laughs again softly.

"Hey I'm you're big bro, it's my job to tease you," he says with a wink.

I roll my eyes at him and then pause as I spot Mike wandering down towards the kitchen looking like he's in a daze.

"Mike?" I hear Raph ask.

Mike jerks to a stop and blinks in confusion.

"What the," he mutters as he turns, "what're you guys doing in my living room area?"

"You're in the main area," I chuckle.

He groans, slaps his face and then turns to shuffle back towards his quarters.

Raph and I share a humored look before Raph walks off towards his quarters shaking his head.

Life. It's always changing, with all three of my brothers being parents I personally can't wait to travel down that path. Despite the sleepless nights Mike has gone through with Azalea.

It's an adventure I can't wait to start.

A/N: DAWWWWW! Fae you steal my heart! And Donnie don't worry…it'll happen soon enough.