Chapter 60: A Fresh Start

She remained silent for a moment, tears still falling down her cheeks. She looked up at him and stared at him for a moment. "I'm pregnant."

"What?" He frowned as he tried to process what she had just said to him.

May let out a frightened sob and repeated the sentence. "I'm pregnant." She wiped away her tears. "I don't know what to do. Help me, Remus."

He couldn't speak for a few seconds. He was finding it hard to actually believe what she had just said. "What?"

"Don't make me say it again." She walked away from him and stood by the window. "I've known for a while."

"Is it his?" He couldn't even say his name any more. Neither of them said his name. He was always referred to as 'him'.

"Yes." She nodded. "He doesn't know. He will never know." She spun around to face him. "I don't know what to do, Remus. I want this baby. But then, I don't want it because of who the father is." She let out a sob, unable to hold it in.

He rushed over to her and hugged her tightly. "Shhhhh!" He tried to sooth her by rubbing her back. "I'm here for you. Whatever you decide."

She cried against his chest, her tears dropping onto his shirt. "I want to keep it." She mumbled against his shirt.

Remus brushed his lips against her hair. "Okay. I'm here for you. I make another promise. I will not leave you. I will help you every step of the way."

"Thank you." She murmured against him. "Let's go back to your place to talk."

"Okay." He kissed the top of her head. "Is everything all right up here?"

"Yeah." She pulled away from him and walked to the cot, running her hand over the smooth wood. "Just need to cover this." She moved her hand away and raised her wand, summoning a white sheet and covering the last piece of furniture. "Ready now." The two of them left and returned to Remus' flat.

They were ready to leave when Remus asked her an important question. They had been sitting down to a roast dinner. They were leaving in the morning. "May?"

"Yeah?" She looked up at him. She looked a lot better. She had no bags under her eyes and she was eating more.

"I have an idea. You can say no but listen first." He wiped his mouth before he carried on talking. "I will be the father. Of your baby." He finished quickly. "I know I'm not biologically but I can be there for you both. I don't want children because of who I am. I don't want them to have that burden."

May gave him a little smile. "Really? I don't mind being a single mother." Trying to smile again but it was still hard to smile.

"I know. But I think this would be great for you. You would lose the prejudice of being married to..." He stopped himself from saying the name. "Your baby would have a father rather than an uncle."

She chuckled softly. "Okay. Yes. Okay." She laughed softly. "I'd like that." She reached over and held his hand. "Thank you." She gave him a genuine large smile. Her first smile in a long time. "Right, that's that sorted. I cannot wait to go away. And yes, I'm still paying." She laughed when he grumble under his breath. "You can complain all you want."

"Fine." He stood up, picking up their empty plates, and carrying them into the kitchen, magically washing them before moving into the sitting room. The two of them sat on the sofa together. They had become very comfortable living together.

"I've paid your landlord for the year so you have this place when you come back."

"Bloody hell, May. Stop spending money on me."

She scoffs. "I'm not. It's for us both. So, I'm spending half my money on you." She relaxed against his side. "I just want you to be comfortable."

"I'm very comfortable." He kissed the top of her head.

"Me too." She lifted her head and looked up at him. She gave him a small smile before shifting closer and pressing her lips against his. His hand moved up her arm and cupped her cheek. She moved closer until she was sitting on his lap, facing him. The kiss grew. His arms wrapped around her and pulled her closer. "Remus," she breathed as he moved his lips from her mouth to her neck. "Stop." She pushed him away and climbed off his lap quickly. "I feel sick." She ran out of the room and to the small bathroom.

Remus gave a heavy sigh and stood up. "Are you all right?" He asked as he walked into the bathroom, to find her on her knees, crouching over the toilet.

"Yeah." She sighed as she sat up straight and stood up. She washed her face and brushed her teeth before she spoke again. She spat out into the sink once she was finished brushing her teeth. "Part of the package." She chuckled softy and sat on the edge of the bath, drying her mouth. "I shouldn't have kissed you. I just needed that intimacy again."

He sat next to her and reached over, holding her hand. "Tell you the truth, I wanted that to happen."

She held his hand lightly. "What?"

"Oh come on, May. Everyone knew that I liked you. I've always liked you." His thumb stroking the palm of her hand. "I never did anything because of James and because of... Him."

May gave him a smile. "I never knew. Hannah said that you liked me. But I never believed her." She looked down at their joined hands. His hand felt warm and comforting. It felt right. Remus always had that way about him. Just his presence made you feel safe. "Did you love Hannah?"

"Yes. But before her, there was you." He lifted her hand and kissed it softly. "Can I kiss you again?"

"No." She shook her head. "I need to wash my face." She laughed softly and resting her head on his shoulder. "I cannot wait to leave tomorrow."

"Are you sure you want to travel? We can stay until you have the baby and when the baby is old enough to travel." Resting his cheek on her head.

She gave a heavy sigh, "no. I need to go. I'll have the baby abroad. I want too leave this country and never look back."

He turned his head and kissed the top of her head. "Okay. What time is our ferry?"

"3 o'clock." She pulled herself away from him and moved to the sink.

Remus watched her as she washed her face. "Have you got everything packed?"

"Yeah. Have you?" She dried her face and turned to face him, leaning against the edge of the sink.

"Yeah." He stood up and stood in front of her, his hands on her hips. "Come on. You need an early night."

She gave him a small smile. "And you need to sleep in the bed. I swear your neck to crooked from sleeping on that bloody sofa. Come and sleep in with me. Stop being a gentleman."

He laughed and kissed her forehead. "Yes, ma'am." Smiling down at her. He finally got the girl. The girl he always dreamed of.

They had booked a place on a coach, which would go on the ferry from Dover to Calais. They had no idea what to do when they got there. May and Remus stood on deck and looked out at sea. They were watching the White Cliffs of Dover disappear. He stood behind her with his arms around her, his hands on her stomach. She didn't have a bump but her stomach was a little harder. They had not told anybody that they were leaving. They just left. Leaving their lives behind them.

"Where do you want to go?" May asked him, her hands resting over his.

He chuckled in her ear. "I've always wanted to go to Egypt. I've read the muggle things about it and they are so fascinating. Same with the wizarding side to Egypt."

"Egypt first, then." She laughed and leaned back in his embrace. The further away she was from England, the safer she felt. A fresh start was what she needed.

A/N: Epilogue next and then I will put an announcement about the sequel, probably with a sneak peak. :D

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