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Song for this Fic: Iris as performed by the GooGooDolls

Leo and his brothers are 32 years old. Tony is 37.

**Warning** This fic contains something that may be disturbing to some. Please if you choose to read do not flame this fic but rather comment concerning the quality of the writing.**
Chapter 19: The Rain Hides the Tears

Leo's POV

Rae is rather kind and I've noticed a few interested glances between her and Raph since she and Ian have returned.

I know that look and I'm happy for them, I hope things can work out between them.

Ian is watching them curiously, but the young man is rather torn about doing what he did to Kyogen.

I step up to the young man and gesture to a request to sit.

Ian looks at me before nodding.

"Ian…I'll take the blame for this you know that right?" I whisper gently.

"Yeah," the boy replies, "I just know Kyo and he'll feel betrayed."

"I'm sure he will, but if he's anything like me…he'll understand in the end," I reply, "You know I'm thankful that you were there for him."

"Really?" Ian asks me, his voice tinted with surprise.

I chuckle.

"Being gay and a mutant isn't easy Ian. I know that my son would have struggled with those emotions and that he truly must've trusted you," I tell him softly, "Ian he'll forgive you, even if he doesn't forgive me."

Ian nods and sighs softly.

Suddenly the window shatters and an arrow lodges itself into the coffee table. Rae screams and Raph and I both jump to our feet with Ian only a few seconds behind us.

Ian moves forward and snatches up the arrow and the note attached before crying out and scrambling towards and then out the window.

"KYO!" I hear him shout, "KYOGEN!"

I grab the note and after skimming the page I feel my heart stop in my chest.

"Leo?" Raph asks.

"He's going to kill them…" I manage.

"KYO!" Ian is getting farther away.

I bolt out the window after him and my son, chest heaving as I frantically try to catch up.

I have to fix this.

Kyogen is fast, faster than even I thought was possible and my lungs are burning by the time I catch up to Ian and Kyogen.

They've stopped and are facing each other.

"You betrayed me!" Kyogen shouts, his black hair twisting in the wind as he stares at Ian.

"Kyogen," I shout, "Don't blame him."

Kyogen glares at me.

"I was told I could trust you!" he shouts.

"Kyo!" Ian pleads, "Listen to me! I was just trying to help! You said you wanted to meet him!

"You left me!" Kyogen shouts back.

Thunder rumbles overhead and then rain starts to pound down soaking all three of us.

"Kyogen…you can trust me, please," I plead quietly as I move forward, "Kyogen I just needed to talk to you!"

Just as I step up next to Ian, Kyogen attacks, he fast and I'm not as young as I used to be, not even taking into consideration the fact that I'm still trying to catch my breath.

I jump back and arch to avoid his blade, he misses me by inches.

"KYO! NO!" Ian cries out, trying to stop Kyogen.

I manage to pull my blade out to block and scramble to keep up with my son.

"Kyogen!" I grunt as I fight to hold the blade in the blocked position.

God he's stronger than he looks and pissed.

"Kyo stop!" I hear Ian plea and I manage to kick out and send my son staggering back.

I twist to set up an offense, trying to beat my son back, to wear him out, desperately using his speed and strength against him.

Then as Kyogen and I break apart and stagger away from each other Ian jumps between us. But things seem to move in slow motion as Kyogen moves to attack me again and his blade pierces Ian's upper chest.

Then in horror I watch Ian crumple to the ground and cry out.

Kyogen's scream centers me.

"NOOOOO," Kyogen shrieks, "ICE!"

Kyogen drops his blades and grabs Ian as he falls and I drop mine as well as I grab my phone.

"DONNIE," I shout into my phone, "GET HERE NOW."

I hang up and push my son out the way frantically, applying pressure to Ian's chest as I tear his shirt up to help soak up the blood.

"Nononononononno," Kyogen is wailing beside me, "NO! ICE!"

"Kyogen!" I order, "Listen to me! I need you to focus. KYOGEN HAMATO."

He freezes.

"You…you called me…" he struggles, chest heaving, eyes flicking down towards Ian, "I killed him…"

Ian is unconscious and trembling, blood is twisting between my fingers as I hold Ian on my lap.

"Kyogen, listen to me," I order and shiver as his eyes meet mine.

The rain is soaking his features, hiding the tears.

"I'm a…a monster aren't I?" he chokes out.

"No," I state firmly, "No you aren't. But Kyogen I need you to listen to me. Kyogen! I need you to help me remove the blade and then we need to slow the bleeding. LISTEN TO ME."

Kyogen is trembling but he moves fast doing as I order.

Ian moans weakly, shuddering from the pain, eyes fluttering open for a brief moment.

"Ice, please," Kyogen pleads as he cups Ian's cheek, "I'm sorry, don't leave me…"

I let them be as I tightly press against Ian's chest; I hear a commotion and turn my head to see Don, Raph and Mike drop down beside me.

"Don help me, he's bleeding out," I grunt as Don rips open his bag beside me.

Raph grabs Kyogen and pulls him back and out of the way.

"Please," Kyogen pleads, "Please don't let him die."

"Don?" I ask softly.

The thunder rumbles overhead again and the roof shudders.

"Help me wrap this and then Mike and I will get him to the hospital as fast as we can," Don replies, "Leo you have to get to Foot headquarters now…you don't have much time."

Don finishes bandaging the wound and Mike quickly lifts the limp young man before taking off with Don towards the hospital.

"Leo," Raph states with a warning in his tone.

"Kyogen," I order as I turn.

My son is trembling on the edge of the group, hands shaking.

I need his help but what I see scares me.

He's kneeling Ian's blood covering him and clutching the broken blade in his hand.

"I'm a monster," he whispers.

I freeze, my blood turning to ice at the look on Kyogen's face, grief and guilt.

"Kyogen," I state firmly, "Kyogen listen to me."

Tears mix with the rain as Kyogen sobs.

"I killed him!" he cries out.

"Kyogen," I plea softly as I slowly kneel in front of him, "Give me the knife."

Kyogen roughly shakes his head and shudders.

"I-I…" he chokes out.

Lightening splits the sky above us and I see Raph's concerned look out of the corner of my eye.

"No," I state firmly as I gently touch Kyogen's hands, "You aren't a monster Kyogen. You never were and you won't ever be to me. You're my son."

He lifts his two-toned gaze up to mine and whimpers.

"But I-" he sobs.

"Don and Mike will make sure Ian lives," I state firmly, lightly gripping my son's quaking hands, "Give me the knife Kyogen."

His hands shake and for a minute I think he's not going to and then with another whimper the blade clatters to the ground below us. I jerk him into a hug against me.

I can't stop shaking and he is sobbing as he clings to me.

"It's ok," I whisper into his ear, "It's ok."

Raph drops down beside us and rests a hand on my son's back.

"Kyogen," I say softly as he trembles against me, "I need your help."

"How can I help you?" he chokes out, "I've destroyed everything…"

"I need you to get me to Karai," I reply, "Can you do that?"

Kyogen sobs but nods into my shoulder.

"I-I know something that will work," he replies.

A/N: I'm just horrid with all these cliffies aren't I? Hang in there getting closer to the end! Reviews PLEASE!