Chapter 37

December, Christmas Break

4 months

4 fucking months.

I haven't heard anything from Austin ever since I left New York. He could be dead for all I know.

I used to text Austin everyday but never got an answer, so around October, I stopped trying.

Skype calls. Every weekend, Austin told me we would skype, but he never answered. So I stopped trying.

Emails, letters, phone calls. I even talked to his parents, they said he was doing fine. Austin Monica Moon has purposely ignored me for four effing months.

At first I thought he was just busy, you know, it college. But after a week or two of not hearing anything from him I started to get worried. Was he dead? Kidnapped? I came to the conclusion that he found another girl on campus. They probably hooked up every weekend but who cares? I certainly don't.

My birthday came, no surprise visits from anyone. Especially not him.

Trish told me I should find a boyfriend, forget about Austin and move on. But I can't. I still love him, but I hate him. He told me he loved me and now he is ignoring me for four months? He never loved me- he probably wasn't even drunk at the party after graduation night. Just used me to fill his horny teenage boy needs.

I hate Austin Monica Moon.

Austin's P.O.V.

Four months.

I've been avoiding Ally at all costs.

I changed my phone number, deleted my skype account, and changed my email, after about a month, I was going crazy. I was certainly not over Ally Dawson, and it hurt to even think about her. So I didn't.

About a month into college Dez sent me a photo/ film collage that he made for a project and wanted me to see. No harm, right?

Wrong.

His entire portfolio were the pictures and videos of me and Ally he had taken over the span of a year.

A film of us at the fair I took ally to a year ago, I didn't know Dez recorded that.

The way I looked at Ally at her parents wedding, you would've had to have been stupid to not see that I loved her

Us in New York

The statue of liberty video

Our empire state building moment

My Christmas confession of love and the promise rings

Us kissing on New Year's and me telling her we would get married once I got out of college,

The R5 concert I took Ally to

When Ross called us out for Repeating Days,

Ally pulls my collar down and kisses me like the world is going to end.

BUT EVEN WHEN YOU BROKE MY HEART

I'D DO IT AGAINNNNNNN

We pull away and I gave Ally the biggest smile.

"Ally, I want you to know that everything I said back there was true, and no matter what, I will always love you deep down inside, even if I say I hate you, or hurt you, there is always going to be love for you" I shout over the music.

YOU'RE LOOKING RIGHT IN MY EYES AND YOU KNOW THAT I'M LYING

WHEN I SAY THAT YOU'RE MINE AND THERE'S NOBODY ELSE

"There's no one else I rather have than you Austin, I- You're the best thing I've ever had" She yells over the music, smiling.

BUT EVEN WHEN WE FIGHT, I CAN'T STOP FROM LOVING YOU

"I want to spend the rest of my life with you!" I yell, picking Ally up and spinning her.

YOU KNOW WE CAN'T BE FRIENDS.

I set Ally down and scream along with the music, still smiling, "CAN I TASTE YOUR LIPS AGAIN?" and Ally pulls me closer to her, kissing like there's no tomorrow

I watched it every night, cried myself to sleep for a month, before I shut everything and everyone out completely. Except music. Music was the one thing that kept me sane for 3 months.

I was about to give up, drop out of college at half semester and go back to Tennessee, when a mericle happened.

I was sitting on my bed watching YouTube, when there was a knock on the door. I wasn't expecting anyone, they must have the wrong dorm.

I got up anyways and opened the door to see a tall man in a business suit. "Can I help you?" I asked.

The man looked me up and down, "Are you Austin Moon?" he asked.

I gulped, "Um, yes" I answered.

The man held his hand out for me to shake, "I'm Jimmy Starr, owner or Starr Records, and I was told you have some serious talent. I'm here to see if you have what it takes to be a recording artist at Starr Records, because the person who recommended you is very successful, and they know talent when they see it. I have a plane ticket that leaves to L.A. in 2 days, you should have enough time to pack and think about this" Jimmy handed me an envelope, "I hope to see you soon, Austin" and with that he walked away.

That's why I'm here now. Jimmy loved my voice and signed me as soon as I stepped out of the recording booth, and now, all I need is a song writer.

"No your songs are horrible, leave" I said angrily. That was the 6th song writer they recommended to me and I hated all of their songs.

Jimmy frowned, "Austin if you don't start working on music soon, I'm going to have to unsign your contract" he warned.

"I know, it's just, they don't know what I like, and the songs they bring just aren't me" I say rubbing my temples.

Jimmy sighs, "If it's because you don't like the songs, I'm going to pair you with our best writer we have, no matter if you like it or not, unless you think you can find someone better, that's your only option" Jimmy said.

I slumped into my seat, I didn't know anyone here in L.A., except Dez, but my career would suck if Dez wrote my songs.

Jimmy stood up from his chair and opened the door to leave the room, when an idea pooped in my head, I already have a song writer, I just need to find her.

"Jimmy, I know someone, she can write the best songs you will ever hear in your life, I can get her to come to L.A. I just need a flight to Nashville and two tickets for the way back" I say in one breath.

Jimmy looks at me like I'm from some other planet, "Okay, I'm trusting you on this, I can have the tickets by tomorrow, come to my office in the morning to pick them up" he said.

"Thanks Jimmy! You won't regret this!" I say.

A&A

Ally's P.O.V.

Christmas break.

Alone. Again.

My parents offered buy me a flight to see them but I said it was fine. I was too depressed to travel anyways.

I was walking back to my dorm from the coffee shop on campus when I saw a blonde guy walk by.

This was becoming a problem for me, every time I saw a guy with blonde hair, I started to think about Austin. His flawless skin, addicting eyes, gorgeous hair. Stop it Ally. He doesn't care about you anymore.

I kept walking and when I got closer to my dorm building, I saw another blonde. Aust- Stop it! He's not here! I pulled out my phone and looked down at it as I passed the boy so I wouldn't stare at him.

As I was about to enter the building, the boy grabbed my wrist, surprising me and making me drop my coffee.

"Hey what the heck!" I looked up at the boy only to see the person I despised the most in the entire world.

"Austin?" I whispered, eyes wide.

"Ally!" he smiled. He went I to hug me, but I backed away.

I stared at him considering my options

1. 1. Run

2. 2. Run after yelling at him for 5 minutes straight

"Stay away from me" I was trying to keep the tears back, this can't be real.

Austin looked hurt, "Ally, it's me Austin, don't you remember?" he asked.

How is he acting like everything is perfectly fine?! He ignored me for 4 months, and now he's trying to make things right?

"Oh, I remember you alright! How could I forget the boy who said they loved me, broke my heart, promised to call, text, skype, ANYTHING! But you never did!" tears were coming down my face now but I didn't care.

"Ally I"-

"No Austin, you never called, you could've but you didn't!" I shouted.

"I would have called, but it hurt me too much, you don't understand, Dez sent me this thing-"

"Oh it hurt too much, do you know how much I was hurting, you selfish prick!"

I fall on the ground sobbing, "I'm so sorry Ally" Austin tried to hug me but I pushed him away. This was an emotional overload. I can't do this.

"Why now?" I whimpered.

"What?" Austin asked, confused.

"Why now? After four months, do you just show up?" I ask.

"I got signed" Austin said.

"What the heck is that supposed to mean?" I sneer.

"A record deal Ally, a real shot at making it, I got signed in L.A. and all of their song writers are okay, but you're the best out there, I want you to be my song writer. I know you probably hate me"-

"You think?"

"But I'm not asking for you to trust me with your heart again, or even be friends, I just want you in my life again. I went crazy without you. I was about to drop out of college and comeback so we could be together and ghertmeriyd" Austin said.

"What?" I ask, he couldn't have just said what I thought he said.

"It-it's not important, I still love you Ally, I never stopped, and I want you to move to L.A. with me, this is our dream!" Austin exclaimed.

I sighed, "This is all too soon Austin, I can't do this, just seeing you is making me an emotional mess"

Austin grabbed my hands and pulled me off the sidewalk, "Ally, I know we can make it, if you just trust me again, I swear, and if you ever want to quit, you can, I'll find a different songwriter, just, give this a chance, I have 2 flights back to L.A., one's yours if you want it" he looked at me with his puppy eyes, oh god I can't say no to that.

"Fine! But the second I want to quit, you have to let me leave" I say.

"I swear, I will" Austin says with a smile. "Let's go pack your stuff"

Hold up.

"Pack my stuff?" I ask.

"Yeah you're moving to L.A. with me, you're going to need your things" Austin says, like it's the most obvious thing ever.

"Wait, I'm dropping out of school?" I ask. No I can't move to L.A. I have to finish school!

"I can't go Austin, what if this is a huge flop and then where are we, left with nothing on the streets of L.A., we would have to get jobs as strippers or something, I changed my mind I'm not going" I open up the door to my dorm building and head inside, while Austin chases after me.

"Ally wait, no, we can make this work, online school, school in L.A., I'll even get you a private tutor for when we're on tour, please. Ally, I'm gonna ask you one more time" he pulled out the plane ticket, "Move to L.A. with me, please" he said.

I opened my mouth but then closed it, opened it again and words wouldn't come out. I reached out and grabbed the ticket.

"Fine, but help me get my stuff"

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