Sorry it's been a few days. Life is busy, as you all know. Took me a while to write this one, but I was dedicated to get it done and here it is! Happy readings people. Keep reviewing, it keeps me motivated!
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Jacob left during Alice's nap. Bella had been livid, telling him that it was freezing and that the snow was still too deep.
Jacob laughed at her, only angering her more. "Jacob! You'll freeze to death!"
"Bella, my sweet Bella," he said. He moved his face to her ear, brushing his scruffy cheek against hers.
He whispered in her ear, " I won't be leaving in human form."
"Oh!" Bella felt slightly stupid and was embarrassed with herself. "I'm sorry; I guess I wasn't thinking about that. Will you be warm enough like that though? It's so cold out."
"Bella, do you feel how warm I am in Human form? My temperature runs about 108 normal, and in wolf form it's higher than that. Were warm blooded, and I have fur. Thank you for worrying about me, but I'll be just fine. Plenty toasty." Jacob purred the last part in her ear and she shivered in delight.
"Will you change here or in the yard?" Bella asked.
"In the yard. Would you like to come with me? To take my clothes?"
"Your clothes….Oh. I guess you probably don't shift wearing them do you?"
Jacob smiled into her neck. "No, they tend to shred into a million pieces when we do that. I won't need them, I'm just going to the Rez to see my father and check in with the pack. You keep 'em for me?"
Bella smiled. "Of course I will. Does that mean you'll be coming back here later on?"
Jacob stiffened slightly. "I want to. But only if you want me to. And if you need some time to yourself, ill understand. I can't say I won't be outside watching all night though. You're my mate. I'll always be near you somehow."
Bella smiled again, softly. "I don't want space."
Jacob nuzzled closer into her neck. "Good."
His lips trailed over her neck, over her throat and collarbone. Bella was still, soaking up the feel of his soft lips on her skin.
Then he lifted his face and stepped back, bringing her with him. He walked Bella to the door and helped her into her boots and jacket. He tried to bundle her up into everything located on the hooks but Bella declined, much to Jacobs displeasure. She didn't want to be a snowman she said. And she will only be outside a few moments.
Jacob held Bella's hand as they went outside and then Jacob stopped and let go of her hand. Bella heard clothes falling and was momentarily confused. Then embarrassed. Jacobs hands found hers and he handed her his clothes, neatly folded. Bella blushed but couldn't help but smile.
"Well, I see you can fold laundry well."
Jacob laughed. "I've had lots of experience."
Jacob handed her boxers and Bella folded them between his shirt and jeans, blushing like a maniac and pressing the clothes against her chest, arms crossed.
Then Jacob surprised her, his hands coming around her waist to hug her, his nose burrowing into her neck again. Bella stiffened, her mind centered on the fact that he was naked. And holding her.
"I'll be back soon." Jacob rumbled into her skin. He inhaled her deeply and his arms tightened around her. "Very soon."
Bella smiled, suddnely sad that he was leaving her, if only for a while.
"I'll be here." Bella said with a smile.
"Good."
Jacob kissed her neck and then her forehead in two quick pecks, then was gone.
Alice napped most of the afternoon and Bella woke her up for dinner. Alice was grumpy from all the medicine Carlisle had given her to make her feel better, so Bella only kept her up for a few hours. Long enough to eat, shower, and watch some TV. Alice wanted to watch 'Beauty and the Beast' so Bella put the movie in and let Alice lay on the couch. Bella did the dishes and cleaned up a little. She washed Jacob's clothes, holding them to her nose to smell his scent before she did. She was antsy, waiting for Jacob to come back. Bella wasn't used to feeling this way; she wasn't used to waiting up for someone or expecting someone to come home to her. No, not home. Just where she was staying and where he was coming back to. It wasn't Jacob's home, but Bella thought it could be soon.
But…. Jacob's home was in the village, with his people. Not here in the woods near town. Bella was his mate, she couldn't ask him to live here with her. He was gone now, being with his people, having to travel home instead of already being there. Jacob wouldn't ask her to give up her home and family, Carlisle and Esme, but he shouldn't have to ask her too. She should be willing to offer it up. But when? Bella didn't even know anyone else from the Reservation, let alone from Jacob's people.
Alice made a noise from the couch and called out to Bella. Bella brought her thoughts back to the now and went to sit with Alice. Alice laid her head on Bella's lap and Bella petted her hair, listening to the television, until she could hear Alice's deep breathing again. She let her mind return to her thoughts.
She would have to know his people. She was the mate of the Alpha. Jacob said she would be the mother of his people. So she would have to get to know them. Would they trust her? She was white man. Most of the people didn't associate with the white man if they didn't have to. They trusted their own and stuck to them. They had a language of their own, the Quileute language. Bella knew a few languages, taught to her by Carlisle. English, Spanish, Zulia-an African language, and sign language, even though she was deaf and couldn't see the other person signing. She had a talent for learning other languages. She could learn Quileute. If Carlisle could help her, she could learn it fast. But she couldn't change her skin color. She knew she was pale. Paler than Esme and she remembered Esme's pale white skin when she was a child. She was going to stand out like a black sheep in a field of white. And she was just going to have to live with that.
Bella wasn't even sure if Jacob had told anyone about her. He would have told his 'brother' because he sent him to talk to her. Who else knew? Jacob told her that the wolves could communicate telepathically, so did they all know? And had they told their families? Did they have families? What about Alice?
Alice was Bella's baby sister, she was her responsibility. Bella was sure that Alice could handle the secret of the wolves, but would the native's trust her with their secret? Bella realized how many questions she had and how badly she wanted answers. She would wait until Jacob came back and then maybe she could ask him some, try to fix some of her fears.
"Bella,"
Shake.
"Bella, sweetheart,"
A soft kiss to her forehead.
A laugh.
"Bella, I'm sorry I wasn't home sooner. Are you awake?"
Bella slowly came to. She felt warm hands on her shoulders, gently kneading.
"There's my girl."
Jacob's voice. Jacob's hands. Bella opened her eyes, unseeing still. She moved her hands up, rubbing her tired eyes and face. Jacob traced the path after her hands, his hands gently on her cheek. Bella smiled. She could get used to being woke up like this.
Bella sat up suddenly.
"Where's Alice?" Her lap was empty and she felt horrible for not realizing it sooner.
"She was awake when I came in. She didn't want to wake you. I told her that I would take care of you and made sure that she got to bed fine. Her fever has gone down remarkably. She's fine. I can hear her breathing deepen in sleep right now. She's fine Bella. I told you I wouldn't let anything happen to you or her."
Bella sighed softly. "I know Jacob. I know you would protect us. It's just a natural instinct to worry. I can't help it. I'm sorry."
"Hey, no sorrys," Jacob cooed softly. "I'm not offended. I was only assuring you my Bella. I'm sorry if I overstepped by putting Alice to bed, but I don't think you mind and I certainly didn't. "
"You didn't overstep Jacob. You can do whatever you wish. I trust you. And thank you. You didn't have to do that but it was so kind that you did."
"Whatever I want?" Jacob's voice deepened.
"uhm, yes." Bella squeaked out.
"Whatever. I. Want. Do you know what I want right now Bella? What the animal inside me craves, along with the man?"
Jacob's hands were warm where he touched her. His hands were oin her shoulders and neck, tracing her cheek and then the outline of her lips.
"I-I-I might." Bella stuttered.
"I think you do." Jacob said softly. Bella could feel his breath on her face and she breathed in deeply. Bella had never had a good experience with a boy. The only boy who had ever liked her had only wanted to take advantage of her. And Bella had not been a stupid girl. She knew what all men wanted. But Jacob was not just a man. If he had wanted to push her or pressure her he had every chance to during the night when Bella had begged him to stay with her.
Jacob wouldn't hurt her. And she was his mate. He had already given her so much in just a night. Bella could give him this.
His breath was warm and smelled of the forest. He stayed still, waiting for her give him the permission that he didn't need. Bella knew what she wanted to do. And she moved her face forward.
Jacob's lips were warm. As soon as she moved her face he acted. One hand gripped the back of her neck and the other her lower back, both puling her in close. Bella loved the feeling. Jacob's lips moved against hers. His fingers kneaded her skin, hand in her hair. His lips were gentle but had strength and purpose behind them. He knew what he was doing. Bella didn't know what to do with her hands. She wanted to touch him, but she didn't know how. Jacob pulled away, sensing her hesitation.
"It's okay Bella. You can touch me. I don't bite. Well, I won't yet at least." He said with a grin.
Jacob's words gave her confidence. Bella moved her hands to his shoulders and on from there. She traced his chest. He had a shirt on but it was just a cotton tee and Bella could move her hands under the sleeves to feel the muscles on his arms and shoulders.
Jacob loved the feel of her hands. The animal inside him was purring and Jacob couldn't help but release a little of that purr. Bella giggled at the sound. She was not afraid of the animal, but Jacob slightly was. He could always control his wolf, but the wolf wanted Bella more than he had wanted anything in his life.
Jacob knew that they could never ever hurt Bella on purpose, but his friend Sam had a girlfriend who was too close one time when he shifted….and his girlfriend got hurt. Jacob didn't want Bella to know that kind of fear. He wanted her to always be comfortable around him and his wolf for that matter.
Bella was kissing his neck gently and Jacob decided to dread the future later and live in the now, now. Jacob pulled Bella closer and moved his lips back to hers. Bella was more than willing. She was trusting in him and he knew he wouldn't betray that trust. Jacob didn't know how far to go with this. He wanted so much more but knew neither Bella nor he was ready.
He wanted only to go a little further. He wouldn't push too far on their first kiss.
Jacob opened his mouth a little. He let his tongue wander out to trace Bella's lips. She gasped slightly, eyelashes fluttering. Jacob kept at it until Bella very slightly opened her lips. The wolf rejoiced. As did the man.
Jacob invaded Bella's mouth. He couldn't help himself. Bella welcomed him and returned his invasion. Jacob could taste her. She tasted sweet, like spring rain and quiet cool nights in the fall. He couldn't get enough.
Jacob's kiss got more heated and Bella couldn't bring herself to stop him. She didn't want to. Jacob's hands in her hair and his tongue in her mouth. It was too much. It wasn't enough.
Bella moved closer to him, feeling the need to crawl inside his skin and stay there was so gentle with her and Bella wished he was a little rougher because she wanted him. In his arms she felt brave and alive. She didn't feel like a blind person.
Jacob accepted her getting closer. He encouraged her. Bella was losing control very quickly and Jacob could feel it. Jacob kept kissing her, but he kept his head on straight. He knew that he would be the one to have to end this, and it was going to be a struggle.
Jacob didn't know how long they had been kissing, but he knew he didn't ever want it to end. But It was late. And tomorrow was Sunday. Jacob knew Bella didn't go to church much, but his people did, and he had a surprise for her that he hoped she would enjoy.
Jacob's tongue slowly left her mouth and Bella protested, whimpering.
Jacob kissed her close mouthed a few times, pecking on her lips, making it last. Bella sighed, content.
She had only been kissed a handful of times, and never, never like that.
"Bella, Gods, My Bella." Jacob gasped into her neck.
"Jacob," was all Bella could manage, saying his name multiple times in gasps of air.
Jacob got control of his breathing long before Bella did. He realized that Bella had at some point became completely seated in his lap and he was very happily surprised to find her still pressed against him.
He could feel Bella's breasts through the material of his shirt and squeezed his eyes shut to ignore it. It didn't work. Bella was still breathing heavy and it was only making it worse. Jacob couldn't control if anything in his nether regions became…alive, but he hoped to hell that Bella wouldn't notice.
Bella noticed. She blushed because she knew that she was the reason that Jacob felt that way. But she knew that he was right. They couldn't go all I on their second night together. But the kissing. That they could do.
Jacob held Bella until her breathing was even and normal. He kept kissing her neck and running his hands everywhere, her face, her hair, her neck, her back, and it all made it harder to stay in control.
"Bella, I'm sorry if that got too out of hand. I wasn't planning on going that far, I just…the animal. We want you."
Bella smiled into his face, making sure he could see her. "Jacob. In case you hadn't noticed, I didn't mind. Anytime you or your wolf are in a wanting mood, I'll always be here for you."
"Good to know," Jacob growled softly and Bella giggled again.
"Not to get off topic, but I have something I wanted to talk to you about." Jacob spoke up.
"Go right ahead," Bella encouraged.
"Okay, well I had an idea while I was with the pack. Actually, it was more their idea. But I know from my stalking you that you don't generally go to church on Sundays and I was wondering if maybe you would accompany me. I have to warm you, it's not your normal service. My people are Indian people, and they worship differently. We have tribal worship. But it's not anything scary I don't think. And I think it would be a good way to introduce you to the pack and some of the Elder families. Everyone is SO anxious to meet you, I just don't want to overwhelm you."
Bella took a moment to think. "So, you have told your pack. About me I mean."
Jacob smiled. "Of course I've told them. It's not like I could hide it if I really wanted to, well I could, but I didn't want to. Lots of the tribe knows that their Alpha has found his mate. They love you already Bella. They don't have to meet you to know that you're going to be an amazing and loving leader to them. But I thought that you might want to start off kinda slow. And this way you'll get to hear some of the tribal things that are common in the village. Plus, since your kinda the uh, mother of the tribe and all, my pack brothers are very very anxious to meet you. There is a special way that the pack treats their mother. You will always be protected, no matter what. If anything were to ever happen to me, you and your family ad our children would be treated no differently. The pack would move in to take care for you, doing whatever was necessary. You're a special person Miss Bella. And everyone is very excited to get to know you. "
"Well, when you put it that way, I'm not sure I can refuse."
"Oh Bella, thank you. Everyone will be…..unbelievably generous I assure you."
"Jacob, what about Alice?"
"Can she not stay with your family tomorrow? I know that she doesn't know yet, and there is all the time you need to tell her. And I think it would be better to get you comfortable with the people before you introduce Alice to them."
"Thank you. I think I would be more comfortable that way, your right."
They sat in content silence for a moment. Bella wanted to start asking all the questions she had thought of earlier, but it was late and she was tired. "Jacob, do you think we could go to bed? I know I slept forever on the couch, but I want to be we rested for tomorrow. And I don't even know what time it is…"
"It's a little after midnight sweetie. I got home so much later than I planned. And I'll tell youall about it tomorrow, after you've had your rest."
Jacob picked her up as he spoke his ast words. He put her down in the bedroom and Bella got ready for bed.
Before she climbed into bed she realized something.
"Jacob, did you come in naked?"
Jacob laughed loudly and immediately hushed himself. "No Bella, I brought another pair of clothes. Not to worry, I didn't scandalize you too badly."
"I wasn't worried about scandal, I was worried about you coming in naked when my poor baby sister was awake!"
Jacob laughed harder at that and pressed his face into the pillow to muffle it.
Bella laid down under the blankets and Jacob moved close. He spooned her back and Bella realized how small she felt compared to him.
Bella would tell Esme and Carlisle in the morning that the boy from the bookstore had invited her to church with him. They would approve of that.
Bella was asleep physically, but her mind was slower in shutting down. With Jacob's arms around her, iot was easier to sleep. And sleep was claiming her quickly.
Jacob was sure that Bella was out cold and he closed his eyes to sleep also when Bella had athought and sat up suddenly so fast in his arms that he was alarmed.
"Bella? What's wrong?"
"Jacob, I don't have anything to wear!"
Jacob groaned. Great, he was a wolf and she was meeting his people and she should be scared out of her mind in fear. But was she? No. She wasn't scared of him. She didn't have anything to wear.
"Wear whatever. It doesn't matter Bells."
"Jacob Black! It most certainly DOES matter!"
Jacob groaned again. He would never understand the problems of fashion.
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