SOSOSOSOSOSO TERIBLY SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE! I KNOW I PROMISED THAT I'LL UPDATE LAST WEEK BUT IT'S JUST SO HAPPENED THAT I TRIPPED OVER MY LIL CUZIN AND SPRAINED MY ARM! I WASNT ABLE TO USE THE COMPUTER for days CUZ MY SPRAINED ARM IS MY RIGHT ONE!
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Chapter 6 Reasoning
BPOV
As I predicted, it did healed last night, which is great. I'm starting to have fun playing with Edward and that caused us to ignore each other, which is good. I'm dangerous even for their kind but I'm still human… am I? That's one question I always ask myself…
Its biology time but Mr. Varner isn't here yet.
"Hey Bella." Mike greeted.
"Hey." I said sheepishly.
"Well, Jess asked me to go with her on the school's dance."
"Oh, that's great!" I said with fake—but buyable enthusiasm.
"Well, I kind of said I'll think about it."
"Huh? Why would you do that?"
"Well, I was really hoping that you would ask me."
"Oh… I'm sorry but I'm not going and besides, Jess really likes you. You shouldn't let her down."
"Oh… Why aren't you going?"
"Umm… I had to… visit my… friend… in Phoenix that weekend. It's her… birthday and I promised her that I'll be there." I lied. But, visiting Ashley is a good idea though it's not her birthday.
"Oh…" I felt him frown as he walked back to his seat.
"Looks like somebody doesn't want to go to the dance." Edward muttered but loud enough for me to hear with a small chuckle.
"Wow, you actually talked again! Wait, did I ask for your opinion? No, I don't think so."
"Look Bella—,"
"Hello, I am blind. I cannot look." I snapped.
"Okay, listen; I wasn't talking to anyone. I was talking to myself."
"If you're talking to yourself, wouldn't that make you crazy?"
"Ugh!" He exclaimed—annoyed. "Bella, it's better if we aren't friends."
"Are you saying that you regret saving me?"
"I'm not regretting anything. I only said that it's better if we aren't friends."
"Well, why did you even bother saving me? I could have protected myself. I could have done something to save myself but you just have to save me and now you're regretting it." This guy is really getting on my nerves sometimes.
"Yeah right, like you could just jump over the van or something like that."
"Ironically speaking; I could have done that." He stared at me in curiosity and shock.
"You're not the only one who has dangerous secrets Cullen." I murmured before Mr. Varner came in. I pretended to listen to his lecture while waiting for the bell to ring.
After a long boring hour, the bell finally rang and I ran as much as I could to stay away from Edward.
We kept on doing the ignoring treatment until one day I couldn't take it anymore.
"Cullen, I need to talk to you." I sighed before continuing. "Privately,"
We walked silently into the near edge of the woods. "What do you want?" He said completely uninterested.
"Listen… I… I know what you are…"
"Really, then say it." He challenged.
"You're a vampire." I said calmly.
"Are you afraid?"
"Why would I be?" I snickered.
"Then ask me what our diet is." He whispered in my ear.
"Blood, animal blood as a matter of fact. Vegetarians if you call it." He seemed shock about my response.
"How could you be so sure I wouldn't hurt you?" I have to chuckle on what he said.
"Because… I can fight you off… I may not out run you but I can sure you, I can kill you and your kind." I wouldn't be shocked on the fact that he laughed humorlessly.
"Fight me? Kill me? You have got to be kidding me."
"I am not to be kidding you. What else is your explanation about when I kneed you, when I fought you and your siblings? Huh? I told you are not the only one who has dangerous secrets Cullen."
"How is that possible if you're only human?"
"I have been trained to expand my other senses besides sight which helped me to develop my ability to feel the weak, pain and even death points of a person, thing animal or even vampires. Basically almost anything,"
"Do you want to know why did I hate you so much on your first day?"
"Yes,"
"I only hated you so much because of your scent. Your blood sings to me. You're like my own personal brand of heroin. Now, are you afraid?"
"No," I said coolly.
"How long did you know about us?"
"Since the first day I felt you. I sensed the animal blood in you and I smelled that you are different." He opened his mouth to speak but I cut him off.
"I told you, I was trained to expand my senses but when it comes to smelling, hearing, strength, and speed, it's only natural."
"If you already know what we are, I suppose why did you have to pretend about not knowing our secret?"
"I wanted to test you if you were going to tell me, plus I liked to play around with you guys." He trapped me with his two hands while my back is pinned on the wall. I could feel my heart beat is speeding up like it never sped before. It was really fast and I have never felt it before.
"So you like to play do you?" He asked swiftly, almost like seductively.
"I-I, t-this is wrong, so wrong." I said breaking free from his trap as I tried to walk away from him when he grabbed my arm 'gently'.
"What's wrong?"
"W-what's wrong is that I'm too dangerous for you guys. I can kill you a lot easier than the normal way. I-if I stabbed your death point right here, right now, you would be completely and permanently paralyzed physically and mentally and all I have to do is start a fire and burn your flesh." He leaned in closer.
"I don't care."
"What do you mean you don't care? I just said that I could kill you very easily and you don't care, are you nuts?" He leaned closer than necessary. My heart is beating so much almost like it wants's to go out and go to Edward.
"I told you, I don't care. I don't care even if it kills me to do it."
"You mean you don't care if you die just because you don't care?"
"Yes, I'm tired of staying away from you."
"But I thought you don't want us to be friends?"
"I said its better if we weren't friends but I didn't said I don't want us to be."
"So, friends," I held my hand When I said that 'friends' there was like a little voice inside me saying I don't want to be just friends. Quiet Bella! You're hallucinating! I shouted to myself by thought.
"Uh, yeah, just friends right? And nothing more…" He mumbled the last part. I could have sworn I felt him hurt. The electricity that I felt when we shook hands made me jump a little.
"You felt it too?" He asked.
"Yes… So you want to know more?"
"Yes I would like that. Let's talk in the clearing." He said before walking to the clearing with me on his heels.
"Okay, now we're here, how did you know all about you know…?" He broke off as we sat down.
"Well, my trainer is one. He focused on my training since he knows that I was the 'special one'. Even the Volturi knows about me." I just have to laugh at his 'almost choking reaction'.
"The Volturi knows?" He said in disbelief.
"Yes, I'm the only human exception by them. They didn't even come for me. They just let off a warning about other humans. They didn't even want to change me."
"That's very… un-Volturi…-ish," He added which made me chuckle.
"I know. When my training was over—since I already have like 10 degrees already—my trainer went with his mate in Alaska. He too is a vegetarian. He's with the Denali Coven, his mate is Kate… and I think you know them… They did mention Carlisle though. They are super nice especially Carmen and Eleazar. One thing I don't like about the Denali sisters is dragging me just to give me a makeover." He chuckled light heartedly.
"If you think they're bad, think what if Alice would do to you." We laughed at that one.
We momentarily stopped when we heard a snort over the bushes.
"Alice, Jasper, Emmett, Rosalie, you can come out know." I said. They stumbled out of the bush.
"How long and how much?" I asked absentmindedly.
"Well, since you talked 'privately' and almost everything." Alice said quickly.
"Alice, duck," I warned—yelled before throwing a fist-big rock. She ducked then I hit the girl who was spying on us on her weak point on the shoulder. She came out of her hiding place and tried to kick me but instead I kicked her. "What's your problem Grayson?" I asked while dodging her attacks. "Uh… you?" it sounded more like a question than an answer. "Listen, I really don't want you to get hurt. Can we do this some other time?"
"Aw, is the swan princess afraid of little ole me?" She teased.
"Don't call me that!" I hissed.
"Make me,"
"I warned you!" I hissed before twisting her left arm and pushing her to the ground.
"Is that all you got?" She said before copying the same thing I've done to her.
"I told you, I'm not in the mood." But instead on trapping me onto the ground I rolled with her and made her face the ground. "You're not going to give up are you?"
"Nope," All she said before trying to kick me on the stomach but I grabbed her leg and twisted it. "Ow, ow, ow, ow, it hurts, it hurts," She chanted before I flipped her.
"Ready to give up Grayson," I said pinning her shoulders down.
"Hmm, let me think about it… no!" She said before throwing me to the trees but landed in a crouch.
"Nice move, copied it from me?" I said before pouncing some more.
"Nah, just did it your highness,"
"Why do you always call me those; your highness, your majesty, and etcetera like I'm royalty or something, it's really getting on my nerves, you know."
"Sorry my lady, my lips are sealed even if I want to say it."
"Can we pick up the slacks? I have some business to attend to."
"And what, end my fun? No way," She said before throwing her last punch before I paralyzed her whole body until her beck is pinned into the wall. She landed in a grunt and glared at me.
"I hate you." She huffed.
"Aw, I love you to."
"You're so unfair! You always cheat!"
"Yeah, and you always whine why do I always win cheating or not."
"Could you please let me go?"
"Sure, like Alice is a 5 foot, matured vampire."
"Hey! How did I got in your argument!?!" Alice yelled while everyone but Emmett—who is laughing so hard while the others were holding their laughter.
"What's in it for you, your grace?" She asked, obviously she knows me to well.
"One, stop doing that, two, stop doing surprises, you know I hate that."
"Fine," I know she wouldn't stop but I let her free anyway. As soon as I freed her, I gave her a big hug.
"I missed you Ashley!"
"I missed you to your—Bella," She smiled. It took a while before I broke off the comfortable silence.
"Um… Ash, you know you can let go any time now."
"Yes…" She said without letting go.
"And now is a good time."
"And ruin the moment?"
"Yes."
"Fine," She huffed before letting go. She was glaring playfully until I laughed at her expression then she joined me.
"Care to explain why there are five vegetarians in here with you all alone?" She asked as soon as we stopped laughing.
"What, can't I hang with other vegetarians other than Sir Serious A Lot?" I was talking about Master Garrett though; it's true that he's way to serious for his own good until Kate come in the picture which made him very different… He became friendly and playful, and he actually smiles! That was so rare.
"Well… no." She said sheepishly.
"You know, Ican take them with a blindfold on me."
"What's the point in that? You're the blind one." She said while rolling her eyes. I kicked her leg.
"Ow," She whined.
"You know I hate it when you roll your eyes, it's my thing." I glared.
"Whatever," She was going to roll her eyes again when I was placing my foot to her other leg.
"Ah! No, not that one, that still hurts from last time." I rolled my eyes at her. I know it's weird. I'm blind but I can roll my eyes and glare, ironic much? I heard Alice faked a cough to catch our attention.
"Oh, right, um Ashley, Alice, Ashley, Alice." They shook hands then introduced themselves then moved on to the next one.
After the weird introductions, an awkward silence filled the woods.
"Umm… so Ashley is my friend in Phoenix, she's in my self-defense class with Sir Serious So Much. She's also my best friend. The Volturi has no idea about her knowing and no she's not blind." I said. "Now, any more questions about me or Ashley?"
"Why on earth the Volturi would let you live without even coming for you?" Spoke Rosalie for the first time.
"I told you, I don't know, but I think anytime soon they will come for me."
"How would you know that?" Emmett asked curiously.
"I just have the feeling that soon they will come." Or later…
I know it's short, I know its corny, I know its suckish and I know you hate it but I WANT TO KNOWIT FROM U GUYS!
Tell me, am I a horible writter? Not ONLY for updating freaquently but for writting a stupid story!?!
Anyway, reviews, flames, critisisim, ect. are welcome...
I will try to update asap anyway... *Wipping some tears*
*uncontollable tears* Okay Im really sad I know, cuz If you dont say your opinions, people would think that YOU hate the story or reading it JUST to pass some time...
Im actually HATING myself for being an awful writter... Im jelous of my Best friend for having so much supporters ON and OFF !
I have to admit that her story is WAY better than mine!
I dont think I even DESERVE to rant about this but Im ranting anyway...
YES, I KNOW IM NUTS! I KNOW IM CRAZY! I KNOW IM A CRY BABY! I KNOW I HAVE LOW SELF ESTEEM! AND YOU KNOW WHTA I BELIVE WHAT I SEE! BRING ALL KINDS OF FLAMES YOU GOT CUZ I KNOW I DESERVE IT!!! I DONT CARE IF I HAVE A LOW IQ ON GRAMMAR AND SPELLING, BUTIT'S JUST ME! I CANT CHANGE MY WHOLE LIFE JUST TO MAKE SOME ONE [CLAIRE MY EX BEST FRIEND WHO IS NOW JUST MY FRIEND] IMPRESSED! I KNOW I DONT HAVE TO SAY THIS AND ALL BUT SO WHAT!?! IM JUST BEING ME FOR ALL I CARE! I KNOW THIS IS NOT A BLOG BUT I TOLD YOU I USE FF TO EXPOSE MY FEELINGS OKAY!?! *MORE TEARS*
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