Sorry I'm so behind, but this chapter has been on my mind for weeks...hope you enjoy it (rest of the A/N at the bottom).
"Hello?" I picked up my phone angrily; it was far too early to be awake.
"Did I wake you Melody?" Dan answered back.
"Sorry, I just didn't sleep well last night and yes I just woke up. What is it Dan?"
"I was wondering if you'd like to visit today since I wasn't able to see you yesterday."
"Sure, I'll just let Olivia and Sophie know I'm leaving. But I don't know where you live, so you're going to have to give me the address."
"Meet me at Starbucks again, I'll walk you over. Be ready in fifteen minutes." He said before hanging up the phone.
I crawled out of bed, knowing it would take me longer than that to get ready. I walked out of my bedroom and into the lounge where my two roommates were sitting.
Olivia and Sophie were twins, both from London who had moved out and needed another girl to help pay rent. Olivia was blonde with hair that was curly like mine, large green eyes, and was tall and slender. Her sister Sophie looked exactly like her, minus the fact her eyes were blue and her hair was short and straight.
"Good morning Melody," Sophie smiled at me as she walked over to the counter in the kitchen. "Fancy a cup of coffee this morning?"
"No thank you, I was actually just on my way out to meet someone. I'm about to get a shower but was wondering if you needed anything while I'm out."
"No, Tesco is coming this afternoon. Have fun with this mystery friend, and make sure to bring them over sometime to meet us."
"I will Olivia," I said as I retreated back into my bedroom.
I picked up one of my new sweaters and a pair of skinny jeans as well as all my other assorted items I'd need to get ready as I walked into the bathroom across the hall.
I showered quickly, got dressed, and finished my makeup before walking out of the door.
I walked down the street to the fateful coffee shop and waited. Just as I was about to head into the store to buy something I heard someone call my name.
I looked up quickly before having a pair of long, thin arms thrown around me.
"I've missed you so much," Dan said as he pulled away from me and grabbed onto my hand, heading back the way he had come.
"Well I'm back, and I'm hoping you have something planned for us to do today?"
"Well, if lying in bed is a plan then yes."
"Not really, unless clothes aren't involved."
"Getting frisky here are we?"
"I've got eighteen years' worth of pent up sexual frustration, and I have a wonderful young man just teasing me."
"Calm down, we have all day together. And I don't want to be the one responsible for taking your innocence unless you really mean it." Dan grasped my hand a bit harder as we walked into the flat.
"Where is Phil?" I asked, Dan putting his jacket away and slipping off his shoes.
"Still at his parent's house, he'll be home tomorrow I think. However, I wanted to be here when you got back so I left on New Year's Day. However, that does mean we have the flat all to ourselves today."
"Well you said you wanted to film me, you can do a vlog with me!" I said a little too enthusiastically.
"Give me a few minutes to get ready and set up, this takes longer than you would think."
I sat down on the couch in the lounge, watching as Dan reappeared with his hair done and clothes looking a lot less like we were hanging out and more like we were actually going somewhere.
He set up a camera in front of me, talking to me as if I were an idiot.
"Dan, I just asked what we were going to talk about."
"But you need to know I have jump cuts and other things and some stuff we say will probably be edited. Now get up so I can introduce this video." He said aggressively. I moved behind the camera, watching as he sat down and began instructing me again. "Now focus it on me and we'll go from there." I laughed, getting out my fit of giggles before pressing record. Dan did his infamous intro, complete with hand gesture, "Hello Internet, so I know recently I've been doing a lot of collaborations with other YouTubers but today I want to introduce you to someone who lurks the dark depths of the Internet but doesn't make videos like I do. Please welcome my new friend, Melody!" He gestured for me to come over and sit down with him.
"Hi guys!" I waved geekily, and then looked at Dan.
"Well, she's new to this, give her a break. So Melody, what will we discuss today?"
"I don't know, we could do something about accents since I'm American."
"Hm, how about a video on lust?" He purred into my ear. "I'll edit this out later of course."
I stammered a second before gaining my dignity back, "Only if you promise this will lead somewhere better later."
Dan flushed pink before going back to filming, "So today Melody and I are going to discuss probably the most tempting of the seven deadly sins…also referred to as lust. So Melody, would you like to define it for us?"
"Well according to…our source Wikipedia, lust is intense or unbridled sexual desire. Like you see before you demonstrated by Dan."
"That isn't fair Melody," he laughed as he and I continued to banter.
"Well I mean most people think love and lust are the same wouldn't you agree?"
"Somewhat, I think sometimes lust can make people think they're in love. In other cases love comes and then the lust appears much later."
"I think that's somewhat the case. For instance, when I was in high school I met a guy and thought I'd fallen in love with him until I realized I wanted to have sex with him and that was as far as I ever saw the relationship going."
"So are you saying that virgins tend to be more lust filled then?"
"Don't bring my innocence into this," I warned playfully.
"Well I mean, people who have had sex still have lusty afflictions but they act upon them far more easily than those who have yet to be in a sexual relationship."
"Actually, I think those who haven't been in sexual relationships are less lust filled. Most of us would never act on it if we weren't really in love."
"Wow, this got deep very fast."
"That's what she said," I laughed and made Dan laugh with me.
"Say bye Melody," Dan finally choked out between laughter.
"Bye guys!"
"Okay, we will finish this later since it's dinner time and I haven't begun cooking. What do you feel like?"
"Chinese takeout?" I said without missing a beat.
"Hm, doesn't require any effort. I'm okay with that," he said grabbing his phone and placing an order for the both of us.
"So Melody, when do classes start?"
"Next week, I found out my new roommates go to the same university so that's good at least."
"Oh, what are these roommates like?" Dan asked as he patted the spot on the couch for me to sit with him. He wrapped his arm around me while we continued talking.
"Well they're twins, Sophie and Olivia, both blonde and tall. Basically if you look up beautiful in the dictionary they would appear beside of it."
"I beg to differ actually, my picture would appear beside of it." He laughed at his own joke as the doorbell rang.
Dan paid for our food and brought it over to the table. He poured us glasses of soda this time, remembering I'd been a bit tipsy after the wine last time.
"So how was your holiday?"
"I had a lot of fun with my family, but I missed you like crazy. One day together and I couldn't get you out of my mind."
"I know how that feels, the entire time on the plane I was giddy knowing I'd be seeing you again soon. But you know, I did want to ask you a couple of things."
"Like what?"
"Well, for starters how did you know I was a fan of yours?"
"Easy, you had on the Danosaur bracelet which I saw while I was looking at you. Plus you looked pretty dumbfounded at that so I had to assume you were either a fan or you were crazy."
"Fair enough, but what made you give me your number? I'm nothing special to look at, and you've said previously dating a fan wasn't a top priority."
"Well that's true, but I have also mentioned I could meet my soul mate and then find out he or she liked my videos as much as they liked me. Anything is possible after all. And about not being anything special, I want you to know that you are breathtakingly gorgeous from head to toe, no one holds a candle to you. You may not be what other people see as the ideal young lady, but I for one don't give two fucks as to what society wants as long as you're mine."
"Eloquently spoken, but still didn't quite answer the question."
"Well, I figured giving you my number can't hurt. I know how to block a number should it have come to that and you were some creepster. But you seemed different, not quite in a way I'd expected."
"Well, there's a reason for that."
"Well then, if you're done eating then we should go sit in my room for a bit and talk some more about it."
"We're talking now though," I said still stuffing food into my face.
"Well, then maybe less talking…" He smirked at me, starting to play footsy with me under the table until I fought back.
"Less sounds a lot more fun," I laughed.
"Come along then," he said as he pulled me up from my chair. "I'll clean that up later but I want you to come in here."
"Why?"
"Well for one, you'll probably never see it this clean again. But also I want you on this bed, hopefully you would like for me to be there as well."
"Calm down Dan, we have all day remember?" I smiled as I sat down on the bed. "Sit with me."
He sat down next to me, hands traveling up my back and tangling into my dark curls as he pulled me close, looking straight into my eyes.
"Have I ever told you that your eyes are the most gorgeous shade of brown I've ever seen, they're amber with little flecks of gold and green." He whispered, pressing our foreheads together. His free hand traced patterns on my legs as he closed his eyes. I initiated the kiss that ensued, gently pressing my lips against his.
As I pulled away, his hand falling onto the bed, I remembered a few days prior. Sitting in my bedroom, trying to suppress the thought of being pushed away because of my past. I tried to hold back tears, biting my lip as I tried to form the words to express to Dan exactly what I needed to say.
"Dan," I finally managed to say as my voice broke and tears began to spill from my eyes.
Dan's face suddenly changed from one of silent happiness to concern as he held me close, letting me cry into his chest.
"Melody, what is it, did I do something wrong?"
"N-n-no," I stuttered a bit as I clung desperately to his warm body. "You haven't done anything, it's me. I'm not right for you, you deserve someone a lot better." I said as I fought against his embrace to stand up and run to the door.
Before I could get all the way to the entryway he had me in his arms again, pulling me back into his room.
"Melody, please tell me what's going on. I can't help if I don't know what's wrong with you."
"I don't think you're ready to hear all about my life and the reason I'm so completely fucked up and terrible for you." I said, my sobs turning to soft whimpers as Dan wiped my eyes away.
"Try me, I promise not to judge you or think harshly of you. I mean if we're going to go anywhere else in this…this I guess we can call it a relationship then we need to share. I can tell you about my past. For starters I'm not a virgin."
I smiled a little, tears stopping momentarily as I chuckled under my breath. "I'm pretty sure I could guess that with the video we were making."
"Well, I mean I could be really good at faking. While we're on the subject I'll tell you that I almost had a sexual relationship with a man, nothing serious but I found out being gay was not going to work if it had ever worked out between us. You already know I'm twenty-one, I've lived in this country my whole life. I have a younger brother, my parents are still happily married and living in Reading. I've never been in love before, but with you I'm finding that harder and harder to say. Your turn," he said as he sat back on his bed. He pulled me into a cuddle, looking down at me as I began my drawn out story.
"Well, you see it's not as simple as just listing off things. Let's start with I'm eighteen, I'm the eldest of two siblings. I have a younger sister, her name is Ally. My parents divorced when my sister was born. My mom never remarried, however my dad did. He lost his wife to cancer a few years ago. My mom, due to being divorced with two young girls usually took her anger out on me. She yelled at me, told me I was a terrible daughter, made fun of my looks, and on occasion she was known to throw a few punches. When I turned fourteen I moved in with my dad, no longer being able to handle my abusive mother. My sister moved in not long after that, but she was sent to a boarding school last year to keep her away from the custody battle between my mother and father."
"Wow that…was not what I expected." Dan said, pulling me closer. "What else?"
"Well, after being told numerous times in my mother's house how fat and hideous I was and then hearing the same things at school I stopped eating. However, that didn't last long as my dad figured it out. His wife, Natasha, she saw the signs as soon as I started as she had struggled at my age too. I still struggle with an eating disorder at times, but nowhere near as bad as when I was in high school."
"You're ravishingly radiant Melody, and anyone who thinks any different doesn't deserve to be in your presence."
"Well you may think differently in a minute, there was a lot of reasons I wouldn't get undressed in front of you. But if you promise not to push me away or laugh I'll show you."
"I'd never hurt you, I want you to be completely comfortable with me."
I took his words as a sign to trust him, I was still scared but by the pleading look in his eyes I stood up. I walked over to the door and shut it, just in case someone showed up I didn't want them to see me like this. I turned off the overhead light and then stood next to the bed. I took off my bracelets first, placing them on the table next to the bed. Dan nodded, wanting me to continue.
I slipped off my sweater first, revealing the freshest of the multiple cuts on my body.
Dan's face stayed completely calm, his eyes scanning my arms.
"For starters you see my arms, I did this a few days ago when I was thinking of you, and I thought you were going to forget me."
"Are there more?" He asked, I could see in his face that he was upset.
I slipped off my shoes, kicking them in the corner quickly. I took off my jeans and just stood in front of Dan, nearly naked and exposing something to him that I hadn't even shown my closest friends.
"I started last year, with my thighs. When the cuts would heal I'd cut them again, except these still haven't healed and I needed to release so I wounded my upper arms this time. This is why Dan, I still feel like you're going to push me away at any second."
"Melody, come here. Shush," he said as he patted down my hair while I cried again. "Even with your battle scars you are stunning, but I want you to promise me you won't do it again. Don't hurt yourself anymore, because now you have me. If you feel inadequate then call me and I'll list all the reasons I think you aren't. You also have Phil, and maybe soon I'll introduce you to some of my other friends. I don't want you to be sad anymore. Your past is all in the past, and while I can't change that I want to change your future."
He pulled my face away from his chest and cupped it in his hand, bringing me to his lips in a gentle kiss.
We shifted a bit as the kiss deepened. When I pulled away Dan slowly removed his sweater. He tossed it in the corner before moving back to me. He looked back at my arms and kissed each individual cut, whispering each time that I was beautiful.
His fingers traced the cuts on my thighs, his gaze never leaving mine. He kissed the tip of my nose, smiling down at me.
"Well?" I asked.
"Would you like to continue? I want you to be ready."
"Dan, I want nothing more than you right here, right now." I said, hand brushing against his face.
"Well then," he said as he tucked a stray hair behind my ear, "I'll be right back."
He got off the bed, still shirtless and walked out of the room for a minute. I heard another door open and then footsteps trailing back to his room as I saw a box in his hands.
"What was that about?"
"Well I'm assuming you're not on the pill and neither of us need a pregnancy scare right now." He said as he unbuttoned his jeans. He slipped them off his slender legs before returning to the bed.
He pulled me to him, hands roaming my body as he kissed me. His tongue slipped inside my mouth, fighting briefly with my own before he pulled me so I was on top of him.
His fingers nimbly unhooked my bra, my breasts now exposed to him.
"Go ahead, I really don't mind." I said as he studied every inch of my unclothed body now. He caressed my breast, eyes flickering down to his now fully hard erection before meeting my gaze for another swift kiss.
When we broke apart I slid down to the foot of the bed, giving him a saucy look before hooking my thumbs under the waistband of his boxers, freeing him from the last bit of clothing. I tossed them in the pile on the other side of the room, moving up and taking him in my hands.
His head cocked back, eyes closed I heard him moan as my lips kissed his tip. I gave the head an experimental lick, drawing another moan from him. I slipped off my undies and threw them in the growing pile before moving back up to his face. I softly cupped his face in my hand and drew him into another kiss.
This time he took control, now gently laying me on my back as he broke the kiss for just a moment.
"Just so you know, I'm going to be as gentle as possible but I can't guarantee it won't hurt just a bit. And you'll probably be a bit sore in the morning, just fair warning."
"I'm with you and nothing else matters," I whispered as I watched him unwrap a condom from the box and slip it on himself.
He parted my legs as he leaned down to draw me into another kiss before plunging inside of me a bit. I winced with a bit of pain, soon replaced with pleasure as I wrapped my legs around his waist.
He pushed deeper, thrusting with enough force to bring us pleasure but slowly enough so it was still special. He had promised me romance and I was getting it.
He reached down and started to finger me, pressing me further into ecstasy. I moaned loudly, not realizing that we would soon be receiving company.
"Is anyone home?" I heard through the thin walls, both of us stopping our movements.
Dan tried composing himself, having been on the brink of orgasm when his roommate had apparently gotten home early.
"I'm home Phil, why?" He said, breathing heavily as he covered us with his duvet.
I heard footsteps coming down the hallway, hoping he was going to go directly to his room.
The door handle jiggled a bit as Phil entered the room, already talking. "Well I was hoping we could go grab some," he stopped as he saw his best friend and me, under the cover of the duvet thankfully, covered in a sheen of sweat and panting heavily. "I see you've already got company." He said, embarrassed as he covered his eyes. "Uh I'll let you guys finish up, maybe we can grab dinner in a bit. I'll be in the shower, sorry guys." He said as he closed the door again.
"Sorry, I didn't realize he was going to come in. We don't have to continue if you're uncomfortable."
"I'm still in the mood, let's finish this please."
Dan smirked, drawing me into a kiss as he continued to thrust into me. His hands traveled down again, me moaning into his mouth. He laughed as I felt a flush of warmth travel through me, I knew this feeling.
Dan cried out, his body trembling in ecstasy seconds before I had my own orgasm. He continued to thrust into me for a few more seconds before pulling out and toppling over onto the bed.
He pulled me into another kiss before just drawing me into his body.
"Melody," he panted trying to catch his breath. "That was the best sex I've had in my entire life. I literally would be content with just going to sleep right now."
"Hopefully Phil didn't hear the end of that," I laughed as I looked up at him. "You have once again proven you are perfect. I mean, coming from a virgin it probably means nothing but you sure do know how to please a girl."
"I've had a little bit of practice…wait that made me sound like a whore. Really I'll tell you I've had sex quite a few times but you're only the third girl I've been with. Does that make it sound any less bad?"
"No, makes it sound worse." I said with an annoyed tone.
"Well, I don't plan on there being a fourth if that's any consolation because that was phenomenal."
"Okay if you two horny lovebirds are done I'd like to get some dinner," Phil yelled from behind the door.
"You do know it's safe to come in now?"
Phil opened the door and rolled his eyes, "Really Dan, it's safe to come in but neither of you have clothes on."
"I never promised clothes, and honestly you're lucky if I wear any clothes around this girl." Dan was laughing while I blushed.
"I heard you through the wall, you are not quiet at all."
"What were you thinking of for dinner since you're so ready to leave the house?"
"Well you guys obviously had takeout for lunch, there's an Italian restaurant right down the street and I want pizza."
"Let us get dressed and we'll go with you. Now unless you want to see naked you might want to leave Phil."
Phil closed the door behind him while Dan continued lying in bed.
"I don't feel like moving," I groaned while Dan placed kisses on my shoulders.
"You're going to be a little sore, I wish I could make it different. Come on though he's not going to wait very long." He said as I finally rolled out of the warm comfort of his arms.
My body didn't hurt as much as I thought it would, but I definitely wasn't ready to go to dinner.
Dan already had his pants on, now searching for his sweater he'd had on. He'd tossed me my underwear and bra which I put on immediately.
"I think your sweater is with mine over here Dan," I laughed as I tossed him his sweater while I slipped mine on.
I pulled on my jeans and then slipped on my shoes before opening the door.
"You look a lot better with clothes on," Phil laughed. "I meant that for Dan, not you Melody."
"Thanks?" I said confusedly. "So pizza? I'm kinda hungry."
"I imagine there's a reason for that. Dan hurry up it's already dark out."
Dan appeared from behind me, wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me close.
"Sorry, I was looking for something. Let's go then?" Dan said as he laced his fingers with mine.
"Oh you're going out in public with me holding hands?" I smirked at him as we both followed an eager Phil down the street.
"Are you looking for something more in public?" He laughed, drawing Phil into our conversation.
"Are you staying over with us tonight?" Phil asked.
"I don't know, my roommates are probably already wondering if I'm coming home. Maybe you could stay with me Dan." I hinted jokingly.
"Sure, Phil probably wants a night alone after being with his family for a week."
My eyes widened a bit as I heard Dan laugh at my facial expression.
"I mean sure, I'm still unpacking my stuff but I have a double bed in my room at least."
We arrived at the restaurant and entered, the aroma of cheese and garlic immediately flooding my nostrils.
"This is one of our favorite places to eat Melody, you'll love it."
"Do you guys cook at your flat?" I laughed.
"Yes, but we're also lazy."
We sat down at a booth in the back corner, Dan and I on one side and Phil on the other. A waitress came and took our orders, coming back with drinks for the three of us.
"So how are you enjoying being in London so far?" Phil asked.
"Well, I miss my family…and my best friend who may or may not be coming to live here too. But I mean my roommates are awesome and I have you guys."
"Speaking of, are you guys an item now or what?"
"I don't know, are we an item Melody?"
My face flushed red again as I stammered out, "Only if you want to be."
"Of course," he said with a smile as he leaned over and gave me a quick peck on the cheek.
"Well then, yes we're together." I said, nuzzling into Dan's arms.
Dan smiled and leaned down to whisper in my ear, "Melody, it may be too early to say this but I think I love you."
I kissed him for a split second before whispering back, "I think I might just love you too."
First off, happy new year it is 2013! And ironically the story has caught up with itself and the date of this happening is actually today (if you read it on January 3rd that is...)
I just, I love writing this story it's so cute. I hope you guys still like it after my bad smut (I'll be honest it's the first male/female action I've written in a long time as my Phan story is obviously m/m). However, a couple of announcements for those who don't read the Phan stuff.
1) I'm starting up a YouTube channel (more details to come) but I will be making my first video an about me Q&A and I need questions! They can be about this story too, not just questions about me but I need questions!
2) I NEED A BETA! I need one willing to beta this story as well as my Phanfiction so if you are willing to do so/know someone who would please PM me!
3) I have a Twitter specifically for my FanFiction now as my personal account would probably not interest you guys. The name is M_Howell_Lester and I'll reply to messages there as well!
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