Jo ran and she ran as fast as she could considering that she was pretty drunk. And although she was running, she had no idea where she was running to. She had just run from the place where she spent most of her time. And she just ran from both of the people that she spent most of her time with.

So when she came upon a park bench nearby the hospital, she sat down on the bench and she cried. Not fake Jo tears either, these were genuine tears.

She had no idea how she had gotten to this point. Although she wasn't completely happy with herself, she thought she was happy when she woke up this morning, and now her whole world had fallen completely apart.

She didn't even know what to think about Peckwell so she tried to not think about him at all. Even though that should have been her main concern at the moment, she still couldn't quit thinking about Alex.

Her heart had been hurting all night and it had nothing to do with Peckwell or even what Alex had blabbed out either time. It was hurting because she and Alex were fighting and she wanted nothing more than for things to be okay between them.

So she kept asking herself why. Not only why Alex would be so mean and inconsiderate but also why she wanted nothing more than for them to be able to just be them again.

She wanted to talk to him so bad. She wanted to be honest with him about everything, she wanted to tell him everything about how she felt about everything and she didn't even know why.

Obviously he didn't give a shit about her she kept trying to convince herself. She didn't understand any of it at all and she wanted to. And so she was going to. She had in fact worked too hard her entire life to let some dumbass bring her down but she wasn't just going to let him walk all over her like everyone else in her life had. She wanted to know why and she was damn sure about to ask him.

So she picked herself up off the park bench and she knew exactly where she was going.

000

Alex couldn't stop pacing around his living room from the moment he walked in his door. He was just so damn mad. He could not believe that Jo was going to lie for that asshole like that.

But he realized that that was the last thing on his mind because he couldn't get the look of Jo's hurt filled eyes out of his head.

He was so damn mad at himself. He knew that she was scared. He remembered how his Mom used to act when she was around his father. And although Jo had an opportunity to tell him and he couldn't help but be mad at him on self for blowing that one opportunity. And it wasn't only then, he knew that he had completely blown her trust away by letting her secret slip earlier.

And so he couldn't help but be mad himself because he knew he had caused her all this unnecessary drama that she didn't need or deserve.

But he was Alex and he just couldn't stop himself from being so damn mad. He knew what was right yet he still couldn't think right. Or at least he didn't think he was.

He was angry but instead of taking it out of anyone and everyone, he just wanted to make things right with Jo.

He didn't know how to feel and that was because he had never felt this way before.

He felt a connection with her that was unexplainable.

He couldn't stop thinking about her. And he couldn't stop thinking about how he just wanted her to be happy. He knew she was in a mess right now and he wanted nothing more than for them to just get passed it all and move on with their lives.

And he wanted them to move on with their lives together he told himself.

She was his best friend. And he knew that he had been hers. He couldn't help but want to kick himself for being so damn stupid.

How could he let his mouth get the best of him like that? He had always let his mouth do the talking first and he had never really cared to change it until now. He was trying to understand it all but he couldn't. His feelings for her were just so unexplainable and he had been and still was just so damn scared.

He then tried to understand what he already knew, but could never convince himself of until now, and that was that not everyone was always going to treat him the same.

Jo didn't treat him the same. She was different than any other girl he had ever met.

Yes he had loved Izzie and even other women throughout his life. But this was a different with Jo. This was almost an out of body experience because he could not explain the feeling that immediately took over him at the dawning realization that he wanted nothing more than to find Jo and make things right with her.

He wanted to care about her and he wanted to be there for her. He wanted to talk to her and most of all laugh with her again. And he even wanted to fight with her to prove he was right when he was because if that's what it would take to get through to her then that's what it would take.

He knew he was right about everything earlier. He was just confused, scared, and then hurt mixed with a little drunk, and he was just an idiot, he told himself.

Jo was drunk, scared, confused, and hurt too he then reminded himself. And he felt worse than he thought he could ever possibly feel.

He knew why she lied and although he was still mad, he was only mad at himself and Peckwell of course. She had needed him and he let her down.

He had to get her to tell the truth and as hard as he thought it might be, he then told himself he could do it. He could convince her that he was her best friend. He could prove to her how much he cared.

He just had to find her and get her to set still long enough to listen. He knew that would be the hardest part.

As much as she actually drove him crazy, he wanted it, he wanted her.

She was his kind of crazy and he wanted her. He didn't care if she was crazy or if he was crazy or not. He wanted them to be crazy together and he knew that they could.

Whether they were just to continue being friends or whether he did what his heart was trying to tell him, he just had to find her and be there for her. He just couldn't put into words how he was feeling.

He just had to make things right first and then they could go from there and he knew that he had to do it and he had to do it now. He couldn't bare another second feeling the way he did now.

So he grabbed his hoodie and he headed out the door, he knew exactly where he was going.

000

"Izzie" Meredith said as she gave her friend a hug.

"Mere, I missed you so much!" Izzie just simply smiled. She had missed her so much, she had missed the hospital so much, and she had missed Alex so much. She knew what she was here for and so she got straight to the point.

"Where's Alex? I have to see him, Meredith" she told her friend cool and confidently.

"Izzie, I don't know if that's…." Meredith started. She loved Izzie and she loved Alex. And she knew that Alex had loved Izzie. And although she knew Alex had said he and Jo weren't a thing, she knew him and she knew that was bullshit. She had just seen the way he and Jo both reacted just then. And although anyone else would've sworn their eyes were full of rage, she knew they were full of passion.

"No Mere, I have to see him. I have to talk to him. I have to explain some things so do you know where he is?" Izzie cut her off in a hurried but in her optimistic voice.

She was Izzie, she was just so lovable and kind and Meredith couldn't help but still consider her a best friend and although Izzie still was one her best friends, she still felt it was wrong for her to coming crashing back into their lives like that.

And that's exactly what it was, crashing.

She remembered how Addison just flaunted her way back into not only Derek's life but her life as well. As if she could treat Derek however she wanted and he would still choose her because that's the man he was, because they were married, or whatever she thought was right. But it was wrong, she had done him sorry, and it was wrong.

And although she knew that Izzie and Alex had loved each other, she also knew that Derek had loved Addison and she reminded herself where they were all now standing.

She knew it was wrong the way Izzie had left Alex and she couldn't help but feel that he needed someone other than her.

Everyone had a person she reminded herself and until Jo, she probably would've sworn Alex's was Izzie, but now she wasn't so sure.

She knew that things change, feelings change, and most importantly people change. But she had no idea how this would affect any of them. Who was she to ultimately say how things would play out? She knew what all she went through for her happy ending and she knew you sure as hell couldn't fight fate.

So maybe this was all a part of fate she asked herself. And although Meredith thought she had been the queen of dark and twisty, she couldn't help but feel a little sorry for Jo because this definitely was going to be dark and twisty for her on-top of everything else that she was probably going through from what she heard Alex saying.

So she asked "You're going to talk to him tonight?" Meredith asked in a non-believing voice.

"Yes tonight, Meredith. I have to do this. I'll explain everything to you later. Please, is he here?" Izzie let the hint of demand creep out through her voice.

Meredith knew little about the situation tonight, but she knew also how Alex and Jo felt, and she still knew that regardless Jo's life was about to completely get rattled, and so she couldn't help but relate.

So Meredith tried again "Izzie, Alex isn't here and I don't think that tonight would be the best night to try and talk to him."

And then Meredith knew for sure that none of this was about to go good because she had never seen Izzie move so quickly because out the door she went with just a "Thanks Meredith"

She had no idea what to think or what could possibly be so important that it couldn't wait but she could only assume one thing and one thing only. And that was that this was all about to be a big damn deal.

Meredith knew exactly where Izzie was going.