Jo was no longer running. Not only because she was rather exhausted but because she needed the time within her walk to Alex's house to think about exactly what she was going to say to him.
She had sprinted away from the park bench letting her questions cause her to be angry and she wanted nothing more than to scream at Alex and ask him what and more importantly why the hell he would go and do something like that for.
But now as she was casually walking down the street, she let her heart change her mind. Yes, she was still hurt. But instead of yelling at Alex like she had planned, she didn't want to be mean at all. Yes, she still wanted to know what on earth ever possessed him to act that way towards her. But she couldn't help fight the feeling in her heart and she knew that wasn't Alex at all.
Yes, he could be a complete asshole in need of a complete attitude adjustment. But she had been his best friend. She had known that all along. She had accepted then and so she couldn't help but let her heart win this time by telling herself that she had to accept it now.
She knew who he was. And she knew she had been lying. So she couldn't help but take the blame as well. And she also knew that she, as well, had an attitude that could match his on because as soon as he walked through the curtain, instead of being happy for him being there and telling the truth like she should have, she was an ass too and immediately let her brain do all the talking
She just wanted to get passed this all and move on with their lives. He was her best friend and she still wanted nothing more than for them to be best friends.
The feeling that started to consume her was unexplainable.
Her heart was aching and lurching inside her chest at the simple thought of finding Alex and making things right between them. She couldn't explain it. Her heart was telling her that she couldn't live without him and she had never felt that way about anyone before.
She was trying to deny the feeling but she couldn't deny the way her heart was feeling right now. She just had to make things right with him. She was going to find him and tell him the truth about everything and she hoped more than anything that he would forgive her and that they could still be friends. Or even possibly more than friends if she didn't try to fight what her heart was clearly telling her.
It was just so indescribable. Whether they were just to continue being friends or whether there could possibly be more, she knew she had to find him and she had to find him now.
She was on her way straight to where she expected him to be.
000
Izzie sat in her cab that was now in drive towards Alex's home. It was his new home but it was also their old home.
She had loved Alex. She always had and she knew she always would.
Life had just happened to her and she knew her calling was elsewhere and so that on-top of just wanting to be an independent woman and figure things out on her own, she left.
She had left Alex. She had left her husband. She had left one of her best friends. She had left one of her persons. And it hurt. And she knew exactly why it hurt.
She knew that Alex, along with Meredith, Christina, and George, before he had passed away, that they had all been her persons. They had never given up on her. They stuck by her side through not only the good but the totally unexpected bad as well. And she had just up and left them.
And it hurt her to think about it.
But she also knew that everything does and was happening and had happened for a reason. That was who she was then and she still knew who she was now. She knew what she had to do and so she did it. And although, she hurt her persons along the way, she couldn't help but still hope that everything would turn out for the best.
She was ready now. She was ready to move forward with her life. She had to make things right with Alex so when the cab pulled up outside and she saw him making his way out the front door, she couldn't stop her mind from going crazy, her heart from racing, or her mouth from saying what she knew she was about to say.
No matter what he said back, she tried convincing herself, she still knew she had to do what she had to do.
And so she opened the cab door and stepped out.
000
Alex had been making his way out of the front door of his house when he saw the cab pull up out of the corner of his eye. He could only see the front nose of it from where he stood but he hoped more than anything that it was Jo and that she too decided that they had and should work this all out.
He quickly made his way down his steps and he couldn't help but question the irony because he felt as if he was just hit by a bus… It was Izzie.
She was there. She had been his person. Or he thought she had been but either way she had always been one of the main persons in his life.
But for some reason, in that moment, he didn't think about just Izzie and the relationship they once shared. When he met his eyes with hers, he couldn't help but think of George, Meredith, and Christina as well.
He didn't understand why they were all his first thought instead of just Izzie. He couldn't explain it but within that moment, he finally started to understand a new realization of not only life but himself.
It wasn't as if he was ever going to just completely forget Izzie like he somehow thought he was going to. He thought he would just be able to wake up one day and that the hurt she had caused him, he would somehow possibly forget.
He then understood why he thought of them all…because they had all been his persons… then. Meredith and Christina obviously still were and even though Izzie wasn't in his life anymore, he still couldn't help but think of her as one his persons as well. She had been such a big part of his life. And he would never deny the fact that he still loved her, he knew a part of him would always love her.
And most importantly, he asked himself what type of man he would be if he actually could not allow himself to still love her?
She was Izzie. She was a kind, sweet, beautiful person and he knew that. Even though she had left him like she did, he couldn't help but feel now that everything was happening and had happened for a reason.
He knew that things change, feelings change, and people change. He would never deny the impact that Izzie had on his life, and as much as he knew that he loved her, he knew that he wasn't …in love with her.
And that's when it hit him. How much he loved her. Just how much he freaking loved her. As much as everyone tried telling him and as much as he tried ignoring it, he knew that he freaking loved her.
He had never kissed her, he had never touched her, and he had never even come close to sleeping with her, and he loved her. He couldn't believe he had allowed himself to be so blind, he freaking loved her. He was never even sure that he had liked her like that and now he freaking loved her.
He never realized it until he looked into Izzie's eyes but he now knew without a doubt that he was in love with Jo Wilson.
Izzie just stood there trapped from thought and movement when she met Alex's eyes with her own. She knew exactly why she had come and she knew exactly what she was thinking and most importantly she knew exactly what she had to do to make this all okay.
She and Alex both knew that they were thinking the same thing… If only they knew that they were thinking the same thing.
They started gravitating slowly towards each other and then Izzie quickly closed the gap between them by pulling Alex into her arms and kissing him.
And he kissed her back. They both meant it with all their hearts. It was true and it was truth. They both knew exactly how each other felt and so they pulled back and looked at each other and spoke at the same time.
"You're Happy!"
And they were. But they were both now in a fact happier than what they ever thought they could be.
That kiss was the closure that they both had needed to move forward with their lives.
Izzie had moved away and met and fell in love with a guy but she had always let her feelings for and towards Alex hold herself back from being happy.
She knew that she had done Alex terribly wrong and so she couldn't fully allow herself to completely give herself to the new man that she let into her life. And she wanted nothing more than to fully love him and truly be happy with him so this was her letting go of her regrets she had with Alex.
Alex realized that when Izzie had moved away, he always let his feelings for her and towards her hold himself back from allowing him on self to love or be loved by anyone else, let alone be happy!
Alex and Izzie loved each other and they always would. There was no reason that they shouldn't. They had been best friends and they could continue to be good friends.
They both realized that they had meant that kiss. And it meant that they now understood fully that everything that ever happened between them happened for a reason because it ultimately led them exactly to where they were meant to be.
And for each of them, that was the one person that they were meant to have for the rest of their lives.
And that was the person they were meant to love in only that loving way for the rest of their lives.
Izzie looked him into his eyes and said what she had to say "There's someone else for Izzie!"
And Alex looked her into her eyes and said what he had to say "There's someone else for Alex!"
They laughed. That was them. And now they knew.
They knew that they had just let go of everything that was holding them back from allowing themselves to not only love themselves but their persons the way that they could and most importantly should.
And with that Izzie walked back towards her cab, Alex opened the door for her, and they smiled at each other.
They were both happy. And so they both allowed themselves to finally go their separate ways.
Izzie knew exactly where she was going and that was to find her person and tell him how much she loved him.
Alex knew exactly where he was going and that was to find his person and tell him how much he loved her.
000
Jo knew exactly why she had gone from walking to running again in an instant. What she didn't realize was how fast she had actually been running because it wasn't until she stopped to catch her breath that she realized she couldn't.
All of the alcohol she had consumed then started to catch up to her…or catch out of her anyway…because she started vomiting right there on the sidewalk where she was currently standing.
She was disgusted. Not only for the fact that she was throwing up but for the fact that she thought she maybe could have actually gotten Alex to not only understand her but forgive her.
After everything she had planned on the bark bench and then after everything she planned on the walk over, although she didn't want to understand why she felt this way, she completely understood why she had in fact changed her mind yet again.
She had been walking, still casually, towards Alex house and she had almost made it to talk to him because she could see him from within a distance from across the street.
And as bad as she wanted to descend in one swift movement and enclose the gap that was in between them.
She couldn't it.
Because she saw what she saw and she would have given anything not to seen it.
And so she had run.
And now she didn't know if she was puking because of the emotional toll her day had had on her, because of how fast she had just been running, or because her heart was breaking at the fact that she had just saw Alex passionately making out with his ex-wife.
She knew without knowing exactly who she was. Even though she had been in the distant, she could see the look in Alex's eyes.
She knew that it was Izzie.
She just knew.
And she now knew she was sick over the fact that she would never have her best friend.
She knew exactly how she felt and she knew she didn't like it.
She had no idea what she was going to do and no idea where she was going to go.