I am sorry if this seems a too much angst. Please bear with me. Hopefully the flashback are compensating that a little.
Once again thank you for your comments they really do make me want to write more faster.
Nick slumped into the nearest chair willing the strength to make the necessary phone calls. He didn't think that he would have it in him to make more than one or two of the call. Their roommates had to know and he also wanted Sadie with Jess. It's not that he didn't trust the doctors, but he had a feeling that they would be concentration more on Jess than the baby he wanted someone to be there for their little one.
He stood up getting his phone out of his pocket glad that he hadn't left it in the car. Which was now probably locked up, not that he cared at that moment in time. He decided to call the loft first hopefully one or more of his roommates will be home.
"Schmidt, Bishop and Miller residents, how may I assist?" Normally Nick would make Schmidt out money in the Jar for that. "Hey Schmidt, is Winston there with you?" Schmidt could hear the tone in Nick's voice "Yeah man, he's here" "Can you put me on speak please." "Ok Nick your on!" "Hey Nick what's up" Winston and Schmidt gave a confused look Nick never rang the main loft phone.
Nick took a big sigh not believing the words that were about to come out of his mouth "Listen guys Jess has been in a car accident. I'm at the hospital now." "God man is she alright." this came from Winston. "No, No she's not." His voice was thick and he was struggling to contain his emotions. "And the baby?" This time from Schmidt. "I don't know." Admitting this out loud was the final push for Nick and he lost it. "Nick, they will be ok you have to believe that. I will call Cece and we will come down to the hospital. You at the general one?" "Yeah I'll be here. They won't let me in with her."
Winston and Schmidt decide to take 2 cars. Nick needed someone down at the hospital with him as soon as possible and Schmidt thought it was best to tell Cece face to face. They each went their separate ways. In the meantime Nick had called Sadie whose office thankfully wasn't far from the office and he had caught her just as she was leaving.
Sadie had just arrived before Winston finding Nick in the waiting room. "Nick what had happened? What have they told you? "Nothing they have told me absolutely nothing." "She is a fighter Nick, and I have no doubt that your little one is too. What can I do?" "Can you please go in there and look after the baby, if anything happens" stopped his sentence "It's just if Jess, when Jess wakes up she will be heartbroken." "You will be too Nick, I will do my best and I will see if I can find out what is going on."
She walked away just as Winston walked in, who didn't say a thing and Just hugged him. Which Nick was thankful for.
Nick sat back down, thinking how good it was that Sadie was their doctor knowing Jess like she does she will look after their baby.
A couple of weeks after Jess had told Nick that she was pregnant they had arranged an appointment with Sadie. Nick was unsure that their doctor should be a good friend but Jess insisted saying that she would trust no one else.
It was still sinking in with Nick about Jess's pregnancy they had barely been married 2 months. Jess had forgotten about the time difference. And 2 months later several pregnancy tests they were booking and appointment to see a doctor. They hadn't told anyone about it, Jess was very suspicious about waiting for the all clear at the 12 weeks mark.
The waiting room terrified Nick, siting here with several pregnant women all at different stages. He was trying to imagine what Jess would look like further on down the line, he just couldn't picture it.
Jess put her hand on his knee. "Calm down Nick." "Don't know what you mean .I'm super calm, calmest I have ever been." The lady next to them who was supporting rather a large stomach chuckled "first one." "Yes we haven't know very long and my husband here is a little nervous." Even in his state of panic Nick couldn't but help but feel good when hearing Jess call him her husband. The two continued to talk babies until Jess was called for by the Nurse
"Mrs Miller?" There was that feeling inside him again. He was sure that he would get use to it eventually "here!"
They moved into the doctors office where the nurse left them for a bit.
"I am going to be completely unprofessional just once then I will be right on track." With that Sadie engulfed Jess in a huge hug "Congratulations you guys. Didn't think it would be this soon. But still."
"No it was a shock for both of us, one of us more than the other" her head not so subtly nodding towards Nick.
All the usual tests were done for a first time visit. And an appointment was made for 4 weeks time for the first sonogram scan. That was when they could tell everyone.
The next few weeks seemed to drag for both of them Jess suffered badly with morning sickness which was very difficult to hide from her other roommates. Thankfully being male and slightly more than clueless when it comes to women, whatever Schmidt might say. Jess couldn't have asked more from Nick he was with her every time she was sick. He was there holding her hair back, rubbing her back softly. Nick even ordered a case of non alcoholic pink wine for the bar, so Jess could pretend to drink. All he had to do was make sure that he was the one serving them. There was even a few times that she was so exhausted she fell asleep on the sofa and Nick would carry her to bed.
Finally the 4 weeks were up and they were going to get to see their baby for the first time.
Once again Nick was sitting in the scary waiting room. Jess was very quiet this time. "Jess what's wrong, you were so excited this morning?" "I'm scared Nick, what if something's wrong, what if I did something to harm the baby?" "Jess it's going to be fine, you have been amazing these last couple of weeks I don't know how you got through them. You will see this baby will be just as stubborn as you are." "I'm not stubborn, if anyone is stubborn it's you." "Really Jess, you really don't believe that you of all people are stubborn." "Ok maybe just a little." Nick have her a look as if to say yeah right. She was about to argue further, you know just to prove how un stubborn she was. When her name was called.
Nick stood up but Jess remained seated. "It be fine Jess, you can do this." He reached out her hand and she stood up grabbing on to it extremely tightly, and they walked into Sadie's office.
"Hey Jess, how you been?" "Ugh not good ill be glad to have gotten the last months out the way." Sadie laughed "Ah yes I remember it well. Now do guys want to do the fun part or the not so much fun part."
Jess got the look of panic once again squeezing Nick's hand even tighter which he didn't think was possible. "I think it might be best if we can do the scan first, my hand may not survive much longer otherwise."
Nick was strangely calm he hadn't thought about what was really going on and also he had to be the calm one for Jess.
"Great Jess of you could go behind that curtain and put on one of those oh so fashionable gowns. I will set the machine up for you."
When Jess was all set on the bed Sadie came over to put the Jelly on her still flat stomach "This will be a bit cold." Jess just nodded staring at the ceiling. Nick watched Sadie in fascination trying to take it in. When she put the scan on to Jess's stomach Nick jumped slightly at the sudden noise which sounded like water in a tank. Then he heard it he new what it had to be before Sadie told them, he looked at Jess who was now smiling. The smile on her face lit up the room. "You may have guess that, that is your baby's heartbeat. "
"It sounds so fast." Jess's voice was so quiet so un-Jess like. "That's normal don't worry. And now the fun part. I've taken a picture so I will leave you two alone for a minute" She turned the screen around, smiled at them and walked out the room so they could share this moment alone.
Nick looked at Jess her smile was one he had never seen before it was complete and utter joy mixed in with relief. "That's our baby Nick." Her eyes were filled with tears.
He looked back at the screen and it hit him. This was their baby. They were going to be parents "I'm going to be a father." He was meant to think the last part but it came out instead his voice was pure wonderment. No panic, no self doubting. They could do this, together. He place a gentle kiss on her forehead "I love you." Jess wiped her eyes "I love you too Nick."
When the rest of the appointment was they walked out the office with happier and relaxed than when they walked in. The set of photos they each had helped. "You ready to tell the others now Jess?" "I don't think I can't not tell them any longer especially now." "Thank god." As they walked outside Jess was slightly ahead of Nick. When he grabbed her arm and pulled her to him not unlike their first kiss after that dam game of True American. He held her face in his hands and kissed her for Jess he was putting all the live he had for her into his kiss and Jess was going to make darn sure that she did the same. "Come on let's go home and scare Uncle Schmidt and Uncle Winston into their graves." Jess tipped her head back laughing a little louder than necessary. Only Nick could kiss her that made her want to cry and then make her laugh a second later.
Back in the waiting room Schmidt, Cece and Winston were all sitting aroundNick. Cece's head was on Schmidt shoulder and his arm was around her. There were a lot of red eyes between them and the occasional sniff. For a group that were normal loud, who laughed a lot and teased each other. They were extremely subdued. Nick had filled out what felt like a mounting of paperwork. Some with things he did not want to think about. But at least he had something to do. Now all he had to do was wait, he was not good at waiting at the best of times.
Sadie started to walk over to them. Nick jumped up at seeing her the others closely behind him. "Well what the hell is going on?"
"Jess is having to go down for surgery she hit her head pretty hard and there is some swelling they need to sort out. As well as a few of her other injury's that aren't as serious."
Nick knew he had to ask but didn't want to dreading the answer. "And the baby?"
"At the moment the baby is fine, the heartbeat is strong. But there is a lot going on for Jess..." She couldn't finish that sentence, she was trying to be professional but when she saw Jess laying on that table it hit her harder than she thought it would.
"We could still loose the baby can't we?"
"Under the circumstances Nick the baby is doing well at the moment, try to focus on that, instead of the what ifs. I will stay with Jess and the baby right through the surgery, ill try to look after them ok"
He knew she was right it what Jess would do, she wouldn't focus on what if. But he wasn't Jess. He went sat back down in his seat knowing there would be a hell of a wait to go before he got anymore answers.
a.n sorry if got any of the medical bits incorrect