Dr. Clarke Griffin: I'm free at 2pm you wanna meet at the hospital cafeteria?

Lexa Woods: I'll bring Chinese takeout. The usual?

Dr. Clarke Griffin: Yes, please.

When 2 pm came around Lexa was sitting on their usual table in the cafeteria her legs bouncing up and down. She had been a nervous wreck all day long. Only thinking about Clarke above her, riding her like there's no tomorrow and their talk and the possible outcome.

She didn't want to lose Clarke which was why she hid her feelings in the first place but she wasn't sure if she was ready for a relationship with her either. Lexa checked her watch again 2.05 pm Clarke was late. Not that Lexa blamed her, she knew how busy the blonde was and wouldn't hold it against her. Especially considering that she herself had often stood Clarke spontaneously up because she was too busy to take a break.

"Lexa, it's good to see you. Are you meeting with Clarke?" Lexa turned around to see Clarke's mom Abby standing behind her.

"Yes, we're supposed to have lunch together. Do you want to sit?"

"No, thank you. I have to be back upstairs in a few. Anyway, last time I checked she was still in surgery but that over an hour ago, I'm sure she'll be done soon. See you around."

The thing about Abby was that she always seemed to know more than she let on. Lexa was sure that she didn't have to be upstairs in a few minutes but was grateful for the chance to sort her confusing feelings until Clarke showed up.

She was once again interrupted but this time by the right Griffin who didn't hesitate to take the seat opposite her.

"So how's your day so far?" Clarke asked while she grabbed one of the takeout boxes.

"The usual, although I have to wear my hair open so no one can see the hickey on my neck. Thank you again." She said when she opened her own box and started to pick at the food. She wasn't even hungry, her nervousness overshadowing any kind of hunger she might have felt. Clarke on the other hand was obviously starving because she scarfed her food down and was finished within minutes. It was something she had learned during her residency because you could never know when the next opportunity to eat would arise.

"Well, I think it looks good on you."

"The bruise or my hair?"

"Both. You should wear your hair like that more often."

Lexa nodded, never comfortable when the blonde complimented her. She poked her food a bit before deciding that she wouldn't eat it anyway and pushed it away.

"Lex, you don't have to worry. We're going to be fine." Clarke said, taking Lexa's hands into her own. Her thumb stroking the back of her hand gently.

"We will?"

"Yeah we will be. Let's just talk and see where it leads us, alright?"

Lexa nodded curtly.

"Right so… I think we've established that we have feelings for each other and we've already acted on them so I guess the big question is whether we will continue to do that or not. Do you want to?"

"I'm not sure if I can be in a relationship. I'm not good with that whole stuff… I don't want to lose you because I'm a screw up." Clarke held her hands up to silence her.

"Before you say anything else that might make me angry because how can someone as intelligent as you be so stupid? Lexa, I've told you before that you're not a screw up, that you aren't damaged goods or anything like that. We all have shit to deal with in life and I know that what you've been through is horrible but you haven't let that hinder you in the past so don't start now." She took a deep breath before continuing. "I get that you don't want to get hurt or lose me because I don't want to either but think about it. All of our friends thought that we were in a secret relationship until we convinced them otherwise. We already behave like we're in a relationship sans the kissing and sex. So how about we just continue to do things like they are without hiding our feelings for each other."

Lexa considered this. When she thought about it Clarke was right and what she was saying made complete sense, it also lessened her panic considerably. It also made her feel kind of stupid.

"Well, if you put it like that…" she looked at Clarke and smiled. Suddenly she was sure that she could do it, she could be in a relationship with the blonde without screwing up too much.

"Great now that that is settled we can go back to lunch."

"I'm not hungry" Lexa said, still not in the mood even after the tension has left her body.

However, Clarke wouldn't take a no for an answer. "You need to eat, you already eat too little."

"Excuse me? I'll let you know that I eat plenty." Lexa said indignantly.

"Sure you do, babe."

"I like it when you call me babe."

"Don't change the subject. You're going to eat that and I'm going to sit here and watch." Clarke leaned back into the chair, trying to find a more comfortable position. She's been observing Lexa's eating habits ever since she realized how thin the brunette actually was. It was part of the reason why she insisted that they ate together on Thursdays and at least once a week during lunch. The time she could spent with Lexa was another major reason but that didn't matter right now because she was really worried about the brunette.

"I think that there are actually people who get turned on by watching people eat, Clarke. Should I be worried?" Lexa grumbled when she grabbed the box again. She couldn't believe that Clarke was forcing her to eat. It's not like she had an eating disorder or anything, she just occasionally forgot to eat.

When she took her first bite she looked at Clarke and raised an eyebrow. "Go on, there's still a lot left and I have time, which we could spent with more…pleasurable activities but I guess that'll have to wait."

"You're mean." Lexa said between bites.

"I'm giving you an incentive."

"No, you're teasing me. We don't have the time, also we're in the hospital."

Clarke could only shake her head and click disapprovingly at Lexa's ignorance. There were worse places than on call rooms to have sex in.

"So what? Do you really think that people don't have sex in the hospital? Just last week I walked in on Maya and Jasper while-…"

"Do not, under any circumstances, finish that sentence or I might puke." Clarke raised her hands in surrender but couldn't help chuckling ant Lexa's obvious discomfort. It was too easy to tease her.

"Anywaay…" Clarke drawled out. "Back to business. You're right we don't have enough time buuut I'm free after my shift ends. Maybe, if you want to, we can come over to my place before we meet up at Raven's and I'll see what I can do about that incentive we've been talking about."

Lexa could feel the excitement coursing through her veins. She had been on edge the whole day their morning activities still fresh on her mind and the fact that Clarke had left in the middle of a make out session that left her all hot and bothered.

"Please don't tell me you have a 24 hour shift."

"I'm out of here around eight and we don't have to be at Raven's till ten or so, which gives us about two hours if we get there a little later."

"God I wish I could kiss you right now." Lexa said disappointed.

"Just a few more hours and I'll be all yours." Her hand moved atop Lexa's and patted it gently.

"I can't wait" and with that she put the last bite into her mouth and smiled proudly at Clarke. After the first few bites she had actually started to enjoy her lunch, obviously hungrier than she initially thought. Not that she would ever admit that to Clarke, she had the feeling the blonde knew already anyways.

"I'm proud of you, Lex" she said just before her pager went off to signal her that she was needed upstairs. "I have to go now"

"I'll pick you up. That way we'll safe time."

"Amazing. See you then" The blonde turned around and quickly walked to the staircase. She couldn't wait for her shift to be over.

Lexa watched her go, admiring her as until the blonde was out of sight. It was going to be a long day. She dreaded going back to the office, not in the mood to deal with clueless interns and lazy associates. Sometimes she hated her job.

Luckily it wasn't as bad as she'd expected, maybe the universe took pity on her. She looked at her clock and realized she still had an hour left till eight which meant that she could pack her things and go in 30 minutes. As usual she was the last one at the office even Indra had left already to go to a kickboxing class. Deciding that she wouldn't get anything done anyway Lexa packed her things and headed to her car. She would figure out what to do with the extra 30 minutes.

Her cell rang when she got in the car. It was Raven.

Raven Reyes: could u bring some beer?

The Commander: how many do you want?

Raven Reyes: dunno. its only you, O, anya, the princess and me.

The Commander: will do

Looks like she knew what she would do before driving to the hospital.

Lexa arrived at the hospital at 7.59. At exactly eight Clarke exited the building with a huge smile plastered on her face when she saw Lexa leaning against the passenger door.

"You know I can open the door by myself, right?"

"Yeah but if I'd stayed in the car I wouldn't be able to do that." Lexa answered before she gave Clarke a kiss on the lips. Their lips moved effortlessly against each other before Clarke pulled back and looked around.

"Nobody saw, relax." She said somewhat irritated. While she was relatively inexperienced in the whole relationship department she knew that showing affection, even in public, was common. She had observed it often enough with her friends.

"I don't want to hide this, Lex. I just have to get used to it, alright?" Clarke explained when she saw the frown on Lexa's face.

"Okay."

Lexa opened the door waiting for Clarke to get in before she rounded the car and opened her own door. It was awkward between them, something that usually didn't happen to them. Ever since they met it had been easy going when they were interacting with each other but now that they'd talked about their feelings and were in a relationship things started to get uncomfortable. Maybe this whole thing wasn't such a great idea after all.

"I know what you're thinking and it's not true." Clarke said.

"No you're not" Lexa challenged.

"You're thinking that being in a relationship with me is a mistake. That it would've been better to just stay friends but I disagree. Just because we aren't used to it yet doesn't mean that we never will get used to it." she knew that she had hit the nail on the head when she saw Lexa clenching her jaw.

"How do you do it?" Lexa asked astonished that the blonde knew what she was thinking.

"I know you better than you know yourself" she smirked at Lexa.

"Prove it." The brunette challenged, knowing exactly how competitive Clarke could be. Her face was void of any emotions that could give away what she was thinking about, Raven always called it her Commander face.

"Okay, if you really want to."

"Quit stalling and tell me what I'm thinking about." Lexa looked at her briefly before looking at the road ahead again.

"You're thinking about that one time we were at Anya's place with the others and made a drinking game out of who wants to be a millionaire. Every time someone wouldn't know the answer or got it wrong they had to do a shot. When someone answered correctly they could choose someone that had to do a shot." Clarke had to grin at the memory, it was one of the firsts times that they had met all together.

"You didn't know that I was the unbeaten champion of the game so you challenged me even though everybody told you that you didn't stand a chance against me. After you puked your guts out you passed out in the tub. It was hilarious." She grinned triumphantly when Lexa huffed.

"Seriously, how do you do that?"

"I told you, I know you better than you know yourself."

Lexa looked out of the window but snapped her head back when she had an idea.

"Okay then tell me about myself"

"You sure you want me to do that? Because if you're in a bad mood afterwards and ruin our plans I'll tell Raven who borrowed her favorite screwdriver without asking and then lost it"

Lexa considered briefly, there was a good chance that she'd be in a bad mood, she's always been a sore loser. But nothing could stop her from sleeping with Clarke tonight not even her ego.

"I promise"

"Just remember what happens when you break it."

With the current traffic they would arrive later than they originally anticipated but still with enough time to spare before they had to go.

"Okay so I'll ask you questions about myself that you have to answer. For every wrong answer you have to give me a kiss. Sound good?"

"Seems like I can't lose."

"Ready?"

"Ready" and so it began.

"What's my favorite animated movie?"

"Easy enough, the lion king" Clarke answered quickly.

"That was an easy one, I would've been disappointed if you didn't know that. What shoe size do I wear?"

"7.5 or 8 depending on the shoes"

"How could you possibly know that?" Lexa asked incredulously.

"You wanted to borrow my shoes a while ago but they didn't fit. You ended up taking Anya's even though they were too big, because she has a size 9 and I know that because we went shoe shopping last week."

She was impressed, not only did Clarke her shoe size but Anya's as well. If someone had asked her how big her best friend's feet were she wouldn't have had an answer except that they were big.

"You should have been a detective. How the fuck is that attentive?"

"I am, obviously and I told you you'd lose. Next question?"

Lexa had to pick something difficult, she couldn't lose.

"Okay how about my most embarrassing experience."

"That's unfair. How am I supposed to choose? You do so many embarrassing things."

It was true. Lexa was not only an easily embarrassed person but embarrassment seemed to follow her wherever she went. There were so many things Clarke could choose it really wasn't fair but she needed to win and hopefully the blonde would at least get this one wrong.

"Was it the first time you were in court and had an erection?"

She didn't even know what to say she had never told anyone that story. The only person that knew was Anya and that was because she was there. That bitch…

"I can't believe she told you. She told me she would never tell anyone! I'm going to kill her later." Lexa exclaimed. Now she was angry. Not only did Clarke get the question right but she's been betrayed by her best friend. She would totally kick ass later that night.

"Don't be angry at her, babe. She was drunk when she told us." Clarke tried to calm her just when Lexa entered the garage of her apartment building.

"Who else knows?!"

"Not many" she tried to evade the answer because she knew that Lexa was fuming.

"Clarke" she growled out because her patience was running thin. Even though, it wasn't the blonde's fault.

"The usual clique and my mom" she whispered, hoping against hope that Lexa wouldn't hear. Of course she did heard and Clarke knew then and there that her plans for the night were ruined.

This was only confirmed when Lexa got out of the car and slammed the door shut so hard that the car shook. She knew that this whole game had been a bad idea. With a loud sigh she got out of the car and made her way over to Lexa who was staring at the walls like she would tear them apart with her bare hands.

"Lexa, please." Clarke said when she came up behind her, purposely not touching the upset brunette. "It doesn't matter. What happened to you could have happened to anyone, it's not that big of a deal."

"Could we please not talk about it?"

Clarke decided that it was better to let it be for a while before addressing the subject again. Even if she had originally planned on telling Raven about the screwdriver she wouldn't do so now, not after seeing how upset Lexa was. There would be a more appropriate time for to cash in.

The elevator ride up was filled with tense silence. Clarke knew that her girlfriend didn't like to be touched when she was upset and normally she would try to calm her with word but Lexa had made it abundantly clear that she didn't want to talk.

"Let's watch some documentary and cuddle on the couch. We don't have to go if you don't feel like it."

"I don't want to ruin the night any more" Lexa said, disappointed at herself for being so affected by the situation. The last 24 hours were a huge emotional rollercoaster for her and she didn't do emotions very well.

"You're not. Netflix does sound kinda tempting and I'm still sore from our morning activity." She said when she opened the door to her apartment.

"You're just saying that to make me feel better." Lexa muttered with a pout.

"Well, I mean kind of. But I don't care what we do as long as we're together. Also, I didn't lie about me being sore."

"You're such a sap" In the last few moments her mood had become significantly better, Clarke just had that effect on her.

"Nah, just honest."

"Can we watch one about squids?" Lexa asked hopefully.

"Of course we can, even if I know that you've watched every single one available." The blonde gave her a kiss on the forehead before going into the kitchen. Lexa would never not be impressed by Clarke.