Life during a war
Chapter 18: Gender
Today is the day that Tobias and I find out the gender of our baby. I want a boy and he wants a girl, but we don't mind as long as they're healthy. Christina and the rest of the girls were adamant on throwing us a gender reveal party, but we're not allowed to so we're just going to tell them the gender and maybe play some games or watch some movies.
Right now Tobias and I are heading to the infirmary for our appointment with Hana which starts in fifteen minutes. It's scary walking around here now, there are factionless everywhere, with guns and other weapons in their hands, ready to hurt or kill anyone that goes out of line.
There are tons of new rules now. You can't go out after ten at night or before eight in the morning. You can't run through the streets or anything. They killed a little boy for running to catch up with his mum in the pit, he was only like five years old. You can't have loud parties like the ones Zeke and Uriah used to have. They aren't happy about that at all. You have to eat what you're given, and with me being twenty weeks pregnant it is extremely difficult because there are some foods that really make me want to be sick, or there are foods that aren't good for the baby, like fried eggs with a soft/raw yolk, Tobias sneakily takes it off my plate and eats it for himself. Also, I'm not getting enough food for a pregnant person. They're rationing us so we can only have certain amounts of food. The others keep sneaking foods on my plate when no one is looking so I get more but they're getting worried, I can tell. I am too. I've lost weight and I'm losing the nutrients my baby needs. Breakfast is at nine and finishes at ten. Lunch is at twelve and finishes at one. Dinner is at six and finishes at seven. We have been stashing foods in the apartment for when I'm hungry but it's still not enough, I'm getting weaker.
They have all been staying at our place so they can keep an eye on me and make sure I'm all right.
We arrive at the infirmary and sign in before sitting in the waiting room.
"Are you feeling all right?" He asks me.
"I'm tired, hungry, and I'm getting cramps again." I tell him as I rub my stomach.
"It's going to be all right." He says.
Five minutes later Hana comes in with a smile on her face, she calls my name and we follow her into her room where I see a pile of food on her table.
"We have to do the ultrasound then you can eat, okay." She says.
I nod and get on the bed, pulling up my shirt. She sets up the machine and squirts the gel on my stomach before putting the wand on it and moving it around. It isn't long before our baby appears on the screen and the sound of his/hers heart beat fills the room. Tears fill my eyes as I look at our child.
"Do you want to know the gender?" She asks.
"Yes please." I reply.
"Looks like you're going to have a little… boy." She says.
I look at Tobias and see him smiling the cutest smile ever, tears are filling his eyes. I smile at him before looking back out our little boy, a tear falls down my cheek at the thought of our son.
"Is he okay?" I ask, worried because I haven't had enough food and she knows it.
"Yeah, he's fine, but the longer you go without the food you need the worse things are going to get." She says. "Have you been getting those cramps and pains again?"
"Yeah." I answer.
"Okay. I'll print you off a picture. You wipe yourself off and get some food in you." She says before pressing some buttons on the machine and removing the wand from my stomach, giving me some paper towels which I wipe my stomach with. I pull my shirt down and get off the bed, walking over to the table, sitting in one of the chairs and I start eating some of the food she has for me. I watch as she gives Tobias a picture of the scan and they both come and sit with me. Hana sits in her chair behind her desk and Tobias sits in the chair next to mine.
"We need to leave the city." Hana says.
"But there could be less food for her out there." Tobias says.
"Yeah, but then we can take food with us, and there has to be something out there. We can pick things up from the Amity farms, they'll let us have stuff, and the factionless don't guard the farms so we'll be fine. But we have to leave the city because if they aren't letting her have the amount of food or type of food she needs then…" She cuts herself off.
"Then what?" I ask, scared.
"The worst case scenario is that you could lose the baby, or go into labour extremely early and the baby will be too sick to survive without twenty four hour nurses, and the factionless aren't even allowing doctors or nurses to work after ten or before eight. But those are the worst case scenarios. The best case scenario is that the baby survives but isn't healthy and still needs medical attention, just not for as long as an extremely premature baby does. You would probably go into labour at around thirty four weeks gestation, three weeks before the baby is classed as full term, and it may need help breathing and with other things. But right now, unless you get more food, that's the best that it's going to be. So we need to leave. Being here isn't good for either of them. Tris is getting weaker, she's losing weight, and the baby is going to be born early. She needs food and the only way she's going to get it is if we leave, and we need to leave soon." Hana says.
I feel tears in my eyes. My baby is either going to die or be unhealthy.
I stand up and leave the room, not being able to take it. I get to the waiting room and that's when the pain comes, I grab hold of one of the chairs and cry out in pain.
Tobias and Hana rush over to me as I fall to the floor, my knees buckling from under me. Tobias catches me and puts me down gently, onto the floor. He sits down with me as more people rush over to us.
"Tris, you need to calm down okay. You need to breathe." Hana tells me. "I know it's hard, and I know you're scared but you need to come down for the sake of your little boy."
I try taking deep breaths but the pain comes back and I cry out in pain again as tears stream down my face.
"Breathe Tris. You have to breathe." Hana tells me.
"I can't." I cry.
"Yes, you can. Just take deep breaths, okay. In and out. In and out. In and out." She says.
I do what she tells me to do and soon enough the pain has gone.
I sit there, on the floor, in Tobias' arms crying into his shirt.
"It's okay. It's okay. It's going to be okay." He says to me as he rubs my back.
"I'm scared." I tell him, still crying.
"I know, but it's going to be okay, I promise." He says before kissing the top of my head.
"We need to leave the city." Hana whispers to us before standing up and leaving the waiting room. She comes back a few minutes later with some food and she gives it to me.
I start eating the food.
"When she's eaten that you should probably get her home and in bed. Make sure she rests, give her as much food as you can, and water as well." Hana says. Tobias nods and Hana leaves us again.
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We arrive home to find Tori, Christina, Harrison, Bud, Will, Uriah, Zeke, Marlene, Shauna and Lynn sitting in various places in the living room, laughing and talking about random things. Tobias is holding both of my hands as we enter to stop me from falling, I still feel weak and I'm shaken up from what happened in the infirmary. He shuts the door with his foot and everyone looks at us.
"What happened?" Christina asks, worried.
"I'm going to get her to bed, okay." Tobias says before leading me to our bedroom and putting me in our bed, covering me over with the blanket.
"Can you stay with me?" I ask.
"Always." He says before getting in our bed, wrapping his arm around me and kissing me. "I love you, Tris, and our son."
I would reply, but I'm too far gone.
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