Chapter 11 – Stamford

[09:48pm] You know the feeling when you can't stop thinking about how you should just have stayed home instead of going out?

[09:53pm] I definitely know the feeling, Rach

[09:54pm] We could be watching the ball drop on the tv and eating popcorn and complaining about what a shitty year this was

[10:02pm] Come on, it wasn't that shitty

[10:03pm] It was a big year for you

[10:11pm] You're right, it wasn't shitty at all

[10:12pm] But I still would rather be home

[10:16pm] I wouldn't be so annoyed if there weren't so many drunk people around

[10:24pm] Do they annoy you?

[10:29pm] Only when they try to convince me to drink

[10:30pm] Which is happening a lot tonight

[10:37pm] Ugh, I'm sorry to hear that

[10:38pm] Let's think positively

[10:39pm] At least none of us is freezing at Times Square

[10:43pm] That honestly sounds like the worst idea ever, I don't get how people fall for it

[10:49pm] I /might/ have done it on my first year here

[10:52pm] That was not a smart move

[10:56pm] Definitely not

[10:56pm] I just couldn't see it back then

[10:57pm] But I'm sure Kurt will never let me outlive that

[11:01pm] God, poor boy

[11:02pm] Also, at least none of us are in Lima with drunk parents

[11:13pm] That's true! Thank goodness!

[11:14pm] My dads get so inappropriated and lovey-dovey when they're drunk

[11:18pm] My dad just gets more of an asshole than he already is

[11:24pm] Is that why you stopped drinking?

[11:29pm] Partially, but there are a lot of other reasons

[11:33pm] I'm not drinking tonight either

[11:37pm] Why not?

[11:41pm] Everyone's drinking too much

[11:42pm] I'm afraid something could happen to me and no one would be able to help

[11:48pm] Smart thinking

[11:48pm] I'm glad we're both sober then

[11:52pm] It's so close to midnight already! I feel too pressured about this whole new year thing!

[11:56pm] Why is that?

[12:00am] Happy New Year!

[12:00am] Happy new year, beautiful!

[12:01am] Jinx!

[12:01am] I don't know why I feel pressured...

[12:02am] I think it has to do with that ''new year, new you'' thing

[12:03am] I'm not sure I wanna be a new me

[12:08am] Well, I was going to say I hope you don't change cause I think you're pretty awesome already

[12:09am] But I've found out that changes aren't exactly bad

[12:10am] So I guess I wouldn't mind if you changed a little, but it would be okay if you didn't

[12:10am] So basically, no need to feel pressured

[12:16am] That is quite reassuring, actually

[12:17am] Do you have any New Year's resolutions?

[12:22am] Not really

[12:23am] Should probably come up with some

[12:23am] Do you?

[12:28am] I'm gonna try to focus more on school, you know, since it's the last semester

[12:29am] I don't want to remember of it as a burden, so I wanna try to really enjoy the few classes I'll have this year

[12:30am] But at the same time, I wanna give all I can to the play in a way that I know if it doesn't make Broadway it's not because I didn't try hard enough

[12:31am] Those are all about "work" though

[12:31am] In the personal aspect, I want to be able to connect more with people

[12:32am] Like reach out to people I drifted away from, and to make sure I can keep people I love close to me

[12:38am] Those are very well thought

[12:39am] And here was I thinking like "maybe I should drink more water"

[12:44am] Dumbass lol

[12:45am] Although it wouldn't be that bad if you set "healthier eating habits" as a resolution

[12:51am] Well you are not wrong

[12:52am] But really, it's not very reallistic

[12:52am] I don't have time to cook everyday, even though I like it a lot

[12:53am] And it's much cheaper to eat out on a fast food than to eat healthy meals

[12:58am] We live in a real fucked up country

[01:05am] Yeah, well, that part isn't my fault

[01:09am] True

[01:10am] I think I'm gonna head home

[01:10am] I've got enough of this lame ass party

[01:13am] I'm already on my merry way

[01:16am] Great minds think alike!

[01:18am] I thought you liked parties!

[01:24am] I do! It's just that I didn't really know anyone there

[01:26am] Most of my friends travelled, so I ended up coming to friend's friend party

[01:27am] Which was not a good idea

[01:32am] Totally get you

[01:33am] So done with this cold weather

[01:34am] There's no better feeling than walking in my warm home and getting wrapped up in blankets

[01:39am] Just got home too!

[01:40am] But I actually like the Winter

[01:46am] I've always known you're crazy

[01:52am] Come on, snow is so beautiful!

[01:57am] Well yeah, but it's kinda annoying when you go outside and can literally die if you don't have enough coats

[02:03am] At least you know you won't get sweaty!

[02:07am] That's why people created deodorants

[02:09am] I think we're just gonna have to agree to disagree on that one

[02:12am] I think you're right

[02:15am] I think I'm ready to sleep!

[02:18am] First

[02:19am] Let me tell you that I'm very happy you were the first one to wish me a happy new year

[02:20am] Because you were basically one of the greatest surprises this year brought me

[02:20am] So... yeah

[02:25am] You can be so sweet when you want to

[02:29am] Yeah, don't get used to it

[02:31am] You keep saying that

[02:32am] But you're being sweet more and more frequent

[02:33am] I guess you're losing control of New Quinn, she's not so badass anymore

[02:36am] Oh bite me

[02:38am] Goodnight, Quinnie Quinn!

[02:40am] Goodnight, Rach

[02:58am] Ps. You're also one of the best things about last year

[02:59am] Thank you for always being around!

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[07:00am] Good morning!

[07:04am] Quinn, this is really adorable and I love it, but you don't have to wake up so early just to keep me company

[07:09am] Although I'm very happy that I'll be able to sleep more on my days off, today is not one of them

[07:10am] I got an extra shift this morning, so I need to get up anyway

[07:15am] Oh really? Why?

[07:19am] I'll probably end up going to Lima for a couple days sometime this month, so I'm already making up my hours in advance

[07:24am] You didn't tell me you were going back!

[07:33am] There's nothing really planned yet, but my mom's been bugging me for a while

[07:48am] Oh, got it

[07:50am] God, I'm so sleepy

[07:58am] It's the first day of the year Rach, you could have slept in

[08:02am] I couldn't actually, I got a lot to do...

[08:03am] I should just have gone to sleep earlier but I didn't want to cause I like talking to you perhaps a little too much

[08:11am] I know, I'm very infatuating

[08:16am] Also very conceited

[08:20am] Well, the world wouldn't be able to handle a perfect Quinn Fabray

[08:25am] I'm not sure I can disagree with you on that

[08:28am] Are you at work already?

[08:32am] Yeah, my shift started at 7

[08:32am] But as you can imagine, no one has showed up for coffee this early on January 1st

[08:40am] Lucky you don't work at NYC then, because I'm in line at a deli for almost 10 minutes now

[08:46am] That's probably people who still didn't go to sleep

[08:50am] Probably

[09:02am] I'm so bored

[09:03am] What you thinking about? :)

[09:09am] You, always

[09:10am] Also sleep

[09:14am] And how amazing a NY bagel would be right now

[09:17am] I'll eat one on your behalf

[09:22am] Oh well, thanks a lot

[09:24am] We're finally starting to get a few costumers, so I'll get to work now

[09:25am] Talk to you later alright?

[09:28am] Okay! Have fun at work!

[09:31am] Not really possible, but thanks!

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[12:07pm] Hi, are you still busy?

[12:08pm] I'm bored out of my mind

[12:09pm] [1 file attached] x

[12:10pm] This is a picture of me eating your bagel

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[02:26pm] How annoying would it be

[02:27pm] If I kept texting you to no end

[02:28pm] While you were trying to focus

[02:29pm] Because I'm so bored

[02:30pm] So lonely

[02:31pm] Dying alone

[02:32pm] So sad

[02:33pm] Just letting you know

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[05:51pm] Quinn are you ignoring me?

[05:52pm] You know, that won't work

[05:54pm] I'm too pretty to be ignored

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[09:01pm] Quinn, did something happen?

[09:02pm] Did I do something wrong?

[09:02pm] I'm starting to get really worried here, please text me back

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[You have 4 lost calls from Rachel Superstar Berry]

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[01:13am] I was thinking

[01:14am] How could I go for so long without you and without knowing anything about you

[01:15am] And now I can't go on one day without your texts?

[01:15am] I miss you

[01:16am] And I hope everything is okay