Dean pushed Nathanael angry, "You Made Me Believe In You!" he roared angry. "You Made Me Love You!" Dean shook his head "I Refuse To Love You Anymore!" Nathanael just smiled and laughed.

"Ever heard you can't choose who you fall in love with?"

"Ever heard of deciding to stay or go?" Nathanael shook his head.

"Why must it be this with you? You push, you run, you shout, you hate. Why not stay? Huh? Am I that horrible to love?"

"You tricked me into falling in love with you!" Dean accused. Nathanael shook his head laughing, he gripped Dean's arms shaking him.

"I love you fool. You need to stop this. No matter what I will love you. I think. Believe that you were born for me sometimes. In my eyes you're perfect." Nathanael stroked Dean's cheek, "so shattered Dean, your so shattered why can't you just let me put u together then mess up the pieces."

"Then what huh? What will happen when you crack the big Dean puzzle?"

"I'd admire you for ever." Nathanael touched the mirror Dean's image started to fade, "I'd love you forever."

"You could love her to." And he was gone. Nathanael closed his eyes and started to weep in heart sorrow.

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Nathanael entered the bar seeing Dean standing at the corner his weight supporting on his left arm leaning over a blushing girl, Nathanael had heard the murmurs of promises of a good night. Dean's arousal thick with the females that pressed her slim body against Dean's that pressed his body against hers. As if he felt that he was watched Dean looked up at him with a crooked grin nodding at him in a greeting. Nathanael had closed in leaning against the wall in front of her smirking at Dean.

The female looked like she won the lottery, she looked at him and her arousal grew thicker. "Hey Dean." Nathanael greeted soothing almost in the verge of seducing, Dean just grinned at him.

"Nathanael." He replied in a greeting and went back to the female that's interest changed. "I was just about to leave with this young lady." Dean explained charming and the girl flashed him a smile, "ready?" he asked the girl that shook her head.

"On the second hand why don't we just hang out here for awhile?" she asked purring licking her lips as she looked at Nathanael. Dean had blinked surprised, Nathanael couldn't help but to chuckle it must be the very first time it ever happened to Dean. Being stood up or having the female leaving him for another guy. Dean shook his head as if he heard wrong.

"Huh?"

"She said she wanted to hang out here for a while." Nathanael replied with a crooked smile seducing licking his lips, but not for the female. He breathed in Dean's scent his arousal gone as if someone just pushed him into a cold shower. Dean had narrowed his eyes down at him in a are you changeling me at my game? Nathanael had replied with a quirk and glancing at the girl in a huff saying that he wasn't interested in her. Dean had stopped narrowing his eyes but still mad at him.

"I'm gonna leave you two love birds alone." He had said loud bitterly pushing himself of the wall.

"What?!" the girl squealed, "stay." She purred, "we all can have a good time." She suggested husky touching Dean's chest that gently brushed her hand away.

"Honey don't swing that way." Dean replied cold shooting him a very angry look before taking off to the bar. Nathanael had brushed the girl off that purred at him and he followed Dean to the bar, "what? Gonna bone me here to?" Nathanael had chuckled. Flashing the bartender a smile and dark seducing eyes and soon two beers were in front of them with two shots free of charge and Nathanael looked at Dean that took the shoot like a pro.

"Sorry, wasn't my intention." Nathanael said he couldn't stop smiling.

"Ya sure?" Nathanael had stiffed a chuckle cuz Dean had sounded like a little boy asking its friend if they really were best friend's.

"Wouldn't do that to a friend." He offered charmingly and flashed Dean a smile that had flashed him a smile but then his eyes had travelled.

"Good then you'll just stay here while I'll go to those fine girls." Dean had said distracted before taking off, Nathanael had seen Dean chat a girl up that left with him and her friend hot in their heel's begging to let her join them.

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Nathanael greeted Dean by the gate, Maggie running towards the manor leaving them alone, "Dean." He breathed out in relief the wind cold the autumn at them. He wanted to embrace Dean that was dressed in nothing but a t-shirt that was dirty so was his jeans Maggie and him had walked the past miles Nathanael had scented them. Dean had dragged out this moment.

His hand didn't listen to his brain but heart it went out to stroke Dean's cheek that gripped his wrist stopping him, "I came back for the pack. You and me… are over." Nathanael stumbled a little, he blinked away what could have been tears he couldn't speak he looked down in pain then at Dean his lips sucked into his teeth to keep them from trembling. Dean looked at him then away as if it hurt him to hurt him. "Don't make it…"

"Harder for you?" Nathanael asked shaky, "make it easy for you?"

"This was a mistake…"

"No. It wasn't. Stay." Dean looked at him then nodded they turned to go towards the manor a distance between them, Nathanael could smell hunts on Dean old blood food and new people but none of he shared bed with. It was a calming thought.

The first two years Dean didn't share his bed, it was a very very long time. Nathanael knew that Dean was loyal to him, supporting him. Becoming more and more the role of a pack leader that he should be. But they were males and two years were very long time for not having sex with the one you desired the most, craved the most. For a while it seemed that Dean moved on he still seemed to love him but moved on and it hurt bad.

The summer had been hot and the ridiculous big manor were beside a lake were they loved to jump into. Nathanael walked towards Dean that was sitting on the grass laughing as Raven was ducking Maggie under the water.

"Hey." Dean looked up at him and smiled then looked out again laughing. Nathanael sat down close to Dean their thighs touching and Dean stretched out his legs slowly breaking the contact.

"Something wrong?" Dean asked not concentrating on him but pulled on his shirt on.

"No" Dean wasn't comfortable with him around when he was not fully dressed. "Just enjoying the evening."

"Yeah sure. Do that." Dean replied out of focus standing up, Nathanael gripped his arm. "What?"

"Sit with me."

"Gonna save Maggie." Dean replied chuckling looking out the lake as Maggie was crying out Dean's name laughing and half gurgling as water filled her mouth.

"She'll survive." Nathanael said softly. But Dean looked at him, "another time then." Dean shrugged and pulled his shirt of jumping into the lake with such grace, Maggie was thrown around in the water like a ball between Raven and Dean. Other wolfs were in the water to or looking at them in the water.

The night came along so did the cold winds, Nathanael held up a towel for Dean that grabbed it throwing it to Raven and Maggie that made it into a tug war. Dean walked pass by him without a second glance. Nathanael looked at Raven that stood put.

Maggie left with Dean, Dean turned and looked at Raven before grabbing Maggie's arm running inside with her laughing. Later that night Nathanael had walked towards Dean's bedroom.

Nathanael closed the door pushing Dean down, straddling him.

"Taking advantage of a drunken man?" Dean asked drunkenly sprawled out on the bed, Dean took another big glurp from his bottle.

"Screw you." Nathanael growled his teeth digging in that pale golden skin. Leaving a mark on his neck, his fingers stroking Dean's wrist were once his protecting mark had been before Dean cut it off. He kissed the wrist burring his nose in Dean's neck.

It wasn't like this had happened before, Nathanael came to Dean almost every night trying to get close to him again, first Nathanael couldn't even reach out to him. Now he could sniff him straddle him well when he was drunk. Or all he could come to was closing into Dean before Dean pushed him off growling warningly at him.

Nathanael pushed the envelope as much as he could, his hands searched immediately the hot flesh under the shirt. He ignored the strong smells of Maggie and Raven, even Blake that spend much more closer to Dean then he done for the past two years.

Dean never once responded to his advances, Nathanael was quick to open the shirt and place butterfly kisses on Dean's chest, trying to leave another mark when Dean his him on the head heavy. "Go" Dean slurred out his eyes dropping. Sleeping next to each other was denied every single time, in the same room was even hard because Dean saw almost sleeping next to each other as sacred.

"Dean please c'mon."

"Go" Nathanael sighed. Slowly pushing himself off rolling off, Dean kicked him out the bed. Nathanael left defeated. Dean woke up at early morning seeing Nathanael "did you sleep here?" Dean growled angry.

"No." And so it continued for fifteen years, they had sex but nothing more then that. Nathanael took what he could get but sometimes he was sick of Dean's petulant ways, he should have forgiven him. One mistake. Just one mistake. So sometimes yes he got sick of Dean and gave him the boot out of the bed when Dean started to growl or complain. It had been a winter when Dean had sniffed him deeply after the sex and stretching over him lazy snuggling into his side before taking off to the woods for the winter.

It had been a real test of patience for Nathanael, and tolerance. Sure the clan had suffered some and barked happy when Dean had returned some nibbling him a little hard telling him don't you do that again! Dean just snorted at them before dragging him to the bedchamber. About a week later Nathanael had been in the library putting away a book when he caught the strong smell of arousal from Dean. He had yanked the door open catching Dean as he leaped at him. He allowed himself be slammed against the wall brutally and then wrestled Dean down topping him that growled at him his eyes almost black with need. Nathanael had ripped the clothing from Dean that was already ripping his biting his neck hard leaving dark marks. Nathanael positioned himself on top Dean's legs locked around him eagerly.

It had been raw and growling, Nathanael's bones had been cracking at the violence, it had been primal in a way that it hadn't been for a very long time. It made him even more aggressive as the reason why Dean got all hot and bothered who had been the reason? He had claimed Dean that bit him hard aggressively when he did so. Not liking at all that he was claiming him laying his strong scent there but he hadn't cared and even more persistence to leave his scent. Thrusting hard and fast into Dean that arched his back against him his fingers almost ripping the skin off but that was okay.

He had hissed as Dean's teeth had dug into his flesh at his shoulder making him bleed as Dean was his kryptonite. His hips had buckled up and Dean's teeth dug in harder, thrusting harder Dean had licked his blood greedy. Exhausted he dropped on a panting Dean that was growling somewhat, sniffing at him greedy and feral.

After finally getting up from the floor Dean had growled at him tugging him down with him but Nathanael had growled at Dean that stroked himself immediately at Nathanael obeying and he wasn't even in a wolf shape. He had reeked feral, anyone that got a little to close to him got attacked by Dean that growled at them fighting them off violently. The pack had kept their distance, worryingly what had happened to their nice leader. Even Maggie and Raven had backed off afraid.

Nathanael had found it much easier to get Dean to listen to him at that state it wasn't any questions, Dean had constantly trying to have his full attention and anyone that took his attention got seriously hurt. The month after Dean had groaned like he had had the worst hang over in the entire world, whimpering when Nathanael let the sun shine through. "Evil" Dean had said hoarsely, hardly having any memory of the month confused when the pack had been scared of him.

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Dean sniffed the air and went stiff, they were at Katharine's house and he could smell her, Jewel she was far into the woods keeping away from them but he could still smell her. He felt a kick in his stomach with worry he almost buckled over, paranoid he looked around him searching for Nathanael that was standing there talking to Katharine. Nathanael had tried to make amends to Katharine that had accepted the apology but that level of friendship they had was gone. He felt guilty over that knowing he was the reason even if Katharine reassured him that it wasn't the case. Caesar was behind him. "You okay?"

"Why is she here?" he asked very hushed knowing Nathanael had a very good hearing. Him and Caesar had come to an mutual understanding it didn't mean that they were friends but accepted each other rather then bite each others head of every time they were in the same room.

"We told her to leave she did, she wont be around…"

"I can smell her."

"You can? Seems like you gotten stronger." He said matter of factly and Dean looked up at him, he breathed harshly. "Relax she wont come back here when your around…" Dean left Caesar alone leaving the room with wolfs, he felt an anger itching under his skin he felt his upper lip twitch angry. He thought of Keg and how sweet Jewel's blood would taste but shook his head quickly he growled at the familiar present. "I'm not in the mood."

"She's not here Dean…"

"So you were searching her out?" he asked grimly his head tilting his eyes flaring his fist clenching he knew this feeling it was a dark jealousy that seemed to sneak up more often after he gotten that taste from Nathanael's blood. His teeth showing and Nathanael's brows drew together his lips tight in a warning. "C'mon admit it." Dean growled it out angry.

"Not here not now." Nathanael warned.

"What why not? Think they will care? They won't." Nathanael had enough he manhandled Dean through the halls and up the stairs to their private room where he locked the door turning to face Dean which eye's was flaring. He looked lethal and beautiful.

"I only want you." Dean growled angry at him. "There is no one in the world other then you."

"You better be right." Dean growled before jumping at him claiming his mate as his own possessively, that threw him on the bed at leaped at him, primal he ripped their cloths off. "Mine" His teeth dug into Nathanael's chest just beside the nibble that taste of iron and power filled his mouth and everything became a blur, it was like a nightmare like you were running through a hall you could feel it all

Hatred

Anger

Fury

Possessiveness

Jealousy

Madness.

The thoughts of he's mine. The sound of scream's of pain and terror numbing his ears the sound of flesh ripping and bones cracking and teeth digging into the sweet flesh violently. Growling the taste empowering him, he feasted a loud howl.

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