Chapter 14 – Rye

[07:04am] Morning!

[07:05am] How was Kwini's first night at home?

[07:11am] I have no idea why it took me so long to get a dog

[07:12am] We cuddled all night it was amazing

[07:13am] I've never slept so well

[07:16am] Stop making me jealous

[07:19am] No but seriously, she's precious

[07:20am] I still didn't get up because I don't wanna wake her up

[07:20am] She's all cozy in the blankets

[07:24am] I'm glad you two are bonding well

[07:32am] FUCK

[07:32am] Forget everything I said

[07:36am] Why?

[07:43am] I came in to the kitchen to get breakfast

[07:44am] On my way I found:

[07:45am] SIX, and I repeat, s-i-x chewed shoes

[07:46am] and she's chewed on the charger chord of my cellphone

[07:47am] I honestly don't know how she didn't get an electrical shock

[07:52am] Oh my goodness lol

[07:53am] Aparently she wasn't cuddling with you as much as you thought

[07:56am] That bitch

[07:57am] And she looks at me smiling and wiggling her tail as if nothing happened

[08:02am] God, I wish I could see this

[08:14am] Which side are you on, Quinn?

[08:16am] Hers, obviously

[08:17am] Kwini my pal

[08:24am] We're on our way to the pet store now

[08:25am] I'll get some supplies and toys she can chew on

[08:30am] That sounds like a good idea

[08:32am] Ps. We were at the elevator and Kwini farted and I'm pretty sure our neighbor thought it was me

[08:40am] lol I love this dog so much already and I don't even know her

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[1 incoming call from Quinn Fabray] x

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[02:16pm] Hey, what's up?

[02:17pm] I'm in class, I can't pick up right now

[02:20pm] My father died

[02:26pm] Quinn are you serious?

[02:26pm] Wait a sec, I'm getting out to call you

[02:27pm] No! Don't!

[02:28pm] I don't know why I called you, I don't wanna speak

[02:32pm] God, I'm so so sorry, Quinn

[02:33pm] Do you know what happened?

[02:40pm] He had a heart attack

[02:41pm] My mother just called to tell me

[02:46pm] Are you sure you don't want me to call you?

[02:50pm] Yeah, I don't wanna talk right now

[02:51pm] There are so many people calling me right now and I just don't wanna talk to anyone

[02:55pm] Okay...

[02:58pm] No, I mean

[02:59pm] Please don't stop texting me

[03:04pm] I won't baby, I'm right here

[03:06pm] Are you heading back to Lima?

[03:07pm] Do you want me to come?

[03:12pm] I don't know... I don't think I will

[03:13pm] We hadn't talked in a long time

[03:14pm] And my mother won't be attending to his funeral either

[03:15pm] I mean, the last time I saw him, his words were "I don't ever wanna see you again"

[03:15pm] So I guess he got it

[03:19pm] I don't know what to say...

[03:20pm] I really wanna help you but I don't know what to do

[03:21pm] What do you need?

[03:24pm] You

[03:25pm] Just keep talking to me and I'll be okay

[03:28pm] How's your mom?

[03:33pm] I don't know

[03:34pm] To be honest she didn't sound upset at all

[03:35pm] I mean, I know they were divorced for a while now, but still...

[03:39pm] Perhaps she was just trying to be strong for you

[03:42pm] Yeah, you might be right

[03:46pm] Do you think he's going to heaven, Rach?

[03:48pm] I don't know... What do you think?

[03:52pm] I have no idea

[03:53pm] I mean, he was a church man and a righteous person in general

[03:54pm] And I know I sinned but still...

[03:54pm] I could have ended up homeless if I didn't have such good friends, and it was all his fault

[03:58pm] I don't know, I don't really know what I believe in

[03:59pm] I just can't think of you not going to heaven for what happened to you

[04:00pm] I think God is merciful enough to see what's deep down in each person

[04:04pm] I hope you're right

[04:06pm] Hey, I think I'm gonna go for a walk and listen to some music to try and clear my mind okay?

[04:10pm] Alright, I'll be waiting here

[04:14pm] Thank you, Rach

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[04:43pm] Please tell me if you need anything

[04:44pm] I can't stand to see you sad

[04:45pm] I'll do whatever you need

[04:46pm] I can be your punching bag or your shoulder to cry on

[04:46pm] I know that you need me and I don't know how to help and I feel so useless

[04:47pm] I just really wish I was there with you

[04:48pm] I wish you would let me be there

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[07:11pm] Hey

[07:14pm] Hi

[07:14pm] Did you get home safely?

[07:18pm] Yeah, I'm okay

[07:19pm] And you're already helping me lots

[07:20pm] Just knowing that you're there already means a lot to me

[07:24pm] Good, I'm not going anywhere

[07:25pm] I just wish I could hold you right now

[07:29pm] That would be really nice

[07:33pm] This is heartbreaking, honestly

[07:34pm] You're so important to me Quinn

[07:35pm] You do know you didn't do anything wrong, right?

[07:38pm] Yeah...

[07:42pm] I just got home, and Kwini told me to send you lots of wet kisses

[07:43pm] Animals are crazy, I think she can feel I'm upset

[07:44pm] She just laid quietly by my side on the couch, instead of going crazy like always

[07:47pm] I wish I was there with you two

[07:50pm] We wish you were here too

[07:55pm] I'm so sleepy

[07:56pm] At least I don't have to work tonight

[08:00pm] Oh, that's good

[08:00pm] Why don't you take a nap?

[08:04pm] Because then I'll wake up in the middle of the night and I'll be alone

[08:06pm] Just text me and I'll wake up with you

[08:09pm] Promise?

[08:12pm] Of course!

[08:15pm] Okay

[08:16pm] Can I ask something weird?

[08:18pm] Yeah! What is it?

[08:20pm] Can I call you on Skype?

[08:21pm] I wanna fall asleep seeing you

[08:24pm] Of course! Go ahead!

[08:31pm] Kwini looks so comfortable with you

[08:33pm] Go to sleep baby, we'll be here waiting for when you wake up

[08:34pm] Okay

[08:35pm] Goodnight Rach

[08:36pm] And thank you again

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[02:04am] I'm assuming you managed to sleep

[02:04am] I'm glad you did

[02:05am] I hope you're sleeping well and feel better tomorrow

[02:08am] I didn't really manage to sleep...

[02:10am] Quinn! Why didn't you text me?

[02:13am] I didn't wanna wake you up

[02:16am] I told you it was okay!

[02:17am] I couldn't sleep either, I was worried about you

[02:20am] You shouldn't, I'm feeling better already

[02:21am] I thought a lot about it

[02:22am] And there isn't really any reason for me to feel guilty

[02:22am] Just cause he gave me a feel chromosomes doesn't mean he's the most important man in my life right?

[02:23am] Even Mr. Schue felt more like a father figure to me than he did most of the time

[02:24am] I'll just keep in mind that he is where he is meant to be now

[02:24am] It doesn't matter where, exactly

[02:28am] You're totally right, Quinn

[02:29am] It's a closed cycle now

[02:29am] And keep in mind that this is what's most fantastic about life

[02:30am] You get to do things over

[02:33am] What do you mean?

[02:36am] Well, you can't redo or fix stuff with your father

[02:37am] But you can make sure to be different to your future kids

[02:40am] You're right

[02:41am] Although they won't have a father, they'll just have another wonderful mother

[02:43am] I'm living proof that this is the best way to go lol

[02:46am] You may really be though!

[02:47am] Thanks so much Rach

[02:47am] I really can't stop saying that

[02:48am] I have no idea what I would be without you

[02:50am] I'm glad I could help somehow, although I wish I had done more

[02:53am] You're everything I ever needed :)

[02:55am] Did you know you're my favorite person? Like, from the whole world

[02:58am] Well that's a lot

[03:00am] It's true though

[03:04am] You know what?

[03:05am] I think you might be my favorite person too

[03:07am] Kwini will be upset

[03:09am] Well, you're not the one chewing on my shoes so... Kwini will have to take second place in my heart

[03:11am] I've never seen your new shoes though, maybe they're very chewable

[03:15am] You chew my shoes and you'll be dead

[03:17am] I won't, you can't live without me either

[03:19am] I hate how you are always right, Quinn Fabray

[03:22am] Let's sleep? Now that we're both better?

[03:26am] Yes! I'm exhausted!

[03:31am] Alright, goodnight baby!

[03:34am] I really like when you call me baby

[03:38am] I liked too when you called me baby earlier today

[03:40am] Yeah, I'm a cutie, I know

[03:42am] Get over yourself

[03:44am] Alright, alright, for real now

[03:45am] Goodnight baby Quinny!

[03:47am] Goodnight baby Rachie!