Author note!: Yay! I finally figured out how to write a note! (This is my very first fanfiction, please don't judge.)
Anyways, thank you, thank you for your reviews! I get really happy reading them and I hope you're enjoying the story so far!
Also, disclaimer: I do not own DGM. Though I wish...
Robin slowly opens her eyes. A ray of sunshine slides in through the room's window and lands on the wall above her. Her mouth turns into a gentle smile as the peace of the morning surrounds her. She was in a particularly good mood, what with the party last night and her and Kanda finally getting along. She glances over to the opposite side of the room and the sleeping form of Kanda. For once she woke up before him. His eyes were shut with his hair splayed across his pillow. The expression on his face was one of pure peace and seeing it Robin couldn't help but smile. For such a sour-puss he was certainly beautiful at times.
Moving so as not to wake him, she silently creeps to her dresser and pulls out a handful of clothes. She could probably shower and get dressed before he woke up. She hadn't actually bathed in a while, so a nice hot shower would feel nice. She closes the bathroom door behind her and turns on the facet. Once the water was warm, she hops in.
When she was clean and warm she turns off the water and reaches for her towel. The sudden change in temperature left her shivering and she wanted to get dressed quick. She reaches for her clothes when the door to the bathroom suddenly opens. Kanda stops, staring straight at her. She watches as his face turns beet red.
"GET OUT!" She yells, desperately trying to cover up. But it's too late. He saw her. There's no way around it now. Kanda knows she's a girl.
He stands in the doorway for a second dumbstruck. Robin is a girl?! Memories flood back to him all of a sudden. The high-pitched voice, her modesty with changing, her reaction every time someone called her a girl; it all suddenly made sense. Robin is a girl.
"Kanda!" She yells and he snaps out of it. He feels heat rise to his cheeks.
"S-sorry!" He yells and runs out of the room.
Robin wobbles, then suddenly her knees give out and she lands on the bathroom floor.
"No." She whispers. He knows. He knows. He knows.
She buries her face in her hands. What is she going to do now? Kanda knows she's a girl. Will he tell? What will everyone do when they find out? She shakes her head. She won't be able to stay here anymore. She won't be able to continue as an exorcist. What will she do now? This was her last chance, and now she blew it. She can't go back to her previous life again. She has nothing.
There's a knock from the bathroom door and Robin jumps.
"Robin?!" Allen calls.
"Don't come in!" She yells. Her hand grabs the pile of clothes next to her.
"Are you alright?!" Allen yells.
"Yeah." She says. "I-I'll be out in a second." She pulls on her jeans and shirt and opens the bathroom door. Allen's gray eyes reach hers with an expression of genuine concern.
"What's up?" She asks, forcing herself to sound cheerful.
"Are you sure you're okay?" He asks.
"Of course." She says. She attempts to smile, but once she does she feels a tear escape and roll down her cheek. One by one more eyes follow until her mask slips and she suddenly breaks into sobs. Allen places a comforting hand on her shoulder and leads to her bed.
"What happened?" He asks. Robin hides her face in her hands and shakes her head.
"Hey Allen?" Lavi calls entering the room. "You find Robin?" He stops and glances at the two of them sitting on her bed together.
"Is he okay?" Lavi asks, concern in his voice. Allen shakes his head. Lavi slowly closes the bedroom door behind him and goes to sit on the opposite side of Robin.
"Did Lenalee chase after Kanda?" Allen asks Lavi. The red-head nods.
"He looked so pissed." Lavi says. "I swear, I thought he finally killed someone."
"Did you two have a fight?" Allen asks Robin.
"Something like that." She says, feeling herself calm down.
"He didn't hit you or anything, did he?" Lavi asks. She shakes her head no.
"I need to find him." She says. She gets to her feet. "I need to talk to him."
"No way." Lavi says. He grabs her arm and pulls her back onto the bed. "You're not going anywhere. You're staying right here with us until Lenalee gets back. Got it?" Robin sighs and concedes defeat. She didn't have the energy to argue with Lavi. Besides it would be useless now. Any second Kanda will tell. He'll tell everyone that she's a girl and she'll be gone.
Fresh tears pour out of her eyes and she whimpers. Allen looks over at her with sad eyes and places a hand on hers. He glances at Lavi who looks back at him worried.
"Would talking about it help?" Allen asks. She shakes her head.
"You will hate me." She says.
"That's ridiculous." Lavi says.
"Yeah," Allen says. "We'd never hate you. You're our friend."
"Yeah." Lavi says. "We may all fight sometimes and get angry, but we'd never hate you. You're one of us. Nothing can change that." Robin wipes her eyes.
"Thank you." She says. "You guys are so nice."
"You're the one who's nice Robin." Allen says.
"Yeah." Lavi says. "Robin is so kind. He never gets mad at anyone and always thinks about others. Plus he's so cute." Lavi peeks down at her and smiles. "Kanda is such an idiot for making an adorable little cutie like this cry." Robin's face blushes.
"I'm a guy!" She yells.
"I know, I know." Lavi says. "I just can't help it!" He squeezes her into an embrace and Allen chuckles.
"Thank you." She says. "I feel a little better now."
The door to the room opens and Lenalee peeks her head in.
"Did you find him?" Lavi asks. She nods.
"He's in the training room now." Lenalee says.
"Can I talk to him?" Robin asks.
"He looked really mad." Lenalee says. "Plus he has Mugen with him. Are sure that's the best idea?"
"He won't hit me." She says. "I just need to talk to him. It'll be okay. Really."
"Okay." Lavi says."But we're coming with you."
The four of them all leave and head towards the training room. Lenalee walks in front leading the way, while Lavi and Allen stay at either side of her like a pair of bodyguards. Lenalee stops in front of a door and they all look toward Robin.
"I need to speak with him alone." Robin says.
"We can wait outside." Lenalee says. Allen and Lavi look like they want to argue, but one look from the pigtailed girl keeps them silent. "Be careful." She says. "Just yell if there's any trouble. We'll come running as fast as we can."
"Thank you." Robin says. Lenalee smiles and Robin enters the training room alone.
A large room spreads out before her. The overhead lights were off with the only light coming in through the windows on the far side of the room. The floor was covered by mats and there were various targets and weights scattered near either wall. In the center of the room there's the lone figure of Kanda standing back turned toward her with Mugen unsheathed by his side.
"Kanda?" She asks. She knows he heard her, but he doesn't make a move. The two of them stand in silence. Robin looks down at the mats, unsure what to say.
"Kanda?" She tries again.
"I can hear you idiot." He says.
"I-" She says. "I'm-"
Kanda turns to look over at her. His face is calm and his eyes silently bore into hers. She opens her mouth and he looks away.
"You're a girl?" He asks.
"I'm so sorry." She says. "I never...I mean, it was never my intention...I just...I never meant to deceive anyone...Least of all you."
"Why?" He asks, still facing away.
"It's more of a habit." She says sheepish. "I've never really thought of myself as a girl before. I had to hide my gender out of necessity while I lived on the streets. I've just become used to hiding it."
"Why would you ever need to hide it?" Kanda asks.
"Would you want to be a young girl all by yourself on the side of the road?"
She watches his fist clench and tighten. "But still..." Kanda says. He clamps his jaw shut and forces himself to stare into the wall.
"I'm sorry." She says. "I just-if anyone knew..."
"Are you telling me to stay quiet?" Kanda asks. "Everything will be fine so long as I don't tell anyone right?"
"I...I don't know."
Kanda scoffs. "You might be fine with it, but I'm not." He says. "What am I supposed to do now? Do you expect me to just continue like we've been?" He shakes his head. "I can't. I can't live with you anymore."
"You mean I can't stay here with you?" She asks.
"I don't know."
Robin slowly turns and walks back toward the door, swallowing the tears threatening to pour out of her eyes. Kanda doesn't move and continues to stare off into the darkness. When she reaches the door she hesitates.
"Thank you for everything." She says. She takes one last look at the exorcist's tall stolid form.
"Good-bye Kanda."
The door to the training room closes shut and she's gone.