as ya se the alerts don't work. How well here's the last part of the serie's i'm gonna post the last story somewhere next week. :) don't forget to review it always put a smile on my dorky face ;)

The taste of blood on his lips, wolf blood his eyes snapped open and what he saw made him scream in terror. He scrambled away from the dead body next to him, all ripped open brutally killed. Dean looked at his bloody hands his shaking his eyes widening he stumbled from the dead body backing away from Jewel laying there dead. Brutally murdered by him, his stomach made a flip and he puked his guts out her flesh and blood coming out. Disgusted he wiped his mouth, she must have been dead for hours the other wolfs from her clan would know her missing position and they would search after her, and find him with her.

Murdering a fellow wolf was illegal, and a punishment would be in order. The clan she belonged to would decide his fate, Katharine's clan… he had given his word of not harming her. He had broken his promise, he looked at the body trembling he was a murderer, a beast. He'd become something he was trained to kill. He had killed a human once at nineteen but it had been self-defence but this… he had hunted her down with the intension of murdering her cold blood.

He ran, he started to run, run from his thoughts running from himself. He ran in his human shape not wanting to go to anything that wasn't him anymore. He reached panting the border of Nathanael and Katharine's territory, there were always a distance between two territory of one mile that mile was grey zone. Fortune for him there was a town there, a town between the two boarders, he got a room on the fifth floor no one dared to question him about the blood on him. No one dared to call the cops.

Dean trembled as he was in the shower, trying to scrub her blood away and scent, the blood washed off but not her scent. He scrubbed so hard that his skin became red and flushed. His skin almost peeling off. But the scent wouldn't go away, his knee's buckled and he dropped on his knees in the shower. He curled into a small ball wanting desperately to escape from the darkness he had within fighting the feral feeling of wanting more wolf blood on his lips.

He broke like a fragile class crashing down, the pain in his soul the memories of the hurt of betray hitting him. What he become. He screamed from the top of his lungs not caring anyone that heard him, he screamed until he felt his voice got raw. His fingers digging into the filthy floor smudged with blood, his knees getting red.

Dean stood up looking into the reflection with disgust. He looked at the tub that was abandon in the corner. To much of a health risk to use, he filled it up and stepped in, he went under the water praying that the darkness would consume him and take him away.

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Nathanael ran through the woods he could feel his mates pain and scream. He froze he looked down at the dead body then looking up alert hearing a fate that pain of scream again. He didn't cast a second glance at the once known as Jewel but ran through the woods Dean's scent strong. He changed form running faster then he ever thought he done in his life. He ran up the stairs kicking up the door as there was no scream anymore only silence and that was even more alarming. He froze for a split second seeing Dean in the tub, he pulled Dean up that startled gasped for air. "Are you crazy! Suicide!" the word of suicide snapped in Dean.

"I wasn't!" he growled, his father always said that suicide was the easy way out, "I wasn't" he growled again pushing Nathanael off that didn't buckle.

"You better not have thought it!" Nathanael growled and crashed their mouth's together, Dean crashed his mouth against Nathanael's. The sounds that came from the room sounded like two wild animals battling rather then two mating. It was all growling and hissing and grunts. The people next to the room or well the entire floor had fled when the screaming had echoed but the floor under fled hearing the wild feral sounds. Nathanael dropped on the mattress in a heap, panting loud. His hard hammering hard, his chest moving up and down fast he gripped Dean pinning him under him forcing him to stay that was spent and half asleep already.

He woke up with his body trembling, like he was freezing but he wasn't his body ached for food as he puked it all before. His body wanted another taste for wolf blood and he squeezed his eyes shut. He woke up startled the next day yanking himself from Nathanael that fought him and won like always growling warningly at him. His arms were pinned at each side of his head Nathanael was straddling him hovering over him, he tried to lift his arms but it was no use. He stopped struggling staring challenging into Nathanael's eyes.

It felt like an eternity and Nathanael won, Dean looked away in anguish then looked into those eyes. "Is that what you feel?" Dean asked hollow. "Do you remember?" he question staring into those light blue eyes. Eyes that was hypnotic, eyes that could make anyone follow him blindly, eyes that could bend wills that could make people tell the truth. So deep in those mesmerizing eyes.

"Yes, I do… I lived with it for a very long time." Nathanael said reminding Dean that he had lived such a long time.

"How did you control it?"

"I never did… until you." Dean glanced at Nathanael that spoke so freaking softly, "until I almost lost you, with you I had to learn." Nathanael explained loosing the grip but kept him still. Looking into Dean's hazel green eyes, it was looking into a magic forest you wanted to escape into. He gently tugged Dean's arms pinning them down with one hand the other stroking Dean's beautiful face.

Dean's lips moved but no sound came out, then finally he choked out "I murdered her."

"Dean…"

"I cold hand murdered her cuz of you." Nathanael's hand froze on Dean's face, "cuz you were mine." Nathanael's brow twitched his lips thinning. Keeping himself from saying I'm still yours. "I thought I let it go. But I haven't… I can't forgive you what u did, u know that. But her… I hated her with all my being and I murdered her."

"Dean, it wasn't you… it was you but not… when you're a wolf you're aware but you're acting on other instincts another you. My blood was like an adrenaline to you. It brought up your darker side, the animalistic side that's in every human that darkest part inside of yourself the most feral were reason and morals doesn't live there in that moment." He stroked gently Dean's face, "it brought that dark side of you, and the wolf. Human in general are jealous and possessive, add to the wolfs instincts. There where screaming he's mine no one is taking him away from me. My mate. Mine. She was a threat… with good reason and you took that threat out."

Dean felt his eyes burn and he hated himself for his weakness, he breathed in deeply, looking away. The window was open, no curtain he could se the tree outside the leave red as blood he tore his eyes away. "When do you feel like that?" he asked pathetically his voice abandoning him and he wished that he was little older. Not so young not stuck in a twenty year old body that was all emotion, all teenager inside but had to grow up. Where everything hurt inside in your soul when things got to rough.

"Every time I feel like losing you. Every time a wolf stands a little to close." Dean's eyes burned even more he blinked forcing the tears away, he must look like shit already. "I never claimed that I was perfect that I knew it all."

"I never…" Dean objected to be interrupted.

"Yes you do. You look at me like I have all the answers."

"You lived longer." He argued.

"Yeah, true but I don't know much of love."

"Stop. Don't go there." Nathanael sighed deeply, "Katharine will punish me wont she?"

"No."

"Yeah it's the law."

"I…"

"It's the law Nathanael, I was on the challenge I'm gonna be on the punishment."

"They will wound you bad."

"I know."

"You can't fight back."

"I know." Dean looked into Nathanael's eyes "I murdered her. I deserve what I get." Nathanael buried his face into his neck Dean squeezed his eyes shut he was released Nathanael was hugging him closely and Dean bit back his pride and hugged him back. They whipped him three hundred times, Nathanael hadn't gotten to stay around by Dean that knew if he saw it he would lash out.

The ropes around his wrist got cut off, "leave now." Katharine's voice harsh and angry. Dean looked straight her in regret but she looked firmly at him and he ran out her territory, as he crossed Nathanael's he was greeted by his mate that caught him as he dropped into his arms allowing his mate to lift him up. There was primal growl from Nathanael Dean's reply was a heavy sigh and his mate listened leading him home once again where he got his wounds licked and spoiled.

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Nathanael's hand cupped behind Dean's neck that looked at him warily, he could feel that his mate was stiff not knowing how to react to this or how to respond. It had been over thirty years since they even came close of this kind of affection. He moved slowly his face closer to Dean that still looked at him suddenly suspicious his head pulling an inch back but Nathanael's hand kept him still. His lips were just about to press against Dean when Dean's head moved away and Nathanael nuzzled the cheek instead, he could feel that his mate didn't want to breathe through his nose but breathed through his mouth. He didn't want to smell him but that was fine by now he was in no rush.

He let his scent get stronger and almost irresistible to not smell, finally he heard the sniff sound, and his lips brushed against Dean's corner lip and then kissed the pouty pink lips. He could feel his mate's eyes on him, his hand creep under the clothing resting on Dean's side his thumb stroking the smooth golden skin. He sucked carefully Dean's lower lip that still was stiff, he refused to back down he pressed his lips determent against his mate that rolled his shoulder back easing out the tension and he took the opportunity to step closer to his mate, pressing their bodies firmly together.

His mate puffed out air into his lips and Nathanael felt his lip quirk. Deans taste was sweet but salty like whisky, his favourite kind he kneeled his mate's neck that finally rested his hands on his hips. He broke the kiss gently tugging on Dean's cloths that looked at him unsure and Nathanael peeled off his own cloths first kissing Dean leading him to their bed lifting him from the knees gently and dropped him on the bed that was flushed like he always got when he carried him.

The pluffy covers puffed their air out as Nathanael crawled on top of his mates, holding his weight on his arms allowing his back arch down allowing their chests to press as he kissed Dean gently but with passion. He then settled down to straddle his mate, he looked into those hazel green eyes with passion kissing the lips firmly and his mate lifted up his arms and he pulled his mates shirt off. He climbed beside helping eagerly Dean to remove his jeans. The years would go and past but jeans was something that never left the fashion and probably never would and he thanked got for that because Dean looked so hot in jeans and a simple shirt. Or just the jeans and barefoot…

Nathanael buried his face in Dean's belly breathing in the thick scent that was pure Dean, his tong tracing a patch up and down his beautiful mate's chest which breath hitched each time, he grinned happily seeing his mate clench the sheet with his fist. He kissed wet dirty kisses all the way up to Dean's swollen red lips. His eyes drowsed and if Nathanael could he would have taken a picture to remember this vision of grace forever. Instead he pained the picture into his brain forever, feeling his heart slam to a rhythm of a love song.

Whisky smooth in a almost purr he whispered "Dean, Dean, Dean." His passion bursting into fireworks claiming once again Dean's way to sensual lips brushing their lower bodies together eagerly. He didn't have much self control when it came to his mate, he drove him mad beyond words. Dean was laying there all sprawl over the bed at his mercy and Nathanael growled feraly lifting Dean leg around him kissing him senseless.

"Oh god please!" the little self control he possessed flew out the window and he thrusted into his mate that arched his entire back crying out his name before coming already. Nathanael buried his face in Dean's neck thrusting in and out his mate that whimpered his fingers clawing him, his teeth biting him hard but not hard enough to draw blood. Nathanael saw black as he came deep inside of his mate that licked his lips before starting to fidget mindless. Nathanael can't stop smiling wide even a laugh burst out his lips and claim Dean's lips once again recuperating quickly he rolls so Dean is on top.

It was a vision he couldn't get out of his scull it was so freaking beautiful how Dean moved on top of him panting loud before his back arch once again the world drops on them and they float through it. Nathanael brings his mate closer to him that drops beside him, he climbs on top his mate laying his body weight on top of him his head in Dean's neck puffing out hot air. He don't want Dean to disappear, he ignores the complains. "Sch" they slept like this before so he knew it was possible Dean just wanted to protest a little before.

They fall asleep quickly dreaming of each other.

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Dean stirred and rubs his eyes the bed is empty and he stretched out rolling his body giddy. He has the urge to jump up and down on the bed but don't, instead he sits up with a big 100 watt smile his toes burring in the carpet on the floor lays a prey it's a bunny. Dean goes to the pray kneeling down in front of it. It had been a very long time since Nathanael brought presents like these to him, he licked his fingers as he lifted the rabbit settling down on the carpet. He'd grown stronger so he could eat flesh like a human, he ripped the leg off easily ripping of the grey fur and hungry his teeth dug into the raw flesh.

He didn't know why but he did have a problem eating in a human shape with others then Nathanael and even then he felt self conscious. His eyes peeked up as Nathanael came in with a wiggling tail sitting down his head tilting to the side, Dean offered but Nathanael sat there looking at him instead. Dean turned reaching for his underwear that was soon snagged by Nathanael that dropped them on the floor Dean chuckled. "What? Just gonna walk around nude?" as a reply Nathanael's tong fell out on the side. Dean shook his head amused scratching his head uncomfortable, Nathanael licked his face from the blood and Dean's hand stroked Nathanael's fur burring his face in the neck.

Finally he stood up reaching for his cloths which Nathanael growled at him, Nathanael backed him in to the bed so he dropped on the bed and was on top of him in his human shape Dean looked into those eyes with a ember of desire. "I'm gonna take you to a such of a good place were even euphoria won't even ad up." Dean felt a chill of thrill he choked back a moan as he lifted himself higher up on the bed his legs fallen open on their own.

"Cocky"

"No, just very self sure."

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Raven crooked her eyebrow up amused as Dean sat down on the couch looking all fucked out, he reeked sex and Nathanael. Maggie sniffed him and snorted like the smell bothered her she was young, others in her age might be all knowing but she was very naïve in that sense which was really rare. Raven crooked her lips up "well well well who is that finally pleases us with his presence? Thought you forgot all about us." She teased Dean just flipped her off.

"I'm on a break."

"A break?"

"He's crazy." Dean said hushed making a gesture with his finger, "hardly got out the bed." Raven burst out laughing Maggie looked at them shrugged and went back to reading her book with a happy sigh. She couldn't help but to pinch Dean's cheek as he pouted.

"Poor poor you, numerous orgasms is wearing you out?" she coned making a face laughing out as she jumped away from his slap. "Aw sorry hun, what made him let you out of the bed?" Raven asked with a frown.

"Oh he's sleeping."

"You snuck out?" she asked amused trying not a big smile burst out her lips, Dean nodded all innocent and she laughed loud. "Dean your so… well… busted." She chuckled as Nathanael picked Dean up that whined but wasn't really whining but loving every moment of it as he was thrown over Nathanael's shoulder. The slap was loud and she swore she saw her friends lips quirk up, kinky bastard. Nathanael even flashed her a smile as he walked out with Dean that shouted to Raven.

"He's a cave man!"

"You love it." She shouted back showing her two thumbs up getting in the study room again smiling seeing Maggie, "c'mon honey let's hunt."

"Yeah?" the kids face lighted up and she saw for the first time what Dean saw in her.

"Yeah hun. C'mon I have a feeling we won't be enjoying Dean's company for another week or so."

From their bedroom loud moans and groans echoed through the halls.

THE END

24mars 2007

I am gonna read through this one with fresh eyes some day… someday ;P