BEFORE YOU READ THE STORY READ THIS NOTE: Okay I felt slightly awkward doing Edward's POV. For two reasons. It was sort of a lemon and it's very dark and perverted. I almost felt like a pervert myself. But it had to be done! I had to express what Edward was feeling! To be fair on him he is trying to fight it. But let's be honest his perverted side is just too strong to fight LOL! You can skip if you like- but I thought it was vital to see that Edward is conflicted between is usual good demeanour and his new dark side. So unless you feel incredibly uncomfortable reading Eddie's POV please read it! And if you want to know what Edward's POV was without the graphic perverted details- mail me and I'll give you a summary! See how much I slave for you guys ;) And don't say I didn't warn you….. So here goes….

Edward's POV-

Staring out the glass window of my bed less bedroom, I took in the view of the surrounding area- beautiful, natural and flawless. Like my Bella. My Bella who would not talk to me for no reason. It infuriated me almost that she would spend her time with those lowlifes that are humans, instead of me, the most irresistible creature on the planet. I just couldn't understand it. I will have my Bella in my hands soon enough. I will.

I stopped my thoughts there. What was I thinking? This wasn't me. Or it wasn't me before Bella walked into my life. She had something that attracted me to her. And not just her delicious blood that pulsed through her veins. It was her natural beauty. But I couldn't think such horrible thoughts of her. I was always the calm member of the family; I found it easy to resist blood. So easy that I was nearly as experienced as Rose and Carlisle- the two vampires that had never touched an ounce of human blood- just animal. But now it was like I wanted to sink my teeth into Bella's skin and drain her blood. What was wrong with me? Had I finally snapped? Had blood lust eventually over powered me and made my mind go insane? Maybe. Probably. But I hoped it hadn't. I didn't want to become one of those very rare vampire breeds that obsessed over a particular girl so much that they eventually tortured them to death. One side of me wanted to deny it, cower away from the thought, and fight for my sanity. But the other side craved it, lavished at the thought. And that side seemed to overpower the saner side.

I devoured the thoughts of Bella. Her innocent eyes, her plump lips. But she was a devil. I knew it. She had done it before and I could smell it. And I wanted so badly to do that with her. Eat her. Fuck her. Drain her blood. Anything for the taste of her sweetness, the feel of her body against mine. Her fresh blood tempting me to sink my fangs into her creamy skin. And I would. I would suck her dry. It was getting me hard and I relished in my own impure thoughts of my Bella. The wolves wouldn't have her. The humans wouldn't have her. I would.

I banged my head against the white wall, causing a whole in the wall. My hands gripped the wooden shelf, snapping it in half and sending my stack of books falling to the floor in a bundle. I couldn't let myself be taken over by the monster writhing within me, fighting to get out. I wouldn't let it take over me. I wouldn't destroy Isabella Swan. I couldn't. I would be forever living in sin. Guilt. Torment. If the monster had its way, it would leave me alone to suffer. Leaving her dead. And I could not take an innocent girls life away. I roared with anger as the voice in my head sniggered, a dark, cold sound. Just like the vile creature it was.

"Are you okay Edward?" Alice's bell like voice interrupted my thoughts. She was leaning against the doorway arch, looking at me with her amber eyes which were full of concern.

"Fine." I spat through gritted teeth. I didn't mean to spit. But I was losing my self control and it made me angry.

"You don't look fine. Is everything okay?" She asked as she hesitantly stepped into my room, eying my tensed figure cautiously.

"Leave him Alice. He ain't in 'is right mind right now darlin'." Jaspers southern accent was heard from the doorway now.

"What do you mean?" Alice furrowed her eyebrows in confusion, looking from Jasper to me.

"I'll explain later. Just get out Alice. Leave him to his thoughts." Jasper was staring at me with vicious and accusing eyes.

I was losing it. And Jasper new. I didn't want to be judged for something I couldn't control. Or maybe I could. If I left the state and settled in somewhere else. "I need to leave Washington."

"What?" Alice cried, crossing her harms. "Edward you have been acting weird and confusing us for the past few days, I can't see your future and Jasper knows why you have been acting. Would one of you please tell me?"

"It's nothing you needa worry 'bout my angel." Jasper soothed her and grabbed her tiny arm, pulling her out the room. "Let him go. Let him clear his head. He will be back in no time."

I didn't know if I would. I slipped past them and raced out the house, through the dark woods, tall green trees flying past me, the silver moon bouncing of the small puddles that had gathered on the soil. I could hear Alice crying from the door, my beloved sister, for me to come back, for Jasper to let her go. But I tuned her out and made my way to Bella's house where she would now lay peacefully asleep. I had been there many times before and it had not been hard to find with her strong smell of strawberries.

I easily climbed the tree and perched on the sturdy branch outside her bedroom window, the light were off but I could easily see her petite frame sprawled out on top of her covers. She was magnificent and sexy in her revealing tank top and boy shorts and her juicy bum cheeks peaking out of her pants. I imagined myself taking her from behind, pinching those cheeks, as I bit into her neck and listen to her cry of torture. A wonderful noise. I smelled her nose scented hair and it went straight to my already hard stick. It was delicious and tempting me in.

I jumped off the tree unable to torture myself anymore and left Forks forever.

Bella POV-

It was the next Saturday. The day we were all going on a group date. My nerves were all over the place, Paul was picking me up in five minutes and I had nothing to do but sit and wait. Time seemed so slow when waiting for something. Especially this. A knock on the door startled me and before I could answer the door, Charlie bet me to it.

"Hello Paul. Come in." Charlie muttered before wandering back into the kitchen to sip his beer and read his newspaper.

I stood up, swallowing my nerves and making my way into the hall where Paul stood tall and handsome in a checked shirt, black skinny jeans and blue converses. I looked plain in my white frilly top, faded light denim jeans and black pumps.

"Hey." I muttered as I grabbed my small black handbag, which contained my purse, keys and phone, and my blue cardigan.

"You ready?" Paul asked as he held the door open for me, his eyes on me the whole time.

"Yeah." I smiled and looked over at my dad. "That's me away dad. I'll be back by midnight."

He grumbled an "Okay" before I headed out into the chilly night, Paul following me.

As we headed for Port Angeles we amused our selves by playing 20 questions, but It was cut short when we had arrived outside the cinema where the Jessica, Mike, Angela, Ben, Lauren, Tyler, Eric and some girl who's face I vaguely recognised. I introduced them to one another before going in and buying the tickets to see "shark night". Paul and I bought a large popcorn and cola to share and when we got into the cinema I sat between Mike and Paul.

As the movie started Paul's arm draped over the back of my seat, and I rested my head against his arm, comfortable in this position. It was not until half way through the movie did a guy with a bold head appear, reminding me of Phil. The blood drained from my body, I felt cold and empty. I wanted to escape, the walls felt like they were closing in on me. The memories were rushing back to me and my hands started to get clammy.

"I-I need to go." I stuttered before standing up and made my way passed Paul and out the cinema. The cold air hit me as I leant against the brick wall catching my breath.

"Bella?" My head turned to see Paul standing in front of me, a look of concern crossing his features. "What happened?"

I looked down at my feet, letting out a breath. I was embarrassed to admit that something so little set of the bad memories. "I…"

"Bella you know you can tell me anything right?" Paul took my chin in his hands and tugged it gently too look at him. He smiled softly.

I nodded before whispering; "The bold guy in the movie reminded me of Phil."

Paul hugged me close to him and whispered in my ear, "Even though you had passed the most painful experience of your life Bella, it will always come back and haunt you. The wound heals, but the scar remains. But you can fight it, just think of the fact that you will never see him again, that you have me, your dad, mum, Jake and your other friends on your other side. Just think of all your happy times and it will help get through the hard times."

I nodded into his chest, my arms in circles around his waist as I looked up at him. "I know you're right. I just don't know how."

"Neither do I. But you just have to figure away- try your best." He smiled and kissed my nose and then froze, his eyes lingering on my lips which parted slightly.

He licked his lips as he slowly leaned in and I felt the need to lean in too. Our lips were now a mm from touching and I could feel his warm, minty breath brush across my face. I bit my lip and looked up into his warm liquid brown eyes.

He pressed his lips gently against mine and his hand slipped up my back and weaved into my hair, pulling me closer to him as our lips moved in sync with each other. My hands found their way around his neck as I stood on my tipi-toes. He walked me back against the wall, and his hands ran through my hair and down my sides. I moaned gently into the kiss as he heightened it up. It lasted for a more minutes until we had to pull back for air.

"Wow." Paul said and it basically summed up both of our thoughts.

I just had my first real kiss.

Soooooo? How was our Eddie's POV? Like it? Jeez I felt like a right pervert writing that! Seriously I question my sanity sometimes! Sorry it took so long guys! I had to restart the story twice -.- but here it is! And I hope you like that kiss ;) the first of many!

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