Her Search For Happiness

by TributeWitch

After the war, Katniss realises that she needs to live her life. Her only source of happiness is Gale, but he's in District 2. After a different change of events, Katniss and Gale's reunion is not one that you would expect.Will he still love her? Or will Prim's death create a barrier between them that will never be broken? I guess only time will tell. {Post-Mockingjay, Galeniss}

13. I Am A Man

A/N: This is going to get deep. Or as deep as I can write.

Of course he said yes.

Sometimes I forget that Preston is from the Capitol. That he's used to glitz and glamour, and fulfilling a Hunger Game victor's wishes. Everything Katniss said was true, I admit. There's nothing she can do back home. But that doesn't make me want to put her in danger.

I haven't told her yet, but right now there isn't much time for lovey-dovey stuff. There's a lot of training to do, especially for Katniss who is so out of shape.

Since District 2 is the security and weaponry supplier now in Panem, it would make no sense for the secret organization of ex-Capitol Soldiers, who we've decided to call Team CaSo as a secret code thing, to be here . The research guys have somehow found what is believed to be the headquarters (in district 3) and we have a double agent in the team, so everything is going pretty good. I hope. Everything is top secret, only the people who are involved in this mission and their relatives know about this. It feels like District 13 again, training for war. It's bringing in painful memories of the past. Every so often Katniss would have a panic attack and go hysterical, and I have to (awkwardly) comfort her. The rebellion has left scars on our hearts, that will never heal. Whilst I have scars from guilt, Katniss has slashes of trauma, devastation and.. everything, I can only sympathise and I hate it.

Our attack is planned for next week, so me and Katniss are quite prepared for anything. I just..wished I had more time to talk to her. Tell her my true feelings, instead of having to hide it.

As time passes, the more I realize how much I truly love her. Even though her smiles are hard to come by, when they are there it's like brightness and radiance right in front of you. Before I know it, I am falling for her again. And I will probably have my heart broken, but I can't help it. Maybe this is what it would have been like, our time in District 13 without Peeta on her mind. I can't wait for this mission to be over, so I can finally express my feelings to her. But we can't afford that distraction right now. Even if she accepts it or not, as it will only lead to interruption.

Panem is at it's peak, things are going great for us. Paylor is a great president, but I can't help but think that when her time is over, this dictatorship is not going to end well. It's going to e Snow, all over again. It's among discussion on what this country's government will be lead on, but all is well for now.

I am still living with my family, but I can't bear the thought me leaving to another District temporarily. And neither can they. But it's inevitable and I think the right choice for me is to move out after this mission. All this training has made me think. I am not a boy. I am a man.

A/N I am so sorry! This is the shortest chapter I have ever written for HSFH, but this is all I can manage for now. My exams are coming soon, so there isn't much time for fics. Also the fact that the last chapter had only 1 review made me really unmotivated (hint,hint!) As always, thanks for reading and Fav/Follow/Review if you enjoyed! :)