A/N Okay..You guys get your wish.
~Katniss' POV~
Today is the day. In the two months that we have been training, I haven't had much time to think about my feelings. For Gale especially. It's been so hectic and chaotic and everything. I just can't process anything, and to be honest, I don't really want to. It'll make me more confused about him. All this training has (thankfully) distracted me from Gale. I want to tell him that I actually just came here to see him...but. But what? Am I scared of rejection? Or maybe what will happen after I tell him. Sometimes I wonder if it would have been better if I didn't volunteer for Prim. She died anyway and it was for nothing. She's dead. Maybe me and Gale would've lived a happy life. Or as happy as we could be in Panem.
After today, I have nothing to look forward to. Nothing to use as an excuse as to why I'm still staying in District 2. Unless I can somehow persuade Preston to give me a job or something. Should be a piece of cake. Preston treats me like a little girl, and just gives me what I want. And I surprisingly like it. He's still a Capitolite at heart, without the barbaric parts.
'Okay Katniss. Remember the plan. You go to the back exit and use the wood to block it whilst Gale goes to the front entrance and lock them in. Then you signal the hovercraft.' I think to myself.
We can't afford any mistakes. All the districts are depending on this mission for the safety of Panem, who knows how big this group is? There could be hundreds, even thousands that are somehow connected. Or double agents or something.
From what we know, there is only a few dozen or so. I hope that's true. If not, me and Gale might not come out of there alive. A hundred people can have the power to start another uprising, to bring the old Capitol back into power. If they are as ruthless as their ancestors. Everything now is so weak. Panem are merely humans who have been crushed by a collapsing building, spent centuries trying to dig out, and right now, we are just adjusting to the sunlight and trying to stand on our feet independently. We are fragile, but we will not be broken.
I walk into the small hovercraft with Gale next to me. He sets everything up so that the vehicle brings us close to the empty warehouse that was used to store electronic devices before they were shipped off to the Capitol, but now serves as a headquarters for the Capitol Soldiers. Thankfully, to avoid burglary, there are only two entrances, no windows and virtually no way to exit unless you go through entrances. This makes it perfect for a headquarters for an undercover team but also a fatal flaw in the case of being 'hostaged'. It's not really a hostage case, but that's the only way I can describe it. We are locking them in and eventually arrest them. However there will be no superhero that will save them.
Yes, I feel guilty. But I am doing this for Panem and for Prim. For the people I've killed, directly or indirectly.
Preston and some other people are behind us on a different hovercraft which is massive, and incredibly high tech. Ready to capture Team CaSo. To be honest, I personally think that name is ridiculous. But whatever floats Preston's boats.
The rest of the journey goes by as a blur. Gale just stays by the front (or the 'cockpit' as Preston calls it) for the whole journey, probably because he does not want to engage in a conversation with me. It's been so weird between us after he said 'I love you' to me. I know that it is probably word vomit or he thought that I was Posy or something. But still. It's weird.
Because hovercrafts are so smart or whatever, it always gives an alert to remind you that you'll be landing 15 minutes and to go back to your seat.
I am absolutely terrified of hovercraft rides, so most of the time I just sit. I see Gale getting up from his seat at the front and walking towards me. He sits in front of me and I can see that he is considering to say something and after 20 seconds of self conflict, he mutters, "Katniss, if I don't get out of here alive, I want you to know..To know that I really am sorry for…Prim."
"Gale." I say, so many things race through my mind but I can only mutter his name.
"I'm sorry, okay? I'm sorry and I will regret it for the rest of my life and probably even after it." He bellows.
"Gale...First of all, you- we will come out of this alive. We've trained for this mission as much as we could! We memorised the floorplan, and we have everything planned down. It's okay," I assure him. "We don't even know if it's your bomb! It could've been Beetee or dozens of other men working that worked with him! Stop blaming yourself for things you aren't even sure about! Even if it is your bomb, Coin was the one who decided to use them and she's dead! She's dead!" I scream, and before I know it tears are coming out of my eyes.
What worse timings for an argument. Right before the most important mission for Panem. And I think Gale is crying too. After around an eternity of silence (which is actually 2 minutes) Gale starts talking again.
"Katniss...I'm sorry." He mumbles.
"For what? I was the one who screamed at you. I'm sorry. I'm being a hypocrite. I can't forgive myself for killing Glimmer and Marvel and for inciting a rebellion and killing random people to save my sister. You know why you're special Gale? I fought to save my sister. Peeta fought to save me. But you fought for everyone. You wanted to free the districts from the Capitol, that was your goal. I just wanted to save one person, but in the end it was for nothing. I was a selfish idiot, who didn't care for anyone. I had to kill so many people, and people killed others and it was all my-"
He shuts me up with a kiss.
A/N Please don't throw tomatoes at me! I'm sorry, but I cannot resist the urge to end with cliffhangers (but are you happy? They kissed!(!))
