Neither Inuyasha nor Kagome had tried to explain themselves this time. Though their clothes were still in place and they had only been hugging when the teacher had walked in, the man seemed to already be convinced of their guilt.
They both waited silently for Inuyasha's parents to get done talking to the principle, knowing that something had changed between them.
'We are both ok. Got caught hugging in the bathroom and are getting sent home' Kagome texted Sango, knowing her friend was probably freaking out by now.
Inuyasha's father came out of the office first and gave his son a confused look.
Inuyasha knew the older demon could smell the arousal of some other female all over him, but not Kagome's…and yet she had been the one found in his arms.
"Are you coming back over to our house tonight?" his mother asked Kagome with a pained smile, she had always thought of the girl as her own daughter; it hurt her to see her two babies in such obvious mind-numbing pain.
Kagome looked at Inuyasha and though tried to keep his face blank she saw a glimpse of something akin to fear pass over it before he forced it away.
"Yes?" she said softly, still watching her friend, "if that's not too much of a trouble."
The woman nodded and tried to smile reassuringly, "Of course not, what do you want for dinner?"
Hours later Kagome shut the door behind her to Inuyasha's room and looked over at her friend where he was sitting on the edge of his bed.
"Leave the door open, Kagome," he said softly.
She shook her head, "I trust you and I don't want your dad or your brother hearing us talk and then tease you for not being all slutty like they were."
He was probably going to get teased anyway for one reason or another but that wasn't the part of her statement that worried him. "Kagome, it doesn't matter how mean or upsetting what you think you have to say is, I don't care-I deserve it, but don't ever lie to me again."
"I'm not going to be mean or upsetting; I thought we were going to try to come up with a plan to help you. And why do you think I'm lying to you?" she asked with a confused expression from where she stood. "I do trust you, I have all along." He suddenly looked like he wanted to hit something, or vomit, but she watched him take a few deep breaths and clench his hands into fists instead.
"It's ok to be scared, fuck I know I am," he said and looked at her. It made his chest ache that she felt like she had to lie about this, the sounds of her crying in her sleep were still ringing in his ears.
She shook her head and walked over to him, "I'm not scared. I'm not. Please tell me why you keep saying that? Do you want me to be scared? Is this just another tactic to get me to leave?"
"No," he growled. "I'm done with that shit. You want to be here when it all falls apart, fine, you've earned the right. But that doesn't mean you aren't terrified of what's going to happen to you."
Kagome sighed and sat down on the bed next to him, "I thought demons could smell things like fear."
"We can," he grumbled before pausing to actually think about what she had said. She wasn't lying…her body wasn't giving off a single trace of fear. "I don't understand," he said softly.
"I don't either," she mumbled and started to get up, "I think I'm going to go change into my pajamas."
He caught her before she could step away from the bed, "Last night you were dreaming that I raped you." His tone reflected how much that bothered him and made it almost an accusation. "I came up here to…that's not the point, the point is I came up here and you were talking in your sleep. I heard you say my name and my first thought was you were having some sort of X rated dream and enjoying it. You kept saying my name and then you said 'please'…" He let go of her like it hurt to touch her. "Then you said 'stop' and 'no' and I realized you weren't begging me to keep going, you were begging me to leave you alone. I could smell your tears then."
She watched him clench his jaw and look down at the floor; it hurt her to see how upset he was over this.
Inuyasha felt her hand barely touch his shoulder and he looked up into her face. She was blushing, probably embarrassed that he knew about the dream… He ignored the aching in his chest and looked back down at the dainty little pink flats she had on her feet.
Kagome chewed her lip and knelt down in front of him so he couldn't avoid her gaze.
"Inuyasha I have never worried that you would rape me, not even when you pounced on me in my basement after the movie. Even then I trusted you. I was scared that night but only because you seemed so upset and confused." She rested her forehead on one of his knees. "I've never dreamed about you…raping me."
He caught the scent of tears before he heard them in her voice or saw them in her face. Why was she crying? What the hell was going on?
"Last night, I dreamt a lot of things…I kept waking up…but they all had pretty much the same theme. You would smile at me and then you would leave me. Girls with beautiful bodies and faces that I couldn't recognize kept walking up and…touching you. You just let them…right in front of me. I kept crying and begging you to stop, to come back…" she sobbed softly as the emotions of the day caught up with her again. "You touched them and you kept looking at me like you didn't even recognize me!"
Inuyasha stared down in horror at where she was hugging his leg. She had had nightmares all night about him leaving her and screwing other women in front of her and then the next day he had forced her to live that nightmare…
"I hated today. All day I knew something was coming. I wish we had never left the house…or that you had just woke me up last night and held me instead of assuming the worst. I wish that you had just told me. Fuck, I would have been happy if we had gotten into a car accident on the way there and both ended up in the hospital. I would have rather broken every bone in my body this morning than to have had to watch you touch her like that."
The pain in her voice shamed him. He had thought he couldn't be any more disgusted with himself earlier today…and yet he had just found a new all-time low.
"I hate her Inuyasha. I can't undo what I saw but I can still wish she was dead." She sobbed, "I've never wished this kind of pain on anyone before. I'm so mad that she did this to you. Any other year you would have laughed in her face and walked away…but she managed to catch you when you were at your weakest… I know you're not perfect Inuyasha but I also know that you wouldn't have ever chosen that for yourself, and all I did was sit in the fucking floor and watch."
Inuyasha wanted to pull her into his arms and hold her until all her pain was gone but he was afraid to touch her, afraid of hearing the rejection she would give him after the day he had put her through.
"I hated today, I hate her, I hate that I saw any of it…but I don't hate you. I don't even blame you! I'm so mad at you but I just can't seem to yell at you or hurt you or leave. There are so many things I could say to hurt you…I know you feel guilty already and I know what you think about yourself and it would be so easy to whisper all the things you are terrified of hearing into your ear and hurt you as bad as you have hurt me. But I can't. I don't want you unhappy, I never did. All I wanted was for you to stop going to complete strangers for something so important, that you could have just asked your best friend for! Please…"
He couldn't hold back any longer. He slid to the floor in front of her and pulled her into his lap where he could kiss the tears running down her cheeks and hug her against him. "I'm so sorry. You'll never understand how much I'm sorry." His voice was rough with emotion and had to swallow to force back the tears; he had already cried on her once today, now it was her turn to hurt. He deserved to watch and to feel like the worst person in the world though every second of it.
She clutched his shirt like it was the only thing grounding her to the planet, "Please…don't do this ever again. I can't…deal with it; it hurts too much. I can't watch…" She cried harder while he held her tightly against him, "I'm sorry…I'm not strong enough…I can't ever…"
"Stop," he said softly; she was crying so hard that she was having trouble catching breaths betweens the sobs. "Just stop. I don't care what happens…I won't…hurt you again."
She heard him but she ached too much to stop. She kept crying against him, sobbing too hard to even think about talking. She ached too much to be able to focus her thoughts into some understandable sentence. It hurt so bad…all she wanted to do was scream. The pain she had managed to hold in all day had finally overwhelmed her.
"I'll do whatever it takes," he whispered. "You may end up having to chain me down in your basement but I'll do it. Just please…stop…"
Kagome tried to slow the crying but the tears seemed unending.
He tugged her head away from his chest and wiped her cheeks only to have more tears slide down them and wet them again. He pulled up the hem of his shirt and wiped each eye again; her face was red and blotchy from the tears but he still thought she was the most beautiful female he had ever laid eyes on. He kissed each of her eyelids and ignored the taste of her tears. Her eyes were clamped shut and her brows draw together in pain like she was seeing it all over again in her head.
Inuyasha pressed his lips to hers gently and muffled the sobs coming out of her mouth. He sprinkled little kisses all around her mouth, not knowing how to help but feeling too much of her pain to continue to sit and do nothing. In image of him licking his fingers popped into his mind and he remembered the taste of Kikyou. He fought back the urge to gag and moved his lips away her; it probably made her even sicker to think about it than it did him.
He settled for just continuing to hold her tightly against him and to rub soothing circles into her back while she cried all she needed to.
It felt like she had cried forever before her eyes finally quit supplying her aching heart with an outlet. The pain was still there, the spirit still trying to cry all the pain away, but her body was too exhausted to continue. Her cheeks were raw, her throat was sore, and her eyelids felt like sandpaper.
"I'm sorry," he whispered into the hair on the top of her head.
She nodded into his soaking wet t-shirt that she was still clutching.
"I won't ever do this to you again," his arms tightened around her. "Why don't you hate me?"
"I told you I loved you," she mumbled into his chest.
He sighed, "I used to think you were the smartest girl I knew." He was only half teasing her; a smarter person would indeed probably hate him by now. He almost wished she had been that smart.
She hit him in the chest none too gently, "Shut up, I'm tired of hearing you talk like that."
"Ok," was all he could say. Inuyasha heard someone moving outside his bedroom down and waited for the knock that didn't come. He frowned but didn't move away from the girl lying weakly against him.
"Can we watch Harry Potter?" she mumbled against him.
He smiled softly at her and then caught a whiff the hot chocolate his mom must have left outside his door; Kagome loved the stuff. He slowly stood and lifted her in his arms.
"You want to watch it in here on my computer?" he asked.
"Yeah," she said without looking up.
He nodded and tried to sit her down on the bed, but her hands clung to him and one of her legs came up to wrap around his waist; dragging him off balance with her weight. He had time to say the first syllable of her name before he was falling and clumsily catching himself on the bed, barely managing not to squish her underneath him.
"Kagome?"
Her arms released their hold on his shirt and moved to wrap around his neck while her eyes met his, "Please don't leave me."
"I'm just going to get the hot chocolate outside the door and the movie," he said, unable to keep from looking down at the way her lips had moved to form the words. He silently prayed she didn't feel the hard on that he had been sporting for nearly twelve hours straight.
She shook her head and leaned up to kiss the corner of his mouth, "Ever..."
He blinked at her in confusion and tried to ignore the way his heart was pounding, "What are you asking me?"
Her other leg came up to wrap around his waist and between the two limbs she managed to pull his hips down flush against hers. "Don't ever leave me…"
She felt fantastic underneath him, even better than he had imagined. He bit back a groan and the urge to press himself harder against her, "You gotta let me loose, Kagome."
Kagome frowned at him and wiggled her hips a bit from side to side; she wasn't sure if she was doing this right but one part of him seemed happy with her efforts, "Why are they better than me?"
He couldn't hold back the groan this time, if she wiggled much more like that then his so called control was going out the window, along with his honor, and any sense of guilt for an least a few hours. "You've got it all wrong, they…" he clenched his jaw when she tightened her legs around him for a second, "they were never better than you. You were always too good to…use like that."
"That's not how it feels," she whispered.
He sighed, "I swear…you're a lot better than they will ever be. Hell, I didn't even see most of them as human beings." He leaned down and kissed her forehead, determined to make her feel better without making himself feel a whole lot more…relieved. "Let me up so I can get your hot chocolate and the movie…and when I get back we can…cuddle like we used to."
She frowned up at him, "You've said yourself, things will never go back to how they used be. Please…let me have this."
He swallowed and shut his eyes to pray for just a little more control. Her arms left his neck and he thought he was catching a break, until he felt her hands sliding underneath his shirt up his stomach. He let out a satisfied sigh but refused to open his eyes. "I thought you loved hot chocolate?" he managed to force out.
Kagome watched the emotions war on his face while moving her hands up over his pecs and then back down his lean stomach, "I love you more."
He opened his eyes and she let her face reflect how calm and serious she felt about her decision. She tugged his shirt up over his head and he helped her by lifting the weight off his arms one at a time and pulling them out of the shirt. Kagome tossed the shirt on the floor beside his bed and ran her hands up and down his chest again.
"I need you to decide what you want, now." Inuyasha forced out, "It's not too late to stop yet."
She stopped touching him long enough to wiggle out of her own shirt without releasing her legs from around his hips. "Yeah, it is."
Inuyasha couldn't hold back the deep growl that rumbled from his chest when he saw her bare skin and creamy breasts covered only in the tiny piece of fabric that was her bra. The urge to rip the teasing scrap of material off her and feast on her grew stronger with every second. He wanted to hold back for her…
Kagome felt her heart begin to beat faster as his pupils dilated to almost completely swallow his iris; she could see the beast in him pacing closer and closer to the surface now. She bit her lip and let her hands slid down to the zipper of his jeans while their gazes remained locked. The rough feel of his jeans on her fingertips made her heart skip a beat of its maddening pace. She slowly moved her hand down to cup his length over his jeans; the thick cloth, however, did little to disguise his impressive size or how hard he was. She squeezed gently and watched his forearms begin tremble and his eyes clench shut, maybe he liked the way she touched him? She squeezed a little harder this time and gasped when he groaned deeply and thrust against her hand.
Slowly she gathered up the courage to find the button of his jeans and slide it open. Almost in unison with the button sliding from its little loop his eyes shot open and locked on her. She took a deep shaky breath and slid her hand inside the denim to touch him. Their eyes met again and she watched his hold on his control snap.
All at once he had pulled her hand away from him and jerked off the rest of her clothes.
"I already regret this," he growled as he kicked his own clothes off and fell on top of her. Kagome opened her mouth to argue but found herself sucking in a deep breath instead as his fingers found her core.
"Spread your legs wider," he growled into her neck as he kissed and nibbled the skin there.
She blushed but helplessly did as she was ordered; he rewarded her with the slide of a finger between her spread lips. Kagome whimpered softly in wonder as the digit roughly worked in and out of her.
The scent of her was overwhelming now and the feeling of her wet heat against his fingers was making him insane. He slid another finger inside her; he knew he was going too fast for her but he also knew that this was the only preparation he could give her before he was inside her, he wouldn't last much longer before he lost control completely. His thumb found her clit and he growled possessively as she cried out and arched helplessly against him in response.
"I'm sorry," he panted against her ear before he moved his hands and moved the head of his dick to her entrance.
Kagome's eyes widened as she felt a few inches of Inuyasha's length slide inside her; this wasn't so bad. A little uncomfortable, but not terrible. He pushed in further and suddenly she felt the stretch. He was ripping her wide and she was helpless to do anything but dig her nails into his shoulders and cry softly.
"Oh fuck," Inuyasha growled as Kagome whimpered below him. He started to pull away but she shook her head and pulled him back with her sharp nails in his skin.
"Keep…going…" she mumbled.
"Fuck that," he snarled but she pushed her hips hard against him and slid him through the last of her body's resistance until he was seated deep inside her.
Kagome panted and tried to get used to the alien feeling of him being inside her.
"Tell me you are alright," his voice was softer and Kagome could see a glimpse of her Inuyasha in his expression and hear it in his voice.
"I'm ok, you can move now," she whispered back.
Inuyasha bit his lip but she settled the issue by reaching her hands up to fist them in his hair and pull his head down so she could kiss him. He groaned into her mouth and started to slowly rock his hips.
Kagome couldn't help but watch in wonder as he pulled away from her mouth to pant heavily above her as he bucked against her; he was too tall to keep kissing her comfortably while they were in…in this position.
She had never see anything so beautiful; had she not felt so completely raw and sore she would be just as lost in the feeling as he was.
She panted with him and ran her hands down the bare chest she had been daydreaming about since tennis in the 10th grade. His eyes opened and she felt her muscles clench around his length in response to the dark gaze locking with her own. She saw a glimpse of worry and guilt, a fair amount of sheer demon aggression, but mostly she saw the raw male hunger.
He arched his back and leaned down, brushing his lips against hers with an impossibly light touch as he thrust into her heavily again and again. Kagome felt her cheeks burn at the adorable gesture. She locked her ankles behind him, pulled her hips more tightly against his and clenched those muscles she had discovered.
Inuyasha groaned and curled his back even further so that he could lean down and catch one of her nipples with his mouth.
Kagome instantly froze and sucked in a breath before she felt his insanely warm tongue rub over her sensitive skin, at which point she abruptly exhaled so heavily it almost made her stomach hurt; her breasts had never been this sensitive before…
Sharp teeth raked over the nub and Kagome forgot that she was sore and that his every movement should be hurting. She arched into him and tangled her hands in his long mane of silver hair; she had always wanted to pull on it.
The thrusts were coming faster and harder now and Inuyasha had moved one hand down to hold onto her hip to anchor his frenzied thrusts. Kagome's eyes finally decided to stay clenched shut as she felt the tension in her body building.
Inuyasha's lips on her neck made her shiver; the scrape of teeth made her moan harder. His pounding was getting harder and she realized that she liked the heavy thudding feeling of his body against hers each time he thrust into her.
Suddenly Inuyasha's teeth were embedded in her skin and she was screaming. Her eyes flew open wide and she felt her body buck uncontrollably against him. He growled into her skin but didn't release it as he pressed into her once, twice, three times more before shattering against her. They both shuddered as he pulsed inside her.
After a few moments of exhausted silence and frozen bodies Inuyasha pulled his mouth away from her neck and Kagome winced. The ache between her thighs was back with a vengeance and a new stinging at her neck had started up. If she had been given the choice she wouldn't have done a thing differently.
"Are you ok?" he whispered in a rough voice as he rolled to the side of her and laid down.
Kagome nodded. She was hot and sticky with sweat, her throat was dry, her entire body had started to ache, and she couldn't seem to catch her breath…but she had never felt more content.
"Fuck," he growled and reached up to gently touch bleeding and torn skin on her neck, "I'm sorry Kagome."
She caught his hand and pulled it to her lips where she could gently kiss his fingertips, "Don't say that; I'm not sorry. I asked you to do it." Her words came out mumbled.
"Are you sure you're ok?" he asked softly.
Kagome smiled and nodded into his side as she scooted closer to him, "I'm perfect, now relax and let me sleep."