Chapter 59
The Diary Of A Queen Reveals Many Things
Sophie-Ann's Diary
My life has been long. I have written before of how I came to be what I am and how I have been able to stay in power by use of my wits. It is a disadvantage to be a female in any world but more so in the world of the Vampire. My disadvantage has been made greater by my inability to shed all of my mortal emotions, even after such a long life. Remorse and empathy will be my downfall and that is why I have decided to groom another to take over and protect all that I hold dear.
I searched for many years until I found the young half-breed. I knew upon watching her that she would be the one. Andre had learned of her through Bill Compton, one of my scouts, if you will. She had the gift of telepathy and that would be imperative for her to survive as a ruler. I consulted the scryer Amelia, and she saw that Sookie was the one but that she was incomplete and must have a King before ascending the throne. She also made me aware that Sookie was half Fae, something I had not anticipated. Changing her would be either tremendously wonderful or terrible tragic. Fae blood was wildly unpredictable and as far as I knew, had never been mixed with Vampire blood. She might well die the final death and surpass the mortal death entirely. Amelia could not see the outcome but she did tell me that Bill Compton was going to complicate things. Although I had sent him as a scout with instructions to seek out humans who may have extra sensory abilities, he had found Sookie because he was attracted to her and looking for a mate to turn. The discovery of her telepathy had come shortly after meeting her.
I had never really cared much for Bill Compton. I found him to be a boring, pompous ass. He was, however, rather loyal and that was useful. Too few of our kind know how to be truly loyal, most of the time it is strictly fealty that binds them to us. Bill also had his own agenda and was not nearly clever enough to keep it from me. I had known all about the database he was working on and wasn't that impressed with it. But he seemed to guard it rather jealously so that made it important to me.
I do have regrets about things that I had to do to prepare Sookie for her coming ascension. It was hard for me to have to arrange the murder of her grandmother. Amelia had shown me that the old woman would stand in the way of things that needed to happen and had to be removed from the situation. I had sent Andre to glamor the human Rene. He was chosen due to his history of having murdered his sister. His first crime would have been his only crime if I hadn't intervened. He killed his sibling in the heat of anger and truly did not have it in him to do it again.
He had been the perfect candidate and all it took from my trusted companion was to suggest to Rene, while glamored, that he was the angel of death to any human who fornicates with Vampires. He had taken to the task with such zeal that I had been a little surprised. A final visit from Andre and the order to kill Adele Stackhouse had taken the unfortunate old woman out of the equation. Everyone assumed, as I knew they would, that the killer had gone there looking for Sookie since she was dating Bill and had found her grandmother instead. I should have foretold that he really would go after Sookie, I suppose I put way too much faith in the local law enforcement when I assumed that they would catch him after Adele's murder.
I could not have engineered a more perfect match than what had evolved between Eric Northman and Sookie. He would not have been my first choice, I had never been overly fond of him. His ambition was boundless and he was the type of Vampire that had made my reign as Queen much harder than it should be. He was proud and obstinate, reptilian in his coldness towards human struggle. When I found out how much he truly cared for Sookie, it caught me by surprise. I could never have anticipated that one little human, albeit a special human as she was, could dredge up that emotion so long absent in the Sheriff of Area Five.
Bill Compton had then thrown another wrench in the works. I had commanded him to stay away from Sookie and Eric but he had circumvented my orders by filing his grievance. He knew that I would follow Vampire law and have the tribunal. I hold dear to the laws of our kind, they have been my savior and protector many times. Amelia had foreseen that all would end well for everyone except Bill Compton should I allow things to continue without intervening, so I kept out of it and let the cards fall as they may. That is, until Pam, Eric's second in command, arranged for Bill to be captured by the Fellowship of the Sun. Fanatical fools as they were, they were still dangerous. I didn't need the scryer to see that should Bill fall into their hands, the idiot would betray my secrets in a heartbeat to save his own skin. So I had sent Andre and Peter had sent Jade Flower to help him escape. They had cost the Fellowship quite a few members that night.
Although this intervention had sent ripples into the future that changed the scheme of things quite a bit, they were for the better. I even managed to gain proof that my betrothed was plotting to kill me, with the help of that traitorous Bill Compton. A woman's suffering is truly eternal, but nothing like the suffering that Peter Threadegill will know this night. By vampire law, the Oracle has found him guilty of treason and he is mine to do with as I choose. This is the side of me that retains no human emotions. The vengeance I feel is righteous and furious. No one will ever suffer the way my would be murderer will suffer. His punishment will go on for quite some time, or at least until I no longer gain satisfaction from it.
I find it harder to gain satisfaction from much of anything anymore. I suppose thats why I feel the need to start grooming Sookie and Eric to take over for me. I am weary and want to retreat from a life of service and paranoia. Maybe I shall meet the sun, maybe I shall just retreat inside of my own mind for many years, like many vampires do, and reemerge someday when I feel I am again able to be vital is some way. I do not guard this life as jealously as I once did and that makes me regretful.
But now, Amelia comes to me with news that may upset my plans once again. Sookie's father, the Faery known as Prince Niall has learned of his daughters turning and is less than pleased. This could be a tremendous problem. Fae are lethal when they seek vengeance. I need to decide if diplomacy or war between our two worlds is the better choice. It is imperative that Sookie and Eric remain together.