Hey! Just to tell you that the future paragraphs are set one month after Claire and Shane lost the baby, with flash backs to that time.

Shane's pov

The weeks have hurt, but today I want to celebrate. I haven't got another tear to secretly shed; we haven't smiled in what seems like a life-time. I'd planned this for after the baby had been born but, I want to ask her now. Claire means everything, she means my life and now I have to just to secure our lives together.

I have a plan, it may not be the best but I think they will love it; I want me and Claire to be married on Claire's (would have been) due date. I'm sick of all the bad memories, I want to make this a happy memory; one in which we can look back in the future and remember. We'll all be sad but I think that's what we need; our wedding will be filled with tears of joy- and then we have a future always remembering that one baby we lost.

I'm going to ask her tonight, in front of Eve and Mikey. Going to get down on one knee, and propose… like in the movies. It's not going to be a full on romantic moment; it's going to be real- show her I love her. It sounds tacky but, well Claire is my girl. That's the truth, she's my angel; saving me from myself.

I told Michael about my little plan and it brought tears to his eyes so, I'm hoping that it will be a moment to remember. He's not been himself lately; either has Eve. Ever since the hospital Eve has never left Claire's side; she's scared that she'll muck up again- she won't.

The day we left hospital was… wow; an experience; defiantly an experience!

Flashback

Today I get to go home, so does Claire but we're leaving half of our hearts here. I think Michael and Eve are too; I've not been home in a while- hopefully it's never changed. Eve keeps fussing over Claire, she has been for days ever since they spoke- at least Eve is not blaming herself; as much! Michael's prepared home, he's taken away the baby's things; I never got to see them maybe that's why I'm stronger than Claire.

Just this morning we were in the hospital café and well it was next to maternity; she saw a woman with her baby and cried… she isn't over this. I just hope when we go home it gets better; I don't want to be the bad one but we shouldn't cry- there is always the future, they would of have been no future if Claire had died too.

End of flashback

Yeah that day was interesting, very interesting. I just want to have something to smile about and what's better than marrying the girl you love?

Michael's pov

Ok so this is good, right? I hope it is. I can only worry; Shane and Claire are made for each other but maybe it's too soon. I hear Claire crying in the night, whimpers Shane just doesn't hear. She wants a life with him but she's lost… hell she lost a child. I'm amazed that she gets through the day; I think she tries too hard to cope, it's a daily dose of university, home, clean, study, cook-day on day but the weekend comes and well she tries to be the old Claire… it's not always there. Her smile falters, her laugh isn't as infectious and well she just isn't as bright, glowing with happiness.

Yet Shane still thinks this is a good idea; should I tell him? Ok no, Michael no. This is his life, a life no one can take away and if he wants to do this then let him. That little annoying voice in my head is right. I can't control him and this will make us smile; something to celebrate.

But truthfully I just hope Claire says yes…

Shane's pov

Ok, everything is ready; meat cooking; table set; candles lit; film chosen; snacks? Shit. Ok so here I am, about to propose to my girl with my head stuck in a cupboard trying to find popcorn and m not a good luck but tonight has to be perfect. I've had this moment planned forever; her looking down in confusion until the wave of understanding takes over; the smile of love and commitment; her giggling at the words, with Michael and Eve looking on in adoration; and finally her beautiful voice speaking that one committing word… where did that come from? Soppy Shane, very soppy! Anyway I've cooked something special for tonight; a nice family meal.

We've been living off ready meal and takeaways; this will make a nice change- real food finally! I've been preparing all day, Michael's made sure the girls were out; I actually enjoyed slaving over the stove, because I knew it was for a justified cause.

The door has just boomed open, with Eve's laugh echoing around the house, Claire's is there too… softer but alive with humour. Their steps come closer and closer till they stop and a silent gasp reaches my ears. I know now is my moment.

I take a few seconds to run my hands over my hair, straighten my shirt and prepare my 'speech'. I walk into the living room, to meet Claire's gaze, her smile is beautiful; I see my Claire in that smile. I don't speak I just walk up to her, get down on one knee, retrieve the box from my pocket- and there's that smile!

The words come effortlessly. "Claire, your beautiful, amazing and all I could ever ask for, I want to spend every second of my life with you; Claire Elizabeth Danvers will you marry me?"

Silence, except for Eve's gasp; there we are frozen; the clock ticks by each second… why hasn't she replied.