Claire's pov
I'm engaged. I don't feel any different; but it did feel perfect. He slipped the ring onto my fingers; just like the movies. I'm going to be married in just five months. Eve is in heaven, we're already planning; and when I say planning, I mean both planning an engagement party and the wedding. Too much for most, but for Eve it's just perfect.
Shane has some of the sweetest ideas, but he has really surprised me with his idea for the engagement party; for our baby… couldn't get better. The colours will be the cutest blue with the sweetest pink; colours I would have had the nursery. I want flowers; lilies, roses, carnations, I want it to be pretty… but mostly I want it to bring me closure.
That's where my next idea came from; the crib will be used to collect the money. It may sound ultra weird to anyone else but, the idea behind it is pretty cool. Me and Michael were talking and he mentioned that we'd need some kind of collection pot, that gave me the idea of the crib; to which Michael teamed the phrase 'save a life, with your fill'- basically meaning we'd save a child's life with the fill of a crib. It sounds spooky filling the crib but maybe that will give me some style of closure.
The whole town is invited, I don't just want a party; I want the party! I want people to know, I want people to see we aren't hiding, I want my life back. That's what I'm going to do. I know people will feel sorry for me but I have to confront those demons; I need to smile again.
Tonight I feel alive; I feel beautiful in my own skin, I don't feel worthless anymore because I understand. I'm going to smile and remember because nothing compares to your first but, I can't let that scare me- I just can't.
My future may not be perfect but, who's is? And especially in Morganville, a perfect life is surviving day on day; we are survivors, we don't give in and I'm going to rise again and smile… show the world I'm still ready and one day I will be a mum.