Sorry for the delay in updates; exams are here and I'm stressed! But here's chapter twenty eight… I can't believe people still like this story; you've really made me smile!
Monica's pov
It's stupid to be jealous; isn't it? Especially of that girl but god she's happy and I'm not. I thought they would break but if anything they are stronger. I walked in and they were just sitting playing a game of 'tonsil tennis'; their friend saw me –that gothed out bitch- bet she's telling them all now.
They will all be wondering why I didn't make a scene; be the bitch I am and the truth is I'm jealous! Yes I, Monica Morrell, am jealous of that nerd. She's happy, she's getting married, she nearly had a child and what have I got? I don't think I have anything; well that's unless you count pad after pad of jock's numbers and a facebook wall covered with snaps of me 'snogging' random guys… I want a relationship, but apparently no one can look past my very own past.
Yes I've been the slut, the bitch, the bully but I've learnt that I need love as much as anyone else- god if Amelie needs love, doesn't everyone? That's what got me so desperate, seeing her and Oliver; they were like two teens, madly in love- I couldn't watch. Guys only go for me if they want a night to remember, or a big busted girl on their arm; they never want a relationship, a date, even a meal out. Don't get me wrong, I used to love that but now I want to be loved.
Look at me. My hair is a different colour every week; my skirt's barely legal; I intimidate most girls I come in contact with, even my own girls are scared. I'm known as a murderer; I've bullied girls to death but I swear I didn't mean to kill Alyssa. I didn't. I'd heard that she was out; and I knew Shane would get out so I set the fire- it was only meant to scare him…
But instead Alyssa was there; so Alyssa died… I killed her.
That's why people don't love me; I've bullied girl after girl, I've attacked person after person; yet apparently that was cool, because it wasn't them. Now my time at TPU is nearly over it's not cool; people don't want to be feared, they want to be liked. Especially in this town; being liked can save your life.
I say I need boy and I do; but really I just want friends. I don't want friends like Gina anymore because she isn't fair or nice; I want friends like the girl I tormented, the boy whose sister I killed and the other two who I've nearly killed… but I'll never get them as my friends.
Who'd want friends like me; someone who has murdered, bullied…feared.
Amelie
My dearest Samuel; your grave still tended by all who loved you, my father caused you, your sudden death. Never shall I forgive him; he is better off dead; I keep him locked away, he hates it. He took you away left me without you; I miss you very dearly. You were the human who changed my life; you showed me love like never before. Your copper hair lit up a room, you were an angel… a vampire who never changed his heart.
You're the one I've came to love; yet now Oliver is taking that post. I never believed I would love again but he's everything I need and more- he treats me like a queen but he knows I rule as one. He wants my crown but he will never own; Morganville is mine and I long for it to grow.
I'm just trying to tell you; that whatever you see, you're still the lover I long to seek.
So? You're probably going ask about Amelie but it's for the future chapter so remember her words! I've tried to make it clearer, what's happening in each chapter because I know it can get a little confusing but the next few chapters are where the real story begins.
Also if you have any ideas for a specific character or even a certain story line just review or pm and I'll incorporate; and I promise I will write anything into this story
Also I'll only write this until you think it's boring so just tell me… enjoy