4. The inner battle
DAROLINE :
Alaric had suggested they move Bonnie in her bedroom, until she woke up. That way, she would be more comfortable. Farell had told them it could take thirty minutes, like it could take one hour, or more, for her to open her eyes again.
The spell was an exhausting one, so the consequences were important. Furthermore, the warlock had discovered that witches had to go through some kind of inner battle once they had found their anchor, which he didn't remember the last time he had performed the spell on a Gemini woman. These news weren't welcomed very well by Caroline, Enzo and Damon, who were tired of things being forgotten by the Gemini Survivor, and the spell getting more and more complicated.
- I admit I forgot major things about that spell, but it's been years since I last performed it. I'm sorry for this. However, I can assure you that Bonnie is safe now, and that this « battle » she has to go through, is harmless. She had to hold onto her anchor, the reason she wants to live, to be able to save herself ! So, obviously, it means she has to face some profound truths to come back to us. , the old man had told them, a look of comfort and assurance on his face.
All of this, was one hour and fifteen minutes ago.
Damon was pacing in his guest bedroom, clutching his phone to his right ear, while frowning and breathing worriedly.
- I know what Farell said, Stefan ! But it was one hour, fifteen minutes and twenty seconds ago. She's not waking up. I don't know what's happening in her head, nor what her « battle » is, and it's freaking me out ! , he sighed, looking ready to punch the wall beside him.
- Farell said it could take hours : I guess it's all up to Bonnie. Depends on how much time she needs to win this battle, or figure out whatever she has to to wake up. I know you're worried, but there's nothing much you can do about it. If it's about facing inner truths, it's harmless : she'll wake up eventually. , Stefan tried reassuring him, feeling that his brother was about to lose it.
- So, you're saying I need to work on my patience, that's it ? , he replied, annoyed.
- Pretty much. I gotta go brother, but call me back when Bonnie wakes up. I need to take care of Rayna. , he answered.
- You found a way to finally end her life and get rid of her ? , the blue-eyed worrier asked, surprised and hopeful at the same time.
- I might have, yeah. Something about the last Everlasting , Valerie helped me with that one. See you later, Damon. , Stefan informed him, careful not to give him false hope. He didn't need it when Bonnie was still asleep.
- Great. Tell me if it worked ! Bye. , Damon hung up.
He put his phone back into his pocket, and looked up as he heard someone enter. His eyes landed on a worried and tired looking Caroline, who was standing against the door. She seemed hesitant, as she openly stared at him.
Smirking lightly, Damon broke the silence that took over the room since he had noticed her :
- I didn't know you eavesdropped on conversations, Blondie. But if you want some news from my dear brother, feel free to ask. You're quite easy to read, you know ? , he stated, waiting for her reaction.
- Stefan talked to you, which means he's still alive. That's all I need to know. Nothing more. Everything else he does, wherever he is, and with whom : I don't give a damn. Now quit trying to embarass me, that's not what I came here for, Damon. , the straightforward blondy vampiress replied back, getting angry at the thought of Stefan being with Valerie. Yeah, she had heard that part.
Damon blinked, a little bit taken aback by Caroline's anger. He was really expecting her to ask him about Stefan. Guess he hadn't realized how pissed off and hurt Caroline actually was with Stefan, he told himself.
Smirk disappearing and curiosity filling his eyes, Damon looked at her :
- What do you want then ? , he asked her.
- I'm worried about Bonnie. , she sighed. Everyone is telling me that she's gonna be ok, and I don't believe them. I feel like you're the only one who can understand how I'm feeling right now. She's your best friend too, after all. , Caroline admitted, watching as Damon nodded, silently agreeing with her.
- I get what you're feeling, trust me. Are you including Enzo in the ones believing she's gonna be okay ? , he replied, narrowing his eyes at the thought of his best friend's boyfriend.
- I am. I like him, but he doesn't seem... strong enough, to be with Bonnie. I feel like he would give up too easily on saving her life : he's too hung up on her to deny her anything. That's why I don't think he can protect her...the way you do. , she blurted out, staring at Damon, honesty in her baby blue eyes.
Not expecting such a confession from the mommy vampire, Damon blinked once more, fixing her curiously. He didn't understand why she was telling him that.
- No offense, Momma Bear, but why are you telling me that ? , he questioned, lifting an eyebrow.
Caroline sighed once more, as she fully entered the room, and took a sit on Damon's bed. The vampire watched as she put her hands on her lap, thinking, before answering his question :
- Because you're the one who came up with a plan to save her life. You're the one who's been doing anything in his power to keep her safe and alive. You're the one who refused to let her give up on herself. And you're also the one who had to put up with her anger and hurt, accepted her heartful words and cold behavior, and still didn't leave her side. You, and not Enzo. , Caroline enumerated passionately, watching as he looked down, not able to meet her knowing gaze.
- What are you trying to say, Blondie ? , Damon finally raised his irises from the floor, deciding to face whatever truth his brother's ex girlfriend was going to throw at him.
- I think you're in love with her, Damon. , the bubbly woman blurted, shamelessly.
Damon blinked, brows furrowed, and mouth open.
To say he was surprised and shocked by what the love of his brother's life had said was an understatement. He found it ridiculous : the love of his life was Elena, and he was in love with her. Had always been, will always be. Right ? That's why he had accepted to wait sixty years or more, to get her back and live his happy ever ending with her. Because he loved her.
Yet, he had completely forgotten about Elena since Bonnie was in danger. Since Tyler had hurt her. And, contrary to popular belief, he had dessicated to protect his best friend, not once thinking about the supposed love of his life.
Quickly getting out of his weird thoughts, Damon gathered himself up, before answering :
- I think you're going crazy, Care Bear. That magical pregnancy may have occured three years ago, but it sure seem to have affected your brain. , he smirked, winking.
- I'm perfectly fine, Damon. And you didn't answer me. Do I need to take that as a yes ? , she questionned, lifting her eyebrows in an interesting manner.
- You need to take that as an « I'm insanely in love with Elena. » Remember, your other best friend, in a magical coma ?! , the immortal creature replied, tone screaming « Stop asking questions I don't know the answers to, and messing with my brain ! ».
Annoyed, Caroline stood up, and walked closer to Damon. She planted her gaze right in his eyes, before saying :
- I may not like you a lot, because of the horrible things you did to me years ago, but I still know you, Damon. And one thing I noticed, is that ever since Elena fell into that crappy magical coma Kai put her in, you have been saving Bonnie. Again and again and again, knowing very well that it only would delay your reunion with Elena. , the former cheerleader started.
- She's my best friend ! Of course I would save her : I'm not that heartless anymore, Caroline. I'm not gonna let her die, since I care about her. , he interrupted, trying to sound like he was making sense.
But Caroline was not buying it. She had seen too many hints that proved Damon was falling in love with her witchy best friend. And even though she loved Elena and wanted her to be happy once she woke up, she had to admit Damon was not made for her. They just weren't good for each other. And the blondy vampire had never hidden her opinion on their relationship, to Elena. She had always made it clear that she thought their love was toxic, and resembled obsession and self-destruction, more than an epic lovestory.
While Bonnie and Damon made each other better. They helped the other evolve. With him, Bonnie was less self-sacrificing and more selfish, she was more badass and stronger than before. And she needed to be like that, to survive as long as she could in the supernatural world. With Bonnie, Damon was not obsessed but protective, he was selfless and didn't put on his bad boy act anymore. Well, not so often and for any reason. He was human, with Bonnie.
- That's exactly the point, Damon. Bonnie changed you ! Don't you see that ?! Before her, before your friendship with her, you would have done anything to get Elena back. Including sacrificing the people you loved : your brother, Bonnie, Alaric. Your obsession for her surrounded any kind of love you felt towards any other person. Elena liked to think she was the one who made you better, and she did, kind of, after years of torment. Yet, all it took was for Bonnie to save you and sacrifice herself in 1994 once, to change you completely. For the better. She made you understand that you were worth being loved, saved, that you were worth being the first choice. That's why you started loving her. You can't tell me otherwise.
The blue-eyed vampire took a deep breath, thinking about everything Caroline was stating. And deep down, he knew she was right. Bonnie had proved him anyone could love him. That it didn't have to be a doppelgänger, one of his bitchy ex's double. His witch best friend had taught him how to gain someone's trust with the purest intentions and with honesty. How to deserve someone's love, in a much healthier manner than how he had proceeded with Katherine and Elena. That kind of bond was profound. With Elena, he felt like he needed to be good to deserve her. He felt forced to suppress his true self, hide his defects, for her to be able to love him.
It was the total opposite with Bonnie. She made him feel like he deserved someone like her, that he had to show his defects and work on them. She accepted him fully : his bright and dark side. While Elena had always been repulsed, bothered and overwhelmed by it. The Bennett beauty knew how to handle him, no matter what emotion took over him in the moment. She just got him.
While going through all of this in his head, Damon remained silent, and still. Caroline sighed, attempting one last time to make him realize what she already knew.
- I just... What you two have is so amazing and beautiful. Your relationship is the best thing that came out of everything we've been through since you first arrived in Mystic Falls. It makes so much sense. And... somehow, I think you're what Bonnie needs in her life : I trully believe you belong to her, and she, to you. I'm not saying that you don't love Elena : but maybe, you don't love her as much as you think. Just think about it, okay ? , Caroline sweetly answered, watching as Damon's eyes wandered everywhere in the room : looking at her, then at the wall, then at the floor, totally lost.
She shook her head without another word, before walking towards the door, ready to go check on Bonnie. She wasn't expecting any answer from her ex boyfriend's brother.
- Hey, Baby Vamp' ! , the vampire suddenly called out, turning around to see her.
- Yeah ? , she paused, facing him.
- Thanks. , he said. He didn't really know why, but he felt grateful for what she had told him. Honesty is always appreciated, that's one of the rare things I like about you. , he added, smirking a little.
Yeah well, Damon was still Damon, even after an emotional talk.
- No problem. , she replied, smiling a little. And Damon ? , she called again, as he acknowledged her once more with a glance. For once, I want my best friend to be loved by someone who deserves her and fights for her. I hope, and know, you do too. It's up to you. , Caroline finished, a pleading look in her baby blue eyes.
Damon nodded and watched absently, as the blond mom disappeared in the hallway.
Funny how one of the persons he had hurt the most, understood him better than himself, he thought.
In moments like that, he could understand why his baby brother had fallen so helplessy in love with Caroline. But damn : the woman had no filter ! Practically psycho-analyzing him in front of his face, with no shame. And being right on every fucking thing she had said, more so.
BONNIE :
Meanwhile, as Caroline was talking some sense into Damon's freaky mind, Bonnie was struggling to wake up, while trying to understand where the hell she was.
After telling Damon she forgave him, which was the last thing she remembered at the moment, the Bennett Survivor woke up in a very bright place. There was a lot of light, and everything was white. It was quite reassuring, apeasing and she felt kind of protected here. She didn't know why she felt like this, but when she noticed a familiar silhouette walking towards her, blinded by the light, everything suddenly became logical.
- Grams ?! , she exclaimed, with teary eyes and a joyful smile plastered on her pretty face.
- Hello, sweetheart. , the caramel woman answered, before engulfing Bonnie in a big hug.
Bonnie enjoyed every second of it, circling her with her arms, breathing her scent in and tightening her hold. After a few minutes, she finally pulled back, tears streaming down her cheeks.
- I can't belive you're really here... ! , the witch whispered,, looking fascinated.
- I'm breaking a lot of rules, to be here with you, child. As always. But you need it, so you can come back to the land of the living. , Grams answered, wiping Bonnie's tears away with her thumb.
- Wait... Are you saying I'm dead, right now ?! , Bonnie asked, alarmed.
- No. You're not dead, nor alive. You're in between : that's what your anchor was needed for. To come back, you need to face some truth. , her grandmother explained.
- What do you mean, « face some truth » ? , she furrowed her brows.
- Obviously, Enzo was not your anchor : which means you were not conscious about who your anchor actually was. In other words, it means you're in denial regarding the feelings you have for said person. In order to use the power of your anchor, you need to accept it. Am I making myself clear, sweetie ? , Sheila intervened once more, watching as Bonnie tried to understand the meaning of her words.
The young sorceress stepped back a little, before shaking her head. She actually knew what her Grams was refering to : she had been trying to ignore those feelings Sheila was talking about, as long as she could. But it seemed like today was time to face them.
- We're talking about Damon, aren't we ? , Sheila's granddaguther looked up at her, sighing heavily.
- Only you know the answer to that question, honey. , she replied, smirking. Funny how this gesture immediatly made her think about her vampire best friend. The man one.
- Quit the innocent act, Grams. I know you've been watching me from wherever you are. You probably know about everything that happened between me and Damon since you died, in details. , she replied back, smirking too. Damon was rubbing off on her too much, she thought.
The powerful Bennett witch laughed, nodding. Her granddaughter knew her too well. But could she blame her ? The Salvatore brothers hadn't brought anything but chaos since their arrival in Bonnie's life. She was only protecting her grandchild. And also her grandchild's heart.
- I do. I've seen how you two evolved around each other. How he made you stand for yourself, which is the only thing I'm grateful to him about. But don't mention that to him when you return. , she specified as Bonnie laughed once more. But most importantly, I saw how he started being less and less obsessed over Elena, and more preoccupied about your life. I saw how he started looking at you, not realizing he was developpping feelings for you. And I also noticed as you threw yourself in a relationship with Enzo, who's a good man, but not the one you actually want. I saw you settling for comfort and simplicity, in order to run away from the painful heartbreak and torment that Damon's abandon provoked. , the former witch continued, smiling kindly and holding Bonnie's hands in hers.
The caramel-skinned young woman blinked, surprised at how relevant and convinced her grandmother sounded. Sheila was always honest in her words, and didn't beat around the bush. She was direct. It was pointless of Bonnie to try and play the one who didn't understand what she was talking about.
- I'm scared, Grams... , she finally admitted, swallowing hard.
- You're the bravest person I know, coming from the most powerful line of witches, and yet you're afraid of loving someone ? , Grams replied ironically, lifting her eyebrows and smiling a little.
- It's not someone, Grams. It's Damon, we're talking about. , she half-laughed, sighing deeply, before looking at the ground. The man who's madly in love and completely obsessed with my best friend, who's in a magical coma right now. He woud literally tear the world apart to have her back. And after everything they've faced and been through, I don't believe he could love someone else as much as he loves Elena. , the green-eyed beauty confessed, still looking at her feet.
She was ashamed of her feelings, because she thought they were one-sided and will never be reciprocated.
Bonnie watched as her grandmother suddenly stepped back, before sighing and mentioning for her to look on her left, with a small gesture of her chin :
- If that's your true concern, then I guess I'm not the one you need to talk to. , she said, before quickly kissing her granddaughter's cheek and disappearing in a second.
Stunned, Bonnie stayed still, brows furrowed and arms limp along her body, before looking on her left. What she saw, or more precisely, who she saw, made her heart break into a million of pieces :
- ELENA ?! , she gasped, her mouth hanging open, once the name came out.
CARENZO :
Enzo stared at Bonnie's sleeping form, like he had been doing for one hour and fifteen minutes. Even though Farell said she was going to wake up, he was really starting doubting his words. It was nerve-wracking, seeing the woman you were in love with, in that state.
But it also led to a lot of thinking. Such as : am I really the one for her ? Is she doubting her feelings towards me ? Did she know her true anchor was Damon, or was she completely oblivious to what he meant to her ? Had their lovestory only been an escape from reality and the result of denial ?
- No, she hasn't woken up yet. , he suddenly heard Caroline's voice speaking, and detected her sigh.
It got him out of his dark thoughts. He turned his head towards the corridor, spotting Caroline, leaning against the wall with her phone in her right hand.
- Yeah, I'll call you back. , she said. Enzo heard Alaric telling her he loved her.. Me too. , the blond beauty answered back, cleverly avoiding the « L » word. Bye. , she hung up.
Enzo quickly got back to staring at Bonnie, not wanting to incur the wrath of Caroline, for listening to her personnal conversation. He had enough trouble already.
- Nothing new yet ? , Caroline asked Enzo, as she entered Bonnie and Enzo's guest bedroom.
- Nope. Still playing Sleeping Beauty, as you can see. , he smirked, trying to lighten the mood and hide his worry.
- You don't have to play the tough one with me, Enzo. I know you're worried as hell. « Maybe not as much as Damon though », she wanted to add , but restrained herself.
- You're right. , he admitted. But what is it going to bring to me ? Worrying won't make her wake up any faster. , he added.
Caroline nodded, before taking a seat on the chair next to Bonnie's bed on which Enzo was sitting. He was gently stroking her face and hands. She smiled sadly at his gestures, knowing her best friend probably didn't love him as much as he did. She felt sorry for him : Enzo didn't deserve to be heartbroken once more, but it was inevitable. Unfortunately.
- Enzo... , she started quietly. Can I ask you a question ? , the bubbly mom continued, hesitant.
- Of course, love. What is it ? , Enzo questionned, curiosity filling his brown eyes, as he looked at Caroline's sorry face.
- How much do you love Bonnie ? Are you ready to do...anything, for her ? , she let out, carefully choosing her words.
- It makes two questions, gorgeous. , he smirked once more, before becoming serious again. But, yeah. Of course, I would do anything for Bonnie, as long as she's okay with it. I can't betray her, in any way. , he explained sincerely.
That's what Caroline feared : Enzo was not strong enough to love someone like Bonnie. Because he was so in love with her, that he couldn't think about the idea of betraying her desires, even if it meant saving her life. Much like Damon with Elena, Enzo wanted to stay in Bonnie's good graces. And Caroline had seen what that kind of relationship and love led to, while observing Elena and Damon. She hadn't been able to stop Elena from falling into such a toxic circle, but she was determined to not let her second best friend get drowned in it too. For wrong reasons. She didn't want that for Bonnie. Not after everything she had experienced since she had learnt she was a witch.
- Does that mean... you would be ready to let her go, if she needed it ? , Caroline insisted.
Enzo let go of Bonnie's hands, and let out a breath, as he focused his gaze on Caroline. He wasn't dumb : he knew what she was trying to get out of him, and why.
- Listen Caroline, let's not pretend we're not talking about Damon. Bonnie and Damon, more precisely. , he stated, fixing her.
Caroline looked down, ashamed she hadn't been able to actually blurt out the question. Enzo leant closer to her, as he left her chin up and stared right into her captivating blue eyes :
- I'm aware Bonnie might have feelings for Damon. He was her anchor for goodness'sake ! , he forced a laugh. And I'm pretty sure Damon doesn't know he's in love with her, but I do. However, as long as Bonnie doesn't tell me herself that she doesn't wanna be with me, or that Damon doesn't decide to face his feelings and fight for her, then I'll keep holding onto her. , Enzo passionately admitted. But I'm a man of his word. And I genuinely love her too much to deny her happiness. So : if Bonnie finds out she'll be happier with Damon, and that, somehow, he's the one she's trully in love with, then I'll back out. I'll let her go, for her. That's how much I love her. , he finished, looking dead serious.
Caroline nodded awkwardly, swallowing hard. She had her answer, but Enzo had touched her. He was a passionate man, and though he may not be as strong as Damon, his love for Bonnie was still very much intense and sincere. She admired that.
- Okay... , she muttered, not tearing her eyes away from Enzo. Thank you, for Bonnie. , she added.
Enzo was about to nod, but Bonnie's sudden gasp of air caught their attention. They looked at each other before rushing to her side, as she started opening her eyes.
- OH MY GOD ! BONNIE ?! , Caroline screamed, tears threatening to fall.
BONLENA :
Elena laughed as Bonnie's small arms hugged her with a Hulkan strength. She wrapped her arms around her best friend, in a comforting manner, as she felt Bonnie's hot tears wetting her thin top.
- Hey, Bon... God I missed you ! , Elena sighed deeply, squeezing her back.
- I missed you too... , Bonnie answered, pulling out of the embrace. But, how... I mean...What are you doing here ? How is it even possible ?! Are you real, like Grams ? Is it the real you ? , the witch bombarded her human best friend with questions.
The comatose girl laughed once more, happy to hear her best friend's voice, and sat on a bench. Which appeared out of nowhere. You can expect that much in a magical, weird place.
Bonnie quickly joined her, as Elena started explaining everything :
- You know, it's...weird. That magical coma state, I mean. , she started. It's like I'm dead, but I can see you guys, sometimes. I don't control it. It's like something wants me to see certain things. , she paused and watched as Bonnie seemed lost. I know it's hard to understand : but I don't get it either. It's just how it happens, and what it feels like. I can't give you much more details about it. , she shrugged.
- Yeah, it sounds...freaky. , Bonnie laughed, before swallowing hard.I'm... so sorry : this is my fault you're in that coma. If I hadn't avenged myself from Kai, things would be different. Jo would be alive, her family too, Liv, and... you too. Damon wouldn't have to wait for my death, to have you back. I screwed everything up : I'm the reason for this mess. , the Bennett girl confessed whole heartedly, as tears welled up in her eyes.
Alarmed, Elena shook her head vividly, and took Bonnie's hands in hers, squeezing them hard.
- No, no, no... , she repeated hurriedly. Don't you dare blame yourself for this situation, Bonnie Bennett. You didn't ask for it : Kai is the reason for this mess. He hurt you, Bon : badly. He did all those horrible things to you that...I don't even wanna think about, because this is awful. You had the right to avenge yourself : and you did right. Kai deserved it, and so much worse. So : I don't blame you, and you shouldn't either. , Elena reassured her, not wanting her best friend to live with this weight on her shoulders, for the rest of her life. Got it, girl ? , she insisted, smiling a little.
- Got it. , Bonnie answered , after taking a deep breath. Anyway, the witch shook her head, to forget about her guilt, how am I seeing you, here ? , she questionned, intrigued.
- Well, no one actually explained it to me, but here's my reasoning : since this place is somewhere in between life and death, and that my current state is similar to that, just like yours : I guess we're both able to have access to this place, and meet here. , Elena tried, furrowing her brows, as she tried to make some sense in what she was saying.
- Yeah, that's quite logical. , Bonnie smiled. But...um...How did you get there ?
Elena crossed her legs, as she thought back about how she had ended in that place. She started rubbing her hands, sign that the brunette beauty was nervous about this situation. She was overwhelmed by the happiness she felt from seeing Bonnie again, but she was also bothered about Bonnie's state and questions. Because Elena knew what was coming next. She would have to be very strong, and prepared herself to make the ultimate sacrifice she was willing to do, to guarantee Bonnie's happiness.
- I don't know. I don't understand this better than you do. I just... felt a strong need to be by your side, as if you needed me, as if you called for me. And I ended up here. That's it. , the Gilbert doppelganger stated, shrugging once more.
She hoped Bonnie would get the hint, and find out why she was here. Because announcing it to her would be too much for Elena.
Bonnie nodded, humming. She looked at the white ground, trying to figure out the reason why Elena was there. She was so relieved to see her best friend again, but she didn't get how it had anything to do with her state, and her anchor.
Until it hit her : Damon was her anchor, but he was also Elena's boyfriend. Elena's epic love, the man Elena was in love with.
- Oh God... , the young witch whispered, suddenly feeling horrible. Now she understood Elena's presence, hence the last words her Grams had spoken before disappearing.
Elena suddenly lifted her head up, as she heard Bonnie's frightened whisper. Raising her left hand, she took Bonnie's chin, and made her look at her.
Surprised, Bonnie focused on Elena, and noticed the brunette had tears in her brown eyes. But even more strange, she was kind of smiling at her. In an understanding, compassionate, and knowing way.
- You figured it out, didn't you ? That I'm here for Damon. , Elena spoke gently.
- Wait... You know why you'rehere ? , Bonnie gasped, shoked and confused.
- I do. I don't know how, nor why now, but I know the reason why. , the brunette nodded.
Bonnie pulled away from her best friend, shaking her head. She just couldn't believe it : that was her battle. She had to admit to herself that she had feelings for Damon, then confess them to Elena. Because Elena was the reason why she had been ignoring those feelings in the first place, pushing them away as best as she could. Bonnie had to find the strength to betray her best friend. Well, that's how she felt.
- Elena... , Bonnie spoke quietly, tears forming in her beautiful green eyes.
Guilt was starting to overwhelm her, as she realized what she had to do, in order to come back to the land of the living. It was her most horrible nightmare. Betraying her best friend was against Bonnie's nature. Even now that she was more badass and stood up for herself.
- No, Bonnie, don't. , the brown-eyed girl forbade, knowing very well what Bonnie was thinking. She knew her too well. And she was there to change that side of Bonnie : the one that chose neglecting her own happiness over Elena's.
The Bennett sorceress closed her eyes, before taking a deep breath. She turned to face Elena, but didn't dare looking at her. Instead, she focused on the necklace her best friend was wearing.
- I can't say it, Elena. I just... I can't. I didn't even completely admit it to myself, how can I look at your face and tell you that... , she stopped, unable to say more. Tears rolled down her tanned cheek.
- You have to. Please say it, Bonnie. You need to come back to Caroline, Stefan, Alaric and Damon. , Bonnie couldn't help notice that Elena didn't mention Enzo, her current boyfriend.
- I can't betray you... , the witch refused, shaking her head once more.
Seeing that Bonnie wasn't going to give up anytime soon, Elena decided to pour her heart out. And make her best friend understand that she had to stop rejecting her own happiness.
So, sighing deeply, because it wasn't something easy to do for Elena either, the doppelganger took Bonnie's hands into hers, earning her attention.
- Listen, Bon. As I told you before, during all those years, I've always been by your side. When I was allowed to, by whoever or whatever makes it possible, I watched over you guys. I witnessed Caroline and Stefan's break up, then I noticed Damon's growing love for you. I was able to see you two become best friends, doing everything to protect each other. I witnessed Damon choosing to save you, again and again. , she paused, tears threatening to fall. I'm not blind. I know you're the one who made him become this sensational man. I contributed to it too, but only in the form of being the first one to see the good in him. Everything else, you taught him. In 1994, you showed him he was worth being the first choice, that he was worth being saved. With your friendship, you made him understand that being a good person was not about doing the right thing for someone else, but for your own self. You taught him how to keep being human, while being a bad boy vampire. , Elena added with a teary smile. Bonnie was speechless : she was touched by her best friend's words.
- Elena, I... , she started but her best friend stopped her.
- Let me finish. Please. It's hard for me too, Bon. , Elena told her, squeezing her hands. As Bonnie nodded silently, she continued her speech. What I'm trying to say, is that you made him experience pure love. That's why he can't let you die. That's why he's been actively trying to save your life, even though you hate his guts for dessicating. And yeah, I did feel his heartbreak over abandoning you, while Damon was laying beside me, in that coffin. So I know what I'm talking about, Bonnie. , she swallowed hard, because speaking was becoming hard, as tears streamed down her cheeks, in anticipation of what she was about to say. And from the moment Kai put me in that coma, I've been thinking. Hard. And, when you're all alone in your head, and far away from the person you're madly in love with, weirdly, you become more objective. More realistic. , stroking Bonnie's hand for comfort, Elena took a deep breath. And I realized Damon was not in love with me, but obsessed with me. And I also realized I wasn't in love with him, but extremely attracted and intrigued by Damon's bad boy side, and his passionate personnality. Our relationship is toxic, but I didn't realize it before. When you're drowned into someone, it can't be good. Because it means that person is the only one who can pull you out of water. You can't save yourself : you lose yourself in the other, and you forget how to be free. I was dependent of Damon. , Elena finally finished, wiping her tears away with the back of her hands.
- Elena, I... I don't know what to say. I'm so sorry... , Bonnie cried, hugging her tightly.
She was glad Elena had finally figured out that her relationship with Damon was wrong, but she also knew is broke her to admit it. It was never hard realizing you were denying reality. She had experienced it too, with Enzo.
- Don't be. , she sighed, stroking Bonnie's back, before pulling out of their embrace. I think everything happens for a reason. I was meant to fall in love with Stefan, so I could start over after my parents' death : and he's the one who gave me hope back. Stefan was the one who made me want to live all over again, after this dark period. And then, I was meant to fall for Damon, the bad boy, and live that obsessed toxic relationship with him, to realize that's not what I wanted. To realize that true love was what I had with Stefan. I had to make that mistake, to learn from it. We both had to. , the brunette nodded, convinced.
- Are you saying... you don't love Damon ? , Bonnie asked.
- I do love Damon. I'm saying he's not my soulmate. What I mean, is that maybe Damon had to go through Katherine and me, to realize all he ever knew was obsession, and not love. And maybe I was destined to fall in that coma, for you two to fall in love, and for Damon to discover what true love was, thanks to you. , she explained, hoping she made sense.
Bonnie nodded, thinking about what Elena was telling her. Somehow, it seemed like she was right. It made a lot of sense. The Bennett Survivor also remembered Qetsiyah saying that people were destined to be together, like Amara and Silas. And that from then, everything happened for a reason, and each action had consequences on their destiny. Maybe Bonnie was meant to fall in love with Damon, because he was her happy ending. Her feelings towards him made much more sense, if she thought like that. It also explained a lot of thing : how she was so hurt by Damon's choice to dessicate, how she had thrown herself into Enzo's arms, and how she had distanced herself from him once Damon had come back.
- I'm in love with Damon. , Bonnie finally admitted, out loud, to herself and to Elena.
- And he's in love with you. I just happen to be an obstacle to your lovestory now, and I don't want to be. , Elena continued passionately, standing up.
- But... how can you be okay with it ? , the witch stood up as well, arms falling to her sides, as tears started falling again.
- I'm not totally okay with it, because it's such a hard thing to admit. But I will be. I 'll move on, just like I've moved on from Stefan. Because, it means that my soulmate's someone else. And that he's waiting out there. You made so much sacrifices for me, Bon, and I've been a shitty friend these last few years. Because of Damon. Don't tell me otherwise, I know it's true. But I wanna make it right : I want you to forgive me for everything I've put you through. And I want to redeem myself. This is my way of doing it : I'm giving up on Damon. Because he's wrong for me, and I'm wrong for him, but you two are right for each other. I'm just so sorry it took so much time for me to see it. , Elena replied, smiling and wiping Bonnie's tears away.
Pride, admiration, joy and love crushed Bonnie's heart, as she heard Elena say that to her. She had been angry at Elena for many things, but what she was doing right now, being so mature and caring towards her, proved that she really did love Bonnie. That their friendship was beyond anything : even an epic love story like Elena and Damon had had, wasn't enough to destroy their bond. They would always look out for each other, even if it meant having to do some hard choices, like this one, sometimes.
One last time, Bonnie hugged Elena.
- Thank you. , she whispered to the oldest Gilbert, squeezing her waist.
- Be happy. , Elena answered, squeezing her back. And promise me you won't deny your feelings anymore, okay ? Don't make that moment useless. , she insisted, as she pulled away from Bonnie, still holding her hands.
- I promise. I hope you find your soulmate as soon as possible, once you wake up. And make sure to take him to my grave, so I can see if he's hot enough for you. , the witch laughed with tears in her eyes, knowing it was the last time she was seeing Elena.
- I will. , Elena half-laughed, heartbroken, as she remembered Bonnie would be dead when she wakes up. And keep that promise about my journal : I want to know everything that happens between you and Damon, and to the others. Okay ?
- Okay. , Bonnie took a deep breath, nodding and smiling.
Then, all of a sudden, Bonnie felt like something was pulling her away from Elena, away from this place. And she knew it was time to go home : she had fought her battle. It was a very emotional and hard one, but she had done it. She could come back to Damon. And say one last goodbye to Elena.
Figuring what was happening as she felt Bonnie starting to slip away from her, Elena kissed her cheek and forehead, before screaming :
- I LOVE YOU BONNIE ! TELL EVERYONE ELSE I LOVE THEM TOO !
As the invisible force broke one of their joined hands, Elena held onto the other one, gripping it tightly. She knew it was a matter of second before Bonnie would completely disappear, and she would never see her again. A fountain of tears ran on her cheeks at that realization.
As everything started becoming blurry to Bonnie, a hint that she was coming back to her consciousness, she whispered softly :
- I love you too. , and squeezed Elena's hand one last time, before letting it go.
The brunette doppelganger disappeared from her view, as everything vanished. Bonnie was completely blinded by the light, until everything went black.
When she opened her eyes, Bonnie recognized her and Enzo's guest bedroom, in Caroline's house. She remembered everything : the anchor, the spell, her forgiving Damon and falling unconscious into his arms, Grams, and Elena... Everything hit her as she heard Caroline calling her name, and felt Enzo squeeze her hand.
She was back. And alive.
- Thank God, she's alive ! Bonnie, can you hear me ? How are you feeling, sweetie ? , her blond best friend asked her immediatly, worry in her tone.
- I'm...fine. And I'm back. Care... I'm ALIVE ! , Bonnie smiled whole heartedly when she realized it, and hugged the bubbly vampire, burrying her face in Caroline's neck.
- Yeah, you are ! You made it ! God, I'm so relieved. , Caroline replied, with a teary smile, as she closed her eyes and enjoyed Bonnie's hug.
The powerful witch pulled back, as she felt Enzo's eyes looking intensely at her. She may have realized she wasn't in love with him, but he still meant a lot to her. Seeing him felt familiar, and good. It was comforting.
So, even though she was craving Damon's arms right now, she let Enzo wrap her into his loving embrace :
- You had me frightened for life here, love. You enjoyed playing Sleeping Beauty too much. , Enzo sighed, eyes closed, as he smelled her hair and kissed her forehead.
- It scared the hell out of me too, Enzo. , Bonnie confirmed, and Enzo couldn't help notice she hadn't called him « babe ».
But he chose to forget it, as his girlfriend quickly kissed his cheek, before getting out of the bed and standing up.
- Where the hell do you think you're going, Bon ?! , Caroline warned, a motherly tone in her voice.
- Hum... Hugging everyone else ? , she stated, lifting an eyebrow, in confusion.
- Are you sure you feel fine enough to walk ? , Enzo questionned, doubt and concern written on his face.
- I'm perfectly fine. The spell worked : I feel exactly like I was before the pills made me sick. I swear. Everything's working in my body, and mind. , the Bennett beauty confirmed, reassuring her boyfriend and friend.
Caroline sped in front of her, before checking attentively for her heartbeat and other functions.
- Okay. I belive you. , the vampiress finally spoke, once she was satisfied with her examination. But we're coming with you anyway. Now that you're back, we still have to elaborate a plan to take down The Armory. , she reminded Bonnie and Enzo.
- Right. Let's go downstairs. , Enzo agreed, as he started walking out of the room.
Bonnie and Caroline followed him close behind.
BAMON :
Wanting to think about something else than Bonnie still not waking up, Damon had decided talking a bit with Farell would be a good distraction. They had been discussing about The Armory for some minutes now, since Damon had asked him if he knew a way to get rid of them, for good. Unfortunately, Farell had never heard of them, and he couldn't help at all.
Then, naturally, the subject had changed into Bonnie and Damon's relationship. Farell had asked him who she was to him, to which Damon had answered it was complicated. But he had explained everything that had occured between them, since he had put his feet in Mystic Falls, years ago.
To say Farell was impressed by their history together, was an understatement.
- Well, that's quite extraordinary. A witch and a vampire becoming best friends. Never heard of something like that before. And I've been around for quite a while. , he stated, smirking at Damon.
- Well, you seemed to hate my kind when you arrvied, yet now you're actually talking to me. I guess everything is possible, right ?! , Damon smirked back.
- That's because you remind me of my father. He was kind of like you. Always a smart, sarcastic, ironic and strong-headed jackass. , Farell laughed at the vampire's expression.
- I'll take it as a compliment, so thanks. , the blue-eyed vampire answered.
There was a pause, before Farell spoke :
- Bonnie's a very admirable woman, and a very powerful witch. I really do hope you guys will keep an eye on her, especially you Damon. I can tell she means a great deal to you : so take care of her. , he confessed.
- You really weren't lying when you said you admired Bennett witches. One day with Bonnie Bennett, and you're already fond of her. , the dark-haired immortal teased, wiggling his eyebrows.
- And I'm not the only, I noticed. , Farell added, staring with insistance in the vampire's blue eyes.
Saved by the bell, as Damon was trying to find a coherent come back to that statement, a familiar voice interrupted them, with a sarcastic tone :
- I take a little nap for one hour, and here you are, already making a new best friend, after I forgave you for your asshole behavior. It's quite offensive, Damon.
Blue eyes becoming wide, Damon immediately turned around at the sound of her voice. The one he had been waiting to hear, and craving, for more than an hour now. The voice he was so afraid of never enjoying again.
Green eyes met blue ones, and as the vampire processed what was happening, a gigantic smile made its way on his shocked expression :
- BONNIE ?! , he asked, astonished.
- The one and only, vampy. , Bonnie replied, quoting her own words, from her 1994 return.
Damon's smile became bigger, if that was even possible. He vamp sped towards his best friend, arms opened wildly, as he encircled her waist and spinned her into the air. The witch didn't waste time wrapping her little legs around him, as she gripped his neck and burried her face in the crook of the vampire's neck. Koala-hugs seemed to be their thing, she thought.
She laughed through her tears, as Damon put her back on the ground, carefully. He then proceeded to examine every inch of her face very closely, just to make sure she was okay.
- Are you okay ? Did it hurt you ? , he asked her, holding her chin up while inspecting her neck.
- I'm fine, Damon. , she assured him, taking his hands away to hold them.
- Don't you ever dare scare the hell out of me ever again, Bon, got it ? Or else, I kill you myself, then bring you back just so I can lecture you , like you do to me when I mess up. Because you screwed up, Bonnie. Badly. I literally lost my mind without you ! , Damon threatened, passionately staring in her green orbs.
- Just try and kill me, and see what happens, Salvatore. , she winked, squeezing his hands for more comfort.
- God, I missed your come backs, Bon. , he sighed, before hugging her one more time, after kissing her cheek.
- I missed you. , the brunette witch reciprocated, closing her eyes.
But as she heard Enzo's low growl, she remembered her boyfriend was in the room, watching her emotional and intimate reunion with Damon, as was everyone else. So she slowly, and painfully, pulled away from her best friend.
Frowning, Damon gave her hand one last squeeze, not appreciating her action. But he said nothing, thinking he would get some alone time with Bonnie anyway, one way or another. He needed it to be just the two of them, after nearly losing her to death.
Finally noticing Farell, since she was too caught up in her moment with Damon before, Bonnie made her way towards the warlock, and hugged him as well.
- Thank you for everything, Farell. I owe you. , she thanked him.
- No problem, child. , Farell nodded, smiling nicely. Now, I probably should get going, since I booked a flight for tonight. It was really nice meeting you all, and you have all my admiration Miss Bennett, but I'd like to come back to my home. , he then informed them.
Caroline jumped to her feet, as she was standing beside Enzo, and took her car keys.
- I'll bring you to the airport, Farell. It's the least I could do, after everything you did for us. , she offered sweetly.
- Gladly, Caroline. Enjoy your life, Bonnie : you came back from a very far place. Hopefully, I'll cross your path once more before this bloody cancer takes me for good. , Farell added, before nodding to everyone as a goodbye, and followed Caroline to the front door.
The mom had volunteered to accompany him, knowing Damon and Bonnie probably needed some alone time together, and assuming they had to discuss certain things with Enzo. Hopefully, her best friend would realize Enzo wasn't the one, and Damon would finally man up about his feelings while she was gone.
- See you guys later. I'll call Alaric and the girls to tell them the good news ! Bye. , Caroline informed them, before stepping out of the house with Farell.
Everything was suddenly quiet, as the trio was left alone in the big house. All three of them knew they needed to discuss about serious things. But none of them wanted to.
DEFAN/ BAMENZO
Eventually, Damon, Bonnie and Enzo, had managed to gather around the kitchen table, to discuss a plan against The Armory. They had carefully avoided any subbject that would cause them some major reflexion on their feelings or relationship with each other. Let's say at the moment, taking down The Armory seemed more important.
- So, what do you say ? I can call Stefan, see if he's done with Rayna, and ask him to join us for the ultimate battle against big bad crazy Alex , and her Minions. , Damon suggested.
- It doesn't seem like a bad idea. I guess we could use some help : my sister is way more clever than we giver her credit for. , Enzo agreed, nodding his head while looking at Bonnie. Love ?
- Yeah, I agree with you. One more vampire to fight The Armory won't hurt us. But we need to know how we're going to proceed. , the witch specified.
Damon took his phone out, put it on the table, and composed Stefan's number.
- I need to call my brother first, then we can elaborate a more detailed plan. , he stated, as Enzo and Bonnie watched him put the call on speaker.
Stefan answered after three rings.
- Damon, how are things doing, brother ? , the youngest Salvatore immediately asked.
- Better than I thought it would : the spell worked, and Bonnie's finally awake. , Damon informed him, gladly.
- Really ?! Thank god ! , Stefan sighed, trully happy Bonnie had made it.
He had learnt to appreciate her a lot more during those years without Elena, even though they weren't as close as her and Damon.
- But I'm assuming you're not only calling to tell me the good news, am I right ? , the green-eyed vampire guessed.
- Bingo ! I need your help with something, but first I need to know if you got that Rayna problem over with yet ? , he questionned his little brother.
- Actually, not really. , Damon rolled his eyes at his brother's vague answer.
He watched as Bonnie and Enzo frowned, curious to know what was the problem with Rayna. And also impatient to know if Stefan could help them.
- Can you be more specific, please ? I'm in a hurry. , Damon urged, forcing one of those famous smiles he did , when he wasn't pleased with something.
- I did some research on that Last Everlasting thing I told you about, that Valerie helped me figure out. Turns out it is indeed the only way to kill Rayna. , he paused, before continuing. The problem is the Last Everlasting is in The Armory : in the vault. , he finally revealed, sighing deeply.
Enzo groaned at this information, as Bonnie sighed and shook her head, defeated. Obstacles kept coming into their way. But they both stayed silence and said nothing.
- Are you kidding me ?! Damn it. , the blue-eyed bloodsucker exclaimed.
- We should be used to things never being that easy, by now. , Stefan sighed once more, annoyed with this situation.
- You bet. Anyway, even though I would've preferred for Rayna to be dead by now, it actually makes things simpler for what I had to ask you. , Damon continued.
- I'm listening. , he replied.
- Bonnie, Enzo, me, Blondie and Alaric are planning to take down The Armory. By tomorrow. We thought we could use your help as well. , the oldest brother informed him, waiting for his response.
- By tomorrow ? But do you have a valid plan ? , Stefan asked, worried.
Damon rolled his eyes once more, before replying to his brother.
- No, Saint Stefan, we needed to know if you could come first, to start planning anything. And since you just told me the Last Everlasting was at The Armory, then I guess you're free to join us there tomorrow, and fight with us. This way, we kill Alex and all her body guards, while finding the Everlasting and burning him as well : two birds with one stone. , he explained while smirking at Bonnie and Enzo.
- Hmm. Ok : works for me. See you tonigth bro', you'll explain the plan to me once we'll all be there. Just send me a text to tell me what time I have to be here. , Stefan agreed.
- Great ! Will do. See you later, Steffy. , he smirked once more, before hanging up.
Bonnie rolled her eyes at Damon's nickname for Stefan. Enzo watched as he turned towards them, after putting his phone back into his pocket.
- So, we have all the help we need. Let's elaborate that plan, now. , he spoke cheerily, rubbing his hands against one another.
- Any idea ? , Bonnie started, looking at Enzo, then at Damon.
Three hours later, they had everything planned out. Caroline had come back from the airport, and she had brought Alaric with her. She had received a text from Bonnie, telling her that they had a plan to take down The Armory, but she needed to be there with Alaric so she could get informed on everyone's role. The twins were safe at their nanny's house.
Since they all needed to travel back to The Armory and leave Dallas very fast, they had agreed to several things :
1) Bonnie would travel with Damon, in his car.
2) Enzo, Caroline and Alaric would be taking the plane, so they could arrive before them. They had to make sure everything was safe, and that Alex and her team were still at The Armory.
3) Stefan would immediatly drive to the cabin once he arrived, and wait for the others there.
4) Damon had to take Bonnie to the cabin, and stay with her to protect her if anything happened, until Stefan and the others joined them, after cheking for everything we mentioned.
After that : the plan consisted in half improvisation, and half detailed directives.
They would all leave now, so they could be there by tomorrow early morning.
- Ok, so is everyone ready ? Are you sure you understood everything ? , Damon asked one last time, as he took Bonnie's bag in his hands.
- Of course we did, Damon. We're not dumb : it's not the first time we have to follow a plan. , Caroline spat, annoyed.
- Just making sure. You already proved your brain functions were limited in the past, Blondie. , he smirked, as Caroline huffed. Same goes for my dear former best friend. , the vampired added, as he stared at Enzo.
- I see that your jealousy is finally starting to show up. About time, buddy ! , Enzo replied back, with a smirk of his own, as he moved his arm for emphasis.
- You don't want to try playing the smart one, when you poisonned the girl you loved in the first place, mate. , Damon angrily answered back, as he glared at Enzo.
- Damon, not now. Quit the act, you two. We have more important things to do. Do I really need to give you both an aneurysm, or is it clear ? , the Bennett girl chimed in, looking annoyed and tired.
Everyone stayed silent and watched closely , as both vampires shot daggers at each other. Enzo directed his gaze towards his girlfriend :
- Sorry, love. You're right : let's go. I'll see you later. , he apologized, before looking one last time at Damon and kissing Bonnie on the lips.
The blue-eyed vampire kept himself from staking Enzo, as he watched him exit the house, to join Alaric and Caroline into their car.
BAMON :
He knew Enzo wanted to provoke him, but he wouldn't give in. He would be more mature, for once, and not let his impulsivity take over. Although he was starting to come to the conclusion that he had feelings for Bonnie. Not friendlyones. And that's why he was so nervous around her, and so angry when he saw her with Enzo.
Damon glanced at Bonnie while he was lost in his thoughts. And as he observed her captivating green eyes, cute nose and kissable lips, he couldn't help thinking : Damn. Why did I have to pick such an amazing and gorgeous girl best friend ?! Sorry, Elena : I think I may have completely forgotten about you, and fallen in love with Bonnie Bennett.
It was Bonnie's impatient voice that snatched him out of his deep thoughts :
- Damon ? You comin' ? , she impatiently asked, and he noticed she was already standing in the doorway.
- Hum... Yeah, here I come, Bon Bon. , he quickly answered, as Bonnie rolled her eyes at him, as always.
They stepped out of Caroline and Alaric's house, and Bonnie closed the door with the spare keys Caroline had given her.
While she was locking the house, Damon headed towards the car, and unlocked it. He opened the trunk of the Camaro, and put his and Bonnie's bags into it. He closed it, stepped around the car and climbed into the driver's seat, as he waited for Bonnie.
The witch, after making sure the door was well locked, made her way towards the car, and joined Damon. She opened the passenger door, and climbed in, giving him a small smile.
- Ready to kick some ass, Bon ? , Damon gaver her a smirk, as he wiggled his eyebrows and started up the car.
- Hell yeah ! , she exlaimed, smirking back.
And just like that, Bonnie buckled her seatbelt, as Damon sped away in the night. She couldn't ingore that part of her who was excited to get some alone time with Damon, and didn't miss Enzo at all. She had missed her best friend.
They arrived at the cabin around six in the morning.
Damon closed the motor of his car, as he checked on Bonnie, on his right. She was in a deep sleep. He smiled affectionately at her, as he heard the steady and calm pulsations of her heart, her slow breathing and her little cute snores. He would sotease her about it, later.
Not wanting to wake her up, since she deserved and needed some peaceful sleep, he got out of the car and made his way to the other side. The sarcastic vampire slowly opened the door, and took Bonnie carefully into his arms, making sure he wouldn't wake her. He wrapped his arms protectively around her waist and legs, and vamp sped them into the cabin. Once he reached the bedroom, he put her cautiously on the bed, covering her with a blanket that he found in the closet.
Damon observed her for some seconds, before leaving the bedroom and closing the door behind him. He took their bags out of the trunk and put them on the table of the living-room.
Not knowing what to do until Bonnie wakes up, or Stefan arrives, he grabbed the small journal he had been writing to Elena out of his bag, and started writing about his situation. Dessication, Rayna, The Armory, Bonnie's near death, Bonnie and Enzo's relationship, and his new found feelings for his best friend , were mentioned among the pages. The vampire already knew how he would end this daily paragraph : Sorry, Elena. I couldn't keep my promise : I moved on from you, I didn't wait for you, and I fell in love with your best friend.
Bonnie woke up an hour later, a little bit disturbed, as she acknowledged where she was. Her sleepy mind finally figured out they had arrived at the cabin, once she observed the famliar bedroom she was in. The brunnette witch removed the blanket from her body, and stood up. She got out of the room, searching for Damon, when she heard some noise in the kitchen. It also smelled like pancakes.
And there she foud him, standing in the middle of the kitchen, flipping pancakes : just like their time in 1994. The vampire hadn't noticed her yet, nor heard her coming, but she smiled happily and shook her head.
- I didn't know you missed the Prison World that much ! , Bonnie suddenly spoke out loud.
Damon left his head up, and smirked at his best friend. He was glad she was finally up, it was startting to get annoying here, all alone and all.
- Ah ! You're finally up, sleepy head ! , he exclaimed. I figured it has been a long time since I made you my famous vampcakes, and I'm sure you missed it. , he continued, flipping one more pancake and putting it in the plate.
- I did. , she confirmed, smiling. So, how long was I out like a light ? , the witch asked, curious to know when they had arrived here.
Damon turned the baking tray off, pulled the Chantilly cream out of the fridge, and spread it on the pancake. He added two blackberries on top, and put the pancake in another plate. He handed it to Bonnie, smiling wildly.
- Thanks. , she said, laughing.
- You've been sleeping for one hour, since we got here. But it had been three hours, since you drifted off on the way to the cabin. , the dark-haired man informed her, winking.
- Wow. I didn't realize I was so tired. , Bonnie exclaimed, before pausing as she realized something. Wait... Does that mean you carried me all the way to my room, without waking me up ? , she blinked.
- Well yeah. I didn't want to wake you up and have you giving me an aneurysm for disturbing your beauty night sleep, Bon. , Damon shrugged, before taking a bit of his pancake.
The Bennett powerful witch shook her head, rolling her eyes and smiling. He was unbelievable : how could he abandon her and hurt her so bad, and just be back to normal once she had forgiven him ? Of course things were better between them now, but she thought it would at least take some time , before they got back to how they were before.
Suddenly stopping eating her pancake, Bonnie raised her eyes to look into Damon's blue eyes :
- I never got to ask you this, because a lot of events happened and everything went so fast after I forgave you, but : do you regret abandoning me ? , the green-eyed beauty asked him, wanting to know. She had been craving to ask this question since her return.
Damon suddenly looked up, blinking at her question. Her stare was insistant and full of curiosity and hope. He knew she still needed to be reassured on his love for her, even after she forgave him. Bonnie was a strong, independent woman, but she had some serious insecurities when it came to love.
- Bonnie : we both know abandoning you was the biggest mistake I've ever made in my life. So let's not elope on the question : of course, I regret it. , he revealed, sighing deeply before shaking his head as he thought about his stupidness for doing that. But when I did, I thought I was protecting you, as I told you. Now, even more since I've learnt about your possible death when I came back, I know how stupid it was : I need to stay by your side, to ensure your safety. Because I would never forgive myself if anything ever happened to you, and that I wasn't there to stop it. , the blue-eyed vampire added, staring deep into Bonnie's green orbs.
Swallowing the lump that was forming in her throat, Bonnie nodded. She was overwhelmed by what Damon, and his words, were making her feel right now : loved, important, worth it, cherished.
She knew he was sincere, and it warmed her heart. Elena's voice popped up in her head, as she thought about her feelings for Damon : He's in love with you. You two are right for each other. You taught him how to keep being human. I was always by your side. Could it be possible ? Could her and Damon be soulmates, and meant to be ?
- Bon, you okay ? , Damon asked, pulling her out of her memories.
- Hum... No. , she took a deep breath before looking at his worried face. I need to tell you something that I haven't told the others... , Bonnie said.
- Go on. , her best friend encouraged, as he frowned.
Needing some comfort and touch, she took Damon's hand in hers. He responded by squeezing it lightly, telling her it was okay. That she could tell him anything.
- I saw Elena, Damon. , the witch blurted out, watching his reaction.
- Wh-What ? What do you mean, you saw Elena ? , Damon replied, shocked, and blinking.
- After I fell unconscious because of the spell, I woke up in that weird place. And I saw Grams, then Elena. The real her. She was my inner battle. , she explained seriously, stroking his hand with her thumb.
- Elena was your inner battle ? But, how ? Did you talk to her ? , Damon questioned, completely lost and surprised.
Bonnie sighed, before nodding. She didn't know where this conversation was going, nor why she had decided telling him, but she needed to share this with her best friend.
- Yeah, we talked. She told me she could see us sometimes, that it was weird. , the Bennett beauty quoted what Elena had told her. I guess Elena was my inner battle, since I've been having a hard time processing that I would never see her again, and that she would only wake up when I die. But... there was something else, too. , she continued.
- O-kay. Are you waiting for my non-beating heart to stop, or are you going to tell me what the hell it is, Bonnie ?! You're scaring me ! , the vampire exclaimed, loosing his patience.
Bonnie looked down, not sure wether she should tell him she had feelings for him, or keep it to herself. But she knew she'll have to face them eventually : so why not now ?
- The only way for me to get out of that place and come back to you, was to admit to myself, and to Elena, my feelings for you. , she finally revealed, anxious.
She didn't dare looking at Damon, as she planted her eyes on anything she could find, but not on her best friend.
Bonnie felt the tears coming, as Damon stayed silent and said nothing. She feared rejection, feared his reaction : that he would laugh at her face, or look at her with this apologetic look, before turning her down. Telling her that he loved her, but only as his profound best friend, and nothing more. The Bennett girl might be a powerful witch, but she wouldn't be strong enough to handle the hurt his answer would cause her.
Damon blinked several times, when the words came out of his best friend's mouth. Was he dreaming ? Maybe he had landed in another dimension ? Because it was too good to be true. He had realized he was in love with his best friend, and now, she was telling him she also had feelings for him. It couldn't be that easy. He never had so much chance when it came to love : he didn't deserve it. He always had to fight a hundred obstacles, before getting the girl he wanted.
But as he saw her avoiding his gaze, he knew she was genuinely honest with him. Bonnie had feelings for him too. And it was the best day of his life.
Gently, Damon squeezed Bonnie's hand, and left her chin up with his other one. She immediately looked at him, and he heard her heart beating furiously. He made sure to put all the love he felt for her in his eyes, as he spoke softly :
- You just made me the happiest man on earth, Bonnie Bennett.
Blinking as a single tear rolled down her cheek, Bonnie laughed. With his sentence, she realized he was probably feeling the same way.
Damon smiled at her, and stroke her cheek and her hand. He couldn't help looking at her delicous looking-lips, that she was biting out of nervousness. They were very tempting.
- You should stop biting those gorgeous lips, Bon. , he whispered.
- I should, right ? , she nodded, agreeing with his statement, on the same tone.
- Yeah. They need a sweeter gesture. Like a kiss. , Damon smirked, bringing his lips closer to hers.
Bonnie breathed hard, as she looked at Damon's lips. Her heart was beating so fast, she thought it would explode. The witch couldn't concentrate on anything else than Damon, his breath mixing with hers, as he seduced her. She was suddenly very hot and bothered.
- Oh, do they ? , Bonnie heard herself tempting him, mirroring his seductive tone and expression.
- Definetely. , Damon groaned, not able to resist her anymore.
The vampire passionately crashed his lips on the witch, as she responded right away. Their lips moved against each other, kissing, grabbing, biting the other's. Damon licked her upper lip, asking for entrance. Bonnie gladly obliged, as she opened her mouth, allowing Damon's tongue to come in contact with hers. A tsunami of emotions rushed into her, as he tasted her sweet tongue, and she grabbed on his neck to push it deeper into her mouth. Damon was losing control, but he knew he had to stop. However, when she started drawing circles in his mouth, he completely forgot about that. The dark-haired man grabbed her chin and held it tightly, but he was careful not to hurt her. He then proceeded to show her all the love and attractiveness he felt towards her, biting her tongue and rolling his around hers. Bonnie moaned, a wave of pleasure hitting her.
It was the noise of Stefan's car pulling in front of the cabin that stopped them.
TO BE CONTINUED
Hey everyone ! So this chapter was WAY longer than the other ones : because we're coming closer and closer to the ending. Indeed, there will be one last chapter after this one, and my short fanfic will be over. I hope you enjoyed Chapter 4; there's one major event : BAMON KISS !
It's the first time I write about people kissing, so I hope I did a good job and that you liked the scene. I tried my best.
Please leave a review so I can read your thoughts, it's really pleasant and motivating !
Kisses, KatemonLazuli