Quinn was frozen. She was pretty sure she was paralyzed. I fell asleep! I..I..I FELL ASLEEP! DUMBASS! Stupid, stupid, stupid stupid dumbass! Way to go Q..Adddison is gonna kill you for sure now! Her breathing had quickened and she began to feel hot. She could have pretended not to see you. She asked him to wake you. Grow some lady balls damn it and go in there. Her head overruled her fear and she stood. Smoothing down her pale cream sun dress she walked towards the private room. Freezing when her hand touched the door.
Santana saw a shadow under the gap of the door. Her chest felt even tighter. She'd recognised the blonde as soon as the orderly wheeled her around the corner. Her face shielded by her hair that had fallen across it. Santana was pretty sure she would recognise Quinn with her eyes closed. She took a deep breath. "Don't be shy Q. I won't bite"
"Don't be shy Q. I won't bite." The latina called out to her friend stood at the doorway to her bedroom. Quinn smiled. A small blush tinting her skin. Both girls had got back late from cheerleading camp. They decided to walk to Santana's since it was closest. They showered and changed and now here they were. The brunettes parents were away until the end of summer. The girls had the run of the house, they could do whatever. But three intense weeks of cheer training had exhausted them so they had agreed on watching a film in bed.
Quinn shuffled over to her friends king size bed and slipped under the sheets. The latina doing the same. Within the first 30 minutes of the film they had gravitated toward each other. Santana's head was resting on the blondes shoulder and Quinn was playing with her friends fingers.
The blondes attention drifted towards Santana's hand in her lap. "Your skin is beautiful S" she whispered shyly. She loved how soft it was. How the latinas natural tone both contrasted and complimented hers.
Santana was sure her heart stopped for a moment. She tilted her head slightly and looked at Quinn. The blonde had ducked her head but still continued to squeeze and caress her hand. After a moment of silence she smiled. "you're beautiful Q' she countered in a genuine tone. The blondes head shot up, eyes wide.
"No. No I'm not." She shook her head and pulled away. Dropping the brunettes hand. Instantly missing the contact.
Santana scoffed. "you're the most stunning, beautiful, gorgeous girl I know Q...how can you say that!?"She questioned. Disbelief sounding through her voice.
"I'm ugly inside. I'm a bitch and a liar. I'm a disgrace. I'm wrong...I.." She trailed off and tried to discreatly wipe a tear. But her friend saw.
Santana placed her left hand on Quinn's cheek and used her thumb to wipe away the tear. "babe, you're not a bitch , your tough! Fuck Russell for ever saying you're a disgrace. You are not a liar...we're honest with each other...and whatever gave you the idea you are wrong, fuck it off. Nothing about you could be wrong Q. Nothing."
Quinn's breath caught in her throat at the latinas intense words. Deep chocolate eyes bore into her hazel ones. Her heart began to beat faster. Her eyes drifted to Santana's lips then back to her eyes. Santana said nothing about her could be wrong. What about her feelings. Her attraction. Could they be right..what...
Her thoughts were cut off when soft, warm lips met hers. For a moment she froze. Then instinct and lust took over. She reached a shakey hand out and cupped the brunettes face. The latina doing the same. Slowly the kiss built in intensity. Santana ran her tongue across Quinn's lower lip then nipped at the soft pink flesh. Quinn moaned and pushed forward, causing the latina to drop onto her back. Quinn practically straddling her. They continued to passionately explore each others mouths and bodies before the need for air separated them.
Quinn giggled and rested her forehead against Santana's. "I've wanted to do that for so long"
Santana smiled up at her and nodded. "me too Q. Me too."
Quinn shook the memory away and took a deep breath. She ran her hands through her hair then exhaled. Don't mess up. She instructed herself. Then pushed open the door.
Santana's breath all but left her as Quinn stepped into her room. The bright lights from the hallway poured into the dimly lit room giving the effect that Quinn was surrounded by an aura of gold. But Santana was pretty sure that's how she always saw Quinn.
Slowly the blonde made her way over to the latinas bed. Stopping at the foot of it. Looking up she saw how tiny the girl had gotten. She honestly didn't think she could get smaller than she was in high school...but life had been rough on her. And Quinn knew from when they were younger that the brunette would control her food intake when she couldn't control her life. Her hands folded in front of her she spoke.
"I'm so, so sorry San...I messed up. So many times. I..GOD!" The blonde threw her hands up in frustration "I had this whole speech planned and I can't remember any of it...fuck!" she growled and dropped her head. "I'd better go anyway. Your guard dog said she'd kill me if i came near you". Taking another deep breath she looked up. She found Santana sitting with an ever so slight smirk on her face. Un detectable to most but to Quinn, who had known that face since the age of 4, loved that face since the age of 9 and lusted after it from the age of 13...she could detect everything. Like how the brunette was frowning ever so slightly also, how her head was tilted by a fraction. How her eyes were dark. All of this together told Quinn that San was amused by her behaviour but wary of her also. Her eyes told of the deep hurt she was feeling and her frown told Quinn the latina was confused. "I am sorry though. For what happened before your 15th birthday. For choosing Brittany so easily at graduation...for Tuesday...I would walk to Hell and back if it meant I could change how I treated you S..." After standing in silence for well over a minute she turned to leave, but the small girls voice stilled her footsteps.
"I was a bet." Came the croaky sound of the latinas voice. Quinn turned around and looked at her quizzically.
"A bet?" she asked. Now stepping closer to Santana 's side. The shorter girl nodded. Two fat tears escaping and rolling down her cheeks. The blonde ached to wipe them away but knew that would be a step too far.
"Britt...when she transferred to our school and...Finn..he..they had a bet over who could.." Santana stopped a moment and wiped her eyes, then turned to face Quinn. "I heard her. At graduation talking to Foetus face."
Santana smiled as Mercedes wrapped her in a warm embrace.
"Look out world, here comes Lopez" cheered the diva. The smaller girl laughed.
"we're both gonna rule the world girl." She added as she pulled away. The diva nodded. And they high fived.
"HELLS YEA!" They both shouted in unison. After a moment Mercedes caught Santana looking around the open field that was filled with students.
"Go find your girl honey. I will see you tonight at Pucks party, when we'll both be lookin fiiiiiine!" Santana laughed and hugged the girl goodbye, arranging to swing by her place from kurts where she had been staying for the past 7 months after her family had disowned her.
After searching the field and bleachers Santana decided to look for Brittany inside the school. She was glad of her decision when she heard her girlfriends giggle coming from the science lab. What stopped her entering was Finn Hudson's voice.
"So I guess you win Pierce." His deep voice echoed around the hall.
"Shh...Finn. People might be around..they'll hear you." Hissed the girl who Santana's heart belonged to.
A deep laugh bounced out of the room "What does it matter. You don't have to pretend anymore" A scraping sound came from the room. Probably a stool being pushed back. Santana crept closer, curiosity fueling her. As she approached the door she saw Brittany's golden blonde hair flash across the doorway as she wandered to the other side of the classroom where Finn sat.
"That's just it Finn...I'm not pretending any more. I think..i think I might love her" The blonde dropped onto the teachers desk and began swinging her legs back and forth.
Santana's heart stopped and her stomach felt empty and full at the same time. She shook her head refusing to believe what was happening. She couldn't be rejected again. She couldn't handle it.
Finn let out a low whistle. "wow Britt..that's..I guess you win twice then!" He smiled his goofy smile.
Brittany nodded "You still owe me 50 bucks! This did start out as a fun challenge remember" she laughed.
Tears poured freely down Santana's face. As she leant against the wall for support.
"I am a man of my word" He said whilst standing and bowing to the blonde. He took his wallet out from under his robe and pulled out some notes.. "50 big ones to our beautiful and seductive Miss Brittany S Pierce. Managing to get the hottest piece of ass this school has ever known to settle down in a relationship. Our victor people" He clapped and made a crowd noise as Brittany stood and bowed to the imaginary audience before dropping back into his chair.
Brittany jumped back onto the desk before tilting her head and looking at Finn perplexed before asking "Who's Victor". The football player shook his head and Santana had seen enough. She stormed into the room right up to a very shocked and frozen Brittany.
"50 DOLLARS. 50 FUCKIN DOLLARS! THAT'S WHAT THIS WAS TO YOU!?" she half screamed half cried. "I love you Britt..I..loved you" She whispered as fresh tears sprang from her eyes. Time seemed to freeze. Finn's mouth hung open.
Brittany jumped off the desk and reached for the latina. "No, no baby no. I love you too..I..it was a stupid joke, but I fell in love with you..you're my unicorn San" The shorter girl stepped away from the blonde.
"Don't you dare touch me.." She paused wiping her tears. "A stupid joke...I was a joke...you..you fu.." The latina cut herself off. She wanted to call her a puta, a liar, a vile person. But she couldn't. She had fallen for Brittany and fallen hard. Even in this moment she couldn't hurt her. "Don't ever come near me again. I don't wanna see you ever again B." She ran out of the room but was halted near the lockers by strong slender arms wrapping around her. She struggled loose and turned to see a distraught Brittany.
"Baby no. Please. I'm sorry...I, I'll do anything San. I need you! I need you like unicorns need their horns to be magic. Please San..baby, there's no magic without you!" A sob escaped Brittany's throat as Santana looked on. Her entire body numb.
"I always knew you were too good for me B. Nobody like you would want me." She let out a dark, tearful laugh. "I..I lost my family for you Britt...did you even love me when that happened?" The latina was met with silence and wide misty blue eyes. Her heart dropped to her stomach and her knees almost gave way. Stumbling backwards from the blondes outstretched hand and losing her grip on her graduation cap, which seemed to fall to the floor in slow motion, she spoke. "you not only broke my heart B...you crushed my soul...I hope it was worth that 50 dollars" with one last glance at her now ex girlfriend who had fallen to her knees Santana turned and fled. Never to return Lima again.
Tears rolled down Quinn's face. She stood frozen mere inches away from Santana but the latina seemed so out if reach at that moment. "I..I didn't know S.." She whispered whilst wiping her eyes. "Britt d.."
"NO! NO QUINN. you don't get to come in here and talk about her. I can't deal with that. It's hard enough having you here" Her words finished off in a whisper. "you broke my heart too Q.." Santana lowered her head, not liking how vulnerable she was at the moment.
Quinn fought against her screaming instincts and reached out lifting the latinas chin with her forefinger. Santana didn't even flinch as she looked up into hazel orbs. "I have regretted what I did every day since it happened" She whispered as her bottom lip trembled. Santana nodded.
"I believe you Quinn...but it changes nothing."
The blonde opened her mouth to speak when somebody beat her to it.
"What did I tell you Quinn!" Bit Addison. The blonde span round and raised her hands.
"I fell asleep..San saw me..I" Addison stepped closer to Quinn. Her fist clenched and body sprung tight, ready to teach the blonde a lesson. Just as she reached for the shorter girl Santana stopped her.
""Yo!" Shouted Santana. Both girls focused on her. "Please...for ten freakin minutes just get along! I, the patient, am meant to be relaxing. You." she pointed at the two guilty looking girls. "are meant to be helping with the relaxing" They both mumbled apologies and made a temporary truce
one that Quinn secretly hoped was permanent. Addison was kinda scary!.
The mood in the small room dropped again. Quinn fidgeted with her hands as Addison looked on worriedly at Santana . Slowly the latinas gaze focused solely on the tattooed girl.
"I thought you'd left me" She whispered. A slight quiver in her voice. Addison shook her head rapidly. Striding over to her best friends side and jostling Quinn out of position.
"Never babe...you should know that by now." She smiled lovingly at the brunette whilst taking one of her hands in her good one. Santana shook her head and lowered her eyes to the pink bed sheets.
"what I said on the bench...I didn't...I shouldn't...I fucked up Addy. I am so sorry. I was.."
Addison cut her off, squeezing her hand tighter. "No..San. Lets not go there ok." she smiled sadly. "I fucked up too. Lets just forget it." Santana looked at their hands ready to protest when she caught sight of the taller girls right hand.
"Is that a new cast!? It looks...bigger..." She instantly dropped Addison's good hand and reached for her broken one. "what happened!?" she asked studying the larger cast. The taller girl suddenly became shy.
"She put her fist through a wall" chimed in Quinn.
"Bitch" called out Addison, not even turning to face the blonde.
"Almost got us kicked out of the hospital too" Added the blonde. A smug smile spread across her face.
A smile that soon turned to shock as she was suddenly drenched in cold water. After sputtering and wiping her now damp hair from her eyes she looked up to see an even smugger looking Addison, holding an empty jug that once held water for Santana.
A joyous roaring laugh poured from the latinas mouth and echoed around the room, causing the two not so enemies to fill with warmth. At that moment, hazel eyes locked with green and they made an unspoken agreement to do whatever it takes to hear that sound every day.
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