5. Confession

Renesmee P. O. V

I was hunting with Jacob in the forest near our house, there wasn't much of a variety, just elk and deer, there was the occasional mountain lion but either, Emmett, my dad or Jasper got to it first.

I was full so I sat down and Jacob had phased and was lying next to me with his eyes closed.

It had been a week since the attack at the bonfire.

"Jacob?" I asked timidly.

"Yeah?" he said opening one eye.

"Jacob, I don't know what's happening to me." I said quietly.

"What's wrong? Are you hurt or in pain?" He asked sitting up immediately.

"No, no, I just feel different. I mean two weeks ago I wanted you to be my best friend, now..." I trailed off.

"You think I'm too clingy?" He asked.

"What? No! Now I notice things about you that I normally don't, like your body, your scent, everything and its confusing, why do I feel this way?" I asked, for once I felt like a seven year old girl who was finding new kinds of feelings and changes in her body.

"I don't know, maybe it's puberty or something, shouldn't you be having this conversation with your mom or Alice, Rosalie, Megan even Esme?" he asked, his voice rising in pitch slightly.

"I don't see you as my best friend anymore Jacob." I whispered looking into his eyes.

"And... I'm scared because I'm not supposed to be feeling this way yet, I still wanna be a little girl." I sobbed, tears were streaming down my face and falling into my lap.

Jacob took me into his arms and held me as I wept into his shoulder, it didn't help like it used to, his scent was everywhere again and I wanted to kiss him again, I took his arms off me and ran back to my house, straight up to my room and locked the door behind me.

"Nessie!? Nessie what's wrong?" My mother shouted frantically at the door.

"Bella, Bella, come on she's fine, she has to be alone right now." I heard my dad say to my mother.

She reluctantly left.

"What's wrong with her, is she hurt?" she asked him downstairs.

"She's confused, she wishes she was the seven year old she was supposed to be but she also want's to be with Jacob. She doesn't see him as her best friend anymore and she's scared of that. She hates growing up this fast." He explained, it was quiet in the house, I guess everyone had heard my father. My sobbing quieted down just before I heard Jacob come in.

"Is she okay?" He asked.

"She wants to be alone, she locked her door." My dad said.

I got hiccups then.

Sometimes I really wish I was born human, it sucked being born in a supernatural world, it was great sometimes but it sucked. Why couldn't I still be the seven year old I'm meant to be. I wanted to be with Jacob still. Now my adult side and my child side were fighting for control and leaving a huge mess in which I would have to put myself together again.

"Nessie?" a soft whisper came from my door, it was Megan and I guessed she was holding Brandon coz he said, "Ness, why you crying?"

I opened the door and they came in.

"My parents send you?" I laughed and they nodded.

"I know how part of you feels Ness, I want to be six but I can't be. I don't know how you feel about Jacob but I do know how it feels to want to date people." Megan said as Brandon played with her hair.

"But Megan this is all new to me, I didn't want to date anyone until yesterday, and that was only for Jacob. Those dates I went on were just for show, to pretend to the world that I'm a normal teenager and not a seven year old girl. When I see Jacob or even smell him I want to melt in his arms but I also want my father to read me fairy tales like Snow White or Sleeping Beauty. I want to kiss Jacob but I also want my mother to sit with me until I fall asleep at night. Why am I feeling this?" I asked and she shrugged.

I was tired now, it was eight in the evening even though I usually fall asleep at midnight I fell asleep fully clothed on top of my blankets, Megan and Brandon dozed off way before me and Brandon was between us. There was more than enough space on my king-sized bed.

When I woke up the next morning everyone was treating me extra carefully, like I would start crying any second, it was annoying.

"Ness can we speak to you?" My mother asked timidly. I nodded and everyone except she, my dad and Jacob (looking like he would rather not be here) left.

"Ness, we think that the, uh, reason you felt like that yesterday is kind of a combination of PMS and the fact that Jacob imprinted on you, your feelings are heightened because of the time of month and heightened even more because you are half vampire. When a wolf imprints on someone they have to be whatever that imprintee needs them to be at that time, when you were born Jacob was like a brother to you, when you got too old for that he became your best friend. Now that your body thinks it's ready it wants Jacob to be your lover, since a werewolf has never imprinted on a hybrid the changes are impossible to know. How this will affect you is impossible to guess at. Your brain knows that technically you are seven years old so you want to do things a little girl would, but your body knows that you're fully developed and since the imprint bond was created to produce more wolves your body and menstruation cycle wants to reproduce...with Jacob." My father explained looking pained at the last part.

It was quiet for a long time everyone was looking at me for my response.

"But, I-I'm too young for this. I'm not ready for commitment, I'm just a kid, I'm seven." I said.

"It will go away quickly Ness, it's just for a few days, three maximum. We know you aren't ready Jacob wouldn't take advantage of you like that, believe it or not but he still want to be in the best friend phase." My mother reassured me. I nodded.

"Can I still go to school? I know I'm a bit late but I can make it for Spanish." I asked them.

"Sure baby, just be careful." My mother said, I nodded and ran to get dressed.

I got to school just before the bell rang for Spanish.

"Where were you this morning?" Dianne asked when she came.

"I slept late." I said.

"Is Kimlynn okay? I heard she got attacked by an animal." She said, I really didn't wanna get into this.

"Yeah, I guess, I didn't really see, it was gone before we got to her." I said dismissively, lucky for me the teacher walked in.

Everyone was talking about Kimlynns attack that day, I tried my best to ignore it but to no avail. Every person I turned to wanted to talk about it.

It's going to blow over, it's going to blow over I chanted to myself.

It only blowed over two weeks later when finals started.

"Guys don't forget to tell people, party at my house on the last day of finals, make sure they get the address. Remember Juniors only." I told my friends before school.

My Trig paper was very easy, I was done in five minutes. five hundered marks was a breeze for a Cullen.