16. Reminded
Megan P. O. V
"Megan? Honey you have to eat something, please?" My mother said, she sat opposite me on my bed. She had set a tray of food in front of me, she tried to tempt me with the human food I would actually eat but she had become desperate so first she tried animal blood but she had resorted to the donated blood Carlisle had.
I still refused, but now I was thirsty, so I took it unwillingly.
My mother looked relieved as I drank, I knew that the taste was divine but I didn't pay much attention, when I was done I pushed the tray away and curled up into the small ball I had held for five days.
My mother reluctantly took the tray and left pausing by the door.
"Megan... I-I can't imagine how you must be feeling... but... don't do anything reckless... Please." She said then left.
I tried not to close my eyes because every time I did I saw bright, sea blue eyes, but know one to find me. I couldn't help falling asleep but I hated it every time I woke up remembering that it was a dream, he would never hold me again, I could never get lost in his eyes again... I would never hear his voice again.
My eyes snapped open.
It was night-time, what woke me up was clear. I lurched up and away from my bed stumbling to my bathroom, I just made it to the toilet when I threw up.
The blood I had drunk earlier had spewed through my mouth. I sat there for five minutes waiting for the shivers running up and down my back to subside, when it did I got up slowly stumbling to my sink, I grabbed my toothbrush and brushed my teeth getting rid of the taste.
I have never been sick before, I was worried now, I had to see Carlisle
I wiped the cold sweat off my forehead before dashing downstairs to Carlisle's office.
He jumped up immediately coming around his desk.
"Is something wrong Megan?"
Renesmee P. O. V
When I woke up I was covered in cold sweat.
Every night since the battle I dreamt the same dream.
We were in the clearing, five vampires held me back and forced me to watch a horrific scene.
Two of them held Jacob down and the nameless leader of the Voltury clan tore Jacob apart, slowly. He started by ripping off Jacob's fingers one by one, then moved on to ripping off his skin, one leg, one arm and then slowly crushed his skull.
The first night my mother had woken me up, she said I was screaming in my sleep and thrashing.
The second night I woke up in the middle of the night screaming again, my mother stayed with me.
The third night my mother asked Jacob to stay with me, my father wasn't very keen on the idea but agreed.
These last two nights I still had the dream but I didn't scream.
"Nessie?" I heard Jacobs voice, he was sitting up on the sleeper couch opposite my bed.
I put on a fake smile.
"Morning Jake, wanna get breakfast?" I asked getting out of bed and stretching.
He smiled a bit sadly then nodded.
"Don't be sad its over." I said kissing his cheek.
"I know its over, I'm just worried about you. You're not getting enough sleep." He said tracing the circles that had appeared under my eyes.
"I just need to hunt." I said turning my head, my hand slipped down his arm and tightened over his hand.
I pulled him out the room and down the stairs to the kitchen where Esmé was cooking.
"Hey grandma." I said pecking her cheek.
"Morning Renesmee, how did you sleep?" She asked setting a plate of scrambled eggs in front of me.
"Fine, where's Megan?" I asked, she was normally up at this time. There had been no sound coming from her room as I passed, no heartbeat.
"She went to see Carlisle, she's been feeling sick." Esmé said and a frown appeared.
"But Hybrids don't get sick." I said, I've never been sick in my life.
"We don't know that, there's no proof. But don't worry, I'm sure its nothing." She said patting my head and starting to clean up.
"Leah's been asking to see you." Jacob said changing the subject.
"Can we go now?" I asked brightening up. I wanted to get away for a while.
"First eat." He said and I reluctantly obeyed.
When I was done I changed into a plain jeans and t-shirt and met Jacob at the bottom of the stairs.
"How about a quick hunt before we go? I don't like those circles." Jacob suggested.
"I guess, it's really been a while." I said.
We hunted in the forest surrounding our house, there wasn't much of a choice besides elk but I was thirsty so I didn't complain.
After my third I told Jacob I was full so we continued to La Push.
We got there in ten minutes, Jacob phased in the forest as I continued to the reservation, the clouds were covering the sky letting no single ray of light escape, the ocean was black and crashing against the shore.
Jacob joined me a few seconds later and we continued to Leah's house.
"Nessie!" She screamed as soon as she opened the door.
"Hey Leah, how's it been?" I said when she released me from her hug.
"It's been great, I only got back yesterday. I heard what happened." She said.
"We could've used your help, you always pick inconvenient times to leave, where did you go anyway you just came back then left again." Jake asked.
"I've been traveling, I wanted to see the world, I went to France for a few days." She said shrugging.
"I'm starting to think that you are trying to quit." He said.
"Jacob you know that I am, why think it?" She rolled her eyes.
"Why do you want to quit?" I asked.
"I don't wanna be stuck like this forever, I wanna have a family. Not watch everyone I love die. But before I get there I have to learn to control my anger issues." She took a deep breath.
"But you've been cool for a while now." I said.
"Well you have to learn to control the phasing as well as stop phasing completely for a few years. I still get some outbursts when someone ticks me off, occasionally. it can take a long time before I start ageing again and when I phase it resets the timer again." She said a bit sadly, then added,"But I'll get there eventually."
Megan P. O. V
I couldn't take it anymore.
Everything reminded me of him. My bedroom, the forest, my clothes and now even me.
"Megan?... Should I call you mother?" Carlisle asked as I sobbed.
I nodded slowly.
He walked out of the office, it was quiet except for my sobbing.
I was too young to feel this heartbreak, and when I thought about the last time we were together, his promise made me angry, he'd broken his promise to me. He promised he wouldn't die, why didn't he jump for the shield like Renesmee did?
No!
He didn't mean to break his promise, it was stupid of me to tell him to not die, those were hundreds of vampires, I could easily have been killed if I didn't have my power. I was stupid to let him go, it's my fault.
Now because of that, this moment wouldn't be the happy one it should be, or the mixed one it would be considering my age. Now it was a constant reminder that I had let him go. That I killed him with my flames. He could've been saved if I hadn't incinerated the entire forest.
"Megan?" My mother's voice came from behind me.
I sobbed louder.
She came closer and knelt in front of me. My father put his hand on my back.
"Carlisle told us. We're... we're not angry, its a bit confusing but... we'll help you through this, okay? We know it's not easy but you have to make a decision if you want to... keep it. The baby I mean. If you decide yes we'll have to pull you out of school, but we can do that. If you would like it." My mother said hesitantly.
"I'm keeping it mom, he's mine. I won't kill Robert again." I whispered huskily rubbing my eyes.
"You didn't kill him honey, you need to stop blaming yourself." My mom said hugging me.
"I did kill him! He could've still been alive before i burnt his body to dust!" I shouted, pulled away from my mother and father and ran upstairs into my room, locking my door.
A/N:Sorry its so short, I have no explanation really but I think I had a bit of writers block when I wrote this lol, I'm currently editing a few chapters and immediately uploading them for your reading pleasure.