Forever Lost

~ Chapter Six~

On The Outside Looking In

By Inuyashas Youkai

~I don't own Inuyasha or the song Coming Your Way~

' Has my angel lost it's way , will it ever find it's way .. If all we have is love , then all I have is you .. If life is what we chose , my choice is you.. I coming your way ..If all is do is try , I give you all mine. If faith help us to decide, I have decided.. With all of my breath , from the heart in my chest, Every look in my eyes you'll know why .. I am coming your way ...'

Intently watching, as the hanyou mused after hearing the faint start of a new heartbeat , that the one he was so obsessively observing , was well on her way back to him. Observing through torn eyes , the distraut form who had once appeared as the one who's hand had sought to break her , became defeatedly curious to what her soul was thinking know, but deep down somehow he already knew. It was shown with the start of the unexpected new breath taken with shock to it's reawakening , and he also knew why..

When he was privy to what had been made to play out in front of his mate's eyes created the flames of fury to combust, flailing itself out in eratic movements , but it also brought about the storms brewing within himself in sorrow , for what had occured , and in truth , sadly, when she did in fact come back to him , the weakened soul would think that it only presented a reunion with her creator. The one who helped make her the way she would appear to him now , as the time had come for her to be awoken . The hanyou wasn't as stupid as everyone thought he knew , he felt it shortly after the Tenseiga commanded her to life once more, and the soul that his mate carried resentment , despise for her creation, and everything meant for something she was not because as shattered as her soul was now , Kagome no longer knew any better.

To her , it was for all she ever grasped from her early demise her on earth, that she was a mistake , something that wasn't meant to be , and shouldn't have been brought to pass in the first place.. Her soul was broken , no longer being the one he so cared for , and loved , as now he wasn't sure if she ever could be , either. Although to the hanyou , once known as her mate , Inuyasha, well before she was taken from him , and destroyed , left for dead , without the chance or knowledge of it to save her, it didnt matter , because no matter what he would fight for her , love her as she should've been, like she would always be. For she was his , and the male wouldn't take otherwise , even if she along with hating herself , had grown to hate him to , in her long time without ..

A time without love , hope , happiness , nor light, this fate was what she now knew , and had known it for some time . It was the way she was torn from this world , away from him , with so many lies presented to her , while being shattered, and without nothing to fight for her , to show her otherwise. She wouldn't exist easily within the light , as she had so long before, because Kagome's soul, or what was twisted , distorted , created by those of the dark, so the transition in being forced to return wouldn't be that simple for either involved, and if he hadn't mistaken the aura that emerged with her rising , Inuyasha would guess that she feared him, even depised him for the fate that was handed to her..

Indeed the road in which he chose to take would be rough at best , even with the one's he still had alongside him , their pack. It took alot of time to carefully plan this , and to down to the last detail begin the makings of her return . Kagome's death wouldn't be permanent because he made it so , as it was decided long ago that without him she couldn't go , and without Naraku's hands rivaling against him, Kagome would still be with him, standing at his side. Many years had passed since then, now well within the time she was first brought into the world , and then tossed from the well's depths , after Naraku had his way with her, perish the thought using him as bait, left for dead , alone.

Sighing for the upteenth time since it had occured , waiting , just watching as her chest soon began to fill with air , and then be exhaled through her button nose , while his impatience was getting the better of him in the excitement of having her back , no matter what the result , Inuyasha wanted her back with him. Knowing that after his mate would recouperate would also gain the the traits borrowed from her mate ,returned, as she hadn't been able to have them develop, before she died. Saddened , if only it would have beack then, it would've stopped it because no matter in what form he was in on that night, Kagome would've been able to show him , as to what was happening , giving him the chance to save her in telling her that what she knew was wrong, and Inuyasha was waiting for her, like he still was.

" Kagome...Come back to me .. I need you back , no matter what that bastard did to you , to make what you are now forced to be .. I love you still, as I had then , and I 'am so fucking sorry that I wasn't able to stop it , mate .. Please say you'll stay , let me make you see.."

After a whine emerged from inside his chest , as to the devouring dejection in the soul that was plainly finding the body she now was again made to be placed in. Within the slowly healing body she was forced to inhabit , the hanyou could feel the spirit shudder against itself , as it continued to fill the body's shape , as it was laid still upon the soft bed next to him , inside his room, and with the comforting warmth cocooned around her with the soft coverlet. Seeing her tired eyelids flutter, as they moved , only to see if it still could , and seemed to sigh against itself to the small success it had accomplished .

Hours had passed , and still now signs to show that his Kagome would wake soon , or maybe that was what she wanted for the fight she pursued inside to allow the want , for her not to come, but the hanyou would only fight harder . This would be the only time he would fight her when his mate would desire to give up the fight to live , and with the love he had for her the hanyou did because of what she did for him , Kagome wouldn't have let him do so when he wanted to either. So why should she be able to give up so easily , especially even if she knew it or not , there were people waiting for her, and those whom loved her so..

Hearing a shuffling from over where she was placed upon the bed , and encouraging the hanyou to look at her form , then catching those chocolate ,eyes swirled with blood , as she started at him with her lifeless uncaring eyes, one that no matter what they were, they were missed , and loved undoubtedly so..

' I've been here before , and now where I am again ..standing at the door preying you'll let me back in .. Only Scratching the surface of where I known to be ..Turn me around , pick me from what I have become ...Bring me back to where I need to be .. I need you.. I can't do this myself ..Your the only one who can undo what I 've become .. Forgive me for what I've now known to be '

"Kagome..."

As soon as that name was passed through the lips of the one, now in front of her eyes ,kneeling down , and suddenly flinching back as those haunting amber eyes became clear .. She now knew the one who would curse her with this life again , being tortured with the pain she was stuck with , and now that she knew , Kagome found herself not to be surprised .. For this she should've known that it would've been none other than that of her creator , one of them anyway, because nobody else would willingly bring the hell that her soul promised , upon revival, with the exception , that of the hanyou , Inuyasha ..

TBC...