B.J ran her hand threw her short cut hair. It was styled with care and getting longer with each week. B.J felt like she was looking at another person with her short hair and didn't recognize herself for about a week or so. It was bad enough Hydra messed with her memories and tortured her for about a month and it pained Bucky whenever she asked if she was really looking at herself in the mirror. Each day, she was getting better and soon she was somewhat her old self. The anxiety and panic attacks were worse and the flashbacks got more severe. Bucky came home to seeing her curled up in a ball in the corner of her room. He dropped his backpack and hurried to check on her. "Jess, you're okay." he saw something on her arm. It was red, but he exhaled when he noticed it was actually pen ink. Hail Hydra. Cut off one head, two more grow in its place. Other phrases were written over her scar and she was an emotional wreck. Bucky kept her close and let her cry in his shoulder. She needs help, but who would understand her situation? Bucky sighed and leaned on the wall as B.J later fell asleep after her episode.

"B.J needs help." -Bucky

"Did something happen?" -Fury

"She wrote on her arm a bunch of Hydra things." -Bucky

"I'm on my way." - Fury

Bucky patiently waited and gently put B.J on her bed as he went to get the door. He and Fury starting talking outside. "I know some people who she could talk to openly about these things. I'm not sure about the man at the top of the list." Fury started. Bucky sighed and leaned on the wall, rubbing his tired eyes. "Who?"

B.J sat on a roof top where she and Wade would normally meet. "Hey, Bucky J.!" Wade chided. B.J smiled as Wade hopped over with some Mexican food. "Hungry?" he asked as he handed her a taco. B.J unwrapped the taco and ate. Her appetite wasn't the best lately and Bucky was really worried about that when he noticed it that day. Wade saw how she was treating herself and sat down as he rolled his mask up to the bridge of his nose. "So, Fury says you aren't getting better. Care to tell Uncle Wade?" he asked as he looked out in the city lights. B.J shrugged and took another bite. "Come on." he childishly said as he leaned in her personal space. B.J knew this would happen and Fury knew it all too well that Wade was basically the only person she was able to confess to and trust to keep it all a secret. Snapping out of the cloud she was on, she heard Wade basically chant to tell him what made her so upset. "Tell me." he whined repeatedly. B.J sighed and shoved her taco in his mouth to shut him up. "I don't know if I can tell you this story, Wade." she said as she laid back to see the twinkle of faint stars above. Wade sighed and swallow the taco down before lying next to her. "Well, tell Doctor Wilson what makes you scared at night." he sounded like a posh doctor and pretended to twist a mustache. B.J smiled genuinely and shook her head. "The dark and its demons." she said in a relaxed tone. Wade had a slight hint as to what she was thinking.

{Also, cause we managed to get a brain thing to read what the author is thinking}

[You have a very dark mind]

*HEY! PRIVATE!*

{Anyway, back to the story}

Wade shut the boxes up and sighed as the night grew darker. "I'm serious, what happened? You know you can tell me." Wade basically ordered. He normally didn't give her orders, but knowing she's a soldier, she would comply on habit. "I'm sorry, but I can't, sir." B.J unexpectedly answered. Wade hummed and smiled cunningly. "You have your orders, soldier." he said like a smartass. B.J sighed and ran a hand in her hair. "I was beaten, burned, and nearly killed. They warped my mind and told me I was a mindless weapon." she said very quietly. Wade could hear what she said over the city noise. Ever so slightly did he see her let a tear roll. Wade saw how damaged she was. Everyone saw it and wanted to help, but how do you help a teenager who has been through so much in so little time? B.J was a six- year agent and has seen her fair share of war and damages. Everyone in the hero community has seen their fair share of damage and heartache. Out of anyone, Deadpool was the most damaged.

{Let's not get that into us.}

[Yellow is right. Let's focus on one main character *cough* B.J *cough*]

Wade sat up and looked over the building ledge. "I know your suffering. I'm here to listen." he told her. B.J curled up and hid her face. "I understand." Wade looked at her hidden eyes. "What makes you so scared?" he tried as he went to hold her hand. B.J sat up and laid her head on her knees. "Everything I see is Hydra. I see pain and I just want to end it." she suddenly admitted. Wade understood fully and wrapped her in his arms. He hated to see her so broken. Everyone who knew her hated this side of her that she always hid from them. "I know how you feel." Wade said as he rocked her back and forth in his hug. B.J was crying his in shoulder and that was rare for him to see her so vulnerable. Only Steve, Bucky, and Fury were able to see her like this. The little innocent brunette with the warm dark brown eyes and the long brown hair was broken into a cold broken soldier. Wade sat there as she let her walls fall around her. "I know. Just let it out. You aren't alone." the words Wade spoke helped her and B.J ended up hiccupping after her cry. "You are never alone, Jessy. Tell me from the beginning." Wade said as he kept her in his hug. He felt her nodded in his shoulder and let her go. "I was in a dark cold room."

B.J felt a little better after talking to someone about what she's bottled up inside for a while. Wade understood and he always made everything better while they hung out together. Bucky saw how she held herself a little higher and seemed a little more put together. Wade was told to tell them what she said, but he went around and said "Nope. Doctor patient privilege. Sorry". Bucky sort of expected that and tucked B.J in bed before he left for his own room for the remainder of the night. "So, she's well?" Bucky froze as he saw Rumlow's silhouette. Bucky went to the gun he hid in his waist band, but Rumlow already had one pulled out. "12-28 belongs to Hydra. When she sees how strong we are, she'll leave you behind like trash. That's how she is programmed." Rumlow coldly said as he got closer. Bucky pulled the gun out and cocked the hammer back. "Get out of my house." he ordered. Rumlow chuckled darkly and pulled the safety down. "I have my mission." Rumlow put the gun to Bucky's head and took the gun aimed at him. Slowly and quietly, the Hydra agent went into B.J's room to see a pistol in his face. "I'm not Hydra's dog. I'm my own person and you can't handle me." she said as she put the gun towards Rumlow's crotch. The intruder took a step back and lowered his gun and aimed at B.J. "We can control you. You don't realize it yet." Brock left with that and left the guns in a crossed position on the floor. "Papa, what did he mean by that?" B.J asked. Bucky sighed and heard the worry. "I hope nothing." Bucky said under his breath as he got the teenager back to bed. B.J put her gin away and went to back to bed after an anxiety attack. Bucky sat in her room sleeplessly and waited until an hour before her alarm to shower and get breakfast ready. He would call Fury and tell him what happened and that he was taking the day off.

"Desmond has a barrow in the marketplace

Molly is the singer in a band

Desmond says to Molly girl I like your face

And Molly says this as she takes him by the hand

Ob la di ob la da life goes on bra

La la how the life goes on

Ob la di ob la da life goes on bra

La la how the life goes on"

B.J reluctantly woke up to the smell of eggs and toast as she got her teeth brushed and hair clean. Every morning she woke up to the Beatles and hearing the legends helped her wake up some. Bucky got her a plate of breakfast ready as he saw how tired her eyes looked. "You feeling okay?" he asked. B.J yawned and tiredly picked at her meal. Bucky set a mug of coffee by her plate. "You know I don't like coffee." she yawned as she laid her head on the table. "Your loss." Bucky smiled as he took his seat. B.J fought to keep her eyes open and rubbed them to stay awake. Bucky reached over and put his right hand to feel her temperature. "You sure you want to go to work? You look a little pale." B.J slowly shrugged her shoulders. Bucky sighed and smiled a little. "Back to bed, kiddo. I'll call Fury." he told her as she nearly fell asleep. Reluctantly did she get up and go back to bed. "Hey, B.J isn't feeling all that great, so I'm making her stay home." Bucky said as he walked into the balcony. Fury listened to Bucky as he wrote down several notes. "Rumlow warned you of what? I'm sending Natasha over with some things to check on her." the director said as he hung up. Within an hour, Natasha was there with a backpack. B.J was dead asleep on her bed and Bucky looked ready to fall asleep. "Let her sleep." Natasha pulled Bucky away and left the backpack before they went out the apartment. "I should stay in case someone takes her again." Bucky stayed by the door. Natasha sighed and saw Steve come up the stairs. "Steve's going to stay with her. You and I are going to Panera." she told him. Bucky sighed and knew he couldn't argue with her. Steve checked on B.J before he went to get her some water.

Natasha and Bucky got her some soup at Panera while they were out. "I'm calling Steve." Bucky decided. Natasha was trying to get him to relax since it was just a slight fever. "Steve, is she okay?" called Bucky while they waited at a cross walk. Smoke billowed in a short horizon. "Oh my God." Bucky dropped his phone and gave Natasha the bag before running into the traffic, jumping over cars and dodging them to get to his apartment. Fire trucks and ambulances roared past him once he was a block away. Steve was fighting a platoon of Hydra agents on his own and B.J was coughing in a corner. The smoke was worsening and the two needed air. The platoon was wearing masks that ventilated the smoky air, giving them the greatest advantage in the fight. "Get away from them." Bucky demanded as he cocked his gun back. Since they were distracted, Steve got an upper hand and started fighting them alongside Bucky. B.J managed to get away and outside where paramedics took her to get treated for smoke inhalation. Something in her apartment exploded. "Papa! Steve!" she exclaimed as she ran into the fire, only to be pulled back and away by the paramedics. Steve and Bucky limped out with some of the Hydra platoon members on their shoulders. "We're fine, B.J." Bucky smiled as he dropped the unconscious men off his back. B.J sighed in the air mask and made room for the soldiers to sit with her in between. "Why didn't you call?" Bucky asked after thinking. "I got separated from my phone." Steve answered. Bucky smiled a little and shook his head.

"Little punk."

"Jerk."

"Bitches."

B.J sighed as she watched her home of several months burn. "Where do we live now?" she asked as she leaned her head on Bucky's cold metal arm. B.J was feeling a little warm despite the bitter weather and his metal arm felt nice against her feverish skin. "Tony can probably help with that." answered Bucky as he felt her forehead. B.J was getting warmer and he didn't like it. "Yeah, there's a lot of extra rooms in the tower. I can help you two." Tony unexpectedly said as he flew to them. Thor saw no need of his help and left. The fire department did a good job controlling the fire, but the building wasn't saved. Everything was gone for all the tenants in the building and they had to live elsewhere. Tony only came to check out the situation when he saw it was actually the Barnes building that was burning down from an explosion. B.J yawned and rubbed her soot filled eyes. "Whatever. I'm tired." she sighed. Bucky sighed and felt her forehead. "If you're okay with us staying, then alright." Bucky decided to take up on their hospitality for B.J's sake. They got cleaned up and changed in the tower. Jarvis showed them their rooms and Natasha helped Bucky get B.J to eat. If it was one thing she remembered babysitting her, it was how to get her to eat if she was sick. "You just keep the food out and see if she'll eat it. Come back before you head to bed and take it out. The next morning you force her to eat." Natasha had instructed. Bucky wasn't sure how that would work, but he could trust Natasha with her word. Steve showed Bucky around the tower. "What's this room?" Bucky was going towards a large oak door with Asgardian carvings. "Don't open that one. Thor keeps his pet there." Steve jumped and kept the door closed. Bucky pushed him aside and held the door knob. "What, the god have a bunny or a vicious puppy?" he jested before opening the door. Something roared and he immediately shut it. "That wasn't a dog." Steve was laughing as Bucky just froze after he was face to face with a bildshnipe. The soldiers left to get some dinner after that at a local pub. Steve was hoping he could get Bucky to relax about B.J getting sick and Rumlow attacking her. She was safer at the tower than a burnt down building by far. "Wait, if she's a super soldier, she shouldn't be able to get sick." Steve suddenly thought out loud. Bucky was given that realization and put his fork down. "Come on, we're going to talk to Fury." Bucky got up. Steve pulled him back in the booth. "Fury's in a meeting and asked us not to bother him." Steve sighed as he got Bucky to relax. The blue eyed brunette sighed and down his beer.

The next day, Bucky managed to get a hold of Fury and got some answers. "She's sick? That only happens if she doesn't get enough to sleep." Fury answered. Bucky sighed and thought after the call. He mulled it over and decided it was a reasonable answer. B.J did eat some of the food she was given, but all she wanted to do was to sleep and they were content with letting her. Bucky was a little un sure, but Steve had to remind him how lethargic Bucky was as a boy.

"James, come on. A nice hot bath will help." Mrs. Barnes said as she woke a feverish Bucky out of bed. Steve had to help her get Bucky out of his room and across the hall where the bath waited. "I brought your homework from school. If you won't relax in a bath like your mom is saying, then do the homework." threatened the much skinnier and smaller blonde. That got his attention and Bucky sluggishly left for the bathroom. Mrs. Barnes shook her head with a smirk. "Thank you, Steve. How's your mother?" she asked as Steve helped her get the apartment cleaned up. The small blonde teen sighed and looked down. "Dad isn't getting better. Each day he just gets meaner as he gets sicker." Steve sadly sighed. Mrs. Barnes smiled warmly and sat him down. "I know it's a difficult time. You know about James' father and he's so lucky he has you as such a close friend. I know he will have your back just like you have his no matter what happens in the future."

Both missed Mrs. Barnes and Mrs. Rogers. Both were admirable women and had been friends since childhood as like their sons. On occasion would they visit the grave sites to lay flowers or just talk to the headstones, hoping their mothers would hear them from above. Bucky went to check on B.J to hear her running herself a bath in the bathroom. Fury sent him a message and had to leave for a mission. Steve left with him and Natasha to destroy a Hydra base in Wisconsin. B.J relaxed in the hot water and her headache lifted almost instantly. "Miss, I would like to inform that Mr. Stark is on his way." Jarvis informed. B.J sighed and rubbed water on her face. "Tell him I'm in the bath." she told the A.I program. Jarvis complied and warned Tony off from her room. A siren rung through the tower and she shot out of the bath and in her uniform in record timing. Rumlow was in her room and had a group behind him. B.J was out gunned and out manned. "Hail Hydra."