Note: Because of remarks of some of my readers, I've made some adjustments to this chapter.

Extra warning: this chapter will contain slightly mature content. Jared will talk about getting intimate for the first time. Going from kissing to making love. I've tried to be respectful and stay on the T-rate side, by not using certain words, but it's still quite detailed. How do teens talk about this in 2006/ 2007?

I'll mark the begin and ending of the 'lemony' part for anyone who doesn't want to read it.

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You had me from hello – Bon Jovi

Love don't come no stronger – Jeff Perry

Locked out of heaven – Bruno Mars

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Chapter 13: Jared – Love (& marriage)

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It had been a nice day. Unusually warm and dry. I was sitting on the beach after a little picnic with Kim. She'd been so busy helping Emily with the wedding. Only two weeks left now. Running around all day made her tired. She dozed off in my lap. Cosy in my embrace. I didn't mind really, as long as I was near her, I was fine. Our love was strong, pure. I've been thinking about it a lot, 'love'.

There are all kinds of love. Love for your family and friends. Love for your partner, your husband or wife. Above that was love between pack brothers. Something we couldn't share with anybody outside our circle.

But the strongest bond of all was imprinting. By far. Sure it was involuntary and yet it felt like heaven. When I connected with Kim, I saw her soul, who she really is. I caught glimpses of our future together. She felt something too. She wanted me to come to her. Wanted to be mine as much as I was hers.

We took things slow. Both so new at this. Unsure what to do. How to start. We both never dated or anything like that before. Never been in love before with anybody else. Both a bit shy around the other sex.

Those things made me the opposite of Paul. He couldn't understand why I just didn't go for it. We wanted each other, right. He seemed confidant, had no problem approaching girls. But being a new werewolf, sharing our thoughts, you can't hide things. He got as far as kissing and having a feel, but that's it.

Between his first phasing and him imprinting on Rachel, Sam kept him away from people a lot. Especially girls. One rejection could've send him off. And that was just it, why I was careful. Sam hurting Emily had a major impact on me. We were so strong now, what if I hurt Kim by just holding on to tight?

It made me think about teenage romances in this day and age too. Guys and girls were on other sides of the world. Losing your virginity early as a guy is considered cool, you're 'the man' if you get different girls to make out with you. And get them to sleep with you. The perfect guy is tall, muscular and tanned. With flawless skin. Stupid of course, because it doesn't ensure a happy life or anything. But hey, we've got that covered.

And last, according to television, magazines and internet, guys have to be big in the trunks. They say girls love it. Bullshit! Yeah, I'm swearing. There's a reason for an average of 6 inches. The fit. Big means tight and it hurts them! Especially the first time. Now, I'm not sure how I compare to others.

I wasn't gonna check them out or measure myself. Of course I've seen guys naked, I'm a werewolf for crying out loud. But I try to give them their privacy. I'm not gonna stare! In hind sight I think I've seen enough to maybe conclude I'm a bit bigger than average (not huge by any means). All of us wolves are. Hence a reason to be careful.

Girls, well, their standards are a little different. If she loses her virginity early she's considered 'easy'. Making out with different guys and also sleeping with them makes her a 'slut'. She's beautiful if she's a size two or something, has some curves still and big breasts. And of course she has flawless skin.

Oh, and maybe big eyes, pouty lips and shiny long hair. Top it of with a sexy, too revealing outfit, and you're done. Hah! It doesn't matter if she's a bitch, snobby and shallow. I shake my head at that. No one is perfect. And what is the definition of perfect? Luckily that's different for everybody. Mine is Kim.

Loving her with my heart is effortless. Just watching her work on her scrap-books, I can do that all day. Talking to her on the phone makes me happy. Hearing her voice. Or texting each other when we can't be together. Those little messages brighten up my day. – Sounds cheesy? I don't care. –

I'm proud of her, helping Emily, making sure all's in order. And still she has time to go picnicking with me. I listen to her quiet breathing. Her heartbeat close to mine. The scent of her hair, like roses. What more do you need?

Physical love is something else entirely. I let her lead. Starting with a hug, careful not to tight. She needs to breathe. Stroking her cheek while looking deep in her eyes. My fingers in her hair, kissing her gently on the lips. Several times if she lets me. In the beginning they are enough to make me forget where we are.

Then she wraps her arms around my neck and presses her lips harder on mine. It's like fireworks go off. We pull away flushed, out of breath. Eyes glistening. I pull her to me, kiss her face all over and then her neck. She moans softly. It almost drives me wild.

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Bit by bit we start touching each other in other places. We find a private place and take some clothes of. Just the top half at first. Her blue lace bra looks beautiful on her. She says I can touch it, them. They feel so soft and fit in my hand so nice. Her hands explore my chest, my abs.

My arms, she takes my hands and examines them while rubbing my palms. I'm aroused, I feel it in my pants. But she's not ready yet. I can feel her nerves and we stop. At home I go into the bathroom and help myself. Getting off several times. Nothing new. Hey, I'm a hormonal teenager, with a grown up body.

Just before we fight the newborn army, we take things a step further. She's afraid she'll lose me. We start making out, kiss passionately, allow our tongues access. We start undressing each other while we kiss our necks. When we're both naked, we take a step back to look at one another. We like what we see. Slowly we move closer.

Our hands exploring every inch of skin. Finding out what feels good. I trace her breasts, her back, her hips, her butt and kneel to caress her slender legs. She sits down on the bed. I kiss her feet and dare to suck one of her toes. She loves that.

I ask her: "May I please you with my hands and mouth? "You know, make you feel good, blissful." She says: "Yes, but take it slow." I smile and start kissing my way up her leg. She shivers with pleasure. Gently I caress her stomach and pepper kisses all over it. She giggles. I move up to her breasts. Start sucking on her nipples. – I've learned a few things from Sam.

Sharing his thoughts is sometimes a good thing. – Her heart rate is going up and her breathing becomes heavier. I glance up and see her head fall back. She moans softly. That arouses me beyond belief. I smell it on her too. Wetness. Slowly my hand goes down between her legs.

She wriggles as I touch that sensitive part of her. I pause, am I doing it right? "Go on, she pants, I don't need much more." I start rubbing up and down and in circles. Her breasts keep asking for attention. She is panting harder now, arching her back. Inserting a finger in, it sends her over the edge. Her muscles tighten. "Oh yes, she whimpers, so good. Ecstasy!" When she comes down from her high she lunges herself into my arms.

"Wow, she whispers, that was…wow." I smile en nuzzle her a little. "Like you tapped into my nerve system, she continued more clearly now. "I didn't need much to come and it was so much better then on my own." Happiness, that was the only word in my mind now. Because I made her feel like that.

After that she insisted it was my turn now. I wasn't sure about her mouth near my privates. In real life. In my fantasies, sure, I guess. But I let her go. I couldn't deny her, so I lay there, going with the flow. She goes about it the same way I did. It isn't long until I realize what she was talking about.

She seems to know what I want instinctively. Her little hands rub my muscles and it feels wonderful. I'm hard like a rock. Just one move of her hand over there and I'm in heaven. So high. When I come back to reality, I find her cuddled up to me, watching the whole thing. She is pleased, to be having that effect on me.

Next time being intimate, we watch each other pleasure ourselves. It's so erotic, eyes locked and breathing fast together. We haven't done it for real yet. When I'm running with the guys, I pretend we have. Most of what they're getting is fantasy. And that's a good thing, because Kim turns out to be delicate. I was shocked when I took her virginity with my fingers. Really, no lie.

We planned a whole romantic evening, coming fully prepared. We played around with food and I teased her with a rose. Wanting to loosen her up, I inserted two and then three fingers. Something gave way and I smelled blood. Instantly I pulled away, asking her if I hurt her. She was quiet and I felt bad. Putting my pants back on, I sat down beside her.

"It's alright, she said, touching my cheek, it only stings a bit." I'm fine." But the feeling was gone for that night. I led her to the shower and gave her one of my shirts to wear. We went to sleep holding each other. After that I waited some time, before touching her down there again. But she showed me she was ready, by bringing toys with her. She played with them herself first, making me watch. Then she let me use them. She looked amazing, hot, covered in sweat.

Then we planned another romantic night, in November, before the pack got seven new additions.

This time everything was perfect. We made love slow and sweet. Made it last. Until we were both content and drowsy. I never wanted to leave her side. That's how connected I felt to her. This moment belonged to us and no one else.

The threat of those royal vampires was bad, but it kept my mind focused on training the pups. For a long time. It helped me after too. Keeping things private. Sam, Paul and I were no rookies anymore. We just had to control our thoughts, with all those young boys around. We didn't want them thinking those things about our imprints. And it worked, between the three of us. Only our love seeped through, our mental bond.

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I came back to reality. Kim stirred and started to wake up. She blinked rapidly a few times, adjusting to the light. Stretching herself a bit she turned on her side to face me. "Hmm, she mumbled, hello handsome, did I fall asleep?" She placed a kiss on my jaw and nestled herself against my chest. "Yes you did, I replied, you were tired from all the wedding preparations."

I kissed the top of her head. "I'm sorry, she said, this was our time together and now it's gone." Smiling at her I countered that. "I like watching you sleep, you're beautiful." And how many times has been the other way around?" When I was to tired from patrolling." She sighed, agreeing with me and wrapped her arms around me.

"This is nice, she whispered content, I love you." "I love you too," I answered and lifted her head to press a kiss on her soft lips. She still felt a little sleepy. "Emily is so energetic, so excited, she started to tell me. "I feed off of that, but when I leave, tiredness just takes over." I don't what it is, but she's just glowing with happiness." I've seen that too, I thought to myself, and not just with her.

"You know, I tell her, Sam's the same. "I've never seen him smile so much." It's starting to worry me." Kim giggled and then laughed out loud. That sound, it's the best in the world. "They're really love sick, she beamed, have been ever since the birthday party at the Cullens." She paused, thinking a moment. "Do you think May copied some of her happy personality trades on to them? She pondered, when she touched them."

"I don't know, I answered, is that possible?" Nah, I added quickly, I don't think so." No, I knew what it was. Sam forgave himself for hurting Emily, finally. Thru May he helped undo his mistake. And she turned out to be nice to have around. Lightening the load by teaching the pups self-control.

Enjoying herself while doing it. Sometimes she still came off as weird, for a vampire. But than again, everything about her was so different. Forgetting about her being a vampire was easy. To just treat her as person. We didn't feel the need anymore to monitor her. Everybody liked her.

Two weeks passed quickly and La Push was buzzing with activity. We set up everything at the beach. The sun was shining, hardly a cloud in sight. Kim and Rachel were helping Emily get ready. Sue was there too. Me and Embry were helping guests to their seats. He had replaced Paul as a best man, being the brother of the groom.

Paul didn't mind, he understood and I think he was glad to skip the 'giving a speech'-part. Sam appeared in a perfect tailored suite made of a light fabric. There were Quileute and Makah symbols embroidered on it. Other little things also marked their heritage. The bride was big on those things. Loved history.

Sam walked over to us, checking if all goes to plan. He seemed a bit nervous, but most of all he was radiating happiness. Everything looked good. Lots of flowers around the alter. Soon all guests were seated. Even Emily's parents came. Sue had a long talk with her sister in law. It was time to forgive and move on. Life's to short to leave things unsaid, to not make amends.

The music started playing and the bride and her father appeared for their walk down the aisle. Sam's mouth popped open a bit, his eyes fully focused on his soulmate. He didn't notice bridesmaids Kim, Rachel and Leah who lead the way first.

Leah didn't flinch or give any other clue this bothered her. I hoped she really felt as strong as she looked. Kim joined me and looked lovely in her light yellow dress. We kissed briefly before turning our attention back to the couple of the day.

Emily was positively glowing, the pink marks left after the healing were covered by some make-up. It looked real natural, her eyes and lips accentuated just enough. Her white dress flowed around her body to floor length. Like Sam's suite it had the same symbols on it. The white flowers in her hair completed the look.

When she reached Sam, who she'd been looking at the whole time too, her father placed her hand in Sam's. He couldn't deny the fact they loved each other for real anymore. Elizabeth, the mother of the bride, wiped away some tears. Sam and Emily exchanged traditional vows in Quileute and Makah. Which spoke of spirits coming together for eternity. The minister said the usual words and I gave them their rings.

Soon they kissed passionately and were pronounced man and wife. Mr. en Mrs. Uley-Young. Then congratulations were in order. Emily's mother hugged her emotionally. Telling her how beautiful she looked. Her father hugged her too and asked Sam sternly to look after his daughter. He had a firm grip while shaking hands.

In the crowd I heard pencils moving across paper. Danny was sketching, drawing a picture of the happy couple. A frame made of white driftwood lay ready beside him. He'd been working hard on his gift. After Sam's mother Allison and Embry, I was next in line. I kissed Emily on both cheeks quickly and complimented her on how she looked.

Kim moved in after me, she chatted with her a little. After shaking Sam's hand I gave him a man-hug. "Congratulations man, I said, you've finally done it. "You both look great." He grinned; "Thanks, I couldn't be happier." Other guests were pressing us for their turn. Kim and I took our place beside the family to wait things out.

I watched several people taking pictures with digital cameras. Among them were Paul and Oliver. It was Kim's special project, she wanted to make the best wedding album ever. Getting people involved was another goal. I could tell she was pleased about their enthusiasm. There would be many shots to choose from. She planned to take some herself later, at the reception/ party.

Wrapping an arm around her waist, I pulled her to me. She looked into my eyes and I drank in her radiant beauty. Suddenly I could imagine us, being the bride and groom, standing at the alter. I decided I would ask her to be mine, next year, when we would be old enough.

Soon it was time to party. Seth played dj and he was good at his job. Romantic songs first, for all the couples to dance on. Slowly, as the light started to fade and it was getting cloudier, he switched to a more upbeat selection. It remained dry. In the back I saw Jake approach Sam and Emily. Our other guests had arrived.

"Come on, Kim said while taking my arm, I need their picture too." We walked over to the Cullens, who were greeted by other members of Jake's pack. Seth left his spot to Lucas for a moment to join them. They all looked perfect, too perfect, courtesy of Alice no doubt. They all lined up to shake hands.

The little pixie and her mate were the last up, as she pushed a reluctant May forward. Embry and Seth spotted her and went over to meet her half way. "Look at you, Embry beamed, you're wearing a dress." I thought you said you'd never." May fidgeted uncomfortably with her dark red and green dress. "I didn't really want to wear it, she admitted, Alice made me."

The little woman sighed and rolled her eyes. "You can't come to a formal occasion like this in shorts and a t-shirt," she just stated. Seth took May's hand and twirled her around to get a better look. "You look wonderful, he said, it really suits you." She smiled and replied with a 'thanks'.

When she stood in front of Emily, the bride took both her hands in hers. "Wow, May exclaimed, you both look amazing." I like the tribal references." Emily smiled a big smile. I still felt surprised every time she did that. No more scares disturbing it. "That's because of you, Em started, thanks…"

May interrupted, shaking her head. She wanted to say something, but before she could, Edward briefly touched her shoulder. His lips moved a split second, to fast to make out what he was saying. She nodded and preceded. Freeing her right hand.

"No, May said, your beauty comes from here." She placed her hand on Emily's forehead. "And here," she added, moving her hand over her heart. "And here," she ended, with her hand on her stomach. Emily and Sam's eyes widened. Like mine and several others. Did she just say what I think she said? Our couple stared at her and at Em's stomach.

May beamed; "Yes, I guess I'm congratulating the three of you." Emily's mouth popped open and she managed to speak. "Really?, she whispered, I…, we just started trying, a few weeks ago." May nodded; "yes, it's still new, but I see several signs." I've gained some experience at the hospital."

It was silent for a while. This was some news. Embry brought everybody back to reality. He chided to Sam; "Well, it's a good thing then you made her an honest woman, just in time." Sam scowled at him and punched him in the shoulder. Me and the other guys chuckled.

May said: "this is my gift to you then, for now, I wasn't sure what to get you personally." Now Sam shook his head. "No, he replied, we don't expect anything else from you." You've given us plenty." She wanted to object, but he was adamant.

Kim suddenly came up with an idea. "Here, she said while picking up a camera, you can take pictures." I'm interested to see a vampire's point of view." May's face lit up and she accepted her new task. Seth on the other hand, looked disappointed.

"Ahwh, he protested, I wanted to dance with you." Nessie now started jumping up and down. "I can do it, she pleaded, please, yes, please?!" Kim smiled and gave in quick. There was just no resisting this little girl. She ran off snapping pictures fast. Jake went after her, weaving through the crowd.

"But I wanted to dance with you," he shouted. Nessie giggled and shook her head. "We can't dance, she said, you're too tall." And mommy says you're a bad dancer." Jake barely caught up with her. He protested, said he'd been practising. They disappeared from view.

Seth lead May to the dance floor and signalled Lucas. He started playing classic dance songs and new ones. Soon everybody was dancing. Hands were swaying in the air. My eyes were on Kim, who moved so gracefully. I moved with her, my hands on her hips.

Managing just a few minutes to take my eyes off of her I looked around. Jake was dancing with Leah, proving he wasn't so bad. She seemed happy, tilting her head back laughing. Embry had joined Seth and May, who started to sing along with the song. 'Blame it on the boogie' from the Jackson five.

She made up some dance-moves to it too. They were odd, but funny and suddenly people were copying her everywhere. There was so much energy. Smiles and laughter erupted. Others were singing too. And cheering, 'woohoo'.

Kim was one of them. My attention went back to her, looking so radiant. Her beautiful smile and wonderful laughter. I picked her up, spun her around and pulled her in for a kiss. She wrapped her arms around my neck. We sighed happily when we broke free to breathe. Putting her head on my chest made me slow down. We just held each other while moving around in circles. I rested my head on hers. Wanting to stay like this forever. Heavenly blissful.

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A romantic guy's point of view. You like it?

And there's a baby coming. Boy or girl ? I've already made up my mind. Sorry.

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Jared is a very caring guy and therefore gentle. Also wolves have an indication of what their imprint feels at any moment. (pain or happiness, anything) It is dulled however, so they're not completely distracted by it.