Chapter 24: Down Memory Lane

Derek knew that Spencer would become clingy after everything that happened, but he didn't realize how clingy. Derek couldn't even go to the bathroom without Spencer standing by the door waiting for him. Derek didn't mind it except for when he had to use the bathroom, but everything else, he was fine with. It was a few days before they were due back at work and Derek was making them some coffee and Spencer sat on the couch with Clooney. When Derek entered the living room he found Spencer sitting with his legs clasped to his chest and was rocking back and forth.

Derek put the cups on the coffee table, pushed Clooney off the bed and sat next to Spencer before pulling him into his arms. He didn't speak just held him and stroked his hair until Spencer calmed down.

"I'm sorry," Spencer whispered.

"Don't be, you're okay," Derek murmured.

Spencer looked up at Derek and kissed him. Derek hummed and kissed him back gently. Spencer moaned and tried to deepen the kiss and crawled on Derek's lap. Derek held him tight as they kissed, but not tight enough to hurt or scare him. When the need for air became too much they parted and Spencer buried his head in Derek's neck.

"I want it Derek. I want it so bad."

Derek didn't have to ask what he was talking about. The first day of their "vacation" Spencer tried to get Derek to have sex with him. He sighed and rubbed Spencer's back, "I know, baby, but you're not ready."

"I am, I know I am, please Derek, make love to me."

Derek groaned. There was nothing more that he wanted to do than to take Spencer up on his offer, but he couldn't. Spencer wasn't ready. He sighed and shook his head, "I can't baby."

Spencer sniffed and frowned, "You don't want me?"

Derek lifted Spencer and looked at him, "What on earth makes you think that? Of course I want you baby, but you are not ready. No matter how much you try and convince me you are, I know you're not. Spencer, we'll make love soon, I promise, but first you have to get better."

Spencer sighed and climbed off his lap and sat next to him. He picked up his coffee and sipped it before putting it down again. Derek sipped his cup of coffee and frowned.

"Spencer, what's wrong?" he asked.

"He was a guest lecturer. Because I was studying criminology and things like that I got to see him in all my classes."

"Spence, you don't…"

"I do. You deserve to know all of it," Spencer replied. "He was nice you know? Never got tired of my questions. He even took me out to lunch so he could have more time to answer my questions."

"So now we got time. Ask away kid."

"Really? Um, what's it like to work for the BAU?" Spencer asked.

"Good. I mean don't get me wrong kid, its hard work, but it makes me feel good putting criminals behind bars."

"I've always wanted to be a part of the BAU," Spencer said digging into his food.

Gideon stared at him, "I'm sure you'd be a great asset to whatever team you're with."

"And it just went like that for days. After class, he'd take me out to lunch or dinner, he'd let me ask him questions, he'd ask me about classes and about my feedback on certain cases and it was nice. He would ask me about my mother."

"How long did it last?" Derek wanted to know.

Spencer sighed, "About two weeks, which was, I learned how long it took them to solve that case. He just changed, all of a sudden."

Derek frowned, "How."

"One night, he asked me to meet him at his hotel room. He had said that he wanted to have dinner in. So I did. It was nice. Well it started out nice."

"What do you mean?" Derek asked.

Gideon wrote his number on the back of one of the BAU card and handed it to Spencer. "Here, you should give me a call when you reach the academy. I may be able to pull some strings and get you on my team."

"Wow, um thanks," Spencer said putting the card into his pocket.

Gideon smiled, "Spencer, can I tell you something?"

"Absolutely."

Gideon moved his chair closer and touched Spencer's thigh, "I know you're young and I'm old enough to be your dad, but you're really attractive."

Spencer giggled a little, "Um, thanks but can you stop doing that to my leg?"

"Don't you like it?"

"Uh, not really. It's making me really uncomfortable."

"I want you Spencer. Why do you think I kept taking you out to eat? And offering to answer your questions? It's because I'm attracted to you. Every time I look at you I get hard. Tell me you want me too."

Spencer shook his head, "I'm sorry, I don't like you that way. I-I have to go."

"And then I took off. Next day I didn't see him in class so I figured either he left already or that he wasn't scheduled to speak that day. That evening I was on my way home and he grabbed me and took me back to his motel."

"You left me hanging kid. I really didn't appreciate that," Gideon said.

"I'm sorry you just made me uncomfortable," Spencer replied.

"So what you have a problem with gays or you just don't wanna admit that you're gay?" Gideon sneered.

Spencer shook his head, "No I've accepted the fact that I was gay. Did you know that your sexual orientation is determined by age seven?"

"Did I bring you here for a lecture? I don't give a damn! You fucking left me!" Gideon yelled smacking Spencer across the face.

"I-I'm sorry," Spencer whimpered.

"What's his name?" Gideon asked suddenly.

"I'm sorry?"

"You're boyfriend, what's his name?"

"I-I don't have a boyfriend."

"Good, because you belong to me, Spencer. The moment I saw you I knew you'd be mine. The way you eagerly lapped up the attention I gave you, was just so precious."

"I thought you were my friend," Spencer cried.

"Why would I do that when I can have so much more from you?"

Spencer looked scared, "What are you gonna do to me?"

Gideon laughed, "What would you like me to do to you?"

"Let me go home? I promise I won't say a word to anyone."

Gideon shook his head, "You left me Spencer. You shouldn't have done that. Now I have to punish you."

"I'm sorry," Spencer whimpered.

"Not as sorry as you're gonna be," Gideon said grabbing the boy and taking him into the room.

He threw Spencer on the bed and tore his clothes til he was naked. Spencer whimpered.

"Gideon, please don't. I'm sorry."

Gideon grabbed his hair and pulled, "You don't speak unless I ask you a question and you never, EVER call me by my name, unless I give you permission." Then he chuckled, "You have such a nice body, Spencer."

Gideon took off his own clothes and used his belt and started to beat Spencer. Spencer cried and begged him to stop.

"I'm doing this for your own good, Spencer. I can't have you leaving me anymore," Gideon replied. "I love you too much."

Gideon continued to hit him with the belt a few more times and then dropped the belt. He leaned over Spencer's body and turned his face to kiss him, when Spencer turned away he slapped his face. He growled and turned him back over on his stomach and in one quick move thrust into him causing Spencer to scream.

Spencer shook his head, "I don't remember much after that, I blacked out and when I came too, the shower was running, and there was blood everywhere and my entire body hurt."

Derek frowned, "Spencer, how old where you again?"

"Fourteen, it was my sophomore year at Caltech. I didn't look it because of my height, but I was."

"Sonovabitch! Which means, you were a virgin?"

Spencer nodded tears running down his face, "And he stole it." Spencer sniffed and wiped his eyes. "Gideon came out of the shower and told me to clean myself up and leave. Told me if I told anyone, he'd hurt my mother."

Spencer curled up on the sofa and began rocking back and forth. "After that it happened every day. On the days he didn't see me it was worse. He'd beat me and rape me screaming at me that I belong to him."

"And this went on for two months?" Derek asked.

Spencer nodded, "Until by some stroke of luck he left California. I don't really know why, but I think it was because he got called back to Quantico. I tried to forget him and everything he did to me but I couldn't. The curse of an eidetic memory is you never forget."

"And you never said anything after he left?"

Spencer shook his head, "No I was afraid. And I was just grateful he was gone and that I didn't have to deal with him until I saw him that first day I started."

Derek nodded, "Now I know why you flinched every time I touched you or called you kid."

Spencer shrugged, "I just don't like to be touched, that has nothing to do with Gideon, but yeah, that's why I didn't like you calling me kid."

Spencer stood and gathered their cups to take to the kitchen and Derek frowned, "Spencer?"

Spencer returned to the couch and sat down, "Yes?"

"Two questions, did Gideon touch you that first night and why didn't you come forward?"

Spencer sighed, "That first night, he didn't hit me, but was extremely brutal with the rape, and I told you, I was afraid of him."

"Okay, okay. I'm sorry."

{~CM~}

The first day back to work Derek took Spencer to the Bureau psychiatrist, Marina Holden. He sat with Spencer for a good portion and they talked to her together and then she tried to get him to leave while she talked to Spencer privately. He had gotten about five steps when she was calling him back into the room saying that Spencer shut down. He walked into the room and rocked him and told him to tell her everything that he had told him.

Spencer nodded and told her.

Marina made some notes on a notepad and then looked at him, "What was different about this time?"

"He was more brutal. Like he didn't think he would get caught and there were times when it was easy for me to get lost in my head."

"How did you do that?"

Spencer shrugged, "Sometimes I recited the numbers of pi, sometimes I thought about Derek and other times I thought about my mother."

They went back and forth with the questions and answers for an hour. When they were done, Spencer stood and thanked her for her time as he followed Derek out of the room and then up the elevator to the BAU. As they walked in, Emily hugged him.

"Welcome back," was all she said.

Spencer smiled, "Thank you."

"Spence!" JJ grinned running down the catwalk and giving him a hug, "We missed you. It's been a bit lonely without you and Derek."

Spencer chuckled, "I'm sorry."

"Morgan," Hotch said appearing on the catwalk, "I want to see you and Reid in my office."

Derek nodded. He put an arm around Spencer, "Come on pretty boy."

Spencer nodded as Derek led him up to Hotch's office.

"Have a seat, Reid, Morgan, shut the door please."

Spencer sat while Derek shut the door and sat in the chair next to Spencer. Hotch studied him briefly before crossing his arms over the desk.

"Reid, I need to know what happened."

"What do you mean?" Derek asked.

Hotch didn't look at him but looked at Spencer, "Between you and Gideon when you shot him. I need you to tell me what happened. I have to fill out reports and as your Unit Chief, I deserve to know."

Spencer sighed and nodded, "Okay."

Reid gasped as his shirt was torn off. Gideon laughed.

"You think I don't know that they implanted you with a camera? Please. You left me Spencer. You left me and that only means that you deserve to be punished."

"You said if I came to you, you wouldn't punish me."

Gideon laughed, "I lied. You're mine Spencer to do with whatever I want."

"No," Reid said.

"What did you just say to me?" Gideon snapped.

Reid shook his head and tried to remain grounded while his insides were shaking, "I said no. I'm not yours. I never was and never will be yours. I am my own independent person."

Gideon laughed, "Right like you need Morgan."

"Morgan treats me like I'm a person not a fuck toy."

Gideon growled and slapped him, "You'll pay for that."

Gideon picked up Reid and carried him into the bedroom no matter how hard Reid fought and tossed him on the bed. He gave Reid a smirk before walking out the room. Reid held his breath for a minute before he jumped up off the bed and began to rummage around the room for the second gun that he knew Gideon carried like Hotch. He ran to the dresser when he was sure Gideon wasn't going to return soon.

He threw drawers open in search for the gun. He found it in the fourth drawer.

"What do you think you're doing?" Gideon asked angrily.

Reid stood up pointing the gun at Gideon's chest. Gideon laughed.

"You won't shoot me, kid."

Reid took the safety off the gun, "Wanna bet?"

Gideon chuckled, "Put the gun down, Spencer," he said taking a step closer.

"I'm warning you. I'm not the scared little kid you met at Caltech. I will shoot you."

Gideon's smirk left his face and walked toward Reid, "Oh please, you're nothing but a scared little bitch."

"And that's when I shot him," Spencer finished.

Hotch nodded. He sighed, "You know I have to take this report to Strauss and possibly the director."

Spencer nodded, "Yes."

"Hopefully, they'll be able to look at this as self-defense, but I'm not entirely sure what will happen."

Spencer nodded, "I understand."

"Just take it easy for today, okay?"

Spencer nodded, "Yes, sir."

Derek led him out of Hotch's office and down to his desk. Garcia was there and she gathered him up in her arms.

"Oh you poor baby! I'm so sorry that had to happen to you and you had to go through that."

Spencer gave her a small smile, "I'm fine Garcia, really."

"I just don't understand how anyone could do that to you and Gideon nonetheless. He never seemed like the kind of person to do something like this and murder?"

Spencer flinched at the mention of Gideon's name.

Derek glared at Garcia. "Can you please not?"

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean it," Garcia said looking at Spencer's face.

"I'm sorry."

Derek shook his head, "No, Spence, you have nothing to be sorry for."

Spencer nodded and pulled out a file. The rest of his teammates took the hint and went back to work with Garcia slinking off to her office.

TBC...

Sorry its only one chapter this time.