Disclaimer: There are references to Scream pt. 1 in here. Enjoy!
For the next few days, Adam walked with his head down. He lost an opportunity for a fresh start with Becky Baker. Adam chided himself constantly, 'You should have told her from the start,' 'Why did you think this time would be any different from the others?' 'She was a Christian so even if you did tell her it wouldn't have worked out anyway.' Everyday in chemistry was a reminder of what he wasn't; what he wanted to be but his body would not comply. Becky didn't speak to him, correction, would not speak to him; she gave him the cold shoulder everyday. He thought about texting her or calling her on the phone but when he pulled up her number he never knew what to say to her. He was stuck again in his own desolate hole of depression and he didn't feel like climbing out this time.
Becky knew she was being harsh and unchristian like to Adam but he had to lied to her and that was not okay. He pretended to be a boy knowing that there was a chance that she could like him. Becky Baker was not and will not ever be gay. Often times she would see him in the hall ways and he looked so low and depressed. She desperately wanted to cheer him up but remembered that she was not supposed to come within any contact with him-her. There were times when she wanted to call him or text him to give him a chance to explain things but then remembered that there was no need for an explanation. Jenna told her loud and clear Adam is transgendered; that's pretty self-explanatory. She was so confused all the time about this and it made her even angrier that she was confused. Becky didn't like the fact that she couldn't wrap her head around him-her. In chemistry, he would sit there, like a guy and his guy mannerisms would show. It just made her angrier that he wasn't acting like a girl with his-her legs crossed. Instead, he spread his legs and put his forearms on his legs and leaned forward. It reminded her of Luke at home when he's sitting on a stool. All she wanted was to have some clarity but she didn't want to talk to him about it; she wanted to talk to him again but she remained silent. The more and more she couldn't find clarity, the more and more she felt uneasy around him but at the same time the old familiar comfort of his company that she felt before she knew about him was still there.
In chemistry on Friday, the class had free time to study or to talk freely to one another. Becky turned around to find Jenna but saw that she was flirting with a cute baseball player; she couldn't possibly interrupt that so she sat back at her desk and stared off into space desperately trying not to talk to Adam.
"Becky, why won't you talk to me?" Adam asked. He wanted to just hear one quip from the blond or some type of answer that he deserved.
"You know why," she said in a hurtful voice.
"Look, I'm sorry I didn't tell you, okay? I just wanted you to accept me first and then I would tell you when I found the right time. It's not something I say to someone I first meet."
"Adam, you lied to me."
"How so?"
"You pretended to be a boy! And you were clearly aware that there was a chance that I might-" Becky stopped herself before she told him something that she didn't want him to know, "-never mind forget I said anything."
"Becky, I didn't lie to you okay? I believe I am a boy and almost everyone in this school believes too. Why can't you believe me?"
"Because I don't believe in homosexuality; which is what you would be practicing if you were to date a girl.
"I'm not gay, Becky, I'm a guy. I was just born with the wrong parts."
"God doesn't make mistakes."
"Well, he did with me."
"No, Adam, God loves you. All he wants is his children to be happy."
"Well I don't think he's gotten my memo. I haven't been happy the majority of my life."
At that moment, Becky felt terrible. Adam probably had a million other people that treated him this way daily and she was one of them.
"Adam, I want to be friends. I'm sorry for the way I've been acting lately; it's just been hard for me to grasp. Are we good?"
"I want to be friends too," smiled Adam, "we're good, Becky Baker."
"Good because I want to help you see the light and get back into God's good graces,"
"Yeah, I'd like that-wait what?"
"You're confused, God will lead the way to righteousness," said Becky in her perky voice.
Adam couldn't believe his ears. Was she not paying attention to their conversation?
"I'm not confused."
"Come on, Adam! At least have the decency to admit your problem to me.
"I don't have a problem" said Adam keeping his cool.
"How about the fact that you're dressed in guys clothing? At least I see no need to hide the fact I am a girl."
"I'm not a girl; I'm trans. And you're a real piece of work," said Adam a bit annoyed.
"Made perfectly by the hands of God," asserts Becky, "as we all are if you'd accept what God made you, you'd be happy."
"Jeez, I never thought of that," Adam sassed back coldly to Becky. He got up and moved to the empty table in front him.
Before Becky could answer back the teacher called the class to attention. "We are starting a project today and you will be assigned lab partners. Jenna and Bobby, Jackson and Courtney, Becky and Adam-"
"Ms. Dawes," Becky interjects, "Adam and I can't work together; we're just too different."
"Like oil and vinegar you may not mix easily, but you'll make a delicious salad dressing," said Ms. Dawes and then continued to call out lab partners. Becky and Adam find themselves smiling to themselves unaware of the other doing the same.
Okay so here is an update! Sorry it's so short; I wrote it in between studying. Tell me what you think! R&R guys, thanks!
