Luke rolled over and reached out for Lorelai. He opened his eyes when he didn't feel her lying next to him. She was sitting on the other side of the bed, out of his reach. She was reading the pamphlet from the doctor. Luke sat up slowly. Lorelai didn't seem to notice.

"Hey, you're up before me, I'm shocked." Luke said with a small chuckle.

Lorelai turned her head slowly. She smiled softly. "Hey. Yeah, I had trouble staying asleep so I decided to stay up."

Luke nodded slowly. "Still reading that?" Lorelai had been reading the pamphlet for the past two days. She wanted to make sure she was well informed on chemo and breast cancer.

"Mmm-hmm." She answered, still reading.

Luke moved over and placed a hand on her shoulder and began rubbing it gently. Lorelai smiled again. She stopped reading and turned her face to him.

"Good morning." She said gently.

"Morning," He whispered.

"How'd you sleep?"

Luke's brow furrowed. "You're asking me how I slept when you just admitted you had trouble sleeping."

"Yeah, just because I can't sleep doesn't mean you should suffer too. You can sleep through anything though. I just don't want you to lose sleep over me…" Lorelai replied.

Luke took a few seconds to respond. "Don't worry about me. It's more important that you're getting proper rest and that you're okay."

Lorelai leaned in and kissed his cheek. She knew he was right.

"Okay… um so I was just reading about how the chemo might affect my fertility. It can damage my eggs… I know we've never talked about having kids, but I have the option to have a few eggs extracted and frozen. What do you think about that?" She asked a bit hesitantly.

Luke looked at her and thought about it. She was right, they had never talked about whether or not they wanted kids. He thought they wouldn't have to talk about that until after marriage, if marriage was even in their future.

"Well, I would like to have kids one day, maybe. But your health comes first. I think it might be better to get started with chemo… I'm not a doctor but I think the sooner you start chemo, the better. I don't think you should put off the chemo to freeze your eggs. It's your body though, your decision."

She looked at him and contemplated. She decided that it was more important to treat the cancer than to have kids. She wouldn't freeze her eggs, she would risk her fertility.
"You're right. My health is more important. I would like to have kids with you one day, but I can accept that I might not be able to."

She thought about the little pregnancy scare she had had a little while ago. She never told Luke because she didn't want to scare him and it was over so fast. She made sure that they used some type of contraception every time after that. Still, she was happy that he had expressed that he wasn't totally opposed to kids.

"Okay." Luke answered. He slowly moved out of the bed and walked over to the closet. He had moved in the day before. He still had some things at his apartment, but the essential items were here. He took out a flannel, a t-shirt and jeans from the closet then went over to the dresser. He took out something that Lorelai couldn't see, but assumed was underwear.

"I'm gonna take a shower before I head to the diner." He told her.

"Mind if I join you?" She winked awkwardly.

"All right," He said simply.

Lorelai grinned and quickly got out of bed. She didn't bother grabbing any clothes as she didn't know what she wanted to wear. They walked to the bathroom together.

Meanwhile, Rory was asleep in her bed. Logan was next to her. She had called him late last night and snuck him in the house while Lorelai and Luke slept. Although she was a twenty year old woman who was free to do whatever she wanted, she wasn't sure how Lorelai or Luke would feel about Logan sleeping over. She didn't want to drive to his place last night but she wanted to see him, so she told him to come over.

"Rory wake up." Logan muttered as he gently shook her shoulder.

Rory groaned. "I don't wanna."

"Don't you want to say goodbye before I leave?" Logan inquired.

"What time is it?" Rory asked.

Logan glanced at the alarm clock. "A little after seven," He told her.

"Oh." Rory moved abruptly and sat up. "Luke might be coming downstairs soon, you should leave."

"That's what I was thinking. I thought you'd wanted to say goodbye before I left though." Logan smiled.

Rory got out of the bed and turned to face him. "Wait one second." She held up a finger then quickly walked out of the room. She walked up the stairs and stood in the hall for a few seconds. She heard the shower running then walked back downstairs.

She returned to her bedroom. "Okay, I think Luke is in the shower. You can stay a little longer." She told Logan.

"Nah, I think my dad wanted to talk to me about my 'summer plans' today. I should get back, unless you want to go get some breakfast or something."

Rory shook her head. "I want to stay with my mom… well I think she's going to the Inn today but I might go visit my grandparents today."

Logan frowned. "I don't actually want to see my father, Ace. I thought maybe we could do something so I'd have an excuse to avoid him."

Rory glared at him. "No, Logan I don't want to go off with you, I have to be here for my mom. She needs me right now. You should face your responsibilities too."

"Don't tell me that when I asked you if you wanted to talk about your mom last night and you brushed me off and dragged me to bed instead!" Logan scoffed.

Rory gasped. "I did not drag you to bed, you came willingly… I just wanted to feel happy okay? I wanted to do something that would make me forget about it for a bit… I…" She stopped and looked down at her feet.

Logan bit his lip. He knew he shouldn't have said that. "I'm sorry." He whispered. He got off the bed and walked over to her. He placed a hand on her shoulder. "Look at me."

Rory looked up at him.

"I know this must be hard for you. But avoiding it isn't the right way to handle it. Maybe I shouldn't have come over last night. I thought I told you that you could talk to me about it." He said in a low voice.

"I know it's just… so, so real now that she's going to start treatment in a couple days. I'm just scared and talking about it makes me even more scared." She stammered. Tears fell down her face.

Logan pulled her into his arms. He didn't tell her it was going to be okay. He knew that it might be the right thing to say right now. He just held her until she pulled away.

"Thank you." Rory said gently. She had wanted to say 'I love you' but she wasn't completely sure that she was in love with him and she didn't want to scare him. She didn't think he was in love with her.

Logan kept a hand on her shoulder. "You okay?"

"I think so." Rory said quietly.

Logan nodded. "Okay. I'm gonna go now. Is that okay?"

"Yeah and I'm sorry again… I never meant to use you for sex. I just…" She tried to think of an explanation.

"I know, Ace. Don't worry about it okay?"

Rory just nodded. Logan quickly kissed her forehead.

"Bye. I'll call you later." Rory told him as he walked away.

"Bye." Logan answered simply as he left the room.

After they got out of the shower, Luke and Lorelai got dressed and Luke told her that he was giving Caesar a day off and would be opening the diner a little late today. They stood at the front door.

"Christopher is coming over today right?" Luke asked.

"Yeah, I told him to come for lunch."

"Okay. Well, call me if you need anything." Luke replied. He was okay with Christopher coming over. He needed to know about Lorelai's diagnosis.

"I will. Have a good day at the diner hon." Lorelai gave him a small smile.

He leaned in and gave her a lingering kiss goodbye.

"Bye."

"Bye." She gave him a little wave.

A few hours later, Lorelai left the Inn and headed home. Christopher would be arriving soon. She made two cups of coffee and sat at the table, waited for him. There was a knock at the door a couple minutes later. Lorelai got up and walked over to the front door. She opened it to find Christopher standing there. She hadn't told him anything, just that she had to tell him something, and that she couldn't do it over the phone.

"Hey, Lor." Christopher grinned.

"Hi Chris, come in." Lorelai didn't smile.

Christopher stepped in and reached out to Lorelai, tried to kiss her cheek, but she pulled back. He shrugged and followed her to the kitchen. They sat at the table.

Christopher took a sip of his coffee before he spoke. "Where's Rory?" He asked.

"She went to Lane's." Lorelai replied.

Christopher nodded. "So what did you want to tell me?"

Lorelai took a deep breath. "I have cancer." She said bluntly.

Christopher almost spit out his coffee. "What?" He exclaimed.

"I have breast cancer."

"I… wow. I don't know what to say."

Lorelai gave him a tentative smile. "You probably weren't expecting that."

"No. I thought maybe you wanted to discuss something about Rory." He admitted.

You never seem to be that interested in Rory when you show up here. It's usually me you're after. Lorelai thought to herself.

"No. I just thought you should know. I'm going to start treatment in a couple days." She told him.

"Okay, uh thanks for telling me. I'm sorry to hear about it. Is there anything you need? Anything I can do for you?"

Lorelai pressed her lips together and gazed at him. She knew there was nothing she needed from him but she appreciated the offer. "Um no, there's not really anything you could do for me. Just… be there for Rory if she needs you, if she asks for your support."

"Of course, and I'll be there for you to if you ever want to talk or anything." He said quickly.

I have Luke for that. She thought. "Okay, thank you." She responded politely.

They finished drinking their coffees in silence. It was a bit awkward.

As Christopher was leaving, he asked: "Hey you think I can find Rory in town? I want to talk to her."

"Yeah, she should still be at Lane's or maybe at Luke's."

"Alright, thanks Lor. And thanks… for telling me."

Lorelai just nodded. Then she had a thought. "Hey, Chris?" She said before he walked out the door.

He turned, "Yeah?"

"Don't go to Luke's, with Rory." She didn't want Luke to be uncomfortable or upset.

"I won't... and uh I'm sorry about what happened at your parent's vow renewal. I had too much to drink that night." He muttered.

"Don't worry about it. Just don't do anything like that again." Lorelai responded.

Christopher nodded. "Okay, bye Lorelai. Call me to keep me updated, okay?"

"Okay." She said gently. Christopher left.

Luke came home early that night and cooked dinner for the girls. After dinner, they all sat in the living room and watched a movie. Watching movies and doing things that she normally did helped Lorelai cope. She was comforted by doing normal thing before she started treatment and having Luke and Rory next to her made it even more comforting. Rory hadn't mentioned Christopher, so Lorelai assumed that they didn't see each other in town.

Lorelai spent the night before she was due to start chemo waiting for Luke to come home from the diner. When he finally came home, he found her in the bedroom, watching T.V.

She turned off the T.V. as soon as he walked in the bedroom.

"Sorry I'm late. Kirk wanted a second piece of pie and he refused to leave until I gave to him." Luke shook his head. He stripped his shoes, his flannel and his undershirt.

"It's okay. You're home now." Lorelai got up and walked over to him. As he started to unbutton his jeans, she put a hand on his to stop him.

She leaned in and gave him a long, deep kiss.

"Well hello to you too." Luke laughed.

Lorelai smiled and reached down to unbutton his jeans for him. Luke took a step back.

She frowned at him. "Luke, I want to do this one last time before we can't… chemo can kill your sex drive too, I read it online."

"But Rory's downstairs." He muttered.

"Yes, and Rory is a twenty year old woman. She knows we have sex, Luke. She can't hear us… besides she's asleep."

Luke glanced at her. He quickly changed his mind and took a step forward and wrapped her up in his arms, kissed her passionately.

She giggled against his lips. Her clothes quickly found their way to the floor, his jeans joined them. They slowly made their way to the bed. As Luke held himself above her, Lorelai looked into his eyes and whispered:

"I love you."

Luke brushed hair off her face and whispered "I love you too."

Afterwards, they lied tangled together.

"You ready for tomorrow?" He asked.

"As ready as I'll ever be." She said firmly.

He brought her hand to his lips and kissed it.

"I'll be there for every minute."

"I know." She whispered. He had decided to take the day off. He had informed Lane (Rory had told her first) and Caesar of the situation and they told him they'd handle the diner.

"Goodnight babe." She said softly. She pressed a kiss to his chest.

"'Night," He replied. He kissed the top of her head.

She moved to his side and he wrapped an arm around her. They fell asleep an hour later, their thoughts and worries keeping them up.

Author's note: Thank you for reading, following, favouriting and reviewing this story. Reviews are always encouraged. The next chapter will be Lorelai's first treatment; it should be up no later than a week from now.