Disclaimer: The song is 'In My Life my' The Beatles and 'All I want is Everything' by Victorious.
Beck's POV
I rub my eyes, and yawn, noticing that she's on her side, facing the wall "Morning..." I sit up, and take a better look at her. She's still, arms hanging from the bed and her knees curled up to her chest, just staring at the wall "how did you sleep?"
"I'm still tired" her voice is low, and she doesn't say anything else, or even dares to look up. I stroke her hair trying to get any emotion, and nothing happens, I've never seen her like this; I should go and get her medicine, she needs to take it...even if it doesn't seems to be working.
I get up, and run my fingers through my usual crazy morning hair, and head out the room bumping against Andre's bed on the hall, making him mumble something about his Grandma and thinking that the oven is a sauna. I get in the girls and look for her stuff, both Cat and Jade's beds are empty, and Robbie's hanging upside down from what used to be Tori's bed. I grab her things, and leave the beside the door and head to the kitchen to get something to brink.
"Beeeck" Cat bleats my name like a goat, and I look at her confused, she doesn't look like she has even the slightest hangover, and she was the one who drank most last night "Was Tori mad because Robbie took her bed?"
Oh shit, she remembers. "No, she's fine now she's not sleeping in that bed anymore" I grab a water bottle and shut the fridge.
"Why?" she asks, turning on the TV in an extremely loud volume "where's is she going to sleep?"
"In my bed" I say, and she looks puzzled, scratching the top of her head.
"Then where are you going to sleep?" I roll my eyes and walk away, I'm just going to let her figure that out on her own. I open the door and get all of her stuff inside, and she's exactly the same way before, lifeless.
Tori's POV
Where did it all go wrong? Why did I stop being happy? When did it happen...what...I need to think about it, when was the last time I remember being completely happy and then go from there until the first fucking cut. The first day where I was trapped inside my own mind. Just think Tori, when were you completely happy?
"I love Chattanooga!" I yell in the car, as we cross the first bridge all the way across town. I can already see the Aquarium from here, and on their website it said that they had baby Otters, and I can't to see them. We go around the corner getting closer and closer to our building, and I have to say its much nicer than our house in LA. I don't know why but Mom and Dad seem to spend a lot of time in this one, using every opportunity they have to travel and come here, I know that if I could I'd come here with them every time, but only if he was here too, Austin, from all the things I like most in this town, he is definitely number one, maybe two...after the baby Otters.
My Dad stops the car, and I quickly get out shaking in excitement, I really hope he's here this summer too, we could hang out everyday just like last year! And maybe, he's going to start to like me back, that would be the best thing! Trina knows how much I like him, he's one year older and he has the best green eyes, and he knows everything about sea animals, so dreamy.
The doorman, Earl, opens the door for me and offers me his hand which I politely shake "Hello Miss Vega, you're so much taller than last year!" He chuckles and I smile, he says that every time I come; It's funny because Earl is old, and he says that somehow he's shrinking. And I just don't know how could that be possible.
"Why is this elevator taking so long?" Trina complains, she does that a lot, and it can be very annoying; But she's hardly ever home, always out with friends that I've never met, so I cut her some slack because I think that she doesn't really have those friends.
The door finally opens, and I get pulled into a hug so quickly that I can't even process things at first, but I'd recognize this blonde hair anywhere "Austin!" He takes off his earplugs, and I notice that he's listening to the number one hit song of the year, I Kissed a Girl, I really love that song too.
"Why hello Torrey" That name...Tor-I! Not Tor-rey! I'd correct him if he wasn't so cute... "I was just about to get some Ben and Jerry's, want to come?" I look at my Mom, and she nods, yay!
"I'd love to!" I giggle like an idiot, but I don't care, I'm having ice cream with him! "When did you get here?" I ask, with too much excitement, but I don't care, this is perfect. We get out, and I look behind just before going around the corner and Earl blinks, what does that mean? Did Austin tell him anything?
"Last week, and Nana got me a membership to the aquarium for my thirteen birthday" My chin drops, that really cool, and he's been waiting to be a member since last year "Did you know they have baby otters now?"
"No way?!" Even though I already knew that, I think it sounds better if I didn't...
"Yep, I could take you there tomorrow" He could take me? Does that mean it's a date? Did Austin just ask me on a date?!
"That'd be great" I feel myself blush as we enter the Ice Cream parlor, and he gets in front of me in line
"what do you want?" he asks, and I take a quick look at the flavors available
"Cherry Garcia" I say, and he asks for the Peach Cobber one...and he pays for it. He paid for my ice-cream, this is a date! We eat it, and he talks about his year and all these amazing things, and I'm too blown away by how everything is going so much better than I've ever thought! I can't wait for tomorrow!
I leave the parlor completely giddy as he opens the door for me and lets me go first, and as we go down the stairs he holds my hand. And I have to control myself not to scream from all the happiness, oh my god what if he tries to kiss me? What do I do? I've never kissed anyone before and I could be a bad kisser and that'd just be the worst thing ever!
"Torrey Vega..." he sights, and I stop, leaning against the wall, and he smiles.
"why do you call me Torrey?" He nods his head, and takes a step closer making me blush even more
"I just think Torrey suits you better, it's happy and bubbly and adorable just like you" He takes another step, and I can't catch my breath "It shines just like you"
"Alright you can call me like that" I say, and he holds my hand tighter
"May I kiss you Torrey?"
Oh my.
"Yes"
Oh my god!
Sight. I was such a stupid girl, happy stupid girl. The worst thing that could happen to me was be a bad kisser...I wish. And somehow bringing those memories back didn't give me any sort of satisfaction, it just reminds me that I was once an idiotic twelve year old, and I know that my problems are nowhere near to that memory. Everything started when Trina got into Hollywood Arts...she was fifteen, and I was in my last year at Sherwood, dating Danny, breaking up with Austin, being the untalented Vega, the worst sister. And the worst is that I actually thought I was in love with them, at the same time, and I had no clue what love actually meant. Stupid child, stupid life, I'm torturing myself digging the past, but it's the kind of torture I can't seem to stop, I need to find out where it all began...
"What's the plan?" He asks, as we watch the Otters being fed "when you go back to California and I go back to Alabama, what's the plan?"
"We wait" I say, holding his hand "and then we go to college, you can study the animal creatures and we can live here together" I press my lips against his, he's the greatest kisser. And this summer is so much better than the last one, now I'm thirteen and I can do whatever I want without asking Mom's permission, and I managed to go through with my plan, be with Austin all day; and even better, there isn't any wondering if he likes me or not, I knew from the moment I saw him that we felt the same as last summer, and his hair is longer and he kisses even better now, I guess I do too.
"I'll be waiting for you, maybe I'll even let you feed the otters when I work here" he says, and I giggle kissing him again, but not too much because we're in public, and I don't want people to think I'm a whore. We walk away together, and my Dad is already loading the car, I really don't want to go back to LA and have to hear about Trina's new school all over again. She's in a fancy Hollywood Arts school with cool artsy friends and famous people looking for the next Britney Spears, and she's sure that it's going to be her. I on the other hand go to stupid public school, because like she says I have no talent, just ordinary Tori, but I don't care about what she says, what does she know after all?
"See you next summer" I tell him, before going in the car, and he waves until we go around the corner, and cross the bridge. I'm sure going to miss Chattanooga.
No! No! That's not it...Leaving him and dating Danny wasn't where it all began, I broke up with Danny because I was going to Hollywood Arts, and I was happy! Happy that I was more talented than Trina, and that there was nothing she could say to make me feel bad about myself because I too knew how to sing and dance, naturally! And she stopped saying I had no talent...she...she started to neglect me but I didn't really mind, so, what was it?!
Why can't I find out where things went wrong? Why can't I remember that first cut?
Beck's POV
"Tor..." I call her name, and I sit down beside her "where's the Zolof?" She looks up at me, and slowly sits up stopping a few inches away from my face and breathing deeply. I cup her cheek and look at her dead eyes, and she presses her forehead against my shoulder, I stroke her hair...this is painful "C'mon Tori, you have to take it"
She gets the bag, and takes two small containers from it, getting two pills and throwing the rest aside; I hand her the bottle, and she takes another deep breath before swallowing, handing me back the bottle. I put in on floor, and she leans against the wall, looking up and then slowly catching my gaze again "can you sing for me?"
I nod, and get my guitar.
There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
"All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compared with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I'll love you more"
I put the guitar away, and she kisses my cheek, and I can see the slightest change in her eyes, from nothing to pure sadness, which as odd as it sounds is an improvement "I love you" She runs her fingers through my hair and I kiss her briefly, and she pulls my head towards hers deepening the kiss, but quickly pulls away and wraps her arms around my neck "what's wrong with me?"
I pull her hair away from her face, and kiss her forehead "Nothing is wrong" I kiss her cheek and look closely in her eyes "You just need time"
"But what if I can't wait?" I wipe the tears from her eyes "Beck...I'm not getting better" I breath in at these words, and I try my best to smile because I can't panic, I love her too much for that, she needs me to say things will turn around, because they will.
"wait with me" She nods, and I get up "c'mon, we have to get out of this room" She sights, and I turn on the lights, she needs to get out of bed and find some distractions. I put on my coat, the good thing about cold weather is that you can wear the same shirt everyday and no one will know because you don't need to take your coat off.
She puts on a shirt, and I hand her coat right after she zips up her boots "where are we going?" We leave the condo, and everyone except for Cat, that was dancing in the porch, were still sleeping, so I ranted two bikes, racing her all the way across the bridge to the biggest park in town, holding a musicians encounter from all over the state, beginners, professional bands and solo artists. The important thing is that they have music, and the one thing that always cheers her up is music "this is amazing! Can we sing?" she asks, I knew this would work, even if it's just for a few hours.
I sign her up for the next hour, and she wanders around with an actual good expression on her face, and I'm delighted that she can still smile even when everything is going wrong.
"This is awesome dude!" Andre yells, and Cat and Jade walk behind him, how did he know we were here? "Can we perform?"
"Beck sign me up, but we can sing together" Tori exclaims, and soon everything falls back into place. Jade teases her, and Andre tells them to quit it, Cat says something weird about her brother and in no time she's being called up the stage, and the four of them run up there.
I feel delirious
Come let's get out of here
We're so anonymous
But it's all coming clear
We're heading for the sky,
And we'll get lost in it
'cause all i want, all i want, all i want is everything
"She's really good huh" I turn around, and Austin is looking up, I really didn't want to see him again "I guess going to that school was worth it"
"what are you doing here?" I ask, and he frowns "didn't you do enough damage yesterday?"
"I don't wanna cause no trouble" he says, and standing in front of me "I just want to understand what's going on with Torrey"
"Tori" I correct him, and he rolls his eyes "that's none of your business" he rubs his hands together and puts them inside his pocket
"I don't know if you noticed but I care about that girl, I just want to help" I scratch the back of my neck, trying to calm myself down, as much as I'd like to be as chill as I always am, this guys has a way of getting in my nerves
"Look, if you want to help her just drop it alright" The song ends, and we applaud, and I already know he's not leaving. Fuck. I walk up to the stairs and leaving him behind, picking up Tori from the stage "you were amazing!"
I give her a kiss and she chuckles, with her cheeks red due to the cold weather "wait...What's Austin doing here?" I look behind, and he's coming in our direction, great, just great.
A/N: Please, Please review! Love you all,
- Kiribati