Important author's note at the end.

Beck's POV

I slow down the pace, quickly falling behind everyone else "So, I was talking to Austin... Why didn't you tell me you two dated?" She looks up at me, shocked, and crosses her arms "No, don't get me wrong, I'm fine with it. I just wanted to know why you didn't tell me"

"It wasn't a big deal" she begins, and Andre turns around looking at the both of us with a slight grin on his face that soon turns into a frown, making him walk ahead, giving space for her to go on talking. "Like I told you, I used to come here every summer, and on the last three of them and we did the long distance thing for a while" Three summers? That's a lot...like, really serious for teenagers, even for adults, how could that just have slipped out of her mind. "are you mad?"

"No" she walks ahead of me, turning around her eyebrows slightly furrowed "I'm not mad, Tor, I just want you to tell me about your three year long relationships"

"It's just him, you know all about the others"

She did tell me, but I already knew, first it was Ryder Daniels, I used to get where the guy was coming from, never settle for one girl, big difference: I'm always very clear about what I want, meanwhile the guy used them for grades as if he actually had feeling for the them, another jerk. He got what he deserved with Tori's song about him, I wasn't there that day, but I saw the videos and she really did get him, but the effect it had on her; That's the part she told me, and that no one else knows, it really broke her heart, Ryder Daniels is a fucking prick. And then there's the other guy, she didn't really tell me about him, and I can't remember his name...Stephen? Stan? I don't know, but he was dating her and a girl for ICarly at the same time, and made him get caught live on camera, for millions of people to see. Gotta give it to her, she can ruin a guy's reputation when she wants to, at least she does it with a good reason.

I take her hand and pull her closer to me, bringing my hand to her neck "I'm not mad, ok?" I kiss her on the cheek, and we go on walking. Just like Austin, she said they couldn't work 'the long distance thing', and we're going to have to try to work that out pretty soon too, but she was a lot younger, right? It won't be the same with us, we're both going to be eighteen...we will make it work, won't we?

Tori's POV

We get to the door, and the loud indie music is gone, the TV is shut off and the living room is completely empty. "We should check the rooms, again" Dolph suggest, and we all head to the hall, opening the first door to the guest room.

"Guest room party!" we all take a breath of relieve when finding the room full of balloons, chips and cookies, and an extremely happy Miguel next to Cat and Robbie and Tanya laughing while Robbie stares her. "I thought we needed balloons for the party Toriii!"

"We definitely needed them" I tell her, kicking some off the floor and starting a don't-drop-the-balloon sort of game, but after a few seconds they end up attacking the food, and Beck grabs a package ofDorito's for us, sitting on one of the corners of the room.

"So!" Tanya says, in an awfully excited tone "Where are y'all planning on going to college to?"

"Cat and I are going to Julliard" Jade says, and Cat squeaks with happiness.

"Yeah and Tori, Robbie and I applied to Berkley and UCLA" We applied, and I'm pretty sure we're going to get in. Most people do, and I love the dramatic arts program they have, specially in UCLA, it's my first choice. Always was, in the city where I'm most likely to find a job in the area, and make a living of it.

"What about you big boy?" She points at Beck, and I suddenly get this awful rush of...I don't even know, no not really, I do know.

College.

I've been blocking it, and I was doing a fine job on it, as long as I didn't think about it, it wouldn't happen, and I wouldn't have to face the cruel reality that high school is ending soon, and so is my time with Beck. I can't see myself alive with him, and distance is hard. Distance doesn't work, it didn't work with me before, why would it work now? Of course I changed, and of course my relationship with Beck and Austin in nothing alike but still... I just don't need to think about this right now.

"Probably Vancouver Arts and Film College" he says, looking down at me, and I swallow thick air.

"ooh British Columbia!" She yells, and I'm starting to get this massive headache from her voice "I think I should go home now" she gets up, stumbling on her own feet, and walks out of the room.

"Robbie!" Cat yells, and we all stare at him as he stays there, doing nothing

"Dude!" Andre says, and he suddenly jumps, covering his face.

"what?!"

"You don't let a drunk girl go home alone!" I finally yell, getting up myself.

"...right!" he runs off behind her, and I look around for a few seconds, but I feel as if my head was going to explode, I need to shut off. I leave the room, and Beck follows me, heading straight across the hall, into the apartment, pick up my bag from the guest room and shutting myself inside the bathroom.

Today is December thirty first, classes end in June...I have six months, six months with him and then there's summer. And college, and life, and...and nothing. Six months is not enough! No time is enough; I turn on the shower, so he doesn't worry thinking that I'm freaking out again, I don't want to put all of my problems on his back, not this time. And as much as I try to get my mind off of it, all I can think is that I have one hundred and fifty six days left with him, and it's not enough.

I spend at least an hour inside the shower, for one thing because I have to be extra careful with the stupid fucking stitches, and second because I needed space to calm myself down, I have to learn how to do this on my own. Now that it hit me, he's leaving again, and I can't kill myself when he does. For once, this Zolof thing might actually be working.

I get out, and Andre is in sleeping in his bed on the hall, but I can hear Cat's extreme laugh from all the way across the hall. I go inside the room, and put down my stuff on the corner, still drying my hair with the towel.

"What are you watching?" I ask, and he sits moves over to the side of the bed padding on the mattress for me to sit by his side, and I do so, putting my legs over his lap, and my head on his shoulder, biting my bottom lip to keep me from crying. I think I'm gong to feel like crying every time I'm with him now.

"The Perks Of Being a Wallflower, the movie" I sight, we talked about it the first day I went to his RV, back then, all I wanted was to get rid of the project, so I wouldn't have to spend time with him. Today I'm an emotional mess, part of it because we're going to have to be apart.

"Beck..." he strokes my hair, kissing the side of my head"...we only have six months left"

"That's only time, and we don't have to time about it" his voice is steady, as it always is when he tries to make a point, and make me feel better. It's the exact opposite of mine, shaky and keeping to as little words as possible, before I break down into another hopeless attack "we can say it's six months, but think about it, animals don't have a time to wake up, or feed or even birthdays, they just exist, and they do much better than humans, they don't have most of the fucked up diseases we have so forget about it. Only humans measure time, and in reality it means nothing, we can make every second we have together turn into more, so..." He stops talking, and brings the hands that was in my hair up to his, running his fingers through them, covering his eyes right after it, fuck... "let's not think about it for now, ok?"

"ok"

Cat grabs both mine, and Jade's arm, dragging us inside Victoria's Secret, I don't know how that girl does it, but she's immune hangovers, and I'm a weak drinker, so a couple of shots of tequila plus medicine, plus all the stupid drama, my head hurts just as much as last time. Being dragged to the aquarium with scream kids, and screaming Cat, didn't help either, the last thing I want right now is to buy underwear.

"Every year my brother and I buy new panties to give us good luck, you have to be wearing it by midnight today and it will bring good things for you!" She says, and we follow her to the right corner of the store, were they explain what color means what.

"stop saying the words panties, I HATE IT!" Jade yells, making Cat take a step back "But wait...you shop in Victoria's Secret with your brother?" Cat laughs until she can't catch her breath

"No silly! I shop alone, he just tells me what color he wants!" she nods her head, looking around and coming closer "my brother is not allowed in Victoria's Secret stores anymore"

Jade and I take a minute to look at the colors, and she reaches for a golden one, it means money and success. Honestly I'm not too worried about that now, and it's not like I believe that the color of my underwear is going to determine how my whole year goes, but picking a good color won't do any harm.

"I want the pink one, because I always need more pink in my life!" Cat gets the most girlish one, and I choose the lacy purple one, it's supposed to bring positive energy into ones life, and that's what I need the most right now. Unless there's a pantie that can give teletransportation, so I can see my boyfriend even if he goes to college in South Korea.

"Interesting choice Vega" Jade says, and I ignore her comment paying for my item and heading out the store to wait for the boys, that went to get some ice cream, even though we had lunch thirty minutes ago, that has a special pound burger on the menu which all of them ate. Except for Robbie, he asked for the kids special to get the car shaped plate, it's a mystery to me how, and why Tanya liked him.

"I like that bag" Beck says as he gets closer and I giggle, grabbing the spoon from his ice cream and eating some of it myself.

"Hii!" Cat yells, as she and Jade get off the store, and Andre starts to sing the song he made when he was fifteen about how much he loves the Victoria's Secret models, until we get in another store, and the manager asks him to either shut up or leave.

"I'm still pretty tired guys, I think I'm going to head home" I tell them, and Robbie says he wants to come too, and to save money, we all decide to go, squeezing inside one cab, to sleep before the party Tanya invited us, at the aquarium today.

We get home and I sleep, really sleep for what it feels like the first time in ages. I think I even dreamt, but now my alarm is ringing, and I just know I won't drift back asleep even if I want to. I rub my eyes and get up, and Beck goes off to take a shower, but it's weird, it's quiet. Too quiet and I know no one except me and Robbie planned on going to sleep. I head out the hall hearing angry whispers one over the other, and the second I walk in the living room everything goes quiet except for the sound of running water.

Andre, Jade, Cat and Robbie are gathered around, looking at me "Is everything ok guys?" I ask, my heart racing fast. Why are they acting like this?

"Tori we need to tell you something" Andre gets up, and walks over to me, sitting me down at a chair, oh god what happened? Jade sits up, frowning her lips and Cat rocks her legs back and forth.

"We know about Christmas, and the hospital and well, everything"

A/N: Sorry for the late uptade guys, I got sick this week so I wasn't really on the right mind to write! But here's a new one, it's short too but I just wanted to leave it at that ;) And did you guys hear, Victorious won best show at the Kids Choice Awards! Now the important part, I'm starting my exams next week so I don't know when I'm going to be able to upload, lots of stuDYING to do :(

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- Kiribati