Tori's POV

Fuck. That's the most truthful, realistic, the best word. And due to the circumstances of my current life, I've decided I'm going to use any fucking opportunity that I can.

"I'm just saying I don't think LA is good for her right now!" My dad yells at my mom, from one end of the room.

"What are people going to think we they found out she ran off to Tennesse?!" she yells back, from the other end.

And I'm stuck in the fucking middle of it.

"Holly, you're not responsible eno-" he begins, raising his tone of voice.

"Don't start Dav-"

"She can't get home from school and find you in the couch with Gary!"

The keep at in, going on and on and what was supposed to be about whether or not I wanted to go to Tennessee or stay in LA turned into another stupid fight, about Gary and the divorce and all that shit. I get up, from the middle of the couch, and make my way upstairs to get my things.

Fuck, I have hear them from upstairs. I get my things and go back downstairs, they're still yelling at each other and pointing at the spot where I sited before, I don't think they realized I'm not there. "STOP!" I yell, and they both jump looking at me, confused. "Do you two even give a fuck about me or is this about the divorce?!"

"Honey..." they try apologize, but it doesn't cut, they can't always make everything about them.

"did you ever consider maybe, I don't know, asking me where I want to live?!" I storm off the apartment. I need to blow off some steam god, I can't keep getting myself into these situations with them! It's like I'm the parent and they're the kids.

Fuck, fuck, fuck. I stop, and look at the empty streets "FUCK!". This is not working for me, saying fuck is in no way helping me let out my anger...so much for trying to quit the self destructive behavior. I need a distraction, and Beck's sleeping and I can't focus... I need to be around people. I grab my phone, and quickly dial the numbers.

"Hey baby girl, what's up?"

"Nothing really, do you feel like hanging out?" I keep walking, and go around the corner to Andre's house "I miss my best friend" I appeal, and I do, it feels like forever since we hung out, even thought we stayed at the same house in winter break I was always with Beck, and well... I didn't feel like hanging out with anyone else.

"Sure baby, my Grandma is at a Bingo Weekend at Florida, no craziness for us today"

"Ok, I'll be there In five" I go down the hill and in no time I'm at his door.

"Hello stranger" Andre opens the door and I give him a hug right before going inside. It feels like forever since I've been here, and it change a lot too. There isn't anything with sharp edges or too easy to break around the house, and everything seems to be baby proofed, I guess it's crazy-elderly-proofed. He gets his key and unlocks the door to the basement. When I first came to his house I jealous of his room, it's huge, even bigger than Beck's RV and he has his own small kitchen, bathroom even a living room space all to himself, sort of like a loft. And now I get it, he needs to have the 'normal' house stuff down here to keep them away from his Grandma. "Do you want something to drink?"

"I'm good" I sit down at the couch, and he opens up a bag of peanuts.

"So, what brings you to my home? Is Beck dead or something?" He laughs at his own joke. "No, but really, what are you doing here?"

"I just felt like hanging out, is that a crime?" I lie down at the couch, and stare at the ceiling that has Vinyl's glued all over it, I tried counting them once, stopped after seventy three.

"Is cool" He eats a handful of peanuts, and sits down in his bed "did your college letters arrive yet?"

"oh god college..." I rolls my eyes and sit up, I don't to talk or think about it. But it seems as if that was the only thing people want to talk these days! I get it, we're seniors, it's coming, so we should enjoy the last semester instead of spending time talking and waiting for what's going to come inevitably! "Don't worry, I know for a fact you're getting in"

"Both of us...maybe Robbie"

"Can you imagine Rex and Robbie at a campus?" just thinking about it makes me burst into laughter, maybe hell find another person with a puppet too, it's a huge campus.

"Do you mind if I roll a blunt?"

"Please do" Yes, that's exactly what I need to relax.

"Well it's a struggle – everyday we're stressing,
but what's a life without dedication?
I'm trying to pick up the souls intention
to soak in music relaxation

We're feeling good, we're feeling alright yeah
We're feeling good, we're feeling alright yeah"

"I think every chip should have its own salsa sauce" I open another bag, and dip inside the good sauce. Good thing about weed... when you're on it, it doesn't let you worry about ruining your... vocal strings...or is it chords? "a piano has chords or strings?"

"I don't know..." he gets up and runs over to the piano in the corner of the room "It has teeth's, black and white ones!"

I get up too, and spin around with my chips, they taste SO good. I wish I had an endless supply of chips, that'd be the real good thing. He moves off the piano and sits down on the sofa, turning the TV on, and I sit beside him.

"Hey Tori" I shake my hand, and look at him. I think the effect is staring to pass...it's a shame.

"what is it Harris?"

"why didn't you tell me about...you know" he tilts his head at my wrists, and I sight, I don't know what's worse, talking about college or myself.

"Why didn't you tell me your Grandma needed all this special care?" He looks down, and I cross my leg, changing the TV channels "she's not in a bingo weekend is she?"

"Alzheimer's trial, the doctor's will call me after she's out of surgery" He turns off the TV, and turns up the music

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, it's..."

"You don't need to explain, I get it, just try and make it through"

"through what?" he's about to speak when his phone rings, and he runs to it picking it up, and going upstairs. I put my shoes on, I should be going to home, I have school tomorrow and I haven't slept at all in a day.

"I gotta run, my Grandma woke up and I have to be with her" I grab my purse, and I make my way upstairs with him, getting in his car and he makes a turn up the hill stopping at my house.

"Thanks for the ride" I get out and stop at the window before he goes off "hey, what you said before, make it through... what?"

"life" he goes off, and I make my way inside the house, and I'm actually surprised to find my parents in the same position they were before. Screaming.

"Tori!" My Dad exclaims "Good, come here" he holds my hand "tell your Mom how much you love the condo in Chattanooga" I let go of him, and pass them both going upstairs. The screaming starts again after my Mom accuses him of scaring me away.

I get in the shower to get rid of the smell of weed, that my parents didn't notice. Between my Mom and my Dad, I'd rather live with him, because in the rare moments that my Mom does notice me she criticizes, my Dad on the other hand wouldn't notice me if I had a watermelon around my neck. But there is no way in hell I'm moving to Tennessee in my last months with Beck.

I put on the first shirt I can find, and turn on my laptop, calling him for a video chat. "Hey" I turn on the camera, and notice his RV is a complete mess, and he's been in there only for a few hours, I don't know how he does it. "How was your day?"

He shrugs, and rubs his eyes, I can tell he slept all day long while I was getting high at Andre's...crap I can't fall back into my freshmen year routine "yours?" I shrug, and brush my hair. "what's with all the screaming?"

"My lovely parents are getting a divorce" he doesn't look surprised, and I don't know if it is because he's Beck, or because he already knew...

"My Mom told me, her friend works with your Dad" So everything is out in the open, amazing. "are you alright?"

I shrug again, because that's how I feel about the whole thing, whatever, I don't care if they're married or not. I just want them to stop screaming. I hear someone knocking on the door, and tell whoever is out there to wait. "Oh, fuck, I have to go..."

"Good luck, I love you"

"love you more" I shut the Laptop and open the door, just to realize the screaming has stopped.

"Your father just left" My Mom says, walking in, and pointing at my nightstand "when did you get that lamp?"

I look behind, and she sits on the corner of my bed "Sophomore year...two years ago"

"it's pretty" I turn on the TV to cut off the silence, and she looks around sighting every three seconds. Just like Trina does whenever she wants to talk.

"what's up?"

"I'm glad you asked!" She gets up and runs out the room, coming back after a few seconds "I got you this" she hands me an envelope, and let's a little squeak out when I finally take of the card from inside "it's a credit card! It has no limit so you can buy anything you want!" She pulls me in for a hug, and gets up standing by the door "also, I have a date tonight, I might not be home for breakfast"

"sure, have fun" she claps her hands and walks out banging my door.

Beck's POV

"Good Morning" She runs towards me, jumping into a hug, and I hold her so she won't fall

"I know it's only been a day but I've missed you" I press my lips against hers, and she puts her feet back on the ground

"It's weird not having you wake me up every morning" She slap me in the arm and I chuckle at her reaction

"I never woke you up! I'm very sneaky" I wrap my arms around her waist, and she rests her hands on my chest, I do miss waking up with her, and sleeping with her, just never being apart, and mostly, not hearing shit about her from my dad. "I'm so sneaky, I could fix your entire RV and you wouldn't even know I got out of bed"

"Is that so?" She nods, and I tuck some of her hair behind her ear right before kissing her again, and I can feel her falling week on my knees and I love it.

"Morning Tori, Beck, what a great surprise..." She pulls away, and I turn to find her mother, in pants that are way to tight for her, walking home with was it looks like the biggest hangover of all time. She tries to quickly fix herself, and stops in front of us. "aren't you two cute?"

"How was Gary?" Tori asks, resting her head under my chin, and I stroke her hair, it can't be easy to see her Mom like this...specially in those pants...

"Fine...did you get the credit card?" she doesn't answer, and Ms. Vega stumbles on her own feet "Well just remember it doesn't have a limit, and that Zara just released a new clothing line"

She turns around and slowly starts to make her way back "Bye Ms. Vega"

"No, not Vega, Jones! Much prettier" She shuts the door, and Tor rolls her eyes.

"Jones?"

"Her single name... Did you see her pants?!" I can't help but laugh at how absurd this whole thing is "Why are you laughing?!"

"...the...pants..." I keep laughing, and I really don't know why but I can't stop. I must have done something right because she's laughing too.

"God this is awful, my Mom is a worst copy of Trina!" she says, right before laughing even more "I'm so screwed..."

I kiss her forehead, and open the car door for her "let's go to school, and try to get the image of those pants out of our heads"

"and maybe never mention them again" she says, and I drive off.

Tori's POV

I make my way to Lane's office, and knock on the door right before going in. "Lane?"

"Hello! Tori, take a seat" He sits down in his cage chair "please, take some lotion" he points at a basket filled with small samples, and I choose the one that has 'Pepperoni Pizza' labeled on it.

"I just came by to hand you the note from my shrink" I hand it to him, and he hands it in a board behind his desk, along with hundreds of other notes.

"Thank you" he holds the door for me "and please, feel free to talk to me about anything, I'm your counselor, I'm here for you"

"Thanks Lane" I walk out, and rush to Sikowitz since I'm already late. I get in the classroom, and all the head turn around staring me.

"Tori! It's really good to have you back" I sit down besides Beck, and the second Sikowitz turns around to write on the board, whispering starts, and the staring doesn't stop.

They know, everyone knows.

A/N: The song is 'Feeling Alright' by Rebelution.

Hey guys! I hope you liked this one, please review, I'm glad most of you are still liking it. This is honestly my major source of happiness! Love each and everyone of you, hope you're all having good days,

- Kiribati