A/N: Hello everyone! I felt like this chapter could be a potential sequel, it fits to be one perfectly but I decided to leave it in the fanfic anyways. Hope you enjoy!

3 years, 6 months and 19 days later

Tori

"And I can tell just what you want
You don't want to be alone
You don't want to be alone
And I can't say it's what you know
But you've known it the whole time
Yeah, you've known it the whole time"

I take my keys off my pocket and get in the apartment, which is as silent as ever until I hear the annoying sound of my alarm. If it weren't for Andre, I would have thrown that thing away a long time ago, but no can't do, because it's at the exact time he needs to be awake, and if it stays in mine room not in his it has the perfect volume for him not to have a heart attack when it goes off. Sometimes I can really see the resemblance between him and his Grandma.

I put the breakfast I bought for us on the kitchen table and run to my room to turn it off, and to change into anything other than these clothes. I hear his footsteps slowly heading to the kitchen, the walls are so thin we can hear everything, most nights, more than I wish to hear. At least I know he's alone, and that I'm going to eat the extra muffin I bought for his girlfriend. I put on sweats, and grab the coffee on the right handing it to him "Peppermint white chocolate for you" He finishes pouring some cereal he made a jingle for, and takes the beverage. "Christmas season is full on speed"

I take a sip off my very traditional, non-Christmassy, black coffee. I don't have the urge to throw myself out of a window on Christmas anymore, but I'm still not exactly the biggest fan of it. "And I figure you spent the night at Johnny's" Oh, why can't he spare me the talk today? I thought the Christmas subject would avoid the Johnny one. I take another sip and ignore his commentary, sitting down in a plastic stool in front of the piano. After his Grandma died, in freshmen we decided to use all of our savings and rent this apartment, and buy a piano to work on, so with no money left, all the furniture we own is either something my Mom didn't want anymore or made out of plastic. Of course I could ask my Mom to give me back my allowance, but we all know how that goes, and it's a path I don't want to take. "And my best guess is that it wasn't a very good one"

"We broke up" I swallow thick air, and start to play the jingle Andre's singing, putting down my coffee on the plastic table, reminding myself of one of the perks of having plastic furniture, no coaster needed. "We fought again, but this time he decided to say he was always worried that I'd do something to myself like I used to, you know, the usual, so I broke up with him"

"Why don't you just lie about your scars Tori? Just tell them you had a really angry...Tasmanian Dog" He cuts a bagel in half and puts it in the six year old toaster I brought when we first moved in the apartment "they would never find out, and it'd make things much easier"

"If they can't deal with my past I don't want to have a relationship with them" I get up and finish the coffee, grabbing the two muffins I bought.

"I don't know why you do this to yourself, they all leave. I never understood why you left B..." I put the bag down and shoot him a confused look, why is he even bringing him up? He better than anyone else know what I had to do to get over the fact that no one is ever going to treat me like he did, and that I have to find someone less perfect and go with that. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to…"

"…it's fine, you can talk about him it's what? been three years?" I throw the muffins back in the bag, checking the time, I'm late for class. Great. "things don't work out the you plan them to, and I learned that a long time ago... Moving on, what time is your first class today?"

"Nine, do you need a ride?" I'm already thirty minutes late, I can skip this one and go with him.

"Yeah, thanks" I get in the shower and my mind wonders back to last night, and morning. Johnny is such an asshole, he was so mad just because I can't tell him I love him back! But c'mon, we've been together for less than two months! He could have just kept his mouth shut and waited for me to say it first! Damn he was a nice guy, why is it that nice guys always ruin everything by telling you they love you? And just like in the previous times I didn't say it back he started going on and on about how 'worried' he is that I'm going to do something stupid and he'll get blamed for it, and I wouldn't call that love, specially if he thinks I'm still the depressed seventeen year old I was back then, the girl he didn't even know! Asshole. He thinks he knows me well enough to talk about my past...

"C'mon Tori we're going to be late!" He yells, and I rush out of the room zipping my pants up and going barefoot, I'll just put the shoes in the car. We go down the three flights of stairs and get in the old Sedan he also got from his Grandma. She died right when freshmen year began, and even thought it said in her will that all of her possessions after she died were Andre's, they had so many debts with the hospital that all he had to sell everything to pass by it, leaving him enough money to lvie by for six months. That's why he started making jingles, it's not really music, but at least he's getting paid. I get in the backseat, and drink what's left of my cold coffee.

He stops the car, and a small blonde with her straight hair up to her waste in her cheerleading uniform comes running towards the car. He's so lucky, half through freshmen year, right before his Grandma died he got a low grade on a test, and who's his tutor? Mary Alice. They fall madly in love and the circumstances are just perfect, same college, same amount of years, the same everything. In addition, she is just the greatest girl. I think the only real fight they ever had was because he wanted to watch the Grammy awards, Mary Alice wanted to watch the British Academy Television Awards, and they were on at the same time, pretty serious if you ask me.

I'm just glad she is in for the cheerleading scholarship, that way she cannot live with us, the walls are too thin for that. "Morning Love bug" she gives him a Peck and turns around to face me "Tori!" Andre drives off, and she sits straight, opening the front mirror and re-applying her lipstick "I was thinking, my cousin just transferred here from Penn State, so maybe we could all go out to dinner tonight!"

Oh, and did I forget to mention she loves to play cupid? "Baby, I told you not to…" Andre murmurs to her, and they start to argue about me as If I wasn't even here.

"Guys its fine, really, but I can't go today remember? I have a plane to catch" He parks the car in front of the Arts building, and we get out, heading in the same direction "I told you last week, Christmas is at Trina's this year, and she's living in Seattle now"

Both he and Mary Alice stop, holding me back "Seattle, really?" he says, and I move to keep walking, making my way to the next class "are you sure you can handle being that close to... you know who"

I stop one last time and turn around to face them, they look awfully worried "Look, guys, I'm going to visit my Mom and my sister and her annoying little fiancée and that's it. When I tell you two that I'm fine, it's because I am."

"But what about the temptation?" she says, coming closer as Andre pulls down her annoyingly tight mini cheerleader skirt "You are going to be one train ride away from him, aren't you at least a bit curious to see how he's doing after all these years?"

I am, more than curious, but as we said it, three years is a long time and things change. He must have changed too. "That was high school ok! I'm over it, and if it weren't for you two I would even have remembered the fact that he lives in Vancouver so, for the last time, don't worry, I'm fine!"

Mary Alice puts her arm around mine, like she hooked me, and start to walk along "Well I hope you don't get mad when I say this, but I really didn't like Johnny"

"What? You were always so nice to him..."

"Tori, I'm a cheerleader, I can be nice to anyone" we get inside the science building, to get to the only class we share, psychology "but I just hated the whole sorority thing, guys in the Greek System are always so full of themselves"

We get inside class, maybe it was for the best that him and I broke up before things got too serious, for me of course. Him on the other hand kept saying her 'loved' me and how he'd only date a girl that wasn't from the Greek System if she was called Tori Vega...pa rt of me wished that there was another girl with the same name as mine...

"You're right, he was a bit of a bore"

"a bit? The only thing the guy could talk about was his Dad's company and his yachts and private jets and..." She goes on talking but I stop listening, just giving her the occasional nod and smile until the teacher comes. Johnny was bad, yes, but he was a distraction and a pretty damn good one, plus, he had a nice smile. "I liked number thirteen better"

"Number thirteen?"

"The one before Lewis and that guy with a beard"

"Ron? Why did you call him thirteen?"

"Andre and I didn't want to lose count" Did I really date that many guys? Thirteen... Impossible, there was Gabriel, Teddy, Dixon, Nick...the guy with the weird hat...Roy? Shit, I can't even remember their names.

I'm a whore?

I try to focus on my classes, but the two of them managed to get inside my head, and I know I won't properly focus until I remember all of the names of the guys I dated... So I skipped the three classes I had left, and did two extra shifts at the radio station, fifty extra bucks won't hurt, specially when I have to think abut the idiot who's going to going to take charge of it all while I'm away.

The radio station is my trophy, no one listened to it until the last guy in charge graduated, and they put me as the head of it. I started playing good things, actual music and with advertisement that interested the students. Of course, it's a part time job, and I never thought running a college radio station was going to be in my plans. I just know that whoever said it was easy being casted into a show or play once you had 'Hollywood Arts student' on your curriculum, was lying. At least my current job to do with music, and I get to play my own songs.

Now I have to leave, and go to my last distraction before the heart wrecking trip, and it's also the one I've looking forward to the most, my appointment with Anna, she'll figure out a way for me not to lose it...she always does.

"Not only I have to go to freaking Seattle, but also you know what I realized today?" she waits for me to keep talking, and I vibrate on the couch, I have too much energy right now "I dated so many guys, I can't even remember all their names! I referred to one of them as 'the guy with the pelican nose"

"You mean Max?" Max! That was his name... ok now I just have to figure out who 'that Italian actor guy that always asked 'how I was doing' is... "And you dating a lot of guys doesn't make you a whore"

"Dating a lot of guys doesn't, not remembering their names does" I thrown all my hair back and away from my face to give me more space "Why did I date so many guys?! Why didn't you warn me?! I mean, you could say 'hey Tori ya know, this is the twenty fourth guy that falls in love with you this month, you should take a break!'"

"Why do you think they fall in love with you, but you never love them back?"

"Because it's not the real me! They think they love me, but they don't know me!" My hair is starting to fall back on my face, and it's really annoying "I can't be myself around them, they're all so...so..."

"so what?" she crosses her legs, and sits back.

"wrong! They're all so wrong for me." I get up and walk around for a while, sitting back down when I feel like I can think straight again "That's it, I'm one of those women right? That dates a million guys and becomes a frustrated cougar living in Pasadena and working on a local theater just to hook up with the students I cast...oh dear god, I'm am going to be just like my Mom, only worse!"

"Calm down, you're just thinking like that because or nervous about going to Seattle. You're fine..."

"I'm not fine!" I say for the tenth time, tapping my fingers on the edge of the couch "what if I see him, and he's madly in love with someone? Or he's like, married? I can't bare to see him! That's it, I'm not going to Trina's this year"

"Tori, we worked through this, you have been doing fine for three years without Beck; why do you think it would all change if you saw him?"

"I don't know…" I cross my legs and get my purse taking out the little ball she gave me to cope with anger, I usually channelize my feelings towards music, but when I'm not near a piano or I can't write, I just squeeze this little ball. The weird thing is that it actually works, if I don't use it for a long time. "It's just that, I managed to block him out for almost two years. And I don't want to let all this work go to waste"

"You're not, but blocking him isn't the way to do it. You just need to remember him as a good memory" I shift in the seats and look at the clock; I only have five minutes left, damn. If I had more time I would do a double session but I can't, I have to get on the stupid plane to stupid Seattle.

"So instead of thinking about the fact that I was emotionally dead for two months after he left, and that college sucks, and that high school actually was the best time of my miserable life, I should think about the good moments we had together?"

"I wouldn't put it on those words, but I yes, think about the good things" she says, and I keep squeezing the ball "and if anything goes wrong just call me alright?" I nod, and get up "Everything will be ok, don't worry Tori" I give her a hug and head out her office on my way straight to the airport. I might be overthinking all of this. I am going to Seattle after all, it's not even the same city he lives in! And it's Christmas! He won't leave his Grandma alone during the holidays to go to a city he can go any other time of the year, right?

Seattle

"This is where we're having the reception" Trina says, standing on top of a bench and posing, pretending to be holding a bouquet. "Now picture me in the altar with a white sparkly dress"

My mom tells Alec to stand next to Trina so she can take a picture of them six months before the wedding, to do a before/after album time of thing. He's a nice guy, but it still annoys me how Alec always has his skin super tanned, even though he lives in a city where it rains most of the time, and also the fact that he's always wearing a polo tucked inside his khaki pants.

He dresses like a golf player and he doesn't even plays golf. Oh, and the detail Trina never lets me forget, he has enough in his trust fund to pay for mine, my parents and half the LA population's lives and still be able to live in a three store penthouse in Malibu. The only twist, which is not actually twist, is that he has to live in Seattle where his parents live, to be near is family. I think that's a pretty good deal if you ask me. When he started buying her everything she wanted, my Mom was worried that Trina wasn't going to, and I quote, 'chill with her anymore'. Turns out all my Mother had to do was move to Seattle, and they kept going shopping together and all that, they kept 'chilling' just like before.

"It's going to be gorgeous!" My mom exclaims, and Alec helps Trina coming down of the stool, at least he really seems to care about her, and she does too, in her own weird, gross, Trina way. "But I still think you should have the wedding in LA" and there they go again, this is all I've heard from the minute I got off the plane, Mom wants a sunny wedding in the Beverly Hills hotel, and Alec wants it in Seattle, actually his family wants it in Seattle. I honestly see no point in this discussion because he's the one that's going to pay, so he should pick the city. Or even better, they should just stop talking and go indoors, because it's freezing outside and I think my toes are slowly turning into ice cubes.

I hoped you liked this one, please review I'm really exited to see how you guys feel on how Tori's life turned out.

- Kiribati