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Reminder for chapter 5

She stood up, took her gun and left the loft.

'Damn it, Castle! Why should you hurt her like that' he stayed in his bed hands on his face.

After few minutes he got up and saw her jacket lying on the floor. Picked It up and something fell from it, a note.

"Katie, I hope I didn't cause any problems between you and your boyfriend. Don't worry about me I'm fine. Will call you later, Love: your brother John".

He runs his hand in his hair..."Her, brother!"

"What have I done!" he sat back on his bed with the note in his hands.

Chapter 6

Castle was Sad because he acted like a jerk to Beckett and he hurt her without giving her any chance to explain. She was going to tell him about John when she said "we need to talk". But he didn't let her finish that talk. He went all jumping on conclusions and accusing her. But then he started to grin. When the image of Katherine Beckett blushed and covering her eyes once she saw him naked in his bedroom popped to his mind, it was awesome.

He stood up and went after her trying to stop her from going 'Maybe she is waiting for the elevator if I'm lucky' he thought and opened the door.

Kate went out of the loft as fast as she could. Her scare was hurting her she felt like she wasn't able to breath anymore, he was right she keeps running from him. She did stay in relationships with men she didn't love, But that was safe. She wouldn't get hurt if they left or if things didn't go well, because she didn't love them. But Castle, he was different she cared about him. He was ready to take a bullet for her. He told her that he loved her and what did she do! She pretended that she didn't hear or remember anything from that day.

She stopped in the way to the elevator and decided 'screw this '. She turned back to the loft and was about to knock on the door when Castle surprised her and opened the door before she had the chance to knock. He was still in that towel 'so sexy' her mind was going some dangerous places.

"Kate… I...I am sorry... please just let me explain myself. I know I didn't give you any chance to talk, but let me explain why and th…" he didn't finish that sentence because Kate Beckett's lips were covering his.

She put everything in that kiss, all her pain, her hurt and love.

He took the chance and grabbed her to him and never lost contact with her lips. Walking her inside the loft still kissing each other he closed the door behind her with his hand, then lifted her in his arms still kissing her and went to his bedroom.

After few seconds their clothes were on the ground, and they both were lost in their own world.

"That was amazing!" he spoke to her neck and went back to suck on the same spot he was sucking for a few minutes now.

"I will kill you if you left a hickey there Castle!" she was laying under him. Both breathless after the Amazing sex they just had. 4 years they were dancing around each other.

"And it was extraordinary ... not only amazing" she added after moaning when she realized where his hand was now.

"Kate!" his voice was serious.

"Hmmmm" she was so lost in his touch and the way he was using his tongue on her neck. And his hand, oh that hand was making stuff to her under the covers. She didn't spot the seriousness in his voice until he spoke again.

"Look at me, open your eyes" he left her neck and she snapped out of her world when she lost the contact with both his hand and tongue.

"What's wrong?" she can see he is concerned.

"I Love you" he looked into her eyes. She wasn't dying this time she wasn't bleeding in his arms and she can't pretend that she didn't hear him this time too.

She didn't answer him she just closed her eyes. Rick was afraid that he pushed too hard. Maybe she wasn't ready. Or maybe she didn't feel the same way.

He pulled away and tried to get up. But her hand pulled him back down.

"Where you going?" now she was the concerned one.

"I get it Kate, its ok" he kissed her forehead and moved away.

She was in shock. He can't expect her to say it back right away and this was Castle. He always understood her. What is wrong with him now? Why he does not understand her now.

She went to the bathroom after him and found him in the shower, Hands on the wall. his back was to her she enjoyed the view and went behind him. He was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't hear her come in.

She put her arms around his waist and hugged him from behind. He shivered because he didn't expect her to come after him. Castle thought she was half the way to her apartment right now after he cave her a way out.

"What you doing Beckett" it hurt him to talk to her like this but he can't be that guy who she enjoys having sex with and nothing more. Maybe few years ago he would love this but not now. He wanted her in his life for good. He loved her.

Kate pulled back at his serious words and she was so hurt. It's like he was rejecting her. And he didn't even turn around to face her. Just like he wanted her to leave, and leave was what she did.

She stepped out of the bathroom, putting on her clothes very fast. She took her gun and her jacket and stepped out of his bedroom.

"Beckett, wait ... I'm sorry". Castle stepped out of the bathroom all wet and full of regret.

She didn't stop. She put everything in front of him and he knew she can't say these three words back to him right now why he acted like that. Did he just lose interest in her because he finally got what he waited for all these years with her? Why would she stop, so he can play all cool and make her feel pathetic for going after him and be rejected? No, that's not What Kate Beckett does.

She went out of his loft and grabbed some tequila on her way home. This was going to be a long night for her.

That night she cried and cried all alone at her apartment. After drinking more than she ever did, Kate finally went to bed. Next morning she had a serious headache but decided to go to work anyway 'Anything to take my mind of Castle' she thought.

After a week Kate decided maybe this is it with her and Castle. Maybe they were not meant to be.

'I was fine without you before and i will still be now' she kept telling her self that and decided that since he didn't call or show up at the precinct then he is sending her a message and she gets it.

Two month had past, and no sign of Castle. Although Gate's looked happy but you can see that she kind of missed those crazy theories of Castle as well. The boys were in touch with him, but they knew something was up between Beckett and Castle so they didn't bother to tell her in case she got mad and make them pay for it by doing more paper work. Although Kate knew they were still in touch with Castle but she didn't give them any sign for her knowledge. Lanie on the other side tried to get Kate to tell her what was wrong a couple times. But Kate didn't give her any chance to get things out of her.

It was Sunday. They rapped up the case they were working on for a week and the boys left the precinct to get some drinks but Kate stayed. She was very nervous. It has been 2 days since she was trying to make her mind to call Castle or go and see him. Maybe she should have waited for him to call her. Maybe he was hurt when she didn't tell him she loves him back and that's why he pulled away. This scenario was playing in her mind for more than 30 days now and she tried to put all the facts together to figure why he acted like a jerk after that amazing sex they had. And if he only wanted the sex why did he tell her that he loved her after they had sex.

'That doesn't make sense' she told herself. Maybe they went again to that thing they do very well 'making conclusions' she stood up and decided to go and see him and she felt dizzy. This was happening for few days now every time she stands up she feels dizzy.

She went to Castle's loft and knocked on the door and was surprised to see Martha opening the door.

"Hello Kate! Long time since you visited us. How are you doing" she paused to figure the look on Kate's face.

"Oh please come in" she continued and stepped away to let Kate in.

"Thank you Martha I'm fine. How are you and how is the acting school?" she went inside, her eyes were on Castle's study.

"He is writing the new book" Martha said with a smile when she saw Kate looking for Castle.

"The school is keeping me busy." She paused and then "Go on, I will be upstairs if you need me" Martha gave her a nod and went upstairs leaving Kate alone in the loft.

Apparently Castle had his headphones on his ears. Because he seems to not hear that Kate Beckett is in the house!

"Hey Castle" Kate went to his study. But she got no response. Castle's back was to the door and he was typing. She went very slowly and took her time to look at him, she missed him so much.

"Castle!" she removed one of his headphones and yelled in his ear making him jump in his place.

"Kate...ammm... Beckett" he stood up.

"You look like you don't want to see me" she was trying to start a conversation and this was what came to her mind at the moment.

"What ...No Of course not... I mean I wanted to call you but I... didn't... you look great!" he was so surprised and he didn't know what he was saying.

"Can we talk for a minute" she said and walked away to sit on the couch.

"Sure... what's up" he tried to play cool.

He didn't tell her that he found that note in her packet and that he knows John is her brother. He tried to tell her the other night 2 months ago but he couldn't because she didn't give him a chance to talk she was all over him and he lost his brain in the process.

Castle didn't call her all this time because he knew Beckett, and he knew she needs time to think about all that happened. The sleeping together the 'I love you'. It was too much for her and he gave her time to think about that.

But Kate didn't think of it this way. She thought he just wanted her in his bed and that was it and he doesn't want her anymore.

"Castle.. I don't know how to tell you this" she was looking to the floor.

Castle was sure now about what the boys told him a week ago. About Kate meeting a guy and getting calls from someone and she was so secretive about it, she didn't take the calls when they were around.

Castle kept asking about her every few days after she left his loft, Of course without her knowing that, and the boys kept him updated.

Now he was afraid that this day will come and she will tell him the very thing that he didn't want to hear from her, hearing the boys saying it was painful but hearing it from her was too much. So he did what he could do the best at the moment. Went back to that self centered jerk he used to be 4 years ago.

"Can you wait a minute?" he smiled and looked to his phone." I have to take this call" he went to his bedroom.

"Hey babe, are you coming tonight?"

Kate stood up and tears started to ran on her cheeks. 'He is seeing someone else. This soon!' and here she was about to tell him something important she run out of his study and closed the loft door behind her.

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