First I am sorry for not updating soon I was busy with exams... and I want to alert you that I added few lines to chapter 6 only because some reviews said that it wasn't clear and why was the two month jump so I tried to make it clear but yet not to ruin the moment of surprise, Just be patient.

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No, characters are not mine.

Reminder for Chapter 7

Castle pretended to have a date coming over because he didn't want to hear Beckett telling him she is seeing some one else, that's what he thought she was going to say to him.

Beckett who came to tell him something totally different was shocked by what she heard and took off and being so confused she had an accident and was in the hospital now.

Castle went to the hospital to see her but she ordered to not let him into her room and he went out and walked alone in the cold streets thinking about everything and headed to the old haunt later.

Chapter 8

After Kate came out of the surgery she saw Ryan who told her that Lanie and Esposito were on their way to the hospital.

"Don't tell Castle" Kate told Ryan when the nurse left the room.

"But he is on his way here!" Ryan told her all about the call and how Castle was worried.

"Fine, but don't let him in here."

"I don't wanna see him now" she added and Ryan nodded and left her to rest.

Few minutes later she heard Ryan telling Castle that she doesn't want to see him now. It broke her heart but the last thing she wanted now was a pity visit from Richard Castle the play boy. Kate closed her eyes and went to sleep.

Meanwhile Castle arrived to the old haunt looking like hell. Went to his office and the only think he knew will help him now was that bottle of whisky. After that's what he was doing for past few months , whenever he was thinking about Kate he either calls the boys and ask about her , or get his new friend 'Alcohol' and write about her .

He Kept thinking about what she was going to tell him. Because if she was this mad that she didn't pay attention to a traffic light then what he thought she was about to tell him was not making sense.

If she was about to tell him she is seeing someone then why she left so angry. She shouldn't care if he is seeing someone as well.

"What did you want to tell me Kate?" he took another sip of the whisky straight from the bottle.

After 1 hour Castle was drunk, not too drunk but drunk enough to not drive. He went up stairs and told the boys to close the bar themselves tonight and went out.

He hired a cap and this time he made sure to give the driver the correct address. After 10 minutes he arrived at his loft and went straight to his study to avoid to meeting his mom and daughter.

There was no way he could take Kate out of his mind not even the Alcohol worked this time. He blamed himself for the accident.

'I should have listened to her even if what she was going to say could have hurt me, I should have listened to her.' Walking back and forth in his study, hands in his hair.

'Damn you Castle, she is in the hospital because of you' he throw the glass of wine he was drinking on the door and it crashed on the floor and his mother and daughter run into his study.

"Dad what's going on?" Martha didn't say anything just waited for his answer.

Castle had a Deja vu for the summer when Kate told him they were done and to get out of her place after trying to make her back off of her mother's case to not get killed. He was so angry that night he throw his glass to the cover of his next book and broke it and just then Martha stepped in very worried and he assured her 'everything is fine'. What will he say now to his daughter, that he was the reason to put Beckett in the hospital this time? That he screwed big time and she doesn't want to see him anymore.

"I'm sorry sweetie , just a little bit mad at myself" he went to clean the mess he just made and Alexis helped him without asking any farther questions, because Lanie told her about Kate's accident and she kind of figured why her dad was so mad at himself. She knew before the accident that Beckett was in their house and her dad must had said or done something.

"I will clean this up dad, it's ok" she took the glass pieces from his hand and went to the kitchen to get something to clean that mess.

"Castle Alexis just told me about Kate, are you Okay son!" Martha knew as well it has to be something he said or did that caused this and it has to be something very serious to make Kate Beckett so dozed off to have a car accident.

"It's entirely my fault, I'm so stupid" he went to sit on his chair.

"She doesn't want to see me anymore"

"you don't know that, maybe she is just confused right now and she needs to rest, that's why she wants to be alone" Martha went to stand beside him and put her hand on his arm, she never seen her son so miserable for anyone, he went through two unsuccessful marriages and she never saw him this sad and broken.

"She let Ryan in, and I know that Lanie and Espo are there too now, she doesn't want to see me because I am a fool and I keep hurting her"

Alexis came back and cleaned the floor; she gave her dad a kiss and went upstairs with no comment on what just happened minutes earlier.

Castle appreciated what Alexis did and knew that his daughter was growing up and she was getting wiser every year. He knew she didn't want to push him and cause him more pain by asking questions, secretly he washed his mother would have the same sense and stop interrogating him but that will never happen.

"Mother I am fine, go sleep I want to be alone" he gave her a kiss on her cheek and she left.

Kate woke up in the hospital to find her friends around her and someone was holding her hand, it was her father and she saw John standing behind him. Everyone she loved was there except for Castle.

'He didn't even bother to come' she thought while trying to smile to the people in front of her. And then it hit her she asked Ryan to not let him in and that's why he wasn't there.

"How are you feeling Katie?" Jim asked trying not to show how much scared he was to lose her for the second time.

"I'm fine dad; don't worry" with a smile she greeted them all.

No one wanted to make her uncomfortable so no one asked about what happened. Jim and john got up

"We have to leave now Katie. Its already past visiting hours , Dr. Parish here suggested to stay with you tonight and I will be here first thing in the morning" Jim told her and gave her a kiss and so did John and they left.

Ryan and Esposito told her to get well soon and they need her at the precinct and made some jokes to make her laugh and they left as well after Espo gave Laine a kiss which surprised both Ryan and Beckett that they were back together and no one knew about that. That earned Lanie a dead look from Beckett.

"What was that all about Lanie!" Lanie narrowed her eyes on Kate and sat next to her on the bed.

"Don't give me that dead look girl. You've been hiding secrets from me too about you and writer boy, besides I hardly saw you the last couple months. You only spoke to me when it was case related, what was I supposed to do? Cuff you to some table and make you talk to me something other than work and dead people?"

"Okay I get your point" with a long sigh Kate closed her eyes and it all came back to her mind all the fights with Castle and what happened before the accident.

"I'm not gonna ask you what happened now, but tomorrow we will talk and I don't care if I have to cuff you or give you some kind of medicine to tell me the truth, but I will get all the information I want . You understand me girl?" Kate smiled and shook her head; Lanie does have her ways to get what she wants.

"It seems I don't really have any other choice" Kate stated.

Just then the doctor came in to check on Kate and Lanie stood up to make space for the doctor. But he had that sad face when doctors usually put before telling someone that their father or mother or friend died. Kate didn't notice that but Lanie did.

"Ms. Kate, I'm afraid I have some bad news" the doctor looked serious and Kate's eyes fill with tears.

"It's Miss Kate" Lanie corrected looking awkwardly to the doc for assuming that Kate was married and then she turned to look at her friend "sweetie you okay?" Lanie was confused, why was Beckett about to cry when the doctor didn't even say what the bad news was. And knowing Kate all these years she doesn't let her emotions out unless it's something so serious.

"we couldn't do anything to save your baby, the broken rib you had was really close to the fetus, I am so sorry" Kate hold her hand to her mouth and tears were running on her cheeks , her other hand fisted on the covers.

Lanie was silent and shocked and didn't know what to do, comfort her friend for this horrible news or get angry at her for keeping this secret because it is obvious that Kate knew about this for sometime now.

"How old was the baby?" Kate asked trying to control her voice.

"2 months" said the doctor "this happens, you're still young and you can have children in the future don't be so hard on yourself" he added and excused himself to give the two women sometime to get through this.

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