Hell of a final don't you think! I can't stop watching it over and over again. That last scene was WOW I must've watched it nearly 100times until now.

But I am happy that they gave us this strong final to keep us busy until September.

I got no reviews from you guys for the last chapter "did you lost interest in the story?"

Disclaimer: characters belong to the brilliant Andrew Marlowe

Reminder of chapter 8

"we couldn't do anything to save your baby, the broken rib you had was really close to the fetus, I am so sorry" Kate hold her hand to her mouth and tears were running on her cheeks , her other hand fisted on the covers.

Lanie was silent and shocked and didn't know what to do, comfort her friend for this horrible news or get angry at her for keeping this secret because it is obvious that Kate knew about this for sometime now.

"How old was the baby?" Kate asked trying to control her voice.

"2 months" said the doctor "this happens, you're still young and you can have children in the future don't be so hard on yourself" he added and excused himself to give the two women sometime to get through this.

Chapter 9

After the doc left Kate still had her hand on her mouth trying to swallow her cries. Lanie still in shock just looking at Kate and she decided there is plenty of time to be angry at her friend later but right now she should be there for her, so she did what she should have done once the doc said that bad news, she hugged her friend and assured her that everything will be ok.

"Shush ... Its ok sweetie. Its ok, everything will be ok"

After half an hour Beckett was still crying in silence and Lanie couldn't take it anymore to see her strong friend so vulnerable and in pain, she called for the nurse and told her to give Kate something to help her sleep and get some rest and that's what happened and after Kate going to sleep Lanie started to think what she is suppose to do now. 'Does Castle know about this? Should I tell him?'

This was all too much and she looked back at Kate who was asleep now and thought 'this woman is cursed, she didn't see any happiness in her life that lasts for long' sighing loudly Lanie closed her eyes and tried to get some sleep herself.

"No ... no it's my baby its mine and Castle's don't take him away... Castle stop him please …please stop him" Lanie woke up to find Kate dreaming and crying, Tears running on her cheeks and her hands in fists pulling the covers beside her.

"Kate sweetie wake up it's just a dream" Lanie tried to wake her up when Kate started to talk again.

"Was it not enough that u took my mother and u shot me ... please… please leave this baby alive please" she was crying with every word and Lanie knew she was dreaming about her sniper.

"Kate wake up, Wake up Kate its just a dream" and with that Kate opened her eyes wide and her hand went to her bullet scar breathing hardly she looked at Lanie and she saw a terrified look on her face.

"Just breathe sweetie. Here, drink some water" Lanie assured her and handed Kate a glass of water.

After few minutes Kate's breathing steadied and she tried to sit up and Lanie helped her. It was 3am and none of the two women could go back to sleep after that.

"I headed there to tell him that I was pregnant" all of a sudden Kate started to talk and Lanie just stared at her friend.

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you before but I just found out two weeks ago and even then I wasn't so sure. I went to a doctor when I was late and started to throw up everything I put in my mouth." Beckett never looked at Lanie her eyes were shut her head on the pillow facing the ceiling.

"What happen Kate? What happened between you two that ended you being here right now" Lanie asked.

"I don't know Lanie, I honestly don't know how we got here!" with a long sigh she added.

"We had an amazing night together and he said he loves me. I didn't know what to do I just froze and he got upset and left the bed. Although he didn't show me how much upset he was but I felt him and I went after him in the shower and he didn't even look at me so I left" remembering all what happened 2 months ago was painful but she had to tell someone, she had to see if there is something she missed along the way.

"I left and didn't see him since then, I know you guys met him at the old haunt couple times and I know the boys were still in touch with him, but I didn't know what or who was wrong , me or him I…" Lanie cut her off before she had the chance to continue.

"That man loves you so much that he stayed for 4 years waiting for you to see him and he didn't ask for anything in return Kate. And you love him too, don't look at me like that you and me both know you are crazy about him as much as he is about you."

"But .." Kate tried to talk but Lanie stopped her again.

"But what Kate, he was there when you got shot, he was there when you got blow up in your own apartment, hell he was with you in all the weird dead cases you two walk into, he was always there for you."

"Maybe he decided to give you sometime to think. like you did the last time. Maybe that's why he didn't call you, but he kept asking us about you every few days"

Lanie gave her friend a sad smile because she didn't know how to take that pain from her friend, losing a baby is not easy and lose your love at the same time made it all worse.

"So what happened when you went to see him yesterday?" Lanie kept going and not giving Beckett a chance to run.

"I was about to tell him when he excused to answer his phone, he went to his room and the call was from a woman. He told her 'hey babe, you coming tonight?"

"What was I supposed to do? Stick around act cool when I was just about to tell him that I'm pregnant?"

Lanie got all serious look on her face.

"So I decided to leave before he comes back and find me all cheesy and crying. I drove like crazy and must have been so distracted I didn't pay attention to the traffic light, and that's the last thing I remember"

"So you didn't tell him you love him, you didn't tell him you remember his I LOVE YOU when you got shot?"

"no I didn't ..I needed to be sure"

"Kate how long until you will be sure or ready? Maybe he was tired of waiting. Did you ever thing of that? So what now you will tell him right? About the baby"

"NO ... no its done there is no baby now and there is no need to tell him, and don't you dare to tell him Lanie or our friendship will be over" Kate was serious.

"As you like Beckett but someday you will have to face this and it will be much harder then" she sighed then added.

"What about your dad and John? Will you tell them?"

"No one but you should know about this Lanie. I already told the doc to keep it secret when I found out that I'm pregnant, I told him to keep it between us until I figure what I want to do. I suppose you saw me on the phone the last week being very secretive, this is why"

"Ohhh, but we thought you had a new …"

"New what, Lanie?"

"nothing just we thought you had a boyfriend and you didn't want to tell us about him, but I cant promise you to keep this secret Kate"

"No don't you do this to me Lanie, this has to stay between us, please" Kate tried to stand up but she fail and the pain was so clear on her face.

"Okay… okay don't move, I will try just stay in bed. I don't know where you will go with this but this is not the right thing Kate, anyway get back to sleep now you need to rest we can talk about this tomorrow" Lanie went near her friend and helped her lay down and sighed before she went back to where she was sitting on the couch.

While all this happened between Lanie and Kate, Castle was still awake in his bed thinking about Kate and thinking all over about what happened and what was she going to tell him.

He thought about what the boys told him, that Beckett had a boyfriend who she was talking to the past week very secretively. But it all didn't make any sense when she left after hearing him yesterday, 'what if she wasn't here to tell me that? What was she about to tell me? She looked very serious' with that he shut his eyes close but after 15 min he was still awake he couldn't sleep. It was 12am so he decided to call Ryan and ask him how Kate was doing.

"Ryan".

"Hey Ryan I'm sorry to call you this late but I wanted to ask about Beckett. Is she still in the hospital?"

"No problem man. Beckett was feeling better when we left, Lanie stayed with her at the hospital" Ryan could hear the concern in Castle's voice.

"It's not your fault Castle, things happen for a reason. She just needs sometime to gather her thoughts, I don't know what happened between you two but you will get through this, you always do" trying to reassure him as much as possible because they all knew how much Castle loves Beckett.

"Yeah, Thank you Ryan, just keep me updated. Good night" he hung up the phone and shut his eyes trying to sleep.

"LANIE …LANIE HELP ME ... I ...I can't breathe "

"OMG Kate... what happened ... OMG don't move let me go get help" Lanie woke up the second time that night on Beckett's screams but this time it wasn't because she was seeing a dream. Kate was screaming of pain and hardly breathing with her hands covered in her own blood, Lanie couldn't tell where she was bleeding from. She ran out of the room to find the doctor.

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