I'm off ill today, and i have internet connection for once! So before i go off to watch Cry play Cry of Fear, and then play on Amnesia, because there's a new one coming out (Seriously, that trailer is awesome!) I though i would upload this chapter. Another shocker, is that i'm almost halfway done with almost half of all halfs of the next chapter... yeeeaaah...

And now i really want a cover for this story because that feature just looks awesome.
In other news, sorry if this chapter makes it sad... if it doesn't DON'T YOU HAVE A HEART!

Sorry, kinda high on painkillers and other medicines right now... I'll leave you to enjoy (?) the chapter

Chapter 8 - Reasons

The taller boy walked back into the room holding a bloodies razor, "Blaine... what's this?"

Blaine stood stock still in shock. He was supposed to hide that... he thought that he had. 'You're an idiot, Blaine. You can't do anything right can you? You'll always be a failure in everyone's eyes. Everything's pointing towards it. Just listen Blaine. Take a razor and end it.'

He didn't realise that there were tears streaming down his face from just hearing that voice in his head. He took a gasping breath, and then completely broke down into full blown sobs.

He felt Kurt wrap his arms around him. He felt the taller boy pull him into his arms. He heard him whispering words of comfort, but nothing was really getting through to him. Only the voice inside his head.

'Look at you Blaine. You're nothing but a baby relying on everyone else to do something for you. Do you really think that Kurt loves you? All you ever do is drag him down, disappoint or upset him and get in the way of his dreams.'

Blaine shook his head vigorously, trying to get rid of the voice in his head. He tried to focus on Kurt's whispered words of comfort. He tried to use them to calm himself down, so he could explain everything to him, and maybe then he could help him get rid of the stupid voice that was constantly berating him and throwing insults at him.

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Kurt was shocked when Blaine broke down into sobs. 'How long has he been hurting like this,' he thought, 'how long have I just sat by and not helped him?'

He pulled Blaine close to him, "I love you, Blaine. I love you. Tell me what's wrong please. I can try and help. I love you..." It carried on like this for a long time.

Kurt was pulled out of the cycle when Blaine started to violently shake his head. Kurt gently put his hands on the side of Blaine's head and added a small amount of force to stop the boy shaking his head. He didn't want the concussion he had to get worse than it was.

"Calm down Blaine. It's just me. It's Kurt." He whispered reassuringly.

He heard a sniffle from the other boy, and his heart broke when he lifted his head. The boys eyes were puffy and red.

"I- I'm sorry, Kurt."

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"I- I didn't mean for this to happen. I- It was only supposed to be a one-time thing. I promise."

He looked to Kurt to see if he was following.

"W-What was a "one-time thing" Blaine?"

Blaine stood up and took off his shirt. He kept his eyes on the floor, not daring to look up at Kurt. He heard a pained gasp come from the boy, and that was what dragged his eyes up to look at him.

There was shock in Kurt's eyes. Shock, and pain. Pain that Blaine had caused.

"W-Why?" The taller boy asked.

"It... It was after our argument after... after the Glee club found out about the Karofsky thing. I... I felt like I had ruined everything. Especially after you stopped trying to ring me. I know it was probably to be expected, because I was ignoring you. But... But it felt like you had just gave up on me and... and I thought that I had ruined the most important and most special thing that I have ever had in my life. I... I did it after the argument, and it- I just felt the need to do it all the time. It was like I couldn't even control it anymore. Then- then I started having nightmares, and it was you telling me to just kill myself. That you didn't really care, and you would like it so much better if I just wasn't here to drag you down. I- I started to believe it and I didn't know what to do. I- I wanted to answer all the calls. I wanted you to just be here to hold me, but you weren't, and I thought that you hated me. I thought that you only saw me as a disappointment."

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Kurt stared at Blaine for a few minutes after the confession. He looked at the tears falling down the other boys face and felt his heart break into millions of tiny pieces.

"You're not a disappointment to me Blaine. Don't you ever think that. You're the most amazing thing that's ever happened to me. If you weren't here for me with the Karofsky incident last year, I probably wouldn't be here right now." He pulled Blaine into his arms before he continued, running his hand through Blaine's hair. "I felt like there was nothing that could be done... But then, I went to Dalton, and met a beautiful boy on a staircase that I can't imagine my life without right now. Thanks to him, I had the courage to call him out. It may not have been the best thing at first, but he was there when I transferred schools. He was the one that comforted me when I felt so lost and alone. Now, I'm going to do the same thing for him, because I will always be there to love him, and hold him when he needs me."

He felt Blaine's body relax slightly against him.

"D... Do you really think that?" He heard Blaine whisper against where his head was resting on his chest.

"I do. Blaine, I want you to call me, text me, even come to my house if you ever need me. It could be in the afternoon, the morning or the middle of the night, and I will come straight over to be with you. You're not a disappointment Blaine, and I couldn't live my life with you gone. Don't you dare ever leave me."

He tightened his hold around the smaller boy, trying to show him the amount of love he had for him by just holding him.

"I'm sorry..." Blaine whispered nuzzling his head into Kurt.

"There's nothing to be sorry for." He replied going back to running his hands through Blaine's hair.

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They stayed in each other's embraces for a long time. Until Kurt pulled the covers back and covered them both with it to keep them warm. Slowly, they both fell asleep.

KLAINEBOWS ALL AROUND! Yes Klaine are better... for now anyway
There's a lot still to go in this story so yeeaahh...
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