My Own Alternate what if I not specifically me but someone who could be me came entered Mass effect in some way or form and knowing I shouldn't be here.

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Corporal Ryan Sheppard

Citadel hospital

Ryan felt like death, or in another term. He felt like he was wakening from the worst hangover in his entire life to date. Did he really just get shot, and by no other then Commander Shepard.

"Sheppard, can you hear me" Ashley asked seeing Ryan's eyes open.

"Your voice, Ash" Ryan mumbled, noticing it was her voice that plagued his dreams and memories.

Ashley looked a bit confused "What, what you mean"

"Your voice, lead me back"

"Back, from what you never left"

"My memories"

Ashley activated the rooms comm. "Jackson, Sheppard's waking, get down here"

Ryan looked around, taking notice that he was no longer the Normandy. "Where are we?" he asked

"You got hit pretty hard; we had to take you to the citadel for surgery" she paused looking down "I'm sorry Sheppard"

"For what ash"

"This….this is my whole fault" she sobbed quietly.

Ashley is blaming herself for him, and Ryan knew he couldn't let her do this to herself.

"Listen to me marine" Ryan said bringing his military tone, knowing that would get her full most attention. "I brought this on myself, and I do it again in a heartbeat"

"Why?" she asked

"Because the commanders an ass, He has no right to act the way he has been. No matter what personal reason he has against your family"

That thought got to his head, the commander has a background that was never possible in the game. Before Ryan could think anymore about this thought, Jackson entered the room and Ashley quickly sat up.

"The invincible Sheppard lives to fight another day" Jackson teased with his arms open. Ryan believed he was hinting to what happened in that mine fields, the night before everything changed for them all.

"Hay Jackson, screw you" Ryan used his own so called thing against him.

"Oh man come on, I don't deserve that. Besides that's my line" Jackson said laughing, while taking a seat next to where Ashley was now standing.

"You two really need better lines" Ashley shook her head at the two.

"Maybe you can give us some pointers Ash" That got Ryan a good punch on the shoulder from her. "Ouch, you do know I'm in pain ash"

"You're on drugs, don't lie to me"

"I thought I be the last survivor of Bravo Company for a while there Sheppard" Jackson got back on the conversation.

Ryan wondered whether he was talking about how everyone is now passed away. A little confused at what Jackson just said. "What are you talking about, what do you mean last survivor"

"Didn't you read the report on flaming boulder Sheppard, I thought you did"

Now Ryan was even more confused, he guessed now was the time to know what happened? Before he could say anything, Ashley handed Ryan her datapad with a report on the operation.

Looking over the file he was a little shocked, the entire company was MIA not just Jackson and himself. Not only that nearly the entire division was wiped out in a surprise attack. The war ended in a peace settlement not long after. Yet Bravo company was still listed MIA. Never to be found, While the rest of the division was accounted for. All except for three survivors found a month later.

Could they have also been brought here, and if so how Jackson and Ryan entered through the beacon. The only other beacon that he knew of is currently in Sarens hands. The only one in the company Ryan got a chance to even know was Sergeant Hamilton. The man who saved had saved life before. Ryan knew he could sure use his help now.

"I'm sorry Sheppard; I know what it's like to lose your entire unit." Ashley mentioned placing her hand on his shoulder in an attempted to reassure him, but she doesn't understand. They could all still be alive trapped here somewhere.

"I'll leave you two" Jackson said walking off.

"Jackson, why are you leaving" Ashley called out.

"You know why chief, I told you. You can't hide it from me, besides I'm starving now" he left the room and shut the door.

Ashley and Ryan were now in an awkward silence for a minute, and then Ryan decided to speak up.

"What was he talking about ash?"

Ashley sat back down as she spoke up "Seeing you lifeless on the ground, I…I don't know what I was feeling"

Ryan stopped right then and there. He knew she was starting to feel something, but he has been trying to ignore it. Ryan held out his hands stop her thoughts.

"Ash I don't know everything, but I do know I would be lying if I said I didn't care for you"

"Guess you caught my guard down grunt" she laughed

"I don't know if marines and army grunts would make good couples" he shot back.

"Couples, you make it sound like were together or something"

"Hay, I didn't get shot for nothing"

Ashley's datapad that was still in Ryan's hands starting beeping. She grabbed it out of his hands to look at it.

"The commander is on his way to pick us up, looks like he's finished with feros, and has another mission for us Sheppard"

Ryan was now wondering what might have happened at feros, and if they indeed had another mission, it would more than likely be virmire. Ryan knew he couldn't screw up there. Maybe with everything already changed things will turn out differently.

"Great, just do me a favor, if we go somewhere with this ash"

"What is it Sheppard?"

"Please, just call me Ryan"

Lieutenant Commander Shepard

Normandy

Citadel docks

Before Shepard meet up with the returning guest at the airlock he decided to pay the so called mercenary a visit. Doctor Chakwas took a blood sample from him, which revealed something interesting. Luckily for Shepard the merc was currently sitting alone in the mess. The merc took notice of Shepard.

"If you're looking for me to apologies you won't get it" Raider said, leaning back in his chair.

The commander just stood above him. "You know I was curious as to why you lashed out against me in the first place. I thought maybe you hated murderers, or maybe I triggered a memory for you, but no. I found out something very interesting about you Raider, or whatever your real name is,"

Raider just smirked, as if he didn't know what the commander was getting at. "Is that so, and what did you find out?"

"Not only did you have the same radiation like signal that the good Corporal and his friend have, but you seem to be related to some people here," The commander paused, now wanting a straight answer. "So cut the bullshit, I know you're not from here like them, and there's something…strange about you, so just spit it out"

"You think you have everything figured out, but you don't commander. One: yes I am not from here, but I have been here for quite some time and two: If you hurt the person in which you're speaking of….. I will kill you, so long as we stay in that agreement just know I have your back in this mission"

The commander realized he wasn't getting anymore information from this man. He could just throw him in the brig again, but that could just create more problems. So, the commander decided to play along, for now. "Fine, just remember who's in charge" With that he left the Mercenary in peace.

Shepard had been waiting outside the airlock for almost half an hour now. He didn't want to let those scum bags back on his ship, but he had no choice in the matter. After his conversation with the mysterious merc he figured his day couldn't get any worse. However, Feroes was gone, and the corporal had lied. He probably tried to cover his own ass. Ever since first being wrong about therum, although his Intel was once again good on Noveria. The airlock finally opened; as the trio entered Shepard grabbed the corporal, forcing him against the bulkhead.

"Corporal, I've had it to here with your false Intel" Shepard screamed in his face.

"What are you talking about, what happened?"

"The colony was gone before we could get there"

"A lot of things are changing Shepard, but many things remain the same. You need me"

Shepard felt the end of a gun barrel on the side of his head. Looking around he could see chief Williams pointing her side arm directly at his head.

"Chief, what the hell are you doing. Your way out of line" he yelped towards her, but she kept her weapon pointing at him.

"I'm well within my line Sir" she said as she continued to press the weapon at him. "Now let him go commander"

"I'll see you court marshaled for this Williams"

"Sir, I'm currently following orders. And I won't fail again because of you" Ashley said determined.

"I don't remember you being under orders to pull a weapon on me Chief."

"NO, but I am under orders to protect Ryan. And that includes protecting him against you"

"So I See you're on first name bases with this grunt." Shepard said with a smirk. The commander thought of Raider, and because of what he found out this was to be expected at some time. He then turned back towards the corporal. "Give me one reason; your Intel is still good"

He could tell the chief didn't like the sound of him not stepping back; still she waited just like Shepard waited for the corporal's answer.

"The next mission its virmire isn't it?" he asked and Shepard simply nodded "Virmire is sarens base of operations, you're going to need us all of us"

Shepard hasn't told any of them about virmire yet. So he figured the corporal might still be useful for now. Satisfied with his answer he finally let the corporal go. The corporal walked off as the chief finally holstered her weapon and followed him through the CIC. He was going to make damn sure she wouldn't get away with what the stunt she had just pulled on him.

Shepard started to walk off, but before he could someone grabbed him back into the airlock, forcing him against the bulkhead just like he did with the corporal.

"You listen to me you SOB. And you listen good" a threatening voice whispered in his ear. It almost felt similar to what the Mercenary did after what happened to the corporal. Shepard was face first against the bulkhead, so he couldn't see the man. However he recognized that Army Privates voice anywhere. "If you lay another hand on Sheppard, or do anything against the chief. I will Kill you"

It was funny how he was getting so many threats in one day, but the commander was use to them his whole life."Kill an officer army grunt"

"I don't care about you being some officer, besides in the old days soldiers, let's just say got rid of CO's that went fubar"

"Is that a threat soldier?"

"No commander, it's a promise"

The private then let go, not even looking at the commander he continued to walk through the CUC of the ship like nothing happened. Shepard was now more determine to get rid of them all no matter how many were against him.