I must be crazy because I'm starting a new story when I'm already having trouble keeping up with the ones I have! I had planned on finishing this one before I posted it but it's not happening and I couldn't wait to post it.

This was started before 3x 10. I don't own Rookie Blue or Ben Bass.

"Mommy don't cry." The sound of little Jordan Swarek's voice made Andy jump, she hadn't even heard him entered the room. It only felt like a couple of minutes ago that she put him down for his nap but looking across the room at the clock she saw it was over an hour ago. He climbed onto his Mom's knee brushing away her tears. Her heart broke when his hand touched her face, no child should have to see their mother like this but sadly it wasn't the first time. She loved all her children equally but Jordan held a special place in her heart. He seemed wise past his years and always knew when someone was upset.

At 2 and half he was the spitting image of his father right down to his little dimples. Despite his looks he very different from his father, he was very quiet and always studied a situation before acting. Andy couldn't help but wonder if this was the result of his family, it couldn't be easy for him to keep up with his 3 older siblings. All 3 had a mixture of their parents looks, and their personalities. Oliver often joked how it the Swarek's were like a hurricane.

Gently rocking her son she ran her fingers through his hair. She should be making her son feel safe and secure yet here he was doing it for her. Jordan didn't think before putting others before himself and was happiest when the people around him were happy.

"I miss Daddy" he looked up his mother with his deep brown eyes.

Andy kissed her sons forehead. "I have good news then baby; he is going to be home for dinner tonight." She made a mental note to remind Sam of his promise when she arrived at the station for her shift. Since having children Sam had given up his dream of under cover work instead becoming a detective. Boyd hadn't been willing to give up on Sam that easily instead working out a deal so he could still do work some work for Guns and Gangs. Despite the fact that he was still based at 15th and she was cop herself Andy didn't really have a clean idea what he did. He was often going out for secret meetings with undercover agents but promise Andy that he was in no more danger then if he was working on the streets. "Mommy has to get ready for work. Do you want to help her?"

Jordan nodded his head getting up and taking her hand. They went upstairs into the bathroom where Andy picked him up and sat him on the vanity. Splashing some cold water on her face, she tried to hide the fact that she been crying. While her face dried she pulled her hair into a tight braid. Looking at her reflection in the mirror she smiled when she saw a face the reminded her of her younger self, back before kids when she just a rookie trying to find her way. It was funny how she still felt like that now but for totally different reason.

"Is Izzy coming?" questioned Jordan breaking her train of thought.

"Yes she is and she told me she is bring a surprise for a certain someone" she touched the end of his nose. Andy and Sam tired to work opposite shifts so one of them was always for the kids but there was normally a couple of hours that both where at work. Both Andy's parents normally looked after the kids one day each a week and Izzy Shaw covered the rest. Izzy was studying full time and living in her own apartment so was happy to get any work she could.

Now that her face was dry Andy put a little bit of make up on. She always wore at least basic makeup when she left the house, it may her feel a little bit more prepared to take on the world.

Jordan jumped off the vanity when he heard a knock on the door. Running downstairs he waited for his Mom to come open the door. As soon as he could get through the door he jumped into Izzy's arm. "Hey little man!" said Izzy. She was rewarded with a huge smile as she jingled him and her bags somehow managing to get everything inside in on go. Setting him down on the couch she turned to Andy. "Hi Andy how are you today?"

"Good" she replied praying that Izzy hadn't noticed her red eyes. They had became close since Izzy had been spending so much time at the house, almost like sisters, but Andy wasn't ready to talk about this. "I better get going I have a couple of things to do before my shift. The kids will be home after school and Sam should be home at 5" she sighed looking at her son on the couch.

Izzy knew straight away what that sigh meant. It didn't matter how much Andy tired to hide it, it was obvious what was going on in the household. Even though it was years ago she still remembered going through it with her own parents. The signs were all there. Being the daughter of a cop she understood how these things work. No body wanted to admit there was a problem until it was at breaking point. "Don't worry Andy I'm prepared. I have enough study to keep me going until you or Sam get home. Now go to work, everything here will be fine" she smiled at Andy.

"Mommy" whispered Jordan from the couch. Andy walked over to the couch sitting down next to him. "Don't be sad ok? And be care of the bad guys" he kissed her forehead just as she had done to him before.

Andy felt her heart ache in her chest. Sometimes it was hard to believe that this was her baby and that he was only 2 years old. "Mom is always careful, you don't have to worry about me. Be good for Izzy and Daddy will be home before you know it." She gave her son a final kiss good bye before leaving the house.