I awoke in bliss the following morning, his steady breathing and his strong arms wrapped around me the cause of that high.
Turning around quietly I studied his sleeping face and once more I came to the conclusion that he should always look this peaceful.
I traced the planes of his face with a ghostly touch but it was enough to make him stir and awaken.

He sleepily blinked his eyes at me and I couldn't help but smile at how cute it looked.
"Morning" I whispered as he steadied his gaze on me.
"Morning" he replied voice hoarse with sleep.
I would make sure that there would be a time when we could always wake like this.

We did our morning routines and headed to Kisame's room.
I was surprised to find him awake and ready to go.
He made no comment on the fact Itachi had stayed with me and I didn't mind that in the slightest, I was actually quite happy he had learned to shut up.

We left in silence, I was still feeling like I had had a glance of the heavens and I felt as though I was radiating.
Finally the hideout came into view and I was relieved to be back and have leave the whole ordeal behind me and move on.
Silently I was hoping to get some more time alone with Itachi.

Those hopes disappeared when we entered, shortly after we had unpacked they were told that there was a meeting.
I wasn't allowed to go though, I was allowed to tag along on missions but those meetings were none of my business I suppose.
I waited impatiently in our room, my book in hand but I couldn't really focus on it.

Sighing I sat up and wandered to my desk, perhaps while he was gone I could do some research, he would be upset with me if he found out that even now I was still researching his illness.
Grabbing my notes and some books from the closet along the way I set down and went to work.

I hadn't realized how much time had passed as the door opened and Itachi walked.
Nearly jumping out of my skin I slammed my books and notebook shut with apparently unnecessary haste as he did not even glance in my direction.
I frowned as my eyes followed him to the bed where he sat down.

"What happened?" I questioned quietly as I put my things back in the closet.
I answered with silence as he stared ahead of himself.
"Please don't do this again" I pleaded.
"Please just talk to me, obviously something is bothering you and it's not going to get any better when you keep it to yourself" I spoke in a hushed voice as I knelt before him to make him look at me.

His eyes were empty but something lingered, I would almost say it was sadness that dwelt in them.
My heart clenched as I wondered what could have caused it.
"Itachi" my voice nearly cracked as I spoke his name.

"Sasuke left the village to join Orochimaru" he spoke and it was so quiet I thought I had misheard him, his brother would not do such a thing right?
Staring at him in silence I knew what I had heard was correct and it obviously pained Itachi to have heard such a thing, he still cared for is little brother after all.

I reached out my hands to take a hold of his when he spoke again.
"It's my fault" and something inside of me grew angry.
"Don't be ridiculous" I hissed.
"He made that choice not you, it wasn't like you took him by the hand and led him that way." I spoke as my hold on his hands tightened.
"I will not let you blame yourself for this" I told him.
He remained silent and I decided it was best to let him be for now.

I closed the bedroom door behind me and walked to the living area.
My mind running over different ideas and scenarios how this could have possibly happened.
That snake bastard really was sickening!
My hands clenched into fists as I thought about the situation more.

Kisame wandered in and saw me sitting there and grinned.
"What has gotten you so upset princess didn't get a welcome home kiss".
I turned my head to glare at him.
"Do you really think you are funny" I asked.

He shrugged.
"Just trying to lighten the mood" he answered as he sat down next to me.
" Suppose Itachi told you what happened."
I nodded my head but remained silent.
"Wonder why you that got you so upset though" he spoke.

I sighed and turned to look at him.
"Does it really, I have known the boy since we were little, and it obviously upset Itachi even though you might not be able to tell"
I spoke in a hushed voice.
He remained silent as he just looked at me.

I sighed again "complicated relationship" I muttered as I rubbed my forehead with my fingers.
"It's dangerous to care in our line of duty" Kisame spoke suddenly.
"When you care you wish to protect and it leads to recklessness" he finished as he gave me a pointed look.

"Are you saying I am putting him in danger" I asked trying not to laugh.
He looked at me in all seriousness and my laugh died stuck in my throat.
"I can tell there is something with you two but like I said it could be dangerous" he said.
I rose from the seat and walked away from him, somehow his words hit home.

Before I came he was cold and focused, I had interrupted that, I had warmed him up and changed him.
Sure he was still focused and he was not weak no matter how you looked at him but I could be a distraction to him, I wasn't at full strength and potential, I had been out of this for too long, what if I did mess and Itachi would lose because of that.
What if he didn't get to do what he had planned because of me, I wouldn't be able to live with that.
Should I leave while I still could, before I got in too deep, if I wasn't already.

I leaned against the door, gaze locked on the floor as my thoughts wondered once more now on a different subject.
Even if I left where would I go, I was gone to long to return home and pretend nothing happened, they would stat asking questions I could not answer.
My hands started trembling as I even thought of leaving him, but if it was for the best I couldn't be selfish could I.

I opened the door to find him sitting on the bed like I had left him,and wandered to his side.
Sitting down beside him I closed my eyes as I enjoyed his presence for just a little while longer.
"I could go and keep watch over him, if that would put your mind at ease" I spoke voice thick with tears threatening to fall.
I saw him tense up in the corner of my eye and slowly his head turned toward me.
"You want to leave" he questioned quietly.
I shook my head in answer.

"I don't but if it is for the better" I muttered.
"The fact you care is already putting you in danger, I don't want to be the reason you can't do what you had planned all along" my voice died down even further this would leave just another scar just not a physical one, I could already feel my heart breaking.
"I might be gone but that doesn't mean we will never see each other again" I smiled at him even though my eyes watered.

"What if I don't want you to leave, if you do your life will be on the line, everyone from the Akatsuki will be hunting you down" He spoke and I could hear the sadness in his voice.
"I know they will and I don't want to leave either but I am not selfish enough to stay because of that" I reached out with my hands ad cradled his face between them.
" I love you more then anything but I can't even think of the possibility that you might get hurt because of me" I whispered as the first of many tears spilled from my eyes and trailed down my cheeks.

"I want you to be able to everything you need to find peace, that doesn't mean I will give up on you but it means I love so much I want to give you everything you want" I choked.
"I know much you care for Sasuke and I know you want him to be safe and if I can hep you by doing just that I will even if it means breaking my heart to do so" I whimpered.

He reached up and placed his hands over mine and stared into my eyes, he remained silent as though he could not speak.
His hands lowered down my arms and he pulled me to him as I cried, he settled down with my cradled to him as quiet sobs rocked through me.
Night fell and we remained how we were, tangled up in one another until slowly sleep took over and he closed his eyes.

My eyes were thick from the tears that had spilled as I slowly sat up and his arms fell from me, biting my lip to keep from crying again I crawled out of the bed and made my way to the closet and gathered my stuff, it would be easier this way without saying goodbye.
Before I left I took the necklace and placed it on he pillow beside him and left the room.
All was silent as I headed for the exit of the hide out and I pushed the door open I was met with cold air and watched as the rain fell from the sky.

It appeared even the sky was crying tonight.