Andy drove round a bit before she went back to the house. Her thoughts drifted to when she first found out she was pregnant. Her and Sam's relationship was going so well but she had no idea how he would react to the news. They had talked about kids before but it had always been one day which wasn't so soon. They weren't living together but spent most of their time together so it didn't take him long to work out something was up. When she finally broke down and told him, he scooped her up in his arm's swinging her round. She still remembered the relief when he told her how fantastic it was. Sam was there every step of the way for her even moving in with the next day. They made it official when she 6 months along followed by a short but romance honeymoon.

Their first child Sasha Swarek was born two weeks early to very proud parents. Sam had taken great pride in showing her off to everyone. She smiled as she thought of how many hundreds of photos they had of a new born Sasha, just because her parents were so amazed by everything she did. Sam had been the perfect father doing everything even though he was working full time.

When Sasha was just 4 months old Andy found out she was pregnant again. This time she told Sam start away who was just as excited as the first time around. Their excitement was phased a little at their first scan when they found they were having twins. Neither could quite believe that they were going to have 3 children under 13 months old. The next few months were busy in the Swarek household as they found a new house, pack, moved, prepared for the two new arrivals all while looking after little Sasha.

Everything was ready just in time for the arrival of Katherine (Katie) and Ryan Swarek. Having 3 children was hard work but Sam and Andy tackled it as a team. They were no longer partners on the job but everyone knew how they balanced each other out. It was clear to everyone that their children were the centre of their world. Andy spent hours looking at her children trying to work out who they looked more like but it seemed to change to every day. As they grew she started to notice that they had their own little personalities yet they were so much like their parents.

When the twins just over a year old they decided that their family wasn't yet complete. Unlike the first two 'surprises' this time it took them 6 months to get pregnant. Andy had joked that maybe it was the universe trying to tell them that they were crazy. Sam told her she just needed to relax and enjoy it. When Jordan was born there was no question as to who he looked like. If you put a baby photo of Sam next to one of Jordan even Andy couldn't tell you which was which.

Her angrier, sadness and confusion grow inside her until finally she knew that she had to go home. Driving round thinking back on happier times was helping the solution that she now found herself in. Arriving back at the house Andy went straight upstairs. She could hear Sam moving around down stairs but right now she didn't want to deal with him. She was pissed off with him for what he had done to the kids, not just tonight but every time he made a promise only to break it. She resented his job, the fact that it came before her family and of course Boyd.

Removing her jewellery she then changed into her pyjamas before going into the bathroom. Hearing footsteps coming up the stairs she knew Sam was now in their room so she took her time washing removing her makeup and brushing her teeth.

Looking at herself in the mirror she prayed that Sam was asleep. Every time they talked lately it seemed to end up in an argument and she was exhausted.

Walking into the bedroom Sam was sitting up in the bed with just the bedside lamp on. It was obvious that he was waiting for her as he watched her make her way into the bed. "Hi, feel like I haven't seen you for ages" he took her hand, lightly rubbing it with his thumb.

"It's because you haven't" she pulled her hand away. "You haven't seen you kids either. Did you even remember that you were meant to have dinner with them tonight?"

Sam sighed. "Andy don't be like that. You know I would have been here if I could."
"It doesn't matter what I know, it's about your kids. All they know is their Dad wasn't here for dinner like he said he would be."

Moving himself to face her, he reached out touching her arm. "I will make it up to them tomorrow ok? I'll explain that Daddy had to catch the bad guys and then I will spend some time with them. Right now I was hoping that we could make the most of our time alone." His fingers fanned out on her arm as he leant forward placing a tender kiss on her shoulder.

Andy jerked herself away jumping out of the bed. "You really want to have sex right now Sam! We haven't spent any time together in the last I don't even remember how long and you want to have sex!" Sam stayed silent unsure what to say to his wife. He knew he hadn't been home as much as he should but he thought that she understood. "Sam I can't do this anymore!" relief washed over her body as she heard herself say the words. She couldn't look at him, she couldn't bear to see the look on his face.

"What?" His voice gave away his shock.
"I can't do this anymore. I can't unhappy… I can't be in this marriage anymore" her voice wavered at the last bit.

"Andy look at me" he pausing waiting for her eyes to work their way back to his. "How can you say that? One fight and you want to split up?"
""You haven't been in this marriage for a long time and the fact that you think it's only one fight shows that! I have been unhappy for a long time Sam. I have tried and tired but I can't don't it anymore."
"What are the kids Andy? You said you never wanted them to feel like you did as a kid."

"My kids will always know that I love them." she stopped for a moment. "Don't you think this is effects them as well? They deserve to be happy."
"They are happy! They are happy with both their parents living in the same house" he gasped for air as his eyes filled with tears. In all the time she had knew him Andy could count the time on two hands that she had seen him cry. Something inside her told her to comfort him so that's what she did. Sam was surprised when she got onto the bed pulling him into a hug but something inside him told him not to let go. "Andy please don't do this…" he begged holding onto her tight.

"I have to Sam. I'm not happy and I can't do it anymore." Andy could feel herself tearing up not, and she knew how easy it would beto take back her words. Just as she was about to open her mouth again she stopped. It may make right now easier but that would mean going back to feeling the same the next day and that was something that she couldn't do.
"Do you still love me?" Sam voice was barely audible, if they weren't so close she wouldn't have even heard it.

Nodding against his shoulder, tears fell down Andy's cheeks. Of course she loved him but even that didn't seem to matter right now. "Some times love isn't enough…"
Sam pulled back suddenly getting out of the bed. It broke Andy's heart to see the hurt on his face. "Fine" he grabbed his jeans pulling them on not looking at her.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm leaving just like you wanted me to" he spat back. His hurt was starting to anger and he needed to get out of there before he did something stupid.

"Sam I didn't mean you had to leave tonight."

"Staying isn't going to change anything." With that he left the room. Andy listened as he walked down the stairs then out the front door as she collapsed onto the bed in tears.