You have me calling out your name

What is this strange thing inside me

How can anyone be such a fool

When you know you love me, yes you do, yes you do

When I first met you

I could hardly see

But now I'm blind, for real

I wish you knew how to rescue me

From this misery

-Erykah Badu No Love

Chapter 12: Couples Night

It had been a month since the Yule Ball and it seemed as if I was living in an everlasting bad dream.

For some reason, Susan and I's Yule Ball date translated to a full on relationship to her so I found myself with a girlfriend that I didn't know I was going to have.

And what made matters worse is that it seemed as if Pansy and Dean had got together that night too.

*START FLASHBACK*

I sat in the common room throwing pieces of parchment into the fire. I felt bad for what Pansy had seen. She had looked as if she was completely devastated. I had to stay up and wait for her. I had to explain to her that I hadn't initiated anything and that I was just as shocked as she was.

I had waited for an hour and thought about saving the conversation for tomorrow, when the portrait opened and Pansy walked in.

I had half expected her to walk in still furious, but she walked in as if she was mesmerized by something. She put her back against the wall, sighed, and then giggled as if she was replaying a secret in her head.

"Pansy?" I said getting off the sofa. I had braced myself for a sound scolding.

"Oh Harry! I didn't think you would be back so soon." she said cheerfully.

"I've been here for an hour. I told Sue I was tired. I wanted to talk to you."

"Talk to me? Whatever for?" asked Pansy taking off her shoes. "Merlin, my feet hurt."

"Let me help you." I said, ready to pick her up and put her on the sofa.

"Oh don't be silly Harry I got it." she said as she tiptoed over to the sofa and sat down, placing her feet on the footstool in front of it.

"Pansy can we talk?"

"Sure Harry what is it?"

"I just wanted to apologize for what happened at the ball. I had no idea she was going to kiss me. Especially like that." I said sitting beside her.

Pansy waved nonchalantly. "Oh that. It's okay Harry. I was a bit upset and overreacted at first, but I got over it."

"Good. I didn't want you to be even more upset with me. "

"I appreciate that."

"So what happened when you left? I didn't see you any since then." I asked.

Then Pansy went into the horrid story of her and Dean and how they talked and skated around the lake and danced and had just a jolly good time. I felt my blood boiling with jealousy, but I didn't show it.

"That sounded fun." I forced out. "I'm glad you had a good night."

"Oh I had a brilliant night Harry and best of all, it ended with a kiss." said Pansy sighing.

And then the record scratched in my head.

"I'm sorry, what?" I asked.

"He walked me to the portrait and told me how he liked me and he gave me a kiss. And then I kissed him back." she said happily.

I felt as though I wanted to throw something out the window. Mainly myself. More like Dean.

"Oh! Well, that's...that's great Pansy." I managed to say. "So are you two like an item or something?"

Pansy looked off smiling as if she was in some magical dreamland. "Yeah. I guess we are. I mean I would like for us to be, and he seemed like he wants to. So yeah."

"That's just great Pansy. Dean's a decent bloke. I'm happy for you two." I said. My brain was having a temper tantrum like a five year old.

"Thanks Harry. That means alot coming from you. Well I'm off to bed. Don't stay up too much longer."she said getting up and heading up the stairs.

"Night Pansy." I called after her.

*END FLASHBACK*

After that, I saw more of Dean than I ever seen in the 6 years I shared a room and played Quidditch with the bloke. He would study with us, Pansy ate lunch with him so he sat near us instead of the other end with Seamus sometimes, and he would be in our home CONSTANTLY. I didn't even let Susan in here and I had to walk with him after practice in the same direction because he wanted to see Pansy. They might as well been attached to the hip.

And what was worse was that I had no one to express my anger to about it. Ron didn't care and Hermione and Ginny thought it was simply adorable. And since it was so adorable that all of us had someone (since Ginny and Malfoy got together the same night, along with Zabini and Luna) Couples Night was fucking born.

At first, I wasn't included. I wasn't even trying to be. But then Sue overheard Ginny talking about it and I got this whole speech on why didn't I tell her and that we should do it too.

This go round of Couple's Night consisted of scary movies. Hermione, Dean, and I knew what they were, but the others growing up in the wizarding world had no clue what videos were. And while the movies were supposed to be scary, everyone treated them like they were comedies.

I sat on the sofa, Sue cuddled up under my arm. It wouldn't have been too much of an issue if the fruity stuff she had on wasn't so overpowering. I felt like I was in a orange grove. And I don't particularly like oranges.

Ron and Hermione were sitting close on the other end of the sofa. Malfoy ( whom I was outnumbered five to two because the girls didn't mind him being around despite Ron and I's protests) and Ginny were sitting on the floor along with Zabini and Luna. Pansy sat on Dean's lap in one of our armchairs.

The movie was one of those dumb Jason movies. The ones where the idiots run, fall, and crawl while the fucking killer is approaching them. Ron thought the movie was hilarious, causing me to enjoy it with his idiotic commentary.

Pansy seemed to be the only one that was scared, as she would bury her face into Dean's ever waiting shoulder. Git.

After the movie, we just sat around and talked. Which was actually a bad idea.

"That wasn't as scary as I thought it would be. Seemed more like a cautionary tale to me." said Zabini.

"Are you kidding me?!" squeaked Pansy. "It was ghastly. It was vile! All the blood and him just slicing these people up and for what!"

"Well I wasn't scared. There are worse things than knives." said Susan matter of factly.

Pansy glared at her. "Yes. You are right. There are much worse things than knives to die by."

Susan glared right back at her. "Like your ear splitting voice for example, dear."

Shit.

"Sue..." I warned.

"Is there a problem that needs to be addressed Bones?" asked Pansy in mock sweetness.

Ron and Hermione looked at me as if I could do something about it. I was stuck.

"No not at all. Just wondering why you're here. Harry didn't tell me that you were going to be at this little affair."

Pansy gave Susan a fake smile. "Well darling for one, I live here. For two, as you can see, my boyfriend is here with me. For three, I was one of the ones that came up with this, and for four, the ONLY reason why you're here is because for some bizarre reason Harry decided to date you. So know your place and shut your stupid mouth."

"Pansy she isn't worth it, love." said Dean.

"And what's that supposed to mean?" I asked standing up. As much as I didn't want to, I had to defend my girlfriend.

Dean raised Pansy off of his lap and then stood up too. "I'm saying she isn't worth Pansy arguing. She started it anyways."

"Actually Pansy did." I said.

"I beg your pardon? How the hell did I start this?!" yelled Pansy.

"You didn't have to say what you said."

"Well she didn't have to insult me. That was completely unnecessary and you know it Harry!" said Pansy pointing at me.

"Don't you dare point your finger at my boyfriend!" piped up Susan, getting up and getting in front of me.

"Susan its fine im-"

"Oh so you have to fight his battles for him Susan? He can't defend himself against a girl yelling at him?" said Pansy stepping closer to Susan. Dean grabbed Pansy's arm, not knowing what she would do next.

"Shut the hell up Parkinson! You're just jealous!" harped Susan.

"Jealous?!" gasped Pansy.

"I think we should go, don't you think Blaise?" said Luna quietly as she tried to pull Zabini to the portrait entrance.

"No Lovegood, he may need to stay here." said Malfoy.

"Pansy, don't listen to what that ditzy bint has to say!" yelled Ginny.

"I beg your pardon Weasley! You stay out of this and keep your damn mouth shut!" said Susan to Ginny.

"Hey! Don't you dare talk to her like that! The fuck is wrong with you?!" yelled Malfoy as he held Ginny back.

"Tell your bloody girlfriend to stay out of grown women's business."

"Fuck you!" yelled Ginny.

"Harry, you better get into your girlfriend. She will not have a go at my sister that way." said Ron, getting angry.

"What am I supposed to do?"

"As I was saying, you're jealous Parkinson. Can't stand the fact that Harry is with me and you had no choice but to fall back on poor Dean here." yelled Susan with a smirk.

"Now see here!" yelled Dean.

"Are you fucking kidding me right now? I did not fall back on Dean! Maybe you're the jealous one because Harry doesn't act towards you like Dean acts towards me!" yelled Pansy pointing to me.

She did have a bit of a point.

"That's laughable!" said Susan, not knowing how to respond.

"It truly isn't! Does Harry hold your hand in the hallways? Does he walk you to the classes you don't have together? Does he even kiss you in public, darling? Think about that. You got Harry because you were selfish and jealous. He doesn't even like you like that! He's only with you because he feels sorry for you, you dumb ass, ugly ass, mental ass, annoying ass bitch!

The whole room gasped, including me. No one made a move. No one said a word. Pansy stared intensely at Susan, daring her to say something back.

Susan stepped up to Pansy and sneered at her. Then she swiftly slapped her hard across the face.

It happened so fast. Pansy and Ginny both jumped on Susan, knocking her to the ground. Hermione screamed for them to stop fighting. Ron and Luna just stood there dumbstruck, and Malfoy, Dean, Zabini, and I tried desperately to break it up.

Malfoy finally got a grip on Ginny's waist and picked her up as she kicked and screamed. Dean and Zabini managed to pry Pansy's hands from Susan's hair as I pulled Susan's hand away from Pansy's throat. Other than a red handprint on her face and red fingerprints on her neck, Pansy looked as if nothing had happened. Ginny's lip was bleeding and Malfoy was trying hard to heal it as Ginny was yelling cuss words at Susan, and she was the one worse for ware. She was definitely going to have a black eye in the morning as well as a swollen jaw.

Susan walked angrily out the door. Everyone looked at me like I was supposed to follow after her, but I couldn't move.

"Go after her, you git!" yelled Hermione as she looked at Pansy's face while Dean tried to say whatever he could to calm a fuming Pansy down.

I left the dorm and ran after Susan. I finally caught up with her, but unfortunately she was in a crowd so I already knew this was about to become a scene.

"Is what she said true Harry? TELL ME THE TRUTH!" yelled Susan and sure enough a small amount of people circled around us.

"Do we have to do this out here?" I pleaded.

"ANSWER ME!" she shrieked.

"No not at all." I half lied half told the truth. "I wouldn't be here if it was true, now come on calm down. All of Hogwarts doesn't need to know about this."

"Then prove it Harry! Go and tell her she's a lying bitch and she needs to leave!"

"Okay I'm not going to call her that, and I can't tell her to leave. She's Head Girl. She has to stay there. And she is also my friend. I don't talk to my friends like that."

"She won't be Head Girl anymore once I tell that PANSY PARKINSON HAS BEEN FIGHTING!" yelled Susan so everyone could hear.

"Dammit Sue why did you do that?!" I snapped at her.

"Because fuck her that's why! And when you figure out where your loyalties lie, you can talk to me again Harry!" said Susan walking away from me leaving a bunch of guys laughing and a bunch of girls glaring at me.

I turned and walked back towards the dorm. Passing by everyone but Pansy in the process.

"What happened? Is she okay?" I asked.

"She said she wanted to be alone." said Dean still pissed off about what had happened.

"Well I do need to go back in there. It's my dorm too after all." I said.

"Just don't say shit then Potter." snapped Malfoy. "And tell your bitch that the next time she puts her hands on my friend or my girlfriend, I'll hex her all ass the way to fucking China."

"And as much as I hate Malfoy, the same goes for me as well." said Ron. Everyone else nodded in agreeance.

I rolled my eyes and went inside the portrait.

And I was met with a sight that was both haunting as was beautiful.