South Park Requested One Shots Chapter 5:

If I Lose Myself (Creek):

This was a request by Katie-Kat1129. She gave me a choice of either Creek or Bunny, and since I just did Bunny, I'll do Creek. Besides, I love Creek. I chose the song as well.

Pairing: Creek

Song: OneRepublic- If I Lose Myself

I woke up with the sun

Thought of all the people, places and things I've loved

I woke up just to see

With all the faces

you were the one next to me

You can feel the light start to tremble

Washing what you know out to sea

You can see your life out the window, tonight...

Craig Tucker was in tears.

Yeah you heard correctly.

Craig Tucker, the guy who didn't give a flying fuck about about a damn thing in his life, was in tears.

Over a guinea pig.

His guinea pig, his beloved Stripe, was dead.

He didn't want to believe it.

He was at the carnival with his best friend, Tweek Tweak, and their other two friends, Token Black and Clyde Donovan. Craig was actually enjoying himself for once. He rode the biggest roller coaster there and managed not to puke, he ate a ton of junk food, and even convinced Tweek to ride the zipper with him. Tweek threw up after they got off though- all over Clyde. Clyde blamed that on Craig, and had to wear his undershirt for the remainder of the night. Craig just chuckled along with Token and Tweek and flipped him off like usual.

That's when it happened.

Craig received the dreaded phone call from his younger sister Ruby.

Ring! Ring!

Craig pulled out his phone and picked up. "What do you want Ruby?" Craig asked irritably.

"Hate to ruin your night, Craig, but I have some bad news."

"Which would be...?"

"Stripe died."

Craig froze and blinked in shock.

"Craig... hello?" Ruby's voice brought him back to reality.

"Please tell me your screwing with me." Craig said.

"Sorry Craig... I'm not."

"But but... he can't be dead!" Maybe he's sleeping!"

"Mom already looked into that. He didn't have a pulse and he smelled like rotting meat."

Craig couldn't bring himself to say anything. Tears threatened to spill from his eyes. He tried to keep them in.

"I'm sorry Craig." Ruby apologized, actually sounding sincere.

Craig just hung up. He squeezed his eyes shut to refrain from crying.

"You okay man?" Token asked him.

"Yeah I'm fine." Craig muttered. "I'm just gonna go home."

Token, Clyde, and Tweek watched with concerned and bewildered looks at their friend as he walked away.

Now Craig was sitting in his room, crying. He had waited until his parents and sister stopped asking all the annoying Are you okay? questions, and then he just broke down. He couldn't control himself.

He couldn't hold it in.

The tears broke through his eyelids like a river breaking through a broken dam. The salty pieces of his broken soul flowed out, staining his cheeks, and dropping off his chin onto his thighs.

He lost Stripe.

The one thing he had left to care for.

He wondered if he would ever be whole again.

Twenty minutes later, Ruby knocked on Craig's bedroom door.

"Craig, mom says it's time for dinner." Ruby said through the closed door.

"Tell her I'm not hungry." Craig replied.

"Come on Craig, you can't stay bitter and depressed forever."

Craig flipped off the closed door and said, "I don't give a flying fuck so go away!"

He heard Ruby sigh from the other side of the door. "Fine." He heard his sister's footsteps shuffle down the stairs.

Tweek came and sat next to me on the bed. "So what's- arg!- wrong?" He asked.

Craig felt tears well up in his eyes, and tried to keep them back. "Stripe died." He told him.

Tweek's deep blue eyes went even wider than they usually were. "Oh Craig. I'm so- arg!- sorry!" He squeaked, grabbing his hair.

Craig sighed. He hated pity. He reached up and gently grabbed Tweek's wrists, pulling them down from his head.

He also hated his friend's habit of ripping out his own hair. Craig liked Tweek's hair.

Tweek looked up. His dark blue-colored orbs meeting Craig's hazel ones. They sat there for a few seconds just staring at each other, then Tweek tore his eyes away and looked down.

"S-sorry." The spazzy blonde apologized, his eye twitching.

"Don't be." Craig assured him with a shake of his head.

"None of this is your fault in the slightest." He put his hand on Tweek's shoulder.

Tweek's shoulder tensed and he turned pink. "It's kinda- ngh- ironic that y-your comforting m-me when I should be comforting you." He pointed out.

Craig chuckled. "Yeah I guess. But I'm glad you came Tweekers."

Tweek looked up at the use of his nickname. "You are?"

Craig nodded. "Your my best friend man. The fact that you came to try to make me feel better really means a lot to this cold, empty soul." He joked.

Tweek giggled nervously. "At first I thought that- ack!- you w-were gonna flip me off or something." He informed Craig.

"Maybe if it was someone else."

"W-why do you- arg!- say that?" The blonde slightly raised his eyebrow.

"I guess you really just have an understanding as to how emotions can screw you up."

"I-I do?"

"Well yeah. Fear messes you up. It keeps you from doing things. Like how you were too scared to ride the zipper because you thought you were gonna fall off and die."

"Yes! I didn't- ngh- wanna ride! Too much pressure!"

"See? I let the shock of losing Stripe screw me up. But like me helping you through your carnival dilemma, and your gnome issue, you came to help me get over Stripe. So... thank you Tweek."

Tweek smiled shyly, and said, "It's no problem- ack!- Craig."

They sat there in a comfortable silence for a second, then Craig put up his hand, cupping Tweek's cheek in it, and pulling them closer until their lips met.

Tweek's eyes went wider if possible as an alien yet comforting sensation surged through his body. Slowly he closed his eyes and kissed back.

When Craig pulled away, they both flushed a nice shade of pink.

"Ya know." Craig piped up. "I'd enjoy it if you came over more often."

Tweek nodded. "Yeah. I-I'd like that."

Craig smiled at him. Not a smirk, a genuine smile. Looks like I have something to care for after all.

If I lose myself tonight

It'll be by your side

I lose myself tonight...

If I lose myself tonight

It'll be you and I...

If I lose myself tonight

It'll be by your side

Omigod guys... the feels I got while writing this... like woah.

BTW the carnival scene was inspired by when I went with my friend. I didn't wanna ride the zipper cuz it scared me shitless. But I ended up riding it four times ha ha.

Here you go Katie-Kat1129 hope you all enjoyed it! Writing it gave me major feels.

Bye bye!

-LittleMissFanGirl14 aka Liv